Chapter 3 bella_the_

Youtube… would that be good to try with a film of me kissing Jacob? Wouldn't they take it off? I'd already filmed us kissing heavily. I'd told Jacob I wanted to see how he kissed. But I knew I'd tell him the truth as soon as I figured out what to do.

I honestly didn't want to make out with Jacob, I wanted Edward, and I didn't want to give him more ideas about us together but how much was I willing to risk to get Edward's attention?

My heart froze in my body as my mind answered: Everything.

Was it wrong to seek revenge as well as love at the same time? How else could I get his attention? Cliff diving? I shook my head at that thought. That would be crazy to try though it was an interesting thought.

But what was I going to do then if I couldn't use Youtube?

I sat there as Jacob wrapped an arm around my shoulders.

"Sorry Jacob I just needed to get that out of my system," I breathed pushing him away. "I just… honestly… I want revenge on Edward. I'm sorry that I did that. I don't want to give you any wrong ideas about us. I… I just don't know what to do." Jacob sat there a little hurt looking back at me for a moment as he thought over this tidbit, which didn't settle well with him at the moment. Then again he was my best friend and I had just used him as a booty call minus the booty. I'd used him just to kiss, get some energy out, and get at Edward. I'd thought that maybe Alice would've been able to show him what I'd done but that kiss hadn't been planned and I couldn't be sure that Alice was with him. I slumped against my pillow with a huff staring at the ceiling and chewing my lip bitterly. "I'm sorry Jacob."

"Bella… its okay. I guess I can understand what you're going through, though I've never been in that situation since you've always been a frigid- well I mean, I can't say I didn't wonder when you turned on the camera," he laughed. "By the way what the hell are you going to do with that?... And please don't use me again Bella…" There was silence.

"I promise I won't use you again Jacob."

"Though… I'll help you get revenge on him. I can see where you're going with the camera thing. Hmm," he breathed pretending to be me in deep thought while he fluttered his long eye lashes in between every four words, "what would tick off Edward? How about kissing Jacob?" He chuckled. "Well I'm all in for helping you get his attention. I have an idea but I'm just suggesting this, maybe you should get a website so you can get his attention. Put his name on it or yours or something… Though I can't really think of revenge unless you post an actual date with some guy on there."

3 hours later…

It was easy to establish a website after you decided to take a free trial that is. And the subscribers were what I was depending on. With every subscriber I got I charged them to pay for subscribing.

Now what all would I put on it?...

As I planned I knew that far off in the room wherever she was Alice was seeing what I was planning and hopefully would tell Edward. I wanted his attention.

"What if he comes back?"

It was a simple question from Jacob who'd decided to go to sleep for an hour or so as well as flip through Charlie's car magazines before looking over my shoulder to see the title of my site: Bella The Swan. "What are you going to do exactly?"

"Beat his tail and try to contain myself from throwing myself into his arms without an apology."

"You really love him don't you? And yet you're doing this?"

"I really do love him Jacob."

He sighed dejectedly, "I guess you have to love him so much to want to get back at him so bad. Though was I a good kisser?" He wagged his brows and I threw a teddy bear at him that had been resting on my desk. I quirked a brow at him as he smirked.

"It was just for this Jacob."

"Sure, sure, you can't resist me." Jacob furrowed his brow in serious thought for a moment before warning, "Don't take it too far though."

"Jacob I'll take it as far as I have to. I'm eighteen and I've dated a…" But I had to stop before I told Jacob that I'd dated a guy who'd been over 100 years old. He didn't now about Edward. He was my best friend and didn't know.

"Well a strange guy who made me eras older just by being with him. So how are you and your friends? You must be bored hanging out with me."

Jacob snorted, "No I'm never bored with you. I've grown up beside you so I have to be used to you. Besides there's been some trouble with my friends. This Sam guy…"

"The one who found me last night?"

"Yeah, well he isn't as nice as he appears… Well what're you going to put on the site?" Jacob avoided the subject and closed it off as he skipped to another safer topic. I cared for him in a brotherly way and if he didn't want to talk about something now then I wouldn't push him.

"Umm… well what's attractive to you Jacob?"

"Motorcycles," Jacob said without a moments hesitation.