Love Isn't Always Easy

by VioletW

Set for Skins Fire, based on summaries and spoilers *before it was aired!*. Emily and Naomi didn't make it. So Emily attends University in New York and falls for her room mate who is just as special as she is. Will she be able to choose between who she should love, and who she can't help but love?

21. Chapter 21

I owe you an explanation as to this 'current chapter update'. The truth is, this isn't a 'chapter' and I will take it down once I return from holiday. I think Fire needs to be addressed. (Mostly because I'm writing this on some poor guys' roof - and my fucking Blackberry keeps playing songs like "Please Don't Go" and "Coming Home" like it's fucking mocking me.) The joy of my new job was supposed to be that it gives me headspace, that coincidentally has been filled with what happened to Naomily instead of doing what it was intended to do; clear my mind of all rubbish.

I am devastated, as many of you are I would assume. Naomily gave me something I was seriously lacking in my life; and that was courage and acceptance. They helped me accept who I am, and portrayed our favourite couple as what we all hope things would be. Two people, scared to death of each other, falling in love. All the fear and drama and heartbreak that goes along with it. Now, I love 'Love Actually' just as much as the next girl, but that never really did anything for me, you know? It's hard to relate to things sometimes. Naomily gave us all what we needed in our lives, and I assume since we're all here; we've continued to need it long after it was over.

Now, I get it. I really, really do. I KNOW first hand, just how horrible and unforgiving this world can be. I understand that 'life is shit and then you die'. I understand that 'only the good die young', blah fucking blah. I am reminded on a constant basis - as I'm sure you are as well - of how fucking cruel this world can be. But what I don't get, is why they had to wave 'hey we're bringing back Skins - with Naomily - WHO ARE STILL TOGETHER!' in our faces, and then do something so horrible as to make us watch. Make us watch Naomi literally wither away, while Effy jumps on every baloney pony in London, and a blissfully unaware Emily in fucking New York. How horrible is that? Finding out that the love of your life is dying, while you're thousands of miles away trying to build a bright future with said love, all the while she's been alone and in pain; in the vague presence of some twat who really did 'steal your time with her'?

They knew exactly what they were doing when they wrote Fire. They KNEW how much Naomily meant to everyone. Young, old, pre-adult. They wrote the storyline for a purpose. I believed that purpose was for good, not for what they've done to it now.

I don't really know where I'm going with this, and I know that mynameislizzie (who by the way, I totally support her 1000% on her A/N. If any of you are mad at her outburst, you're mad at me too because of course - her being much more articulate at things than me - I feel the EXACT same way) and many other friends of mine like (the wonderfully patient with me) MissMaraBored are just as upset and heart broken. So I guess this is my call to all my friends from around the world, that I love you and I'm here for you, and I really hope we can help each other through this. I believe that Miss-Maraudeur's A/N in her new chapter of Educating Naomi said it the best, that we all need a group hug and we will have to plough through.

And FYI, I'm that brooding girl in the corner, because I've never been offered a hug as a consolation before. So yeah, I may try to hide away while everyone is in a group hug, but I'm secretly screaming inside for a little comfort. So I will join you all, we will just have to hug it out I guess.

That's all I've got my loves, I hope to see you soon.

xoxo VioletW