Sam was snoring lightly lying on her back she woke up and rubbed her eyes before opening them properly. Tom was lay awake next to her, watching her. She looked over at him "good morning" she said as she yawned and streched her arms out. "good morning to you beautiful" he said and leant over and kissed her gently then went back to watching her. "you're watching me sleep again..." she said as she itched her cheek then rested her arms down by her side. "am not" he smiled, rolling his eyes and rolled onto his back. "are too!" she muttered under her breath with a smile.
"You okay?" tom said taking her hand in his and lifting it upto his head and kissed the back of her hand once.
she looked at him knowing he was concerned about her. "Im fine tom...really" she said softly.
"Are you sure? you're face told me otherwise last night..."
"really tom, im fine...i was just a little painful at first. But it was worth it for a little bit of plesure huh?" she said stroking her thumb on his hand.
"we shouldn't have though; You know that its dangerous..." tom sighed as he turned onto his side again.
Sam sighed knowing that he was holding back his words. "im sorry okay...i was desperate!" she shrugged her shoulder like it didn't bother her.
"And the worst part is sam.. i can't say no to you!" tom expressed his adjetated feelings. "i tried that...and you still got your way!" he said stroking her arm now.
"well...if i behave, mabey in..oh i duno 2 days, we can try again?" she smirked unable to give up the one thing that made her long days fun to come home to.
"sam!" he said looking at her with serious eyes.
She sighed rolling her eyes "fine!..."
"Its not going to hurt the baby you know..." sam said stairing up at the ceiling. "Its not the baby im worried about" she exhaled aloud. Sam turned her head to look at him "you don't have to worry about me tom...im fine, Really!" she said and threw the covers back off her and got out of bed. She pulled her black silk nightgown over her thin slender body that only buldged at her stomach. She went down the stairs and threw some eggs into the frying pan for herself. Tom put on his jeans and walked down the stairs with a clean shirt on but open revealing his chest. He pulled a glass of water at the sink and looked over at sam. "Its not that i don't love you sam, but when we put our own sexual desires before the risk of your life, and by we, i mean you!" he said now stood behing her his hands on his waist as he spoke beside her ear softly. "We can't do it again...not until its safe" he told her, kissed her forhead then moved out of the kitchen space. Sam had just stared into space whilst he'd spoken to her.
Sam cooked and ate her eggs on toast then went and got dressed in a pair of leggins, comfy top and long boots. She threw her bag over her shoulder "im going out.." she said slamming the door slightly as she went to her car. She drove into town and stopped getting out she walked along the highstreet looking in each window until about half way along she stopped at a baby shop and just gazed in. She watched the dozen mothers in there playing with their babies and picking out clothes. Sam face was pure envy. The thought that she would never see her child grow up because either one or both of them could die at birth was getting to her. She imagined her daughter about 5 years old with long dark hair and bright green eyes, toms nose and sams smile. She smiled at the though of it then walked on. She went around a few shops and bought Some foods that was missing from her cupboards that she needed to make tonights dinner. She walked back towards her car carrying the one full carrier bag of shopping, once again she stoped at the door, she didn't plan to go in but then this woman not much older than herself held the door open for her with a smile as she was leaving the shop "thank you" sam said and went in.
She looked around slowly stood just inside when this older woman in her 50's mabey, came over to sam "hi love, what do you need?" she asked politetly. A reason people person with a love for pregnancy and children. "err...i don't know" sam said feeling a little on the spot. "What do you mean? surly you know what you've came in for, you look like you are going to have that baby any time soon!" she said assuming sam had already done most of her baby shopping because her bump was quite big and most parents begin shopping early. "I...i...i have no idea what i need! I've never done this...the whole baby shopping thing. or the baby thing either" she added looking at her. "my baby is going to need things right? nappies...clothes..that sort of stuff? do you think you could help me?" sam asked seeing the tuns of different sizes and makes, styles and colours. It was almost daugnting to her. "sure..course we can" the older woman turned and walked along, picking up stuff as she went she handed sam bottles, dummies, teething rings, newborn nappies. "sorry cheriee" she said having nearly bumped into a young coloured woman who was holding a little baby boy in her arms. Sam smiled looking at the baby then continued with the baby shopping that she hadn't intended to do. The older woman gabbled on about the different types of bottle teets and stuff like that "boy or girl?" she asked as they came to the clothes section. "ehh girl?" sam replied trying to take in the 100s of different information she'd been giving her about feeding and changing, creams and oils for their skins. The woman handed her a red & white soft onsie with a matching hat and a packet of baby vests. A couple other things and they went to the counter. Sam had spent 450 on baby stuff but she didnt mind, she just stuck her card into the machine and paid. now carrying a dozen bags she went to her car then went home.
Tom had gone out earlier just after sam. He'd gone to make sure she wasnt working! Sam came home and put everything away filling the drawers with baby clothing, she set out the baby shampoo, talc powder, baby wipes and nappies nearly across the top of the dresser which had a changing station directly to the side of it witha red,white,orange and green spotty chaning mat ontop. She pulled out the bottles and lined them up ready to be used along with a carton of newborn organic powder milk she'd bought. "Sam?" tom called from the bottom of the stairs having just walked in, he came upstairs and found sam in the nursery on her knees rumaging in one of the dresser drawers. She shut it once he'd came in.
"Sam? where you been...i was worried?"
"Someone had to do the baby shopping" she said bluntly.
Tom sighed knowing that sam was hill bent on saving their babies life instead of her own. But tom would always choose sam over their unborn child. She knew that!
"you have to make sure that you use the right amout of scoops" she said tapping the milk. "and always, always use the baby lothian after her baths okay!" sam said telling him this like she wasn't going to be around to do it herself.
"sam stop! okay just stop." tom said firmly in annoyance as he stepped inside the room a few stops "stop acting like your not going to be here! stop acting like i could love that baby if you die! just stop ..pretending that 'thats the way things are going to go!" tom said turning and walking out.
The next few hours were brital. They barley spoke to each other for the next few weeks. Sam continued working the 3 days a week and then resting the other days. She attended regular scans to keep an eye on her placenta. With every new scan picture she pinned them onto the fridge with a magnet.