Chapter 21 – Letters
Dear Mama,
I love you, and I'm so so sorry. I just… I had to. I killed dad, mama. Because of me, he's not here, not with us. And now Jii-chan. You and Souta mean everything to me mama, and I can't just sit back and watch you killed off for the sake of me and my curse. Mama, I love you too much. Please believe in that. Please believe in me.
I have to leave you, and I don't think I'll ever see you again. I know I won't see you again. I only have to tell you, again, that I love you, and I'm sorry.
I'll say hi to dad and Jii-chan for you, mama.
I love you.
Kagome.
P.s Please don't forget me.
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Dear Souta,
Hey little bro. Listen, I have a really, really, really important task for you, so I want you to listen good, ok?
Go to school. Do well. Have friends. Go to university. Go out partying. Get a degree. Get a good job. Find the love of your life.
Be happy, little bro. I don't have time for that anymore, so I want you to do it for me, ok? Live the life I never got the chance for. I'm trusting you Souta.
Do you remember when we were little, and we lived in the Shrine? There were those kids at your school, who bullied you? I knew their older siblings. Then, one day, I went into your school, and they were pushing you around in a circle, emptying your bag on the ground? Remember what I did, little bro? I marched right up to them and yelled at them for harassing you. I hated to see your little face crumple in tears, and I dealt with them. They never bullied you again.
See, the reason I have to leave, is something like that. But Souta, this time, there's no one bigger than me to take care of it. It's my job to look after myself now. And that's why I have to leave you.
Look after mama for me.
I love you, my little brother Souta.
Kagome.
P.s I'm proud of you. And dad is too.
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Dear Miroku,
Well, you lecherous pervert, you thought you'd already gotten rid of me once before, didn't you? Mwahaha, I came back. Go me.
Not this time, I'm afraid dude. I have to go. I would never forgive myself if anything happened to you lot. You all mean so much to me, and if anything were to happen, I could never forgive myself. You and Sango and Koga and Ayame and… you all mean the world to me, and I want you to live your life for me. Get completely soused at graduation. Spike the punch at prom. Grope all the girls. Live it large, Miroku. Be the idiot I know you are, and be happy.
A piece of advice: Sango loves you. Go for it. Make it official. But I swear to God Miroku, that if you hurt her in any way, shape or form, I will make you pay. Not that I actually believe you would, but a girl's gotta say that for her friend, right? I only want the best for the two of you. You have a good heart, Miroku. Use it.
Love ya dude,
Kagome.
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Dear Sango,
I guess, when you think about it, I haven't really known you that long. Six months-ish. Maybe. But, babe, you have been the best friend a girl has ever had, and I love you for it. When… last time, and you pulled out all the stops to try and get me home safely. I love you for it, my friend.
So, you and Miroku, huh? All I can say is: I TOLD YOU SO!! He's a good man, Sango. I truly believe you can make each other happy.
And now to the serious part. By the time you read this, I'm already gone. With a bit of luck, already dead. No, I'm not suicidal. It's just… if I'm dead, there's no reason for Naraku and Kikyo to come after you any more. They'll leave you all alone, I know they will, and that's all I want. To give you and that perverted beau of yours the chance to live out a happy live. Can you do that for me?
Well… I guess I should say goodbye. It seems so wrong to be putting that in a letter, but hey. Who cares? It's not like anyone's gonna be correcting my grammar where I'm going.
Goodbye, Sango. You really were the best friend a girl could have.
I love you.
Kagome.
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Dear Koga,
Wow, I guess this came as a bit of a shock to you. If I know you, you have broken everything in the house, as well as your own arm in the process, and now you're just waiting for it to heal so you can break some more stuff of your next door neighbour's.
I would pay dear money to see the look on your face right now.
Koga, I owe half my life to you, I really do. You saved me the first time. And then the second… you brought me here, with you, and helped me to start again. It's because of you I was so happy. For a few months, I was so happy, and I felt like nothing in the world could harm me, here. I have you to thank for that.
You and Ayame, huh? I always saw it coming. And not just because you're betrothed. They say opposites attract, and they're right. Ayame is so fiery, so compassionate, and so… I don't even know the word! You could be scary, sure, but most of the time, you're just funny. You make her laugh, you make her smile, and God, I'm so glad of that. You'll be together a long, long time. I can see it. And you'll be happy. That I also know.
This is my punishment. This is my curse come to pay, and trust me Koga, I am sorry. I am so sorry for having to leave you.
You've been the big brother I've never known, Koga. You fought my battles for me, you protected me, you were there for me. Nothing I can ever do, in this life or the next, will ever measure up to that.
I love you, big brother.
Be safe.
Kagome.
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Dear Ayame,
Well, sister mine, it's finally come, hasn't it?
I'm going to ask this of you, because you have the biggest heart of anyone I've ever known. I want you to look after them all for me. Can you do that? I want you to smile for them, I want you to hug them when they cry, and I want you to throw things at them when they're being idiots. Be there for me, sweetheart.
You held me when my dad died, and it was your shoulder I cried into. I love you, sister. I know that technically we're not related, not even by the laws of the pack, but you have always been my sister. I've known you since I was a metre high, and although we spent about half of our childhood fighting over the sandbox, you were the sister I've never had.
Thank you, Ayame.
You and Koga. I so knew it. Get mated, get married, have kids, grow old together, balance fat grandbabies on your knee, and remember the girl with a curse and black hair. That's all I want.
You deserve the best Ayame, and every time Koga stumbles home drunk at three am, lock him out and yell at him until he begs for mercy. When you're giving birth, break his hand and scream that you're gonna chop off the parts that make him a man for getting you pregnant. When you're picking out colours for the living room, insist that you and right and he is wrong, and when he tells you you're an idiot, tear up and ask him if he loves you anymore through your sobs. Eat lots of ice cream.
Be happy, Ayame.
I'm sorry for what I had to do.
I love you, sister.
Kagome.
P.s I would have really loved to see that Hair Demon. It sounds like it would have been a good laugh.
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Kagome stopped the car. She knew this place. She had spent the first thirteen years of her life here. This is where she had taken her first steps; said her first words; ridden her first bike. This is where…
This is where her father had died.
The shrine.
It hadn't changed. Not for three years. The stairs were still steep and worn; the garden was still overgrown, more so now; and the large, wooden arch, was still painted in a peeling red paint. She couldn't see it from here, but she knew that the markings her mother had made for her height were still there. It was all the same.
Except… it wasn't.
It was cold now. A chill hung in the air, ripe with the stench of neglect and fear. When it had been her home, it had been a happy place. Warm and bright and cheerful. She had never feared the spirits that had been said to inhabit it. Now, though, she approached it nervously, as if one might just jump out at her.
Kagome had never been so terrified in her life.
But, she took a deep breath, she had to do it. She knew she had to do it. For them. They had to be safe.
Inuyasha…
She squared her shoulders, and resolutely placed her foot on the first step leading to the shrine. Dreading what awaited at the top.
One…
Two…
Three…
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Woo. Ouch. Sorry, it just had to be in there. I hope it wasn't too much of a disappointment. There's no real action; just a lot of letters, and nostalgia at the end. So, yeah, sorry. I'm not too pleased with this one, really.
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