BPOV

How could I tell Edward what was wrong when I didn't know myself. I feel so out of control, my emotions are everywhere.

"Bella what's wrong?" Edward asked again, his cold breath tickling my neck

I was quite for a bit thinking about it before I answered him.

"I don't know, I really don't know" I said feeling silent tears running down my cheeks. I saw Edward move as to brush them of but decided to get out of bed. I walked to the door and turned around to see Edward on the bed with a surprised look on his face. I lowered my eyes to the ground before speaking.

"Edward I just need some time alone. I'm going for a walk. I will be back in a bit. Please don't follow me" I said looking him in the eye at the last statement. I waited until he nodded before going through the door.

I was walking down the stairs when I saw Alice she had a frown on her face.

"Alice what's wrong?" I asked her

I looked her in the eye and saw that she was guilty about what she was thinking about.

"Nothing Bella, I am fine" She said with a forced smile on her face

"Alice I know you and you are not fine. Please tell me" I pleaded with her walking the rest of the way down the stairs

I saw surprise flitter across her face before she responded.

"Since that incident with Jasper" Alice said pausing to see how I would respond, but I only nodded.

"Well he hasn't spoken to anyone. He is always with himself in the forest hating what he has done to you" Alice said observing my reaction

I nodded and made up my mind. I saw Alice smile and knew she saw what I was about to do. "He is in the forest" she said quietly

I walked out the door and towards the forest. I didn't know where he was but I knew I had t find him. I chose a point and entered into the forests, not worried about getting lost. I walked for what felt like miles when I saw him sitting under a tree breaking everything in front of him.

I walked as quietly as I could and went and sat next to him. I saw the surprise in his eyes and saw him moving away from me. I stuck out my arm knowing I wouldn't be able to stop him but hoping he would stay.

"Jasper please" I said in a soft whisper

I saw him fighting an eternal battle with himself. I looked at his eyes to see what he would do only to see a look of defeat in his eyes. Something I had never seen before. He sat down again with his shoulders hunched over.

"Jasper I don't blame you" I said moving over to give him a hug. He tensed but relaxed when I didn't move away.

"Bella I am so sorry. I can't believe I had nearly killed you twice already. I hate myself so much for causing you to go through all that." He rambled on

"Jasper stop. I don't blame you. This is entirely my fault. I am the one who can't do anything without hurting myself and everyone around me." I said crying silently again.

"Bella how could you think that. This is not your fault" he said firmly

"But it is Jasper. Who falls over in a shower and almost dies from it. Jasper I don't know what is wrong with me. My emotions I can't control." I said with a hiccup

"Everybody has fallen over once in a shower. Bella this is not your fault. I can feel your emotions remember, so stop feeling guilty" he said looking at me

When I didn't he got angry. "Bella stop this right now. This is my fault and my fault alone. If I had just had the strength to control my thirst then I could have saved you from losing all that blood and nearly dying." He said hanging his head in shame

"Jasper I told you this is not your fault. If I hadn't fallen over in the shower, or… or got the paper cut last year then none of this would have happened." I said my body shaking with the sobs I'm trying to keep from escaping

"Bella please stop this. You are human. Humans get hurt, okay?" Jasper said with a slight smile on his face

I nodded my head "Jasper stop feeling so guilty and go talk to Alice. I am the one living in a house full of vampires. I knew this was going to happen. Especially with my luck" I said laughing now, I think Jasper had something to do with that but I didn't care. It felt good to be laughing.

"Now go. Alice is really worried about you. Go talk to her" I said pushing him slightly

"Okay" he said standing up pulling me along with him. He turned his back on me telling me to get on

"That's okay Jasper. Go and talk to Alice. Just tell me which way the meadow is" I said looking around me

He laughed and picked me up and ran with me. His ran was more purposeful than Edwards. I felt him stop and realized we were at the meadow. Thanks Jasper" I said turning and walking into the middle of the meadow. I looked around realising Jasper gone. I sighed and sank down onto the grass, closing my eyes hoping the headache which is lowly forming will go away soon.

EPOV

Something is wrong with Bella and she won't tell me why. I heard her talking to Alice but she said she wanted her privacy and I respected that. I was just so worried about her that's all. I looked at my clock and saw it was only 1 o'clock. I sighed and leaned but onto the bed, waiting for Bella to come back to me.

I closed my eyes and waited for the time to slip by. I felt the weight of the bed shift and my eyes flew open. I saw Alice sitting on the edge of the bed with a smile on her lips. I immediately read her mind and saw the vision of her and Jasper. They were talking but I couldn't hear about what. It looked like she was laughing.

I nodded to show her I understood and stood up. "Alice could you help me with something" I asked knowing the answer

"Yes it will be perfect" she said no beaming

"Can I see it please" She pleaded with me

"Alice you have already seen it. I can see it in your mind" I said laughing

"But it's not the same. I want to see it in real life." Alice whined

"Okay "I said moving into my closet and removing the small box.

She held out her hand and I placed the box into it. She carefully opened the ring and smiled when she saw it. "This is perfect. Bella will love it" Alice said with confidence closing the box with the ring in it.

APOV

Now come on we need to work out a couple of details before they return. "First where are you planning to propose to her?" I asked barely able to contain my excitement

"The meadow" he immediately replied

I nodded my agreement. "Bella would love it" I said already seeing it in my mind

"Do you want dinner first or do you want to just take her into the meadow and ask her?" I asked

I felt a vision coming before I knew his answer. Bella was laying in the meadow asleep when Edward walks in. He is wearing a black shirt and pants. It is twilight and he walks up to her and gently moves her onto his lap. She gently wakes up and they kiss. Waiting until she is fully awake before he stands up and puts her down. He then goes onto one knee and asks her to marry him.

"So what will she say?" He asked impatiently

"She hasn't decided yet" I answered him with a small smile on my lips, not wanting to give anything away