Dead Inside But Still Alive

-By: FallenFan77

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Summary: At the beginning she was the only one who can see him. He was her temperamental, stubborn and overprotective ghost half dog demon. Not to mention possessive as well. He has fifty days left. What did it mean? Who is after them and what do they want. "I don't give two hells if I'm dead Kagome. I'll protect you and that's a damn promise," he said.

Disclaimer: I do NOT own Inuyasha!

Author's Note

I'm back...for this story! Sorry for the wait I had many projects and exams to do. Aw, tomorrow is school. Goodbye weekend, hello seven in the morning school. -.- Anyways, thank you everyone for telling me which story you want next. Which is...drumroll please. *dun dun duh dun dun!* The one with the most votes in a land slide was choice number...2! Enjoy the chapter!

Chapter 29

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"Kaede-sama, so he has left," Miroku said, looking at the elderly woman as she stared out the window. Her one good eye squinted, as if she were in deep thought.

"Yes, so it seems. The poor boy. They both are still troubled with the same problem that they had before he gave her that remedy," Kaede said.

"Miroku, tell me. Does he-"

"No, not at all. From what he's told me, he knows how he died. Apparently, Naraku set him up, sending a forged letter to him, saying that it was Kagome. You know how much Kagome loved to write letters," Miroku stated, cutting her off.

"Ay, so I've heard. The man is still a roach that needs to be squashed, yet you have to have the right shoe to do it," Kaede muttered.

Miroku only looked at the elder woman, wondering what she mean't by that, but merely shrugged it off with his shoulders.

"Where's Inuyasha?" Sango asked as she walked out with a little kit on her shoulder.

"Did he go to see Kagome?" Shippo questioned eagerly with a smile on his face. It has been such a long time since he seen her, he couldn't wait until she remembered him and the others.

His frown quickly disappeared at Miroku's words,"He's giving her the herbal tea Kaede made. Unfortunately I and neither could Kaede talk him out of it. He's made up his mind."

"Is he stupid or just knocked up in the head. I should stopped him from-" Sango said walking to the door, cracking her knuckles. Her eyes showed a glimpse of danger in them.

She was stopped when a hand rested on her shoulder,"It's not our business. He has made his decision, once we've dealt with Naraku. He'll go back to Kagome. One way or another, she'll remember some time, even if she truly forgets about him once he gives her the drink."

Sango looked down at the floor, clenching and unclenching her fist,"Damn that evil bastard, always ruining the lives of others."

"It's almost time," Miroku said, looking at the night, the clouds were getting darker. Sango stood next to him,"I know. It's time to end this, once and for all."

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Kagome looked up at the pale white ceiling above her. She closed her eyes and sighed heavily, Where did you go ghost boy? she smiled, I'm worried about a dead guy, but he isn't just some guy he's -

The feeling of someone watching her made her sit up on her bed and gasp, putting a hand over heart and breath heavily,"Inuyasha. You could've said something you know. Instead of going all Freddy Krueger on me."

Inuyasha smirked and crossed his arms. "Keh. Whatever wench." Kagome smiled and just when she was about to get up, a mind-breaking headache hit her hard. She whimpered in pain and fear.

Inuyasha quickly went to her side and placed a clawed hand on her back,"You okay?"

"I'm fine, it's just these crazy headaches I've been getting. Even with the dreams of you alive and well flashing in my head. Weird huh?" she said, giving him a reassuring smile. She knew how worried he must have been. She could see it in his eyes.

Inuyasha took her hand and guided her out. "Um, where are we going?" she asked.

He didn't answer her and then she knew she was being lead to the kitchen. A whole series of questions darted in her mind when he placed her by the counter.

"Inuyasha, what are you doing?" Kagome asked him, noticing him get out a coffee cup and place it on the counter.

My mom is going to think if she sees a coffee cup floating in mid-air, She thought. Kagome was about to go to him when he suddenly growled out the words,"Stay there."

Kagome put her hands in the air,"Okay mister cocky-all-of-a-sudden. I'll stay put like a good little puppy when it's told to sit," she let out a laugh.

She heard the words, 'stupid wench' and 'I ain't a dog' with a few curse words here and there as Inuyasha grumbled to himself.

Inuyasha slipped out a little bottom that was hidden in his haori, he looked back to see Kagome staring at the calendar and tapping her chin as if she were trying to figure something out.

"Only one drop of this and she will completely forget what has happened. Only one you hear me. If she gets anymore, she could be put in a one month coma for all I know. Once the color of the tea turns green then fades back to brown, you'll give it to her. I hope this is what you truly want Inuyasha. Just consider what will happen, what would you feel in her place?"

Inuyasha stared at the cup, the tea was fading back to brown, his eyes lowered, I would feel alone, out of place if this were happening to me. But I want to protect her, even if it means losing her entirely and for her to have a normal and happy life. The first time I did give her the drink, I didn't tell her how much I regretted it. How I felt about it, now for a second chance, I still won't be able to tell her, he thought.

Kagome walked over to him and she was ruffly brought into a tight embrace. Her face heated at how close he held her. She was quite shocked at first, but then she relaxed into his arms and hugged him back.

Something is troubling him. What's wrong with you Inuyasha? In your eyes I see sadness, I hope you do tell me what's wrong. She thought.

"Inuyasha?" she was answered with silence and he turned around to face her. She was startled with the sudden change of expression and blinked various times when she was given a cup with some kind of smelling drink coming from it when he had it in his hand right after he let her go from their little hug.

Kagome smelled it, even though she wasn't holding it close. She covered her nose and her eyes dilated at the putrid smell,"What are you giving me, poison? It stinks." She gagged at the smell and shivered in discomfort.

"Just drink it, it will...help you those headaches you've been complaining about," Inuyasha said to her. No matter how hard she tried to meet his eyes to know what was wrong with him, he'll just hide from her.

"Inuyasha, please look at me and tell me what's wrong. Did I do something?" She asked.

He scoffed,"Keh, no you did. I'll see you sometime, when you are better," he said, gliding away from her and to the window.

You didn't do anything wrong Kagome. I did or will do, as soon as you drink that herbal tea Kaede gave me, He thought.

Kagome looked at the tea and held her nose with one hand and the other held the cup and brought it up to her lips. She began to drink it, even though it smelled horrible, it didn't taste so bad. She was astounded and smiled at him,"Wow, that was great. You should tell my mom how you made that I...woah," she dropped the cup and fell forwards.

Inuyasha caught her and looked into her eyes. They were misty and watery as they looked into his golden orbs. "Inuyasha, this reminds me of the dream I had the other night. Deja vu, huh? I must have been very tired after all," she said hoarsely.

Kagome stared at him. "This was for your own protection," he whispered in her ear. But by the time he was about to gaze back into her eyes, they were already closed.

It was just like the first time. Inuyasha picked her up bridal style, her arm fell loosely to the side and she was peacefully asleep.

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Kaede and the others were seated by the table, none have said a word since their last conversation twenty minutes ago. They were all teared by their thoughts as they looked at the door and noticed Inuyasha hovering by it.

"I gave it to her, she's okay. Kagome's sleeping and won't remember anything," he said.

Sango turned away and looked to the opposite side,"She didn't have a say in it Inuyasha. If she knew what you did, you better be prepared. Who knows what could happen."

"I had no fucking choice. I don't want her dead. It's better that she doesn't remember me than get sucked into this damn mess," Inuyasha growled, his eyes flashing red and his fist clenched tightly at his side.

"Well, now that Kagome is safe and well. We should consider on finding out Naraku," Miroku said.

Inuyasha stayed quiet. He was given no choice to give the damn herbal tea to her. He would die a million times before he'd let her die. I promised to protect you and I gave you my word. I won't fucking break that promise. Alive or dead. It's a promise I tend to keep.

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Kagome stood by her door and looked out into the night sky. She let the breeze blow her hair back, her bangs flowed in front of her eyes.

"Sis, we are home. We brought some food, so come down and eat!" Kagome heard Souta shout from downstairs. She shouted an okay back and let out a sigh.

"Even if it was for my own protection, I will not be left out from our problem Inuyasha," she said out into the night.

"Naraku, your time is coming to an end. Because now that I remember everything, I know where to find you," Kagome said.

Author's Note

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It's coming! The ends coming! Or not...who knows? Except for me. Forgive me for this long wait. I had school and work and boy it's been stressful. I hope you liked it, don't forget to review. I'm writing a first chapter for the next story.