Chapter 19

Me and David were in Pete's place. I was currently feeding him his bottle of milk. He latched onto it while I made sure nothing dribbled at the side of his lips. Someone knocked on the door.

David moved his head, and I whipped the access milk off the side of his lips. I set his bottle on the table and carried him to the door with me. I looked through the peep hole to see Steve and Bovver. I opened the door.

"Hello honey, you alright?" Steve asked kissing my cheek

"Yes I'm fine thanks" kissing his cheek back "Hey Bov"

"Alright darling" he kissed my forehead and then David's

"So what brings you two here" I said closing the door. David looked at them in curiosity

"Well i decided I will finish early today" Steve touched David's cheek and David smiled slightly. "And Shannon's coming later"

"How are things going now?" I asked, David whimpered slightly I got his milk and put it in his mouth, he sucked it greedily.

"Fine I guess, I mean after last time…"

"Steve that wasn't your fault, that was Millwall's fault"

"Still, it was better she left and had time to think what she wanted"

"Is Matt coming?" I asked. I pulled the bottle away form David, I pat his back, and making sure I put the bib on my shoulder just in case

"Not sure, I think so"

I saw Bov. He wasn't too happy about that

"Don't start" I said sternly he nodded "Matt is apart of this also"

"I know" he said getting up and looking in the fridge

"Cheeky tart" I chuckled he rolled his eyes.

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It was two in the morning at David had started to cry in his cot

"Okay baby, shh, it's fine"

The phone rang while I patted David's back gently. He began to calm down ever so slightly.

"Hello?"

"Hey Bella"

"Angela" I squealed how are you?"

"I'm hurt Bella truly" I rolled my eyes knowing she was faking

"What have I done" I chuckled

"You haven't visited"

"I'll visit soon I promise"

"Good, how's baby David?"

"Well he's just woke up now so I'm trying to get him back to sleep" I looked down and saw his eyes drop, I smiled kissing his forehead

"Ok well I'll leave you in peace then"

"I'll promise soon I just have this gig to do and then I'll come back home"

"Ok you better I want to see my niece"

"You will" I chuckled softly, careful not to wake David.

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I had asked Steve to look after David while I go to my singing concert. I hated leaving him Steve said everything was fine and he would ring me if anything went wrong which it wouldn't.

Keith had dropped me off and I headed back stage.

"Hi everyone" I shouted the crowd cheered. I smiled but then froze. Edward was looking at me, he was here. I shook my head composing myself

"Ok this is new song, it's called Decode"

How can I decide what's right when you're clouding up my mind
I can't win your losing fight all the time
How can I ever own what's mine when you're always taking sides
But you won't take away my pride, no not this time
Not this time…

How did we get here
When I used to know you so well
But how did we get here
I think I know

I looked towards Edward and sang to him

The truth is hiding in your eyes and its hanging on your tongue
Just boiling in my blood but you think that I cant see
What kind of man that you are, if you're a man at all
Well I will figure this one out on my own

I closed my eyes and focused on the singing, how everyone cheered and about my baby boy and Pete. I smiled and carried on

I'm screaming I love you so
My thoughts you can't decode
How did we get here
when I used to know you so well
But how did we get here
I think I know

I got the microphone off the stand and went to stand on the speakers and sang softly

Do you see what we've done
We're gonna make such fools of ourselves
Do you see what we've done
We're gonna make such fools of ourselves

How did we get here
when I used to know you so well
But how did we get here
I think I know

I jumped around and banged my head to the beat.

There is something I see in you
It might kill me
I want it to be true

The crowd applauded and I laughed and thanked the guys

"This next song is called Bloody Sunday" I grabbed the guitar form the side and started to play. Edward had gotten a drink and sat on the stool watching me.

I can't believe the news today
Oh, I can't close my eyes and make it go away
How long, how long must we sing this song?
How long, how long?
Tonight, we can be as one tonight

The drum started to coincide with my guitar


Broken bottles under children's feet
And bodies strewn across the dead end street
But I won't heed the battle call
It puts my back up
Puts my back up against the wall

I raised my voice slightly and I got definite Goosebumps


Sunday, bloody Sunday
Sunday, bloody Sunday
Sunday, bloody Sunday
Sunday, bloody Sunday

And the battle's just begun
There's many lost, but tell me who has won
The trench is dug within our hearts
And mothers, children, brothers, sisters torn apart

Sunday, bloody Sunday
Sunday, bloody Sunday

How long, how long must we sing this song?
How long, how long?

And it's true we are immune
When fact is fiction and TV reality
And today the millions cry
We eat and drink while tomorrow they die, yeah

I wipe the tears from your eyes
I wipe your tears away
(Tonight, tonight)
I wipe your tears away
(Tonight, tonight)
I wipe your tears away
(Tonight, tonight)
I wipe your bloodshot eyes
(Tonight, tonight)

I tapped my foot as the song was ending


Sunday, bloody Sunday
Sunday, bloody Sunday
Sunday, bloody Sunday
(The real battle just begun)
Sunday, bloody Sunday
(To claim the victory Jesus won on...)

Sunday, bloody Sunday
Sunday, bloody Sunday

I finished for the night after 2 more songs. I rang Keith to ask to pick me up.

I sat outside to get some air

"Bella"

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