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Jake POV

I jumped up from the couch ready to kill Edward Cullen. It was obvious to everyone in that room that Bella's admission was incredibly difficult for her. His dumb ass rant just caused Bella to run. Hell if I'm going to let him catch her.

"Stay away from her Cullen." I growled.

"Move Black, this has nothing to do with you", he growled back.

I quickly realized that I couldn't phase in here, so I slowly started to back out of the house. I knew Bella would be in my car waiting I had to get to her to leave. Luckily no one moved to follow me.

"Thanks for giving me the open I need to Cullen, it won't be so hard pushing you out now", I thought then I winked and was out the door and in my car.

BPOV

God I am so stupid! I can't believe I just did that. Now Edwards hates me, I just wanna go home. Where's Jake? Suddenly he was in the care, damn werewolf speed. Without a word he backed out of the Cullen's driveway and flew down the road. I could see he was trying to control his shaking so I touched his arm. I felt like shit. Edward was right, I never should have blamed him, I'm the liar, I'm the irresponsible one. I wouldn't be in this mess if I had been honest with everyone. But of course I, again, used bad judgment.

"I'm sorry Jake" I choked out as new tears streamed down my face, oh God what he must think of me.

Jake took a deep breath then said, "Don't worry about it. We just need to figure out what to do from here."

EPOV

Stupid, stupid, stupid! I chided myself. I tried one last time to make a break for the door, but just as my last three attempts my brothers held strong and fast to my shoulders.

"Let me go", I growled pathetically. By now I was weak with emotion and just wanted to make things right with Bella. I need to apologize and tell her I'm an ass. I made her lie to me. I made this relationship for what it was. My Bella had kept something from me because I made it impossible for her to be honest with me and I had to fix it.

"Edward, you need to calm down. Your outburst is what caused her to run in the first place. You can't go after her right now. Let her come to you, let her calm down you can't force it." Carlisle whispered to me and only me. I love her with all my being; I need to let her be. As much as I want her to rely on me and be ok I can't force her hand. But, I can be there. So I will, and I now I wait.

BPOV

"Thanks Jake but I'm going to lay down now. I'm sorry about tonight, I'll call you tomorrow", I called to him as I ran from the car to my house.

I need to call Edward, apologize. Running was immature and stupid. I messed this up so bad; I need to make it right. Tomorrow, tomorrow I'll call for now I'll rest. I need rest. I was so tired I fell right to bed. When I woke the next morning I knew that I had to do whatever I could to get Edward to trust me again. I slept so horribly since I didn't have Edward. I can't believe he didn't come last night, but I don't blame him, I'd be mad at me too. I have to go to him.

I showered and put together and outfit that Alice bought me, I had to do right by her too. I lied to them all. They've cared for me and been so good to me and I've been so horrible.

I pulled up to the house and no one was waiting for me on the porch. That alone brought that scratchy feeling to my the back of my throat, the one you get right before you cry, but now is not the time to feel sorry for myself. I need to make this right and start acting like the adult that I keep telling everyone that I am. So, I swallowed hard and walked right up to the front door. Instinct told me to knock first, but what's the point when the occupants can smell you from a mile away?

I walked right in.

No one was in the living room, or the dining room or the kitchen. So I made my way up to Edward's room. When I got to the doorway I saw my beautiful God sitting on his bed waiting for me. In that instant I forgot everything that I wanted to say, everything that I had been going over in my mind and all I could feel was the guilt. I had deceived him, I had led him to believe that I was stronger than I was and I lied to him when I was sick. I was too much of a coward to be honest with him and as soon as I told him the truth I was too much of a coward to face his well-deserved anger. Whatever was to happen now I deserved, I just hope that he loved me enough to understand how sorry I am.

I walked over to him and stood between his legs placing my hand on his cheek. He kept his eyes closed as he brought his face up to look at me.

"Edward", was all I could get out as I suddenly tried to choke back a sob. He opened his eyes and I could see all the pain that I had caused in them.

"Bella", he said as he wrapped his arms around my waist to pull me closer, he looked as if he struggled with his words, something I have never seen happen with him.

"I'm sorry that I haven't been…..I thought that I was…" he squeezed his eyes tight and took a deep unneeded breath and started again. "I will try harder to be the boyfriend, friend, and confidant whatever it is that you need me to be for us to be closer. I don't want to be the reason you get sick. I don't want you to feel like you can't come to me for every little thing. I know that with you I can be…no, that I am obsessive compulsive but do you even minutely understand how much I live for you?" His last sentence was almost pleading.

"Edward, starting now I promise to tell you everything, so much so that you're going to get sick of hearing about it. I know that I should have been more honest and that I should have let you help me manage when I needed, but can you understand my fear?" I had gotten the courage to subtly admit my fear of Edward leaving me because I'm weak, let's hope this eloquent son-of-a-bitch doesn't say something that let's the tears that have been fighting to fall see the light of day.

"I'm sorry for any insecurities that my family or I have been instrumental in creating. I want to work on this aspect of our relationship and I know that we can deal with this together" he said with a small smile. That smile let me know that he was sincere with what he said and that we would work through this together.

Now this next part is going to be difficult considering our recent turn of events but I have to try anyway. Edward and I just agreed to start trusting each other and there's no better time to start than the present.

"Ok so since we have formed a new bond and truce, I was wondering if you'd be opposed to me accompanying Angela to a renaissance fair in Seattle next weekend?" It was so lame and I didn't really want to go but I wanted so badly to test Edward.

"Ugh! All right. But Bella please promise me that you'll try very hard to eat as little as possible while there, I didn't mean it like that what I mean is just try to eat as healthy as you can before you go." Edward said this so seriously that I was left with my mouth open. Ok, that wasn't at all what I was expecting and that was way too easy. Normally I would have chosen that moment to question him, but I figured don't look a gift horse in the mouth.

"Ok." Then I paused not knowing how to start the rest of our day. But Edward did. Suddenly he had me on my back with his hand up my shirt. I guess our time apart and my almost brush with death had gotten him hot. But, hey who's complaining? I would give anything if Edward would just rip my pant off and have his way with me.

I couldn't stop the shiver that ran down my spine as he ghosted his hand from my back to the side of my breast. When I opened my eyes I saw that he was watching me intently with a look of complete love and lust. I don't know how he has so much control if he wasn't stronger than me I would have thrown him down long ago and made a man out of him. But, since he was in charge of our boundaries I had to be patient and see what he was up to, and I hope it was nothing good.

Edward leaned in and kissed me, but this wasn't one of our normal soft delicate kisses. Don't get me wrong I loved those kisses, hell I loved any kind of contact I had with Edward but those were vanilla kisses and right now we were dealing with dark chocolate. He added to my arousal by pressing more of his weight down on to me and I couldn't help but buck my hips up to his desperately trying to create some friction. I'm not experienced at all in this department but everything seemed to be complete second nature and he didn't seem too ready to stop me, so I'm going to push this as far as I can and hopefully I'll get out of here a woman.

Edward had expertly unclasped my bras without me realizing it and was pushing it off of me along with my shirt. I've never been this naked in front of anyone before so I felt self-conscious enough to start to cover myself up until he grabbed hold of my wrists and kissed my knuckles.

"You are so beautiful", kiss, "please don't cover yourself up", kiss, "I want to see all of you" and with that he took off his shirt. Great now I feel even more insecure, but seeing him with his shirt off caused me to have a sharp intake of breathe and unknowingly hold it.

"Breath Bella", he said as he leaned down and took my hardened nipple into his mouth. I didn't just breathe I sighed and moaned heavily into his face. I suddenly felt myself get so wet I knew that it would be visible through my shorts. Smelling my arousal Edward smiled and without missing a beat started to let his elegant fingers travel down my stomach to the top of my shorts never breaking eye contact. Just as he reached under my lace underwear we heard Emmett's booming laughter fill the house.

"Hey Edward make sure to use some of that warming lotion that you took out of my room the other day, the ladies love it". And with that he was off the bed and fully clothed me on the other hand working with human speed couldn't move fast enough before Alice came running in.

"Oh, Bella! You're going to love the fair we have to pick out something for you to wear while you're there", she was bouncing up and down like she had just won the genetic lottery.

"Alice, I don't need to dress up, I'm going to the fair, I'm not going to be in the fair", I said trying so hard to beat down the blush that had crept up on me as I thought about how the whole house knew that Edward and I were up here half naked.

"I know that, but that doesn't mean that we can't be a little festive", she said as she grabbed me by the wrist and pulled me off of the bed and out of the room.

"Alice, I don't do festive, I'm going to hear for Angela and to hear the readings, I don't feel….wait did you say we?" Why did I just hear we?

"Come on silly do you really think that Edward would let you go by yourself. He agreed to let you go sure and he may not have pressed the issue of going himself but he wouldn't be Edward if he didn't have someone there to insure things." She said this matter-of-factly and I started to feel myself get really angry. So, we were still on this. Treating Bella like a child, or disobedient pet, but no sooner than did I get angry that I started getting excited and I couldn't wait for Alice to show me what we could wear to the fair.

I pulled hard on my wrist yanking it out of Alice's grip, that was going to leave a horrible bruise, and yelled to the sky, "Jasper, cut that out".

Jasper appeared out of nowhere and whispered to me, "come on Bella, if you go with Alice and make her happy I promise to work on Edward for you". Did everyone have something up their sleeve? I wasn't sure if anyone else heard us but I wanted Jasper's help and he wanted mine for some reason so I nodded my head in agreement for the time being. God help me if she makes me wear tights.