A/N: Hey guys sorry for the delay. Ive had a lot of problems with my elbow and my ulnar nerve so I haven't been able to update as much as i would have liked to. Hope everyone had a fun thanksgiving and a safe black Friday shopping experience if anyone went. I did and it actually sucked.. lines were way to long for my likings. I'm debating if I should add in an epilogue or not. Let me know if you would want that. This chapter is by far the longest one I've ever wrote. I felt that I should give you guys something for that long wait. Happy reading! as always R&R.

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***Rape and self-harm trigger ***

Chapter 9

You wake up, head pounding, sharp shooting pains all throughout your body. You feel like you've been hit by a semi truck. The room is dark and musty. You fight back the gag reflex that keeps coming back. All of a sudden you hear footsteps and someone calling your name. You start to smile but it fades when you realize who it is. You panic. You can't see who just came into the room but you feel his breath on your face, hands all over your body. "No" you try to say but you feel as though you had cotton in your mouth. He doesn't stop advancing on you... He moves into the light and you finally see him, "Hello love" he says as he reaches to pull off your pants. "No..no..."

"No no no... Frankie... Frankie...", "Hello Maura", "no Frankie help. Help me Frankie. No don't touch me Ian.. No Frankie... FRANKIE...Frankie... Frankie...", Maura was sobbing now.

Frankie woke up when he heard Maura. "Maur?" Frankie whispers.

"No no no leave me alone!"Maura screamed.

"Maura you're safe. Come on wake up. Wake up you're okay. Im right here. I'll always be here. Wake up baby please wake up." Frankie says as he grabs a crying Maura. She tries to fight him but is unsuccessful. He shakes her a little and her eyes open. Tears still running down her face. "Shh. Maur you're okay. You're okay. " Frankie coos as he hold her tightly. Creating a comfort blanket around her little body.

"It hurts Frankie, so bad, so so bad." Maura whimpers. Her body feels destroyed. She can't move without pain shooting everywhere.

"Shhh baby, I know I know", Frankie whispers, "Let me go get you something to limit the pain. I'll be right back."

"Hurr..hurry Frankie..." Maura whimpers as tears fall down her face.

When Frankie leaves the room he has the urge to hit the wall. 'How dare that bastard do this to her! What has she ever done to deserve this kind of torture? NOTHING thats what. Ian is so luck that he's dead...' He thinks as he walks down the hall way and into the kitchen. "He took everything away from her. Independence, security, her confidence. She's afraid of her own shadow. God damn it!" he muttered to himself, "This wasn't supposed to happen." he shook his head and grabbed the pain meds that the doctor prescribed and went back to see Maura.

He walked back to the master bedroom to see Maura in the fetal position shaking and whimpering. He could faintly hear her whispering to herself, "you're safe, Frankie won't hurt you. Ian is gone... You're fine.."

"Maura?" Frankie called softly from the door way. Careful not to scare her to much.

Maura started shaking more violently. "No..no. NO! Frankie help..Frankie.."shes sobbing. Shes too afraid to turn towards the door, afraid that this is all a dream and the Ian is coming back downstairs to rape her for what feels like the hundredth time.

"Maura baby its me. You're safe It's okay. I got you. Come here." Frankie pleaded as he walked over to the bed and wrapped his arms around Maura.

Maura turned into him and sobbed more violently. "Make it stop hurting Frankie, please make him leave my mind. I can't put up with it anymore. Help me Frankie.." she whimpered. Frankie was torn. He didn't know what he could do. Jane had already set up Maura's therapy sessions that were planned to happen in a few days.

"I know baby, I know. I'm here sweetie. Here, take the pain meds. Don't worry baby i got you." he handed her the pills and some water. The pills were very strong and the doctor said that they might make her drowsy. After ten minutes, Maura fell back asleep and Frankie prayed that she would be okay. Little did he know that this is just the beginning...

"Hello?"

"Hey are you busy?"

"No why? Whats going on?"

"Can you come to Maura's house? I need some help."

"Frankie, whats going on? Did something happen?"

"No, Jane. Everything fine...well not fine. but as close to fine as were gonna get at this point."

"Okay Frankie. I'll see you in a few minutes."

Frankie stated to pace the living room. He didn't know what to do. 'What do you do when someone you love has been injured and you have no idea how to help them?'. Maura's been asleep for a few hours so that gave Frankie plenty of time to talk to Jane and somewhat of a 'plan of attack' for how they were going to handle this situation.

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10 minutes later Jane rang the door bell and was meet with a nervous Frankie who was on the verge of tears.

"Hey buddy..Shhh everything will be okay. We'll help her and everything will be okay. Don't cry, come here..." Jane engulfed him into a hug as she shut the door. "Lets sit in the living room and just talk okay. everything will be okay Frankie. DON'T. GIVE. UP. HOPE. Remember that." Jane steered them into the living room and tried to calm Frankie down a little.

Maura woke up thrashing. Her dream not helping in anyway. Ian was screaming how worthless and ugly she was and that she didn't deserve his love and that she should just die. Her eyes scanned the room for Frankie but he was no where to be found. "He finally realized that I'm not worth loving anymore." she muttered as she walked to the bathroom and locked the door. She grabbed a hold of the counter and got a good look at herself in the mirror. Her face was black and purple and puffy, "how could he put up with looking at me all the time?" she muttered. "Now one will want you now! You will always be mine." Ian's' words were repeating in her head. she couldn't take it anymore. She broke down. "You should have died. why didn't you die? Why did you keep fighting your worthless piece of crap. You're ugly you skank! That's all you'll ever be. Frankie will never want you, you piece of trash. He's disgusted by you. That's why he's not here anymore. He left you because you're a filthy whore! What the hell is wrong with you!?" She screamed and punched the mirror. "AHHHhhhhh..." She cried out as a piece of glass cut her hands deeply. 'You're not worth anything. You shoud just kill yourself. It would make everyone's life a lot better!' her mind screamed at her. She stared at the blood pouring out of her palms and watched it fall on the counter as if trying to memorize it. She couldn't feel the pain anymore. she heard Frankie and Jane but didn't want them to help her, she didn't deserve it.

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"What the hell was that?" Jane asked when she heard screaming. She looked over to her brother,"Where's Maura?"

"She's upstairs. the pain meds were supposed to knock her out for a couple of hours. It's only been an hour and a half." Frankie said as he started to move down the hall with Jane hot on his heels. They reached the bedroom and looked around. "Maura? Maura where are you?" Frankie called out in a soft voice. Jane had her gun pulled and was checking the windows and closet.

"She's not in her Fran-" Jane was cut off by glass shattering and her friends cries of pain echoing through the room.

"Maura!" Frankie ran to the bathroom door only to find it locked. "Maura honey, can you please open the door? Please sweetie. It's just Jane and I." Frankie tried to reason as he tired to jimmy the knob. "Maura, please. Just let me know if you're hurt. Baby Let me help you."

Out of the corner of her eye Maura saw a sharp, long piece of glass. She picked it up and stared at it. 'Do it. Stab yourself. He doesn't care about you anymore. Ian was right, he doesn't really love you. He never did. Jane was never really your friend. She just felt sorry for you. She doesn't care what happens to you.' Her mind said.

"Ian was right. Just leave and let me die in peace! Stop pretending that you actually cared about me. JUST LEAVE!" Maura screamed and she slid the glass shard across her wrist, watching the deep red blood drip down on the white as snow tile floor. She couldn't feel any of the pain in her body, just the pain in her heart.

Jane gasped. She couldn't lose her best friend like this. "Maura, Maura it's Jane. Maura stop what ever you are doing and open the door sweetie. Please let us take care of you. We love you and only want to he-"

"NO! JUST LET ME DIE IN PEACE. What cant you understand. I'm not worth your pity anymore." Maura screamed as she cut a little deeper. She changed wrists and started to cut the other one, all the while her mind was screaming 'Do it. They don't really care about you. No one does. End your life.' Rational Maura was gone.

"Maura stop, STOP! I'm coming in. Move away from the door." Frankie yelled as he kicked the hell out of the door until it broke open. All the while Maura was screaming and crying "NO! No get out, just get out. I WANT TO DIE! JUST LET ME DIE!"

Frankie barged into the room to see Maura cowering in the bath tub. Glass and blood smeared all around the bathroom. Jane ran to call and ambulance because the wounds were to deep. Frankie grabbed a blue two and tried to apply it to Maura's hands, but she tried to fight him off. "LEAVE ME ALONE! DON'T TOUCH ME! JUST LET ME DIE. JUST LET ME DIE."Maura broke down, collapsing on the floor because of all the blood loss. Frankie picked her up and carried her to the bed. He wrapped the towels around her hands and wrists and checked for anymore wounds. He almost didn't notice the Large piece of glass sticking out from the bottom of the sweatshirt that Maura was wearing.

"WHERE ARE THEY JANE!? Maura has a deep stab wound. Oh God Jane, I can't lose her. I just cant.." Frankie yelled. Jane came running back into the room "they are a few minutes away. Oh God. I'll get more towels."

"Come on Maura. Stay with me. Baby stay with me. I love you so much." Frankie cried and kisses her forehead.

After what felt like an eternity the ambulance finally came.

"Frankie.." Maura whispered weakly, "Frankie.. What happened?"

"Shh Maura don't worry. I've got you. Don't worry. You're going to be okay, I love you Maura. So much, so much." Frankie said as they loaded Maura onto the stretcher.

"SHE'S CRASHING!" the paramedics yelled and rushed Maura into the ambulance. Frankie climbed in right before they closed the door and watched as the did all they could to keep Maura alive.

The ride to the hospital was silent and seemed like it took forever. It was scared Frankie. He has never seen Maura was never this quiet or this broken. She was always talking google and being goofy and quirky. Frankie loved that Maura. He was determined to get her Maura back. Just thinking about his Maura made him burst into tear. "I'm so sorry Please, come back to me." Frankie managed to choke out through his sobs. " I've got you. You're safe now. I'll keep you safe. I promise." Frankie whispered as he held her hand in the ambulance.

Maura was in surgery for what felt like hours. Since Frankie was not family all he could do was sit and wait. the doctors told him nothing and it was pissing him off to no end. So he did what he knew he should do: call Jane. Jane was getting ready when Frankie called her. He knew Maura would want to wear some real clothes (other than the hospital gown) when she was able to and he needed a change of clothes since his were all bloody. Jane didn't have many clothes there after Michael started living with her. Jane grabbed a pair of her shorts, Boston PD tee-shirt, and one of Maura's favorite hoodie that Frankie owned and left for the hospital.

Jane made it to the hospital in ten minutes, (breaking her personal best time by five minutes) and ran through the doors. She started threatening the nurses until Frankie called her. "Oh my god Frankie, I'm so sorry. Please don't cry. Everything will be fine. Just tell me what I need to know." Jane said calmly to her baby brother. "Jane. She started crashing the the ambulance. She was just rushed into surgery. Why. Why is this happening to Maura." Frankie chocked. "Frankie... Hey... Shushhh... Frankie. I promise you that. Hey... Shhhhh. It will be okay. She's strong Frankie. Have faith remember." She kissed his head and went in the other room to call Korsak.

"What's wrong Jane?" Korsak asked once he picked up his cell phone. He knew something had been wrong all night, just a gut feeling. Now he was regretting that he didn't spring into action earlier.

"Maura tried to commit suicide an hour ago. She's at the Mass. Gen. hospital. She went into surgery half an hour ago. Her wrists were all cut up and she has a stab wound in her side. She crashed in the ambulance on the way here." Jane tried to stay calm but just saying that Maura, her best friend, the sweet gentle woman, was trying to commit suicide right in front of her brought her over the edge. She felt her world stop. she couldn't lose her best friend. she couldn't get all of the things Maura yelled at her and Frankie out of her head.

"Okay Okay Jane. We will get statements when shes awake and start looking. How's Frankie taking this? How are you taking this? Im so sorry Jane." Korsak said to Jane as he went to find Frost. Jane was trying to calm down. She was literally shaking. 'You'll be okay Maur. I know that you will. Just stay strong sweetie.' Jane thought.

"He's pretty shaken up. He'll be fine. The doctor is coming. Thanks old man. I'll see you in the morning. Good night." And with that Jane hung up and walked back to Frankie and the doctor.

'How could she not know? How could she not seems face light up when she walks into the room. How could she not see me staring at her soft lips just wanting to lean in and kiss them. How could she not see that when she smiles at me or says my name that my knees go weak and i don't even hear what others are saying? How could she not see what she does to me?' Frankie's mind shouted as she paced the E.R. waiting room. 'There is no way I'm going to lose her!' Frankie noticed Jane walking over to him as well as Dr. Meredith Grey and another doctor that he didn't know.

"Jane, Frankie, this is Dr. Arizona Robbins and Dr. Callie Torres is in the O.R. working on Maura. What happened exactly?" Dr. Grey asked.

"I have no idea. Maura fell asleep after the pain meds that you prescribed and I was talking to Jane in the living room. Maura woke up and the next thing we know is that Maura's screaming and the sound of glass breaking and Maura crying. We rushed to the bathroom and she looked the door... and..and.." Frankie couldn't breathe or stop crying. He didn't want to finish explaining what happened. It hurt him to much to repeat what Maura was yelling.

"It's okay Frankie. Breathe. What happened next? Dr. Robbins asked.

"She started yelling that 'Ian was right' and to stop pretending that we actually cared about her'... and that...and to le..let her..let her die in pe..peace.' and that she she wanted to die. Oh God, my baby. Oh God!" Frankie broke down crying with Jane rubbing his back. Tears running down her face. she couldn't speak. She wished that this was all a dream, where she could just wake up and see Maura smiling at work and Ian never happened. she looked up to see the doctors concerned faces.

"Okay. Okay Frankie. We will fix this. I will make sure that there is a nurse that stays with you and that someone keep you updated while we are in surgery. Everything will be okay." Dr. Grey said while Dr. Robbins went around letting the nurses know to keep an eye on the pair and make sure that they get anything they ask for.

One of the nurses came out of a lab room and gave Dr. Grey and piece of paper with lab results on it. "Okay. Frankie did you know that Maura is pregnant?" and with that both Frankie and Jane's heads shot up. "WHAT?!" they both said in unison.

"How far along? so you know?"Frankie asked. He had no idea that Maura was pregnant. 'Oh god, what if it's Ian's? He's dead and he's still ruining our lives.' he thought.

"It's to early to tell, so i would venture at least a week. Maybe less, but definitely not more than a week. Don't will be okay Frankie. I promise. We will take good care of both Maura and the baby" and with that the two doctors went to help Maura.

"Oh God what if she dies? No I can't lose her to that bastard. He can't take her away from me know. I need her so much! I'M IN LOVE WITH HER. AND SHE'S PREGNANT! what if it's Ian's? No it can't be. Oh god. I might never get to meet this child. I might never get to see or hear or touch Maura again. I need her." Frankie whimpered as the doctors left. Jane was shocked. Her best friend was pregnant. Possibly (and hopefully) pregnant with her brothers child. But there was a possibility that Maura wouldn't Make it though surgery or she won't want the baby. She turned to Frankie, "She's strong. You heard the doctors. Everything will be fine. I promise you. and Maura will be okay. And that baby will Be yours and he or she will be beautiful. Everything will work out Frankie. Just keep the faith."

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That night the doctors all night to stabilize Maura, coming out every hour to inform Frankie and Jane about the progress and how Maura was. By 10 pm, Maura was out of surgery and Frankie was sitting beside her holding her small cold hand as she lay in the hospital bed. Jane was passed out on the cot that they had asked for. He was just staring at Maura. She looked so small in the bed. So pale, so innocent but he couldn't get over the fact that they chained her hands to the bed. He couldn't believe what happened today. He couldn't picture the love of his life trying to kill herself because stupid Ian got into her head and convinced her that she was nothing. He still couldn't believe that she was pregnant either. That could be his baby in Maura's body and he already love him/her. Frankie looked at the clock on his phone to see that it was 3am. He rubbed his eyes and was about to fall asleep but he heard moaning and the hand that he was holding started to move. Frankie saw Maura's face contorting, showing some of the pain that she was in.

"Hey baby. You're okay. Can you open your eyes for me? That's it pretty girl. Just a little more." Frankie cooed as Maura started waking up. She turned her head and look Frankie in the eyes. "Hi pretty girl." Frankie whispered.

Maura went to speak but Frankie shushed her. "No baby. Don't speak. Let me page the doctors and get you some water." Frankie reached over and paged the nurses what She was awake. Once the nurses did their check on Maura and the monitors connected to her, they let the doctors come in.

"Glad to see you're awake Ms. Isles. You might not remember me but I'm Dr. Grey. I was your doctor the last time you came here. This is Dr. Robbins. She and Dr. Torres help assist during your surgery today. How are you feeling? Any pain?" Dr. Grey asked.

Maura didn't talk she just shook her head no. She remembered somewhat of what happened earlier and was still trying to understand what she wasn't dead yet, why Frankie and Jane were here, and why people actually saved her life. She was having many mixed emotions about all that was happening.

"Okay then. Press the nurses button if you are any chance in pain. We took blood when you first got here and we found out that you are pregnant. The baby is growing perfectly and didn't get hit by the shard of glass that was stabbed in your side, the baby has only been there for about a week now so congratulations. If you have any questions let us know. You will be moved to the psych ward when you are a little more stable. Let me know if anything happens. Goodbye." Dr. Grey and Dr. Robbins both left the room. Once they were gone the room was quiet. Very quiet and tense. Maura still understand why any of this was happening and now she was told that she was pregnant. Great. 'Okay so I'm pregnant. Frankie and I got together about a week ago right? So it could be his baby. Or it could be..' No she wouldn't let the man control her mind again. She turned to look at Frankie. He looked like he had been crying for hours. 'I caused him this much pain. I shouldn't be alive right now. I don't deserve to be alive. Why couldn't I just die like I wanted to?' Frankie reached over to swipe a piece of hair off her face. She flinched a little but that was a start right?

"Hey pretty girl. I missed you. I love you so much Maura, I can't even begin to describe it. You had me so worried. you don't have to speak now if you don't want to. I want you to but it's okay." Frankie said as he watched Maura turn her head as though she didn't want to look at him, "Baby look at me..please look at me. I love you. So so so much. Anything that Ian said is not true and will never be true. Maura Isles , I am in love with you. I want to be the person that you grow old with and have kids with and laugh and joke around with. I want to be with you because I love your personality, your smile and your hazel eyes. I love they way you laugh and love with all your heart and all your soul. I want to put the past week behind us and just start over. Maybe go to the movies and have a nice dinner and you can diagnose me and google-talk to me be yourself. I'm not going to use you. And I'm not with you because your rich and arm candy. I love you to much for that. I'll love you forever and always Maura, and that's a promise." Frankie finished and saw tears running down Maura's face. He reached over and gently wiped them off and Maura smiled. It didn't quite reach her eyes but it was a start.

"I...Love...You..too..Frankie. So.. much." she whispered and looked down at his lips and back to his eyes. He started to lean in and pressed his lips to her. The kiss was gently, caressing. Not dominate and aggressive, but passionate in its own little way. Maura pulled back after a few seconds when she started to feel uncomfortable. 'Hopefully this felling wears off soon' she thought. "Everything is going to be okay." Frankie whispered when Maura opened her eyes after the kiss. She nodded in agreement. She knew it was going to be a long road ahead of them but everything was going to be okay.

There it is guys! Hope you enjoyed it. Thanks to all of you who have stuck around and enjoyed this story. I'm debating if there should be an epilogue or not. If I get enough reviews demanding one I'll think of something. Also Im trying to start a new story but i really want someone to co-write with. If you know of anyone or anyone out there reading is interested just PM me. I have the first chapter all written out and I have an idea on how I want it to go. It's going to be a crossover between NCIS and Rizzoli & Isles. For more information PM me. Thank you my lovelies! It's been a great journey. Have a great holiday season!