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It's been two days since the Con'Dar incident. It's been two days since she last saw him. She was back at her Confessor's duties as if nothing happened, as if he wasn't even here in the Palace. She couldn't focus on the discussion the members of the Council around her were having, she was just thinking about him. She tried to confess him and it did not work. She blamed herself for not being able to control and contain her anger and letting her powers slip away from her grasp, she could have confessed the Seeker of Truth and Lord Rahl. But he still loved her and remained unarmed by her powers. She couldn't quite understand why he still loved her, after two years of separation, after thinking she was carrying the child of another, after everything she said to him… Maybe it wasn't love, maybe he had found a potion on his quest, one like Chase and his wife had the chance to have a long time ago.
"Mother Confessor." Sylvia interrupted her thoughts.
She looked up at her, nodding to allow her to speak: "Someone is here to see the Seeker."
"Then send this person to the Seeker." She replied casually.
"I thought you would want to see her first." Sylvia replied.
"See her, why?" Kahlan questioned.
"She says she's carrying the Seeker's son." Sylvia told her sadly.
Kahlan felt her heart constrict and she smiled bitterly, it was a potion that had him immune to her powers after all. And she foolishly thought that it was because he still loved her… She let herself care once again and once again her stupid hopes and dreams had been broken.
"I don't want to see her." She told the maid. Then she looked at the members of the Council and said: "This meeting is over. I'll see you tomorrow."
Once Sylvia and Kahlan were alone in the room, the maid said: "You should see her and expose her as a liar."
"Two years is a long time Sylvia… A man has needs and this girl probably took care of the Seeker's." Kahlan said bitterly.
Letting out a long sigh, Sylvia said: "You know I care about you Kahlan that's why what I'm going to tell you needs to be told even if you don't want to hear it anyway."
"Don't waste your time then." Kahlan told her.
"Your anger and hurt are so powerful that they are blinding you. Richard is madly in love about you, maybe more than before he left. This girl is lying." She said.
As Kahlan stood in front of her, emotionless, without even saying a word, she asked: "Did you talk to him about Cassie?"
Kahlan shook her head no. Releasing a sigh, the maid said: "You should talk to him Kahlan."
"I know…" The Mother Confessor whispered.
"Then go, now…" Sylvia told her with a small smile.
Kahlan nodded and reluctantly left the room to talk to Richard.
She knew she had to talk to him but she couldn't get herself to do it. She had rehearsed what she wanted to say over and over but every time, even alone in her room, she ended up crying. The last thing she wanted was to cry in front of him, make him see her weakness. She remembered the time when crying in front of him wasn't a problem because she knew he would hold her in his arms and make her feel better. But now was a different time, they couldn't talk without leading to a heated argument and finally her powers being released. She let out a long sigh on her way to his room. She missed him so deeply. She missed his smile, being in his arms, his kisses, the way he looked at her. She missed talking to him about anything and everything, the way his body fitted perfectly against hers, how he could make her heart race only by holding her hand. She missed him but somehow she couldn't get past her anger, she hated herself for that.
She finally reached his door room and knock softly.
"Come in." She heard him say.
She took a deep breath in attempt to give herself some strength but also to calm the turmoil of emotions rushing in her head and in her heart.
She stepped into the room and found him on his bed, resting his back against the headboard with a book in his hands. There were books everywhere in the room. His concentration on what he was reading gave her time to study him. He was barefoot, wearing only his usual pants, his shirt lying carelessly on the edge of the bed. She noticed the bandage around his chest, an injury like this took time to heal without the help of a Wizard.
She cleared her throat and said: "There is something I want to talk about."
"I don't really have time for an argument right now." He replied without looking up from his book.
"It's about Cassie." She firmly said but her voice cracked when she said the name of her daughter.
Richard closed the book he was reading and sat up, wincing at the pain coming from his broken rib. The look on Kahlan's face scared him.
"Is she alright?" He asked before finally getting up to face her.
She couldn't get herself to look at him in the eyes.
"Yes…" She said. "It's just… What happened in the city made me realize that she needs her father in her life."
"We've talked about it already." He told her, he had already explained that he didn't want to interfere with Tim.
"I know but if something happens to me, she'll be alone and I don't want my little girl to be alone." She explained at the verge of tears.
"She has Tim and she will have Zedd too." He said, not really understanding where this conversation was going but he hadn't seen Kahlan so opened to him since his return. Something was highly bothering her.
"Tim is not her father!" She exclaimed, finally looking straight at him.
Feeling that she was getting angry, she took at breath and continued: "He's not her father. He's just supposed to protect her, that's what I ordered him to do. She likes him because she's known him since she was born, but he is not her father... you are..."
She sat on the bed, her knees were giving up on her, it was too much to bear, trying to control her emotions, her powers… He sat next to her without saying a word, he knew her better than anyone. He knew not to push her to talk and she was thankful for that.
She locked a strand of hair behind her ear and said: "If I die, I don't want her to go thought what Dennee and I went through when our mother died. If I die, Tim won't be confessed anymore… I… I don't want her to be alone... and scared."
She couldn't contain her tears anymore, it broke Richard's heart knowing how hard it was for her to talk about what happened when she was young.
Taking another deep breath, she continued: "I was thinking that you could take her with you to D'Hara. I know she'll be safe there with you, Cara and all the Mord'Sith."
Silent tears kept rolling on her face, falling on her Confessor dress. The thought of her baby girl leaving her was unbearable, yet it was the better way to keep her safe. She had thought about it over and over again since she had received that arrow. As much as it was making her sick not to see her daughter anymore, she had this intense need to make sure Cassie would be protected and loved if anything happened to her. She didn't think she would be able to survive to their separation but it was for the best.
"I'd be the one to come visit." She said, trying to smile despite the ache in her heart.
Tears formed in Richard's eyes, he couldn't imagine what Kahlan was going through, deciding to give up her child for her safety must be the hardest thing to do for her, especially after everything she endured in the last few months.
"I'll ask Cara to stay here with you and Zedd, Cassie will be protected. I know they both willingly would give their life for our daughter." He told her.
Kahlan shook her head no and said: "You'll need Cara by your side in D'Hara and Cassie needs you to love her and care for her in case something happens to me."
He slowly reached for her hand and said : "I won't take our daughter away from you Kahlan."
He watched her closing her eyes as he ran his thumb on the back of her hand. But then, she suddenly got up and walked away from him. She made him think of a bird… she couldn't handle the fact of him being so close to her and had to fly away from him.
"You will do whatever is necessary to ensure her safety and wellbeing." She told him sternly, her face hardening suddenly.
He cringed at her words, one second she was Kahlan and the second after that she was back at being the mighty Mother Confessor. It was his fault though, he had probably frightened her.
"Before I forget, Sylvia informed me that there is a young woman claiming that she is carrying the Seeker's son. I think you might want to see the mother of your child." She said.
"She's not carrying my child." He told her as he got up from the bed to stand in front of her.
"Well, a man has needs and you're a Rahl af-…" She said but he cut her off by cupping her face with his hands and pressing his lips against hers.
His blood was boiling with anger, hearing her blaming him for being a Rahl was enraging him. He didn't want her to see him as an evil tyran. It was amazing, getting the chance to kiss her again, even if she didn't kiss him back. His anger flew away as he kissed her.
He reluctantly pulled away and told her: "You are the mother of my child. In my life, I've only been with you and I only want to be with you. I may have the same name, but you know I'm nothing like Darken Rahl. You can read her or confess her and you'll see I'm not the father of her child."
He looked down and said: "I know what I did to you in unforgivable… but I never stopped loving you."
A heavy silence filled the room but was quickly interrupted by a knock on the door.
"Yes." He said with clenched teeth, anguish once again filling his heart and soul. He had almost forgotten he was hurt but the pain in his side was becoming stronger with every breath he was taking, he knew he needed to lie down and rest. Zedd had instructed him to rest and control his breathing to ease the pain.
When the door opened, Cassie came running in, straight to her mother, hugging her legs tightly.
"She asked for you." Sylvia told her, remaining outside the room.
Kahlan nodded to her and the maid quickly closed the door and left.
Despite the pain in his side and the ache in his heart, Richard couldn't help but smiled at the sight of his daughter. She was beyond beautiful. He watched her as she walked to his bed and grabbed the shirt that he had carelessly thrown there, hopefully this one was clean and not bloody. Then Cassie climbed on the bed, crawling between the books, she finally rested her head on the pillow, tucking her thumb in her mouth and holding Richard's shirt tightly.
Richard gave a questioning look at Kahlan who simply said: "It's nap time."
"Oh." He replied before quickly walking to the bed and taking the books away from the bed and putting it on the floor.
"You should stay here with her and rest." He told her. "I'll be in the library."
"You should be the one resting. You're still injured." She said, pointing at his bandage.
"I'm okay." He lied. He began to walk to the door but stumbled and fell on the floor…