""Here you go Mr. Banner. Biscuits and gravy, just like you like them." I set down the plate in front of the aging man.
"Thank you Bella. You know just what this old man likes." He smiled and dug in. I walked back behind the bar and refilled Jake's coffee.
"Bella, when are you going to get out of the diner and do something with your life?" Jake said through bites of strawberry waffles. I shook my head.
"Jake, we've talked about this. I have responsibilities here that I can't leave. Charlie's here, I have the diner. I can't leave Jake." I sighed.
"Bells, you know that Charlie will survive without you. He did it for 18 years before you came here. And as far as the diner goes, there are numerous young girls that can easily fill your position. You have so much more potential. You were meant for bigger things that taking care of your old man and waiting tables for the rest of your life. What happened to the dreams of college and degrees that I've heard you talk about?" I glared at him for even bringing up that topic.
"Oh, crap Bells, I'm sorry. I wasn't thinking. But seriously, you need to do something else besides wasting away here." Jake had stopped eating and was staring at me with a look of determination. "You know Nessie and I would do anything for you, but you need to do something for yourself too."
"I'll think about it Jake, but I'm not making any promises. Things are good here. I wouldn't want to do anything to mess that up."
"But you just said it, 'things are good.' You should want more than just good out of life, you deserve great at the very least."

I thanked Jake and made him promise to bring Nessie next time he was in town. He left shortly after. I was thinking about what he said later that evening while making dinner for Charlie. I moved here almost 4 years ago, right after the accident. I needed a change and I wasn't going to get it with constant reminders all around me. I tried to make it work with Mike once he got out of the hospital, but there was nothing I could do to stop myself from seeing Liam in his face. I couldn't forgive him for taking away my little boy. He was being stupid and reckless. I fell into a hard depression and couldn't pull myself out of it.

I finished high school like planned, but after a month I couldn't take it. I exiled myself to Forks, Washington to live with my father, Charlie. Needless to say, he was happy to have me back in his life, but wished for better circumstances. We fell into an easy routine. We were alike in many ways. Very quiet, reserved, and kept our emotions to ourselves. He did talk me into seeing a therapist after suffering through my constant nightmares for a month. I was reluctant to go but decided to concede for Charlie. They helped enough to stop waking Charlie at night, but everything else I kept bottled up. I got the job at the dinner to help out financially and we've been good since.

I met Jake through Charlie. Jake's dad, Billy, and he were best friends. After hanging out so much at their house, Jake and I became best friends as well. He was like the brother I never had. He talked to me and made me talk to him. It was painful, but it felt good to get it off my chest. He and his fiancée, Nessie, and gotten me through the past few years unharmed. I don't know what I would do without them.

I was still thinking about Liam as I got ready for bed that night. He would have been starting 1st grade this coming school year. I feel asleep with tears in my eyes.

I looked in the backseat to see Liam smiling at me holding his cars out. "Look, mama, blue ones."
"Yes, honey, blue is your favorite isn't it?" I asked him as he zoomed the cars around in his car seat. He nodded his head. I turned around in the car trying to figure out how I got here and where we were going. I see Mike in the driver's seat. I look out at the landscape and see buildings flying by.
"Mike, where are we going?" I ask.
"You're not going anywhere. You are going to stay stuck right where you are. Never make anything out of yourself. You don't deserve Liam in the first place." I gasp at his words. He has never talked to me like that before. I start to say something back when I notice the red light.
"Mike, the light…." I scream out just as I see the car coming from my right.

"Mommy, mommy, where are you? I want my mommy…." I hear crying as I come to from the blackness.
"I'm right here babying. I'm right here Liam. Mommy is coming. Mommy is going to make everything alright. I love you baby. I will always love you." I am sobbing at this point as I reach blindly around in the darkness looking for my son.
"Mommy….I need you…." I shoot up from bed. Sweat all over my body and tears in my eyes. I look at the nightstand and see it is only 3 o'clock in the morning. I pause for only a fraction of a second before grabbing my phone and dialing the familiar number.

"Bells? What are you doing calling this late? What's wrong? What happened?" A groggy Jake answered the phone.
"I'm sorry to call you so late Jake. I'm taking your advice. I'm going back to school." I answer in a whisper.
"Well, that's great Bella. But why the late night call? Couldn't this have waited until the morning?" He answers with confusion in his voice.
"Sorry again Jake. I needed to hear your voice. It always soothes me. I just had a horrendous nightmare. I knew I would never get back to sleep. I'll let you go."
"Don't worry about it Bells. I understand. Look, I'm happy for you. You will do great for yourself. We love you hun. Try to get some sleep and call me in the morning and explain this again. You know I'll never remember."

I bid him good night before getting out of bed and switching on my laptop. I knew I would never get any sleep after that dream. I bring up the internet and start researching schools. I will make something of myself. I needed to prove to everyone that I was someone that would make my son proud.
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AN: Well, here's the second chapter. Please leave your comments and let me know if this is worth continuing.