Ok so slight smutt warning now. Not too bad though. i hope you like it! Remember to review, because that's love. ~^_^~
disclaimer! I own none of this magicalness, only the plot.
Spock knew he was dreaming. Not only because he saw his mother standing before him, but because there was no pain. The injuries he had sustained whilst on the alien ship were quite severe, even for his standards.
He began to walk towards his smiling mother, his arms open for embrace. She smelled of lily's and vanilla, and it brought him great comfort. He missed her a lot, and the guilt hit him like a load of bricks. Pain in his heart erupted, spreading through his body like a flood of hot lava. Tears formed on the edges of his eyes, and began to fall.
"Spock, don't cry. Please. Its ok sweetheart. Don't be sad. And don't blame yourself. You did everything possible, and that's all I've ever asked of you." She soothed him, running her hand through his hair as he cried silently.
"I failed you and father. That is unforgivable." He croaked, his voice breaking slightly. She pulled away from the hug, her face warm and full of love.
"No you didn't. You have always been the best and most fulfilled part of my life, as well as your fathers."
"But i could have saved you!" He cried out, startling himself. But him mother just smiled.
"No, you couldn't have. And I will never be mad at you for that. No one will be, only you. You need to let go of this Spock. It's ok to move on. Move on with Jim too. Tell him how you feel." She grinned as Spock blushed.
"He could never... we can't... it's not right." He mumbled quietly.
"Isn't it? You love him. And i can only bet that he loves you back." She told him, holding his shoulders.
"I.. I don't know..." He was beginning to get flustered, not knowing how to express how he felt.
"Do it for me Spock. Please?" She asked, starting to fade away. Spock knew he didn't have much time, so he kissed her cheek and let go.
"Only for you mother. I love you." He said, backing up.
"Thank you Spock. I love you too. Tell your father the same, and I miss him as well. Good luck my son." She said, and Spock opened his eyes.
The lights were blindingly bright, and Spock blinked his one good eye a few times, before it was completely adjusted. His other eye was still swollen shut. He heard the beeping of monitors, and dripping IV. Looking around, he saw Sulu laying too his left, his torso wrapped in bandages, his heart monitor was very slow. Then he looked to his right, and his heart dropped. Jim's face was battered and bruised, and his arm was in a large cast. There were so many cuts of stupid shapes and sizes all over him. Spock tried to get out of bed, but fell instead, landing on his face and groaning in pain. He pulled the rest of his body out of the bed, and then stood up, balancing on a side table. He took two shaky steps towards Jim and sighed.
Jim began to stir in his bed, and Spock's heart skipped a beat. Two blue eye opened and blinked, looking up at Spock's deep brown orbs.
"S-Spock? Oh god are you ok?" Jim asked, sitting up gingerly.
"Yes.. I'm fine. Lay back down Jim, you need to rest." Spock told the younger man, who scowled at him and laughed.
"You know I'm terrible at listening to instructions." Jim said, still pushing himself to sit properly in the uncomfortable bed.
"Then let me help you... Please?" Spock asked, his normal personality leaving him, if only momentarily. Jim looked at him, his blue eyes questioning, but not offended.
"Forgive me captain. I shall let you sleep more, I apologize for interrupting you." Spock muttered, a green flush blossoming over his cheeks.
"Spock? Are...are you blushing? Oh my god! You're adorable. Come, help me and then get into my bed with me.
"Captain! That would be most...unofficial and illogical. Please, just go back to bed." Spock tried to argue, but Jim had used all his strength to pull the blushing vulcans arm, making Spock's body crash on top of Jim, who groaned in pain.
Spock struggled to get up, he had become flustered and uncertain of what to do next.
"Get back her mister. That's an order." Jim joked, giggling slightly. Spock's brown eyes looked questioningly down on his captain, and he sighed. He couldn't deny the fact that his heart was racing rapidly at the thought of lying in the same bed as Jim, their skin touching, Jim's hit breath on his neck...Spock shook his head, in horror.
"Hey mister, get your Vulcan booty in here." Jim said, his voice drawling slightly.
Spock sighed and laid uncomfortably next to his captain, trying not to take up too much space.
"See? That's not to bad, is it?" Jim joked, sliding over more so the Vulcan could have more space.
"Actually, it's quite bad. I am taking up your space in bed, and this is not something a first officer and captain do, not matter what." Spock spat, causing Jim to snigger.
"Spock, aren't you glad I saved your ass?" He questioned, making the Vulcan slightly upset, though he didn't show it.
"I am...thankful for what you did, but it was illogical, as you and the other member of the crew could have perished." Spock argued. Jim looked at him with eyes filled with concern and affection.
"We all love you Spock. You may not care for that, but it's true." He said softly, staring down the surprised and flustered Vulcan. Jim took Spock's hand and placed two of his fingers on Spock's middle and pointer finger, making the Vulcan gasp lightly.
"Captain?" Spock asked, not sure how to feel. Jim hushed him, and then kissed the Vulcan on the lips. It was a gentle, sweet kiss that left both of them desperate for more. Spock brought his lips crashing down on his captains, his young diving into the warm cavern that was Jim's mouth. The tongues wrestled and explored, causing moans from both the males. When air became a necessity, they broke apart gasping.
"Spock... god... please. Just...let me.." Jim could hardly speak, his pants had become tented from his throbbing member. Spock saw the obvious arousal, and cupped it through Jim's pants.
"Aaaa...oh fuck..." He moaned, and Spock smiled, kissing his captains neck, his own arousal becoming more than evident. Jim began to pull his own pants down, giving the Vulcan full access to his hot shaft.
"Take your pants off too... let me love you Spock, god let me do this." Jim begged. The tone of his voice made Spock's member twitch, and he slid his own pants off. Jim rolled onto Spock, trailing kisses along his stomach, nipping, licking all the way down.
He finally got to the tip of Spock's shaft, when a knock on the door had them both startled beyond believe.
"Jim? Are you- what the fuck. Are you FUCKING kidding me?!" Bones screamed, and Spock and Jim could only blush like teenagers.
"God above you two. You couldn't he waited until I told you the bad news?" Bones questioned, sounding very angry.
"What bad news? Did something happen?" Jim was now asking questions.
" one of the crew members is dying. Just thought you should know."Bones said, sounding very angry, storming out.