Voices in My Head

8 o' clock came by and lucky me. Come to find out the only people who could make it were Jake and Mike. Everyone else had gotten sick. Oh what a happy threesome we were riding in the car together with me insisting on Jake sitting beside me and Mike sitting behind me very casually leaning up close brushing my hair with his fingers or possibly making clippings for a voodoo doll. I don't know which because I was trying to focus on the road instead of the strange guy behind me. I had suggested that Mike leave and Jake and me hang out if he wanted but Mike's too persistent. Give him a inch and he'll try to go a mile.

"Well looks like we don't offer much protection from wolves," replied Mike as we approached the movies.

"Speak for yourself," replied Jacob with a snicker as he pulled into the parking lot. A shiver ran down my spine at the thought of all the deaths that had been appearing of late in the papers because of the wolves.

We went to see another zombie movie like planned, as soon as we sat in there both guys sat on either side of me with their hands on the armrest open like bear traps waiting for their pray. Oh what a twist? What oh what should I do? Shall I freak out? No, men, like them didn't realize I could put my hands in my own lap. This movie was one to love, as soon as the credits opened someone died. The movie slut of course; then again that's the movie rules all movie sluts die.

Mike cringed at her death as Jake started laughing his head off like a hyena.

"What?"

"Oh come on! The blood spurted like 10 feet! It looked like a sprinkler." I snickered at that. Then of course the next deaths were the ethnicities. Why do the minorities die before the white people?

"Look out behind you," I screeched. "He gonna get you!" Some people in the audience started laughing at my commentary.

"Bella what are you doing?" Jake hissed.

"Come on have some fun," I whispered back and then I turned my full focus on the movie screen, "Oh you gonna die girl! He right behind you!" Everyone was having a good time throwing in their own comments; it felt like a Rocky Horror Picture Show when Mike lurched forward in his seat. He didn't look so well. He was green in the face with his head between his hands.

"Mike are you okay?" I whispered seriously worried about my friend. Mike wasn't much boyfriend material to me but he was my friend and unlike some girls who sat outside the bathroom not caring about their friends but only themselves I worried about my friends when they got sick.

"I-" But Mike couldn't finish talking, he clamped his hand over his mouth and ran off out of the movies heading undoubtedly for the bathroom. I glanced at Jacob and mouthed, "Lets go check on him." We both got up and made our way out for the movies to sit outside of the bathroom with me worried like a mother hen. "Jake go in there and check on him please. If he wants I can ask for a cold rag to put on his face." Jake went into the bathroom and came back out.

"He won't be out here for a while but I passed on the message. I think he smiled a bit when he realized you were worried about him."

"He's my friend Jake why shouldn't I be?" Just then a cashier working at the cash register whistled at me and gave me a wink. Jacob scrunched up his face and called over to the cashier in a growl with a fist balled up ready to pummel the young man, "What're you whistling at? Can't you see she's with me? Those guys in that 1 picture are my friends so you better think before you whistle or the La Push Gang will get you." The guy turned pale for a moment.

"Sorry, I didn't know you were in a gang," he replied. "My bad." He returned to work muttering under his breath, "Always the pretty ones are watched after gang members."

We decided to maintain our distance and sat down on a plushy bench waiting for Mike considering that's all we could do. "Jake you lied to him for me. You didn't have to do that but thank you Jake."

He merely huffed out a breath, "I didn't mean Sam's gang though he doesn't have to know that. Embry, Quil, and I would have your back though somethings been up with one of them lately. Quil's been hanging out with Sam and has completely avoided us…" Jacob looked down at his hands and I hugged onto him.

"I'm sorry. Maybe I should confront them. I don't like it when you're sad Jacob." He looked up at me suddenly with questions in his eyes.

"Do you care what other people think?"

"After the crap I've been getting into of late, no," I laughed.

"Let me rephrase that. Do you care what people think when it concerns us?" To make his point Jacob placed his arms around my shoulders and pulled me close to lean on him. I don't know how he could've made his point even more obvious. I thought about that for a moment before answering very simply, "No."

"Then you wouldn't care if I did this?" Jake grabbed hold of my hand. It felt so nice with my hand being held in another's, and Jake's. I had to admit to myself no matter how strange it was I couldn't deny to myself the small attraction there. I'd be an idiot if I went around denying my feelings. I mean, what kind of people do that to themselves?

"No, I don't care."

"Bella I know you don't want a boyfriend right now but-"

"You can court me Jacob," I breathed suddenly. He looked at me shocked that I'd told him that.

"What?"

"Isn't it what you want? You can date me Jacob. I need to learn to get over him. Yes I loved him but I've got to try and push on because lord knows he's probably pushing on surrounded by gorgeous female vampires. But I'll kiss you when I feel like kissing you."

"Chips and ice cream included?" He joked.

"Now get in there and do me a favor and check on Mike." But before he left Jacob placed a hand on the side of my face and I smiled back at him watching a grin spread across his face.

"You mean it don't you Bella?"

"Yes Jacob," I murmured. I'd decided the night before after writing to Edward that I had a chance with Edward still. I knew I did after all we'd been through. But if he was going to ignore me, if he could abandon me so easily why couldn't I try to do the same? I needed to at least try and move on and I couldn't deny myself that there was an attraction to Jacob. I couldn't deny that though it felt strange I was attracted to him. Only complete and total idiots denied themselves their feelings especially when they know their feelings! Luckily I knew my feelings and I knew that though there was still a chance with Edward there was one with Jacob as well. And Jacob had one thing Edward didn't have; Jacob had never left me behind. Jacob had stayed listening to my rambling of revenge on the guy I loved and didn't ignore it. He had been a friend and was there when I needed him.

"You're my girlfriend?"

"If you want me to be, yes," I said and then I started laughing because I was starting to feel a little happy at the thought. "Just promise to not leave me and stay my best friend Jake."

"It's a deal," he breathed with a bright smile splitting his face as he leaned over and kissed my head grinning the whole way to the bathroom. I went up to the desk and asked for a popcorn bucket, the cashier had already noticed our problem and handed it readily. I really hoped Mike was okay.

Jake came out with Mike slung over a shoulder, a small smile still on his face directed as me as he lugged Mike out to the car. "Here Mike," I breathed handing him the popcorn bucket. He leaned in the chair, placing his head against the cold window. "You're running a fever," I murmured feeling his head. "Don't worry we'll get you home soon and you can come back and get your car at my house tomorrow. Right now we need to get you out of here."

I let Jake drive my car this time, considering he didn't mind exceeding the speed limit and I did. I just didn't want a ticket. "You must've gotten that bug that's been going around Mike." When I patted his head from the front seat I noticed Jake started shaking in his seat as he drove as if he had chills. I reached out to touch his shoulder and withdrew immediately. He felt so hot.

"Jake do you want me to drive? You feel like you're running a fever too," I sighed patting his face as he drove on. Jacob peered at me from where he sat and threw a bright grin.

"Don't worry about me Bella. I'm fine."

"You feel so hot Jacob," I breathed when suddenly something happened in my mind that normally didn't. I heard a low snarl in my head that sounded undeniably like Edward. "Bella get away from him this instant! You have no idea what's happening to him! You are such an idiot hanging out with this guy and putting yourself in such danger!"

I immediately squeaked in shock and shrunk back in my seat. I must be going crazy, I thought to myself. Only loons heard voices. "Bella get away from him now!" I stared back at Jacob and looked around in the car searching for his voice. Oh no, I was going crazy! Maybe I was sick too...? It was nice hearing his voice yes but what the hell I was trying to get over him?! I loved him and cared for his voice but that didn't mean I wanted to be considered a lunatic with his voice permanently in my head! What type of sickos wanted that for themselves? To have a voice inside their heads when they're trying to get over someone?

We dropped off Mike and I got out of the car while Jake got in his VW Rabbit. I wrapped my arms around him in a hug and heard once more "Bella get as far away from him as you can now! You promised me to keep yourself out of danger!" And you left me in danger, I thought to myself. "Because I thought I was the danger." Oh god! The voice was responding! Get out of my head! "Not until you get away from him to safety!" The voice started growling at Jacob when I kissed his cheek.

"Good night Jacob. Be safe and call me once you get home and you're safe." Jake nodded and quickly gave my head a kiss cringing a bit.

"I think you're right. I need to get out of here. But you're my girlfriend and I'll take care of myself for you." As soon as Jacob left I lurched forward with my hand on my stomach and ran into the house. I must have the bug too.

"Charlie," I called out, "I think I'm sick." After that I was in the floor of the bathroom for about 2 hours with my father hovering around long enough to give me some medicine which was the only thing I was able to get down. When I had crawled into bed I made a mental note to myself to be a normal girl and go to the shrink later this week. I had to get rid of his voice in my head. I was not a sicko.

Then out of worry and frustration I called Mike's house to tell them that he could pick up his car when he was feeling better. When I called Jacob I couldn't reach him and fell back asleep worried and hoping he'd made it home safe.