Smiling again, I awkwardly looked around the living room again, my eyes falling on the quilt laying in front of the fireplace. All I could think about was the things that had happened on that quilt, in this cabin. My body was wanting some action, but my mind knew it was going to have to wait, possibly for a long time. I shifted on the couch, for the millionth time, and looked back at Dimitri, a smile gracing both our faces as once again neither of us could say anything. The drive over had been similar, other than the fact that he held my hand the entire time. Now we had lapsed into a silence that was smothering both of us, and it was going to have to end soon.
"You look great tonight Rose, you really do." I looked back to Dimitri whose hands were twitching on his lap. He like I was trying to stop his hands from reaching out to me. Deep down I wished he would just reach over and touch me, but I knew it was not that easy. It was the same thing that was stopping me from reaching for him.
"Thanks. It's really not that great of a dress." I looked down at myself, knowing the dress looked good, but I had not lied it was nothing fancy. I had actually only paid ten bucks for it.
"I think it has more to do with the person wearing it." He chuckled lightly and my smile fell. I had missed his laugh so much. I had missed him so much.
"Roza." His hands finally reached out and he caught mine in his. "I am so sorry love. I should have talked to you. I should have given you a chance to say something, anything to me. Instead I decided on my own, what was to happen to our relationship. I am so sorry."
His apology was what I had been looking for, but I still needed to tell him how it had all made me feel. His words, his actions, they had hurt, and he had to know. He had to understand that something like that could never happen again. I loved him, and respected him, he had to respect me too if this was going to work. I pulled my hands away from his and stood up. I paced in front of him, and finally let my anger give way.
"Do you have any idea how that all made me feel?" He flinched back, my voice was loud, angry. I gave him no time to answer before I continued. "You tossed me aside, like some trash. You decided things, for both of us. You had told me we would do everything together, yet you decided something so big without me. Never gave me a chance to explain and or say anything." He stood up and stepped towards me, but I stepped further back.
"No stop right there. Let me finish!" My voice rang through the cabin, I knew my tone was harsh but he had to hear me out. I was not going to back down now, I had too much anger built up.
"OK I'm sorry." He sat back down and looked at me intently. I knew he was going to listen, and I knew better than to think he would interrupt.
"You joined the guardians. You left me! I know we had only been together for five months, but I lived with you. I thought we would make choices together, like a real couple should. And then you go and never call, never text, NOTHING!" My breathing was coming out in pants, my voice nearly a scream.
"I loved you so much. I would have done anything for you. How do I know you'll never do that to me again? How can I trust you, when you clearly did not trust me?" My legs gave way and I fell to the floor, landing on the quilt. Big tears filled my eyes and sobs sneaked out between my lips. I hated yelling at him, but it was necessary. He had to know what he had done, I was sure he knew, but my words had to be said.
"Roza I am so sorry. I never meant to hurt you. I never meant to cause you pain." Dimitri kneeled in front of me, cupping my face. "I made a mistake, one I will spend forever trying to fix. I love you Rose. You are not trash, I should have known better. I should have talked to you. I never wanted to make you feel like this. I thought I was doing what was best for you. I cannot make excuses, you deserved better and still do." His eyes held hurt and regret. He meant his words. And as mad as I was I could not let him go. He made a mistake just like I had, and I could not lose him over something this stupid.
"Can we start over? Can you give me a chance? I'll tell you everything, every thought, everything. I will never decide a thing without you. You mean the world to me Roza. I have gone crazy without you. I feel guilty. I feel like a horrible man." He hung his head, and it was my turn to comfort him. The talking was now down, I knew from this moment on everything would change, forever.
Instead of using words, I gave in to the feeling that was swirling inside of me. I reached up and brought his face to mine, our lips meeting in a fiery blaze. I locked my fingers in his shorter hair, and although I missed it long I had missed feeling it most. The moment his lips met mine everything that had happened did not matter. We had both messed up, we both had a lot more to talk about, but for now, we needed each other. In the end we were going to make things work out, in the end I was his, just like he was mine. The kiss picked up and I soon felt my back hit the ground. The soft quilt softening the blow and Dimitri landing over me.
Our lips never parted, the kiss growing with every passing second. My body craved his so badly, I wanted him, no I needed him. He was my other half, and for the last month I had been going through withdrawals. Our hands worked in a frenzy, him touching every inch he could, as I struggled to take off his suit jacket. I needed to feel his skin, I needed him. I had thought I needed him before, but I was wrong. I had to have him tonight or I was sure I would die.
"I love you so much Roza." Dimitri's lips took possession of my jaw, ear, and neck. His kisses hard and hungry, but I loved it, it felt so fucking good. If anything his roughness made this that much better.
"God, Dimitri I love you!" I finally took his jacket off and soon was working on his buttons. I needed his shirt off and fast.
His hands found the hem of my dress and he pulled it up higher and higher, until he finally had it off. He tossed it behind him, and it was soon forgotten. He took a moment to look down at me and study my features, his eyes darkening, a small smile on his lips. His look made me feel so sexy.
"You're beautiful, so beautiful." His hands grazed my stomach and I shivered. He smirked at me and I sat up, working on his buttons again.
"This needs to come off, now!" My fingers were not working, I was half way done and they just could not work anymore. His hands pulled mine away as he ripped the shirt off himself.
"You want something beautiful, look at this." I reached forward, and splayed my hands on his chest.
He pushed me back down on the quilt and his lips crashed onto mine. The touching heated up, and his hands cupped my breasts. My bra was gone before I could even wish he would take it off. His bare chest against mine was the most amazing feeling. The heat off his skin warmed mine, and sent a chill through me all at the same time. It was like my whole world was merging together, I had no idea where was up, what was down. All I could think of was us, Dimitri and I.
"Take off your pants." It was muffled but he knew what I was asking of. And he was more than willing to comply.
He stood up quickly unbuckling himself, as his pants pooled at his feet. He was a fucking god, he looked way too good to be real, but he was. I stood up just as quickly and decided I wanted his briefs off as well. And what a sight I revealed. He was so gorgeous. His muscles had looked so sexy before, but now, it was even more. He had bulked up nicely, and now had a V defined into his lower abs. A moan left my lips and he attacked me again. This time he picked me up and led me into the bedroom, well at least he tried. I wrapped my legs around his waist, and made sure my lips never left him.
A wall hit my back, but it brought about pleasure with its pain. We now both moaned. His hands snaked around my hips and he again tried to make it to the bedroom again. This time we hit a shelf. You would think something like that would hurt, but it was anything but that. This was rough, and playful, and it made me want him even more. I needed him, inside of me, and very soon. I was about to burst. He backed up slightly and we hit his second bookcase.
"Ah Gawd!" How could something like this be so fucking hot. His lips connected with my neck and he sucked roughly. More moans left me, and I ground my hips into his. Books fell, along with a picture but we had no time to care.
Finally Dimitri made it through the bedroom door, he dropped me roughly on the bed. And soon hoovered over me taking in the sight below him. I knew what he would see, I was still me but better. I had picked up running even more, my legs toned to the max, I had even started to get a V on my abs as well, not as defined but it was there.. I had trained with Christian, taken self defense classes as well. I guess the time away had given us both time to work on our bodies. Not that there was anything wrong with them before. But now we could find new ways to work out, and I liked this a lot better.
Dimitri reached out to my hips and started to slid my little thong down my legs. His eyes took in every move he made and his tongue darted out to lick his lips. An action that told me just how hungry for me he was. I took the time to look at him and study his features as well. Dimitri was fucking sexy as hell, and he was all mine. He had always been mine, we had just hit a speed bump. Something we would have to work on never hitting again.
"I need you Roza." His lips met mine again, this time there was something else in the kiss. Dimitri was letting his lust for me shine through, making my need for him grow, making the ache in my core almost painful.
"I need you, too." And I did. I thought doing it with Dimitri would be more romantic. Maybe he would take me out, or make me dinner. I thought our first time wouldn't be after a break, but thinking about it did not matter.
I always knew Dimitri was the one. I knew he was the one I wanted to do everything with, and I still felt that way. I wanted him to be my first and my last. I was young yes, but deep down inside there would never be anyone for me but Dimitri. No other man would ever match up to him. And I never wanted anyone else to. I had never been so certain of something my entire life. This man had done things to and for me that no one else had.
"Are you sure?" Dimitri pulled back to study my face, like always he would do nothing with me if I wasn't 100% sure. And I was, this was the most certain I had ever been.
"I love you, you love me. I've never been more sure Dimitri." He looked at me for a few moments more before he brought his mouth back to mine. The kiss was breath taking.
The hunger and fire was still there in the kiss, but now there was something else. The kiss was sensual, he was telling me how much he loved me through it. There was no doubt in my mind that Dimitri did not feel what I was feeling. This moment, this time was perfect. My body was eager to have him, my inner walls already clenching.
"I love you Roza. I'm sorry." Before I could answer him Dimitri reached down with his left hand and slowly touched my lower lips.
A loud moan left me, I had missed this feeling so much. Dimitri was so good at what he did, and he knew exactly how to work my body. His skilled fingers found my nerve bundle and he gave it a playful rub. Moisture rushed in between my legs and Dimitri groaned when he noticed just how wet and ready I was. Because just like I knew, he knew this was all for him. No one else would ever make me this wet, or feel this good.
"You have one more lesson for me Comrade." His lust filled eyes met mine and he nodded.
"You're right I do." Two long and strong fingers made their way inside of me. He slowly pumped them in and out and made eye contact with me. "Fourth base, full sexual intercourse. But it is so much more than that Roza. With this I can show you everything I feel." His speed picked up now, his thumb swirling over my clitoris.
My moans were hard heavy pants. A coil building inside me that was begging to snap. His mouth attached to my hard nipples as he brought me closer and closer to the edge. Soon my hips joined his hand motions as I helped him help me. I had never grown this daring before, but the action made everything feel so much better. Dimitri detached from my left breast and made his way downward. His own lips connecting with my lower ones, sending even more bliss through me.
"Oh god!" My body shivered and I was barely able to keep my hips moving. Barely, but I kept the pace, it was too good to stop.
"Let go Rrrrozzza." Ah fuck, I had forgotten how amazing he sounded saying my name. The extra R's sending vibrations through my needy body.
I did exactly what he asked of me. I let go, I let myself get lost in the pleasure he was giving me. And at that moment I felt nothing bad. Everything wonderful, amazing, and just good filled my body, as Dimitri licked, fingered, and pleasured me. Stars exploded, galaxies were made. Fuck the world spun an extra time. My breathing now completely labored, but the feeling inside me was just too great, I never wanted to let it go.
Dimitri's lips met mine, and I tasted myself on him. I sucked hungrily on his lips. He had just brought me to the best orgasm yet, and I knew I just knew it would only get better from here. He settled himself between my legs, using his knees to open me up for him. I could feel his throbbing cock on my inner thigh as he slowly moved his hips looking for some friction. Friction I was craving as well. How could I still want more after what he had just done?
"Are you sure Roza?" He stopped kissing me and looked me in the eyes. "I can wait, I can be happy with what we just did."
"I'm more than sure Dimitri. I want you, no I need you." To drive my point even further, I reached around and grabbed his ass, causing him to fall forward. His tip rubbing against my still throbbing wet core.
Dimitri then nodded, and aligned himself. He inched himself inside me slowly, allowing me the time to adjust to him. I knew from his pained face he wanted to go faster, but he was being considerate of the fact that as soon as he thrust all the way in it may cause me pain. The feeling of him filling me was something I knew I would never grow use to, and I didn't want to. It was amazing, it was like he was filling that last empty spot. He fit perfectly, even though he was so damn fucking big. He pulled out before he hit my barrier, and eased himself in again. The feeling was overwhelming. My body was aware, very aware of him filling me. A soft moan left my lips and Dimitri used that as his chance. He thrust all the way in, and I felt a tare inside of me. It was nothing like what I was expecting though. It stung yes, but the pain was bearable.
"I love you Roza." I opened my eyes and was met with Dimitri's gorgeous chocolate brown ones. His emotions clear as day.
"I love you Dimitri." And I did, we did. The love we had for each other was more than showing. We loved each other and what we were doing was only proof of that.
Dimitri had stopped the moment he broke my barrier, and now after his confession of love he kissed me. My hands went to the back of his neck and pulled him closer. I kissed him back and tried to focus on the pleasure, not pain. Dimitri's hips moved as he kissed me and soon the pain morphed into pleasure. His once hurtful cock, turned into something that was filling me, pleasing me.
"God Dimitri." My hips rose up to meet his, and he took it as a sign to speed up.
His paced picked up and I was now so aware of the pleasure coursing through me. It was strange to think that this was nothing like all the things we had done before. His dick brought me pleasure that neither his mouth or fingers could. No there was something about him filling me to the brim that brought out something else, something stronger.
"Nugh Dimitri!" My legs wrapped around his waist, the action causing him to slip in even further. How was that even possible?
"Fuck Rrrrroozzaa." Dimitri's hips moved with purpose. "You feel so good." Fuck I felt good? What about him? His body on mine, his manhood in me.
Our moans and groans filled the room. The sound of skin against skin was oddly satisfying. Sweat was starting to form on both of us, only adding to the fact that we were so close. Dimitri looked between us and I followed suit. The sight of him going in and out of me was the sexiest thing I had ever seen. I moaned at the sight and vowed I wanted to see more of that more often.
Dimitri must have liked the sight too because impossibly his pace picked up. Along with his speed Dimitri's thrusts became stronger, harder. And once again I was shocked at how that could feel so fucking good. He grabbed one of my calfs bringing it to his shoulder, and I screamed. He knew better than to stop though, the scream was exactly what he had been looking for. He had found a spot that I did not even know I had.
It was then that I noticed that my lips were going numb, a tingle running through my body. This was going to be the strongest, greatest orgasm known to man. His pace picked up again, and his cock kept hitting that spot over and over again. There was no filter to my mouth as curse after curse left my lips. My loud moans filled the small cabin, but I had no time to care. Why would I care when the greatest pleasure was going through me, and Dimitri was the one bringing it upon me.
"Fuck Rrrrrooozzza." Dimitri's free hand reached down and started playing with my bundle. And if I thought he was bringing pleasure before, now I had no idea what the hell he was bringing me.
"OH FUCK!" My body shook and Dimitri held onto my calf tighter.
"That's it Rrrrozza, give into it." Give into it? I had no choice but to. The feeling was all I could think about, all I could feel. "Fuck you look so good. Feel so good!"
"Dimitri, Dimitri, DIMITRI!" My world then spun out of control and I crashed into something. Something that consumed me, something that... that... that...
"Rrrrroozzza!" Dimitri's voice brought me back, and it was then that I noticed he had climaxed too. He brought my leg down and almost crashed onto me, he barely stopped himself.
He reached my lips with his and we both kissed like it was our last time. His hips were still moving, him helping us both ride out our orgasms. I was slowly coming back down to earth, but I was still feeling heavenly. His lips were soft on mine, the kiss was more us trying to calm down, trying to breath properly.
"I love you."
"As I love you."
Dimitri pulled out slowly and laid down next to me. He reached out for me and brought me to his chest, while he planted a small kiss on my head. His body was sweaty and sticky, but I could not get enough of him. What we had just done, was something so perfect, so amazing. I had been right, he was the one. I would remember this for the rest of my life. What Dimitri and I had was something I could never forget, and I would never want to.
"Lets take a shower." I tried to stand up, but he insisted on carrying me.
In the shower he was gentle and loving, washing every part of me slowly. He took care of me like I would break at any second. While I wasn't as gentle with him. I scrubbed and tugged at him, but he did not seem to mind. After the shower he insisted on us going in his hot tub.
"It will make everything less sore in the morning love." I giggled at his logic but let him drop me in while he went to go get something for us to drink.
His hot tub was outside, it over looked the lake. It was the perfect place to end such an amazing night. It was then and there that I noticed that Dimitri and I did not need to talk anymore about us, and how to fix us. What we had just done proved to me that everything was going to be just fine. Yes, we had to talk about other things, but our relationship was no longer in question. I loved him, he loved me. We would work it out and that is all that mattered.
"What you thinking about?" Dimitri sneaked in behind me, pulled me closer to him. His naked body feeling amazing against mine, that was equally as naked. He handed me a glass of wine and wrapped an arm around my waist.
"Us."
"I know we need to talk Roza. I really am so sorr..." I stopped him before he could finish.
"That's not what I was thinking about. Dimitri I know we should talk more about it, but I don't want to. I love you. You love me. What we just did was the talking." I turned around in his arms and cupped his face with my empty hand. "As long as I know we can be together and you will talk to me when something comes up, that is all I need."
"I promise." He kissed me softly and I once again turned around my back fitting perfectly against his chest.
"I haven't learned anything yet." Dimitri cleared his throat. "With the guardians. I did the training and now just only got a assigned a job."
"What job is that?" I was curious as to what Abe would assign him, but scared at the same time.
"Abe wants me to work closely with him. He says he doesn't want to give me a guarding job, at least not yet. He said that we would be working on bringing my family to the states this coming week." I nodded only and took a sip of the cool pink wine.
"Adrian isn't as lucky though. Abe already got him an assignment. Adrian was just complaining and complaining all day yesterday. He can be such a whiner sometimes." I could not help but laugh. "What's so funny?"
"Nothing its just that now you and Adrian are like best friends, never thought I would see the day." He chuckled at this too, and I felt the rumble go through his chest.
"Yes, I know. It is crazy. But he joined to help me you know." I was slightly startled by this.
"What do you mean?"
"He joined to make sure I was fine. He really felt bad about what he had done. He apologized more times than I could count. He said he wanted to show me he was not a threat. He's nothing like what I thought he was." Taking another sip of wine before I said anything I let the silence consume us.
"You think the guardians are, well not the bad guys?" I had started to guess this on my own, but I needed Dimitri to confirm it.
"I don't think they are as bad as we were thinking, but there is something they are hiding. I haven't even come close to guessing. But I know soon enough we will find out. Nothing can stay hidden forever." Dimitri took a sip of his own wine before he continued.
"The only thing I have heard about is something called the Society. The guardians seem to hate them. But I cannot seem to figure out who or what they are." My conversation with Christian crossed my mind.
"Christian said something about them." Dimitri tensed behind me but said nothing. "He said his parents ran away from them, something about his whole other family being involved. He didn't make them out to be good."
"I'll look more into it Rose. Don't worry about it. I am sure we can figure it out." I set my glass down and moved away from Dimitri turning to study his face.
"Together right?" He smiled at me and reached for me, but not before throwing his glass over the edge.
"Always together Roza." He kissed me softly and pulled away quickly. "You and I are together in everything from now on. No secrets, no lies, and no rash decisions. I cannot be without you ever again."
"Good." I hugged him close to me, and took a moment to make a wish that everything we had said would be true.
"So how about tomorrow we go and get your things. Its been so lonely here with out you." Dimitri's smile fell and he looked sad. "I mean if that is what you want."
"Tomorrow we shall go get my stuff from Christians." I kissed him as a smile once again graced his lips. "I would also like my job back." He laughed at this.
"The job is yours. You can be the big boss while I am not there." I nodded my approval. "But right now I need you."
"Ohhh I've always wondered what it would be like to do it in the hot tub." I inched closer to Dimitri until I was straddling his lap.
"You sure you're not too sore?" Dimitri's crooked smile made me hit his arm lightly.
"I'm never too tired or sore for you." I felt his erection under me and reached down to guide it.
I felt his tip at my entrance and eased myself down on him. Once again the feel of him in me was so new, so amazing. It hurt a bit because I was actually sore, but I did not care. He filled me and I moaned softly. His hands held my hips tightly as he brought my body upwards and then back down onto him. He was showing me what I needed to do, what he wanted. I started to work my body over his, and my head fell in the crook of his neck. I loved being close to him like this. I loved that now we had one more way to express our love for each other.
"God Rrroza. You are amazing." My pace picked up and Dimitri hissed. I loved that I could bring him pleasure this way. And I also loved how I could use him to bring about my own. Love was becoming my word for the night, and people may think it was corny, but love was what this was all about.
We worked slowly with each other, taking our time to enjoy this moment. The natural drop back of the location only made this whole situation that much better. I loved him so much. And I loved what him and I could have. I could now picture us doing this forever. And yes, many would think it was crazy, but I pictured, marriage and kids, and a happiness that I could only get by being with him. Dimitri was the only one I wanted, and I knew he would be the only one I would ever want.
"Rrroza." His soft breath flowed against me and I looked into his eyes. What I saw mirrored what I was feeling.
"Dimitri." It was all I could say. It was all I could feel. My world was him. And deep down I knew it would only and always be him. Everything in the end would be about Dimitri and I.
Awe well they are back together... They finally did it... And they are happy! What more could you ask for? Oh yea, who is the Society? Will Dimitri's family make it over? And most of all who liked their first time? Was it ok? Do you want more? And will everything remain well? Thank you all again for the amazing reviews... Give me some time to work on the next chapter... I'm actually going to work on another chapter for My Lolita Hey and No regrets... So until next time...