Chapter 12

I felt my eyes starting to droop after my favourite scene of Mulan had played. It was our second movie and I was starting to wonder where Alice was, it was at least 5 hours since I had last seen her. Not that I hadn't enjoyed the time without her, it was just a little worrying. I had spent at least two of the hours talking with Edward and soaking up everything he said and memorizing the way he smelled and looked; a thing I do to make sure I always remember things. I had spent the rest of the time actually watching the movies and trying to forget Edward's arm around my shoulder, it feels a little too familiar but I decided to just enjoy the moment.

"Edward?" I whispered drowsily at him

"Yes Bella"

"You know that book?"

"I know a lot of books Bella, 'that book' is a little vague" I lightly swatted his arm and rearranged my sentence for him,

"You know that book that you were reading earlier"

"Yes"

"Can we look at the spells?"

"They aren't technically spells; they should be called incantations to be correct"

"Whatever" I said, lightly slapping his shoulder, "Well, can we?"

"Sure, I doubt that they really work though"

"You haven't tried them then?"

"I've never really had anyone who wanted to try it with me and I felt a bit like an idiot trying myself" I don't know why but his voice didn't sound entirely truthful but I passed it off as me being paranoid again.

"Fair enough" I sat up properly so that I could look at him and he pulled the book out of his pocket. We both stood up, something felt oddly potent about what we were about to do.

"Right, well, I know that this sounds absolutely ridiculous, but there's one here to let you see the future and one here to let you levitate, another to…"

"Wow, seeing the future and levitating, that is so cool, I've always wanted to be able to see the future" I interrupted Edward as he started to list the spells… wait, sorry, incantations.

"Okay, do you want to try the future incantation then?"

"Sure, okay, where is it" I held my hand out for the book and he pointed to it. "Here goes nothing," I took a deep breath and read off the page "Tis the witching hour of night, to bed is the moon, no sun bright, and the stars they glisten, glisten, seeming with bright eyes to listen, for what listen they? And we say, let the ancient rule unwind, let the air and let the ground, unleash the powers that were once bound." We stood waiting like idiots for a few minutes.

"Well? Anything?"

"I don't feel any different, but then again, the future isn't a subjective thing, maybe we have to wait for it to come to me"

"That sounds feasible. Can I try the mind reading spell thing?"

"Yeah, go for it, why not?" He sounded like an excited little kid and it was truly adorable.

"Okay, here goes. May the circle be open and remain unbroken, may the circle be open and allow me to your head, merry Meet, and Merry Part, till Merry we Meet again!" I burst out giggling, thinking what an absolutely ridiculous incantation it was. As I giggled I realised I hadn't ever been so happy or laughed so much without Jake, it was odd but I liked it. I finally recovered a little and looked up to see Edwards's confused face.

"What?"

"You haven't ever laughed so much without Jake" It didn't sound so much like a question but a statement, it confused me and worried me.

"What? How do you know that?"

"I don't know, I think the spell worked" I looked into his eyes in confusion and saw the way the green was a sea with flecks of blue and grey as well, they hadn't ever looked like that before, I wasn't sure I liked it very much. "Hey! What's wrong with my eyes?" He shielded them protectively.

"I don't know, they look different… hang on, I thought that!… the spell did work!"

"Wow, that's so cool"

"It's not fair though, my one didn't work" Edward started laughing and I glared at him. Childish, I know, but so totally necessary.

"Yes, Bella, it is childish"

"Stop it! It's not fair!"

"Bella, come on, it wears off in half an hour, which is the shortest any of them are meant to last for. You can try another one if you want" I suddenly felt a wave of lethargy wash over me and yawned very loudly.

"No, I think I want to go to bed"

"Tired? Or annoyed"

"You know that I'm tired!" I felt so comfortable around him, it was like we had suddenly bonded and become friends as though we had been for years and not actually only known each other for a day.

"Okay, okay. Alice is just about to walk in the door, so I'll be going in a minute anyway"

"How do you know that?! I was meant to be able to see the future!"

"I can hear her thoughts, she's just coming up the corridor, we ought to tidy up quickly or she'll be furious" We quickly hurried around the room, picking up the popcorn that had been thrown in our popcorn fight earlier and grabbing the cups from our drinks. We threw them in the bin and I stacked the DVD's up, putting them in the right boxes while Edward sorted out the cushions on the sofa. We both then manically re-organized the magazines that had been on the coffee table, trying to get them to how they had been before. We collapsed onto the sofa as she opened the door and smiled at her angelically, well, Edward smiled at her angelically and my face was more like a grimace.

"Are you still here then Edward?"

"Just about to go actually" Edward looked at me with an odd look in his eye accompanying a smile

"Okay, night then" She walked through the living area and pranced towards her door as Edward escaped from our room. I watched him retreat.

"Night Alice, see you later Bella" He winked at me with a huge grin plastered over his face as he left the room, I was a little confused but when I turned around and saw the pixie standing right behind me. When did she get there? I could have sworn she had gone to her own room.

"So, tell me what happened"

"Ummm, we watched movies, ate popcorn and talked a lot"

"Is that it?"

"Uh, yeah"

"Oh"

"Well, I'm going to bed; I'll talk to you in the morning"

"Sure, sure, see you then. Night Bells"

"Night Alice" We both wandered off to our bedrooms and as soon as I was done in the bathroom I fell on my bed and the darkness engulfed me.

I felt as though I was there but I knew I wasn't. The colours had returned like I had woken up again but they were much brighter than I was expecting. I turned around and saw myself walking towards a car. Everything was bleak and open and instantly reminded me of Arizona but there was definitely too much green. It was too similar to the day I had left but too different to be the same.

"I just.. I just can't…. I just can't do this anymore, not again. I'm leaving" I saw myself sob, I knew that I was about to burst into tears.

"Bella!"

"I can't… I can't! I have to go" My voice sounded as though it was breaking. I watched myself get into the car and slam the door and drive off, the purr of the engine and the crunch of the gravel gave me a sense of familiarity but not a sense of comfort, nothing could give me that. Everything felt wrong. Why was this happening? Was this the future? Would someone hurt me again and cause another person I loved to die?

I had pushed my bag off of my lap onto the seat next to me and flattened the accelerator to the floor. I watched the needle spin around the dial, I hadn't lifted my foot up even slightly until it pointed to a number well over 200. I knew just how I had felt, how I knew how it was impossible to live like that.

The face of my best friend suddenly appeared, floating in front of my vision; pale, bloated, scarred and most importantly dead. Suicide; the word screamed at me. I had witnessed it and been unable to help, she had claimed herself for nothing, at least, there was not one single reason that was good enough. Alongside her face, there floated the head of Jacob and the hurt in his eyes, I couldn't have left him like that could I? I couldn't have. But I did. Another face appeared, but I couldn't understand why James from the campfire was there.

His expression was cold, hard and terrifying. Finally, the one person I had been dreading appeared. I can't even say his name anymore. His eyes screamed pain and fear, hurt and loss and the look of adoration that only a brother can give. The way he had said he'd never leave my side, never let me leave him, and yet there I was, in about a year I would guess, leaving behind the very last memory I had of him. He was dead and I knew it but tonight, for the first time, it didn't hurt me, something was different. I watched as this time, rather than carrying on and driving away, I pulled into a drive and saw myself running into … Edward's arms?

The vision flickered slightly and I saw some time later, Edward and I were standing, watching as James and …. the person from before were taken away. My face lit up in a smile and Edward leaned down and kissed me.

I suddenly jerked awake, shocked. This couldn't be the future could it? I thought of how different and wonderful Edward was, how I felt like he would always be there and never hurt me. Could I deal with it if he was to be taken from me like my brother? Would I leave myself open to that kind of pain? The answer was made before I had even realised it myself.

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