Dead Inside But Still Alive

- By: FallenFan77

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Summary: At the beginning she was the only one who can see him. He was her temperamental, stubborn and overprotective ghost half dog demon. Not to mention possessive as well. He has fifty days left. What did it mean? Who is after them and what do they want. "I don't give two hells if I'm dead Kagome. I'll protect you and that's a damn promise," he said.

Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha!

Author's Note

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For some unknown reason, I can't seem to change the title for the last chapter. It's suppose to say chapter 22, not chapter 23. Sorry if I made anyone confused because of that. I meant to post this chapter yesterday, but I was caught up watching a movie called Stardust. It's been a while since I've seen it, I love that movie! Well, enjoy reading the chapter!

Disclaimer: I do NOT own Inuyasha!

Chapter 23

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"Miroku, Kagome was too young to die. She didn't even stand a chance in there," Sango said as she was being held by Miroku.

"I know," the monk didn't even grope her once, it was the wrong time to do it, after the lost of their friend.

"What will her family say? They think they'll be seeing her go home, her cheerful self," Sango muttered, tears trailed down her cheeks.

"Shut up," they heard Inuyasha say. Sango sniffled a cry and dried her tears. "No, why don't you you jackass!" Sango shouted.

"Inuyasha," Miroku said, hugging Sango close to him.

"You two idiots are talking about her like she is already dead. Kagome can't be dead. She isn't dead so quit crying. Damn it people, I hate it when people cry. Kagome isn't dead get that in your brains," Inuyasha said to them, his eyes were hidden by his bangs, Kagome is not dead. She isn't.

Miroku and Sango stared at him, wide eyed and startled.

"Inuyasha, I can not sense her spiritual power here. I'm afraid she's-" Miroku was held up, suspended in air. Inuyasha's eyes were bloody red, he was turning into his demonic form.

"Kagome...isn't...dead," he snarled, holding Miroku by his throat.

"Inuyasha! Let him go!" Sango shouted, afraid that anything will happen. She has never seen this happen before.

"Inuyasha...listen to me... if Kagome was really dead, then wouldn't her soul be here?" Miroku choked out.

The ghost half demon's eyes turned back to it's original gold, losing any sight that he was transformed into a full demon moments ago. He dropped the monk onto the cold hard cement."I don't fucking know. Who ever did this is going to die. I know the damn substitute was into this trap. I want to know why the hell they wanted to kill Kagome. Why! Damn it Miroku, why..why did they. Kagome, she can't be dead," Inuyasha used all the strength and made a street light bulb flicker then shatter into many pieces.

"How can you possibly know that she isn't dead?" Sango asked him, her eyes were still watery.

Inuyasha looked at the demon slayer and she gasped. His eyes showed love and loss, the will power of losing someone he...it was possible that he fell in love with Kagome. "Inuyasha," Sango said, she rubbed her eyes to see if they were playing tricks, but no, they weren't.

"Kagome isn't dead, because somewhere in my...heart, I know she isn't," Inuyasha told them. He wasn't really one to express his feelings out loud, especially about someone he truly cared and loved. Sango cried even more.

"What the hell are you crying for?!" Inuyasha shouted, here he was talking about the girl that was presumed dead and now the taijiya is once again crying a new barrage of fresh tears.

"That's the sweetest thing anyone could say," Sango slapped Miroku on the shoulder,"Be more like him you perverted idiot."

Miroku raised his arms in defeat,"I am not going to die if that's what you are saying." Sango rolled her eyes and looked at Inuyasha.

"If you think that Kagome is still alive, then why don't you go look for her. We will talk to Kagome's family, incase they think she is dead," Sango said, pulling Miroku's arms to follow her.

"I don't think Kagome is still alive Sango," Inuyasha said, turning away from them and began to take a few steps forward,"I know she is alive. And I'm going to find her."

Sango gapped at him, but nodded her head and she and Miroku left to Kagome's home.

"Kagome, I'm going to find you. You aren't dead I know it," Inuyasha said to himself.

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Mrs. Higurashi was washing the dishes when she heard her son call her to the phone. "I'm coming Souta!" she shouted, hearing an okay coming from her only son. She smiled and set the last plate on the counter, then dried her hands off with a paper towel.

"Mom, they said it's from Kagome's school," Souta said, handing the home phone to his mother. Oh boy! Kagome is in trouble, Souta smiled, finally having the chance to see that his older sister was no long a goody goody like his mother would think.

Souta looked up at his mother. Something was wrong, because her face changed from her bright usual one to one of anguish. "Mom?" he questioned.

His grandfather walked into the room and noticed his daughter-in-law paled. "Airi, what is wrong?" he asked. Mrs. Higurashi turned to them and couldn't let any words form.

"Kagome," was the word she said before she fainted.

"Mom!" Souta shouted and tried to wake her up. "Boy, bring me a wet cloth, we have to place it on your mothers forehead. What ever she heard, it couldn't be good news," his grandfather said.

Souta nodded,"Right. I'll go get it," he ran into the kitchen to retrieve it.

There was a knock on the front door. "I got it!" Souta yelled, giving his grandfather the wet cloth. Souta opened it and noticed it was Kagome's friends. "Hey you guys," he said.

"Hi Souta, we wanted to talk to you about..K-Kagome," Sango managed to say, she had to be strong, whether or not Inuyasha was right, he seemed pretty sure of the idea.

Kagome's little brother had question marks over his head,"Okay."

Miroku and Sango walked in, finding a passed out Mrs. Higurashi. "What happened," Sango asked Kagome's grandfather.

"Mom passed out, it was some lady on the phone talking about Kagome and that's all I know," Souta said. Miroku and Sango helped place Mrs. Higurashi on the couch.

"Do you two know what is going on. Why this would happen to my daughter-in-law?" Kagome's grandfather asked them. Sango and Miroku exchanged glances before nodding their heads.

"Is Kagome in trouble? Her school called and they wouldn't be calling if she was in trouble. My school called my mom once when I accidentally broke a window with my soccer ball," Souta said sheepishly, scratching the back of his head.

"Maybe you two should sit down," Miroku said to the two. Grandpa Higurashi and Souta both sat down.

"Kagome was in school today and..well...M-Miroku, I can't do it...I can't," Sango said, tears rolling down her cheeks. Miroku nodded, he knew that it was difficult for Sango to explain it to her family.

"Well, tell us what happened," Souta said, he leaned forward, thinking it Kagome was in trouble for lacking in her class.

"We came to the school to find it all in rubble. Someone must have placed an explosive," Miroku stated. Kagome's grandfather, shook his head,"Not my granddaughter. She can not be dead."

Sango swallowed hard,"Well there is one more thing, a friend of ours thinks she isn't dead."

Miroku looked at her, "Sango you can't, Kaede specifically said-" he whispered before she sent him a dead set glare.

"The hell I can. I don't care," Sango hissed at him. "Kagome can see the ghost of a half demon. The one that she was with a long time ago, the one that Kaede made a herbal potion to make her forget," Sango blurted out.

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Inuyasha searched and searched for her. He called out to her desperately. He didn't give up, but some how he wound up at the park where he was told to meet up. It was as if he was hit with a sack of bricks. Remembering that night.

He paced around the room. He hated that she couldn't remember him. "Quit walking around like that and sit your ass down. You are disturbing my concentration," he heard his brother say.

"Shut the hell up. I don't need to be listening to your crap," Inuyasha said. His brother, Sesshoumaru, looked up from his desk,"It isn't my fault that Naraku wants that jewel that's inside that miko. Kaede said it will only be for a short time, just until we get rid of him. Then you can be with your precious miko."

"Keh, why couldn't the old hag have the damn jewel," Inuyasha said stubbornly. It's been a month since Kaede gave Kagome the herbal potion, she couldn't remember him, Sango, Miroku and the others. He was fortunate that she forgot about the stupid wolf.

"Because your miko is the protector of the jewel you obdurated pup," Sesshoumaru said," I must go attend a meeting, wait here and do not do anything reckless. You start school on Monday morning. You haven't been there in a while."

"Monday...That's in a week," Inuyasha muttered. Just as Sesshoumaru left the room, after sending a glare to him, his brother's assistant,Jaken, walked into the room. "Here a letter," the toad threw it at his feet.

"Thanks," Inuyasha spat out. He began to read it and his eyes widened. "Kagome," he whispered,"She remembered." Rin walked in and noticed him with a smile. "It's been a while since I've seen you smile in weeks," she commented.

"I have to go. Tell Sesshoumaru I'm going to the park, the one by where Kagome lives," Inuyasha said, walking out the door. Rin opened her mouth to speak to him,"Hey wait, Inuyasha!"

Outside the window a woman was on a white feather hovering by. "He bought it, Naraku. Once he's out of the picture, you can get the jewel," she said, speaking into the phone. Her red eyes watched as Sesshoumaru's mate called out for the half demon. "Good work Kagura."

Inuyasha ran on top the buildings, in the letter, he was told to meet her by the tree. He knew of the jewel that she possessed, but she would never take it out in public. He knew where it was because she told him.

He arrived at the spot, the tree similar to the Goshinboku at her home, the one he met her for the first time. Before he knew it, he felt blood steep out from his stomach, a large hole was in his gut. Then he was knocked down onto the ground, his head hit a rock. He cursed out and groaned, who ever was doing this to him, was going to pay. "Who the hell-" "Good luck in hell Inuyasha," a woman with red eyes spat out. He saw total darkness.

Inuyasha flinched, he remembered the night, he was suppose to meet Kagome. He knew Miroku, Sango, long before he met them in his ghost state. What was with the jewel? What did it do exactly? He growled, something was missing, he didn't know what.

"Inuyasha," he heard. His eyes widened,"Kagome?" he called out her name. He felt that he fell to the ground, he blinked several times to see a girl covered in ashes.

"Kami, Kagome. What the hell happened? Are you okay? Are you hurt anywhere? Where the fuck have you been? Why aren't you dead?" he asked. Oh shit, wrong thing to say.

"What do you mean why am I not dead? Do you want me to die?!" Kagome cried out.

"No! It came out wrong..I..gah!" He scratched his head in frustration and embraced her tightly. "I thought I lost you. If you died. There is no reason for me to stay in this world, I can't bare to even think that the woman I love died," his eyes widened at what he just said.

Kagome looked at him, her blue eyes filled with tears. Did he say he loved me?

Author's Note

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I'm sorry I had to end it there. Thank you for the reviews! I love you guys, in a non freaky way, because that'll be weird? Lol, you guys are so awesome. I'll be posting another chapter right after my days after my classes end. Damn, I forgot, ano...I have classes starting on the fifth and I got exams, so I'll be posting the next chapter after the fourteen. I'll be posting other chapters for my other stories, check them out if you want to. I'll be ending A LONG Journey on the eighth, so I can work on In Another's Place and The Other Worlds of Us. If you guys have any questions and are confused, if you want me to pm you to explain this chapter, I will. Until then!

Yours Truly,

Fallen :)