This one is from Carlisle's point of view. I thought you might want to know what's going on in that brilliant mind of his. It isn't all that great but, I tried. For some reason it was really hard writing him. I am going back to Bella after this one.

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Rosalie was with Esme today. No doubt designing a wedding dress for one of her clients. Rosalie likes helping out with the planning. Alice and the rest of the family arrived back home shortly after them. Our time together was over for now. I now had to face my family, especially Alice, and my loving wife. This was going to be difficult.

I walked down to my study on the second floor. I closed the door behind me and collapsed into my chair. I had to think about what we just did. I heard Rosalie try to get Bella out of the house. Apparently, more shopping for Bella. I also heard jasper and Emmett rough housing once again. If they didn't stop soon they would break something. That would not go over well with Esme.

"Emmett, Jasper, take it outside now!" I announced. They heard me despite my voice being no louder than my normal level. I heard a few grumbles then silence.

After two seconds, the only thing that alerted me to their departure was the sound of the closing door.

I started to type up the new article I was working on. It was about one of my newest surgical techniques. I was planning on having published in a couple of medical journals. It could help so many people if the word could get out.

I was on my third paragraph when I heard a knock at my door. I recognized the scents; Esme, and Bella. Together? This can't be good in a couple different ways. I also thought I smelt another scent, maybe Rosalie's. "Come in Ladies," I invited. This will be the real test. I hope we can pull this off.

The door opened and the three women I was expecting walked in; Bella, Esme, and Rosalie. From the smile on Rose and Esme's faces this meant they were dragging my new lover shopping. I will have to help cheer her up after this outing. "My wallet's going to hurt because of this isn't it?" I joked. The scary thing was they laughed in response.

I had to let them go. I couldn't not give in. I did see the pleading look on Bella's face though. She truly didn't want to go.

"Where are you guys going this time? Nowhere out of state I hope," I asked. They have a tendency to go overboard. Wait, where's Alice?

"Nop, just Seattle," Rosalie practically screamed with excitement.

"Okay, just two things. One, keep it under $8,000," I started. I was curious about how much they were planning on spending. Rose's face fell. Clearly she was the mastermind of this trip.

"Ugh! Fine!" she muttered dejectedly.

I had to laugh at her tone. "Two, why isn't Alice going with you guys?"

"Um, she said she wanted to hunt. She didn't think it would be a good idea to be around so many humans. It never stopped her before though," she concluded.

"That doesn't sound like Alice, but okay." I knew what she was doing. I'll have to thank her later.

"Have fun," I started to shoo them out of my private sanctuary. They all ran out and within two seconds flat they were in the car.

Emmett, Rosalie, Jasper, Esme; all of them were gone. I wish Bella hadn't had to join them but, we were just family to them. There was no reason for here to stay behind.

God, what am I doing? Cheating on my wife of over one hundred and fifty years. How could I do such a thing to the woman who loves me? Esme, my wife for so long; can I do this to her? My heart says yes, but my mind is torn. I want to stay faithful, but there is an attraction between the two of us that I couldn't deny existed. It felt like gravity pulling us together. Not until lately have I felt this way about Bella. That is why I had to avoid her like the plague. I didn't want to give in, but I wasn't strong enough. I had to give in to temptation. Ignoring it was like trying to outrun fate.

Looking back on our first experience together, I can't say I regret in and I want to continue what we have. But everything I have been taught says not to continue. I wish this was easier. I love both of them but, in different ways. Why can't this be simpler?

I was shaken from my thoughts by my pixie daughter standing in the doorway. Her high heel clad foot was tapping in an annoyed fashion. Oh this cannot be good.

She pushed off the frame and strutted over to sit in the chair in front of my desk. She glared at me and I am not ashamed to admit that she scared me to death.

"Alice, what seems to be the problem?" I asked trying to break the ice. From the way Alice was acting I wouldn't be surprised if she pulled a lighter and killed me then and there.

"What's wrong? What's wrong?! I can't stand the images I am getting right now. I love you both so much, but I don't think I can handle this," she whined at the final word. I could see she had been worried about this conversation. We might as well get it over with.

"Alice, please calm down. I am truly sorry but, I love Bella. I think I love her more than Esme. I know it probably will tear this family apart. I just don't think I have the strength to say no anymore," I admitted to her. From her reaction to that I don't think she literally saw that coming.

"Carlisle! This is our family. For some of is it is all we have. You can't just turn your' back on it!" she screamed.

"You think I want this family to fall apart?! I love every single one of you! I am scared. That is true. But you don't think Bella is too?" I fired back at my daughter. She stood up out of her chair and so did I. I put my hands on my desk to brace myself. I tried to control the anger that was now building up inside of me. I didn't want to break my beautiful desk.

"Somehow I don't believe that. It looks to me, as of right now, that you would do anything for this, this fling!" she spat at me. We were both screaming. This conversation had become an all out verbal fight. It wasn't too far away from getting physical either. I couldn't let it get that far.

"How could you ever think that? This family is my number one priority. It always has been!" I countered back. I leaned over the desk, closer to the pixie without even knowing it.

"I think that because that's all I see; the two of you running away from us!" she cried out at me.

"The only reason I would do that would be if I saw no other way! I don't think that time wall ever come too!" I declared.

"I think it will!" she huffed.

"Alice, I never thought I would see the day that I would not listen to you but, it has come. I can't see the future, unlike you, but I don't ever plan on leaving! I do not know what I am doing here though. I have never done or thought of doing anything close to this before!" I started to try to explain to her.

"I can't help you. I already told you that! I don't want to wreck our friendship, but I also am not going to stop you. I am not going to interfere in anyway. I guess what I am saying is you are going to have to do this the human way. No supernatural help; not from me," she replied starting to calm down marginally. She sat down again looking exhausted. I took my seat feeling the same way. I was somewhat confused though.

"So what does that exactly mean?" I asked. She raised an eyebrow at me then continued.

"It means that I'm not going to tell you guys when you will have some alone time. I won't tell you if I see you guys getting caught. Basically, we will never say anything about this to each other again, okay?" she asked me.

"You would really do that to me?" I asked hurt. She has always stood behind every single one of us not matter what we do. Now she was abandoning us. This really hurts to hear.

"It hurts me to have to do this to both of you, especially Bella. I just feel it's the right thing for me to do." She stood up then and headed to the door.

Before she left I had to say something, "Thank you for everything you have done for both of us."

She turned around and walked over to my desk. She leaned down and hugged me briefly. I hugged her back and then she disappeared. I had a feeling she was going to go find the guys or hunt.

Once I thought she was far gone I leaned back in my chair and tried to relax. I took a few deep breaths. It did help because, I was feeling better. I straightened myself up and pulled back to the desk. I resumed typing my newest article.

I was so engrossed in my writing that I didn't hear the window open and feet land softly on the floor. I only realized there was another body in the room when her hands covered my eyes and she whispered, "Hello Doctor," in my ear. I chuckled and so did she. She also removed her hands and spun me around to face her.

"Hey Bells," I greeted. She smiled and grabbed my right hand. She pulled me up with my captured limb. I pulled her closer to me with it and freed my hand. Both of my hands fell to rest on her hips. We closed the distance between us and kissed, long and passionate. Her arms wrapped around my neck and her fingers started to play with the ends of my hair. I can't say no to this. I do have to tell her about Alice though.

I broke the kiss; pulling away only a few inches. I had to start this conversation before I couldn't concentrate anymore. It wouldn't be long either.

"We have to talk about Alice," I paused, "she was less than pleased." I tried to explain what just happened. She removed her hands from my neck and rested them around my waist also. We mirrored each other.

"What did she say?" she asked appearing scared. I could feel her body reacting to the stress. She tensed.

"After the yelling and throwing accusations at me, she said she wasn't going to help us or even talk to us about it anymore," I concluded. I could see the hurt in her eyes. She even mumbled something along the lines of, "Why Alice?" it was quiet, but I heard it. Downstairs, Alice apparently hadn't left, even heard it. We could both hear her exhale sharply. It almost sounded like a sob. I was hoping Bella hadn't heard it. I fear she did nevertheless.

"Carlisle, I'm very sorry; so sorry. We don't hand to continue," she started to weep tearlessly.

"No, it's okay. We will just have to be careful. Okay?" I asked, trying to look her in the eyes unfortunately; her head was leaned down. I was worried about her. I put one hand under her chin and lifted it up. Our gazes locked then.

"Okay," she said nervously. She said it almost as if she was unsure which appeared to be the case. I saw her working through the options quickly in her mind. After about five seconds I saw her eyes clear up. That indicated she had made her decision. She was smiling at me.

"I'm sorry Bella," I apologized again. She looked so guilty it hurt.

"So Alice will know but, won't tell anybody?" she asked trying to clarify things.

"They won't find out by me!" we both heard the pixie scream up at us. Apparently she wasn't going to leave.

"Thanks Alice," I said sourly.

"Well this should be interesting," she joked. She was back to her happy normal self again.

"So, why are you here?" I asked. Wasn't she supposed to be shopping?

"I told them I wanted to come home and meet up with Alice," she smirked.

"We have a little more time alone together today," I pursued.

"I have something I was hoping you would do with me." she was obviously nervous but, what about eluded me.

"What would that be?" I asked, genuinely curious about her plans.

"I wanted to visit Charlie's grave. Would you go with me?" She peered at me with sad eyes again and bit her bottom lip. I could tell she had been thinking about doing this for a long time.

I leaned in to kiss her and responded, "Of course, Bella."

Sorry it took so long! I hope you liked the look into Carlisle's mind! I am diffinately going back to Bella though. I prefer her. Please tell me what you think! I know there are probably a lot of mistakes so sorry about that! I wanted to get this up quick.

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