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Dimitri's POV
You have to understand that I never meant to hurt her. I never once meant for anything to spiral out of control. My life had for the most part seemed so perfect. I had a very successful bakery. Even though my family was not here, they were safe, and for the most part happy. I was finally starting to make some friends, something that had not happened in the year I had been here. And best of all I had found love. I had nothing to complain about, but yet I could not help that something was missing.
Abe telling me that my father was not that man I had grown up knowing was a harder hit for me than I could handle. You have to understand that my father was my hero, or so I had thought he was. It seemed like my entire life had been taken and torn to pieces right in front of me. The worse part was knowing there was nothing I could do about it. What was done was done, and questions were going to be asked but have no answers. Or so I thought.
Abe had yet to give me any information that would do much for me, but he had given me enough to reel me in. Not only that but he was trying to get my family into the states. And I needed them more than I was willing to admit. My sisters had always driven me insane, but I loved them, I missed them. And my mother, she was the best thing in my life, well until Rose walked into it. I was just so confused, so frustrated that I acted before I thought.
I had figured that Rose needed some time, I could see how me agreeing to join the guardians would seem like a betrayal to her. I figured she would run off soon coming back to me so we could talk. I had been wrong though, she got in a car with Adrian and days pasted before I would see her. I never planned on breaking up with her. No, I had planned on telling her we needed space, that maybe joining the guardians would be a good thing.
I will not lie, I did tell Lissa she may need to take Rose away. But it had never been my real plan. I planned on talking to her letting her know what was on my mind, but figured she would end up coming back home, our home. That was until Adrian called me and told me he had kissed her. There was something about that damn man that made me, or well use to make me feel so insecure. He had money, a full functional family, and he did really love Rose.
So you have to understand why that kiss, that meaningless kiss hurt me so much. I asked for a break, I stayed away, never calling, or anything because I thought it was for the best. But I missed her so much. It hurt so much to be without her, to think that I would never have her again. The pain that coursed through me was too much and most days I thought it would kill me.
Oddly enough Adrian had been the one to make me feel better. Him joining the guardians had completely caught me off guard. The boy was anything but a hands on kind of man, but he somehow managed to complete the training. Though I will not lie, I helped him out a lot. He helped me too. He apologized regularly, and would let me rant on about anything and everything that was bothering me.
In the end it was not what I needed. Late at night I would lie awake, even if I was beyond exhausted, and just think of her. I needed Rose in my life like I needed air. It was just not possible to live without her. The problem was I had no idea how to approach her, how to get her back. I figured she hated me, and would send me to me to hell and back if I tried to get any where near her. Once again I had Adrian to thank for me not falling apart.
My mind came back to me as the front door opened and a familiar voice rang through. I froze in my spot, and debated running away. How could I face her after everything I had done. It was not much, but I knew I had hurt her, had broken the trust she had in me. My breath caught as I saw her for the first time in over a month. She looked absolutely stunning. Even better than I remembered.
She was on Abe's arm as he brought her closer, she looked like she wanted to do anything but. I could understand too, he was leading her right into a nest full of guardians. And I was more than certain that she blamed them for everything that had gone wrong in her life. In a way they were to blame, but there was so much more to the situation. Abe introducing her was probably pointless, everyone knew who she was. No one would ever not respect her. It was the same reason Mason was so well respected, what Abe wanted Abe got.
Things had been a little strange the last few weeks with Abe. He had become extremely close to me, wanting nothing more than to help me and my family. I was more than grateful, but I could not help but think everything he did was in Rose's interests. For some reason he thought Rose was happy with me, he had even tried to get her to come over to dinner in hope to get us together. I had denied the offers, but so had Rose, even if she had not known I was going to be there. I was happy to have his approval, but it was pointless if she would not take me back.
My eyes could not look away from hers. My emotions went into overdrive, I hated myself for ever hurting the woman in front of me. I hated myself for ever letting her go, I regretted every tear she had shed because of me. There was nothing more that I wanted to do in that moment than to run to her and hold her in my hands. Before I could do anything she basically ran out. Everyone returned back to their prior conversations and I found a way to sneak away. All I saw was a flash of the red dress she was wearing, a dress that had me thinking about things that was R rated.
Our conversation outside brought us no where, but at least I knew she was going to talk to me. After dinner she would be all mine, and I would make her see how sorry I was, how much I needed her. The food was tasteless to me don't get me wrong it was amazing, but it could not compare to the sight I got to see as she sat across from me. I let all protocol go as I stole constant glances her way, my smile never faltering. She truly was the most beautiful thing to walk this planet. I loved her more than words could describe.
Opening the car door for her, I had to pinch myself to make sure this was real. She was coming back with me, and I vowed I was not going to let her go. I would take anything and everything she had to say. I would beg on my knees for forgiveness if I needed to. I would do anything for this woman but let her leave again. I wanted my life with her to continue, I needed to love her. I reached over and grabbed her hand, holding onto it for dear life. She let this small gesture happen, and I could not help the hope that filled me.
After we arrived minutes passed and neither of us could talk, or would talk. We smiled and looked away and then tried again. The silence was too much for me, I had to let her know why I did what I did. She had to know how much I loved her. My hands were twitching on my lap, all they wanted was to reach over and close the space between us, a space that was getting larger and larger as time went by. I finally could not stand it anymore.
"Roza." I took her hands in mine, loving the way her small delicate fingers felt when they intertwined with mine. "I am so sorry love. I should have talked to you. I should have given you a chance to say something, anything to me. Instead I decided on my own, what was to happen to our relationship. I am so sorry."
She had to see how bad I felt, I had been such a horrible man to her, she had deserved so much better.
I let my words sink in, and I watched her emotions flash through her face. She was happy, but I could see the anger bubbling within. Roza was a sweet woman, but when someone mess with her she could lose it. And I deserved whatever wrath she had for me, I needed to hear her say what was on her mind. Her features contorted and I knew she was more than ready to talk now.
"Do you have any idea how that all made me feel?" Her tone was so harsh, so cold. I could not help but lean away from her. Had I really hurt her this much. Was there anything I could say or do to make it all better.
"You tossed me aside, like some trash. You decided things, for both of us. You had told me we would do everything together, yet you decided something so big without me. Never gave me a chance to explain and or say anything." Did she really think I thought so low of her? Had I really made it all this bad? I tried to stand up, needing to comfort her but she would not have it, anger filling her once again. "No stop right there. Let me finish!"
"OK I'm sorry." I sat back down, I knew she was far from finished. But she was going to say what she had to, the least I could do was listen. Listen and try to fix everything I had done.
"You joined the guardians. You left me! I know we had only been together for five months, but I lived with you. I thought we would make choices together, like a real couple should. And then you go and never call, never text, NOTHING!" Her chest was heaving, and as sick as it may sound she looked so absolutely gorgeous. Confidence radiated off her, and I was so proud. I hated she had and still felt that way, but I was proud she was so brave to put me in my place.
"I loved you so much. I would have done anything for you. How do I know you'll never do that to me again? How can I trust you, when you clearly did not trust me?" Her knees gave out and she fell to her knees, I felt tears building up behind my eyes as I rushed to get closer to her.
"Roza I am so sorry. I never meant to hurt you. I never meant to cause you pain." I reached forward cupping her face, needing her to look at me, needing her to see how much I meant my next words. I let all my emotions through, and could only hope she could and would see that I meant it all.
"I made a mistake, one I will spend forever trying to fix. I love you Rose. You are not trash, I should have known better. I should have talked to you. I never wanted to make you feel like this. I thought I was doing what was best for you. I cannot make excuses, you deserved better and still do. Can we start over? Can you give me a chance? I'll tell you everything, every thought, everything. I will never decide a thing without you. You mean the world to me Roza. I have gone crazy without you. I feel guilty. I feel like a horrible man."
My head fell forward and hung, I could no longer hold it up. I was so ashamed of everything I had done. How could some miscommunication have led to this. We had always talked everything out. This was all just a big misunderstanding, we had to be able to fix it. We had something that not many had the chance of finding. I just had to have this all work out, I loved her so much, with all my being. She was the one for me, the one I knew I was going to marry, marry and have kids with. The ache in my chest grew as I thought she was going to leave me.
Just when I thought she was going to say no, her soft lips crashed against mine. I needed no further provoking I kissed her back with everything I had, making sure every emotion was put into the kiss. I had nearly forgotten how soft her lips were. How her lips molded against mine like we had been doing this forever. But I needed more, I wanted more of her. My hands got a mind of their own and I touched every part of her I could. She felt so good, so amazing. I needed her, and I had to show her how much I loved her, physically. I pulled back for a moment and a soft whimper left her lips. She wanted me too.
"I love you so much Roza." And I meant it, with all my heart. I did not give her a chance to answer as I brought my lips back to hers. But I needed to taste more of her. I pulled away and quickly kissed up her jaw to her ear, I nibbled on her lobe and was rewarded with a moan. But when I latched onto her neck neck she completely lost it.
"God, Dimitri I love you!"Her voice was a soft purr. I reached down and got ahold of her dress, it had to come off, her bare skin was too much of a temptation for me. So with one swift movement I had it off her. And the sight that was exposed to me was like a prayer being answered. How could one being be so perfect.
"You're beautiful, so beautiful." My hands twitched and I touched her stomach. She had been working out. Not that she did not look perfect before, but I could tell. Her legs even more toned, a V forming on her lower abs. Improvements I had not been there to experience with her. The thought upset me, but I had to shove it aside, I had her here now.
"This needs to come off, now!" She started to unbutton my shirt but it was like her fingers were not working. Her eagerness to get me naked only egged me on. I ripped the shirt off not even thinking about how I only had two of these. She wanted it off, so I would give her exactly what she wanted.
"You want something beautiful, look at this." She motioned towards me and placed her small hands on my pecs. It was all I needed.
I pushed her down onto the blanket again. I was being rougher than I intended, but when she moaned even louder I knew she was perfectly fine with what I had done. I had to touch her even more though, it never seemed like enough. I took her bra off, craving the feel of her skin under my hands. I cupped her breasts, squeezing them, loving the way they fit in my hands. It was like they were made just for me, just for this purpose. Her hips moved up and rubbed against mine, I was sure she had no idea what she was doing to me.
"Take off your pants." I complied all too quickly, standing up and taking them off in a flash. But she wanted more, she stood up as well ripping off my briefs as almost violently. Not that I minded it only turned me on further. Her eyes glazed over as she took me in. Her look doing so much to me.
I needed her now, I had to feel her skin against mine again. I lunged forward picking her up, her legs automatically wrapping around me. I needed to get her in the bedroom and fast. I had not planned for things to go this far, but now that we were here, it seemed like something we had to do. I had to love her show her how much she meant to me. Not only that I needed this, I had been wanting to take her for so long.
Only problem was I could not see where I was going. Well, I suppose I could have if I opened my eyes, but I was too lost to the world. I slammed her against the wall, once again thinking I was being too rough but she moaned into my mouth. I gripped onto her tighter, making sure she would not fall, I tried again to find the room door, but once again failed. Not that either of us minded, the roughness only fueled the fire. Our lust and sexual tension was growing thicker and thicker, making it harder to think about anything but her, her and her amazing body.
"Ah Gawd!" We hit two book shelves before I finally found what I was looking for. I knew we were making a mess, but this was so fucking hot.
I threw her on the bed, and took the time to study her. The look she was giving me was smoldering, causing my cock to twitch. I took no time in climbing onto the bed and lean over her, capturing her lips in a passionate kiss. I let my hands wonder again, taking in every inch of her. I squeezed and caressed more and more, needing to hear her moan even louder. Her skin sending hot sparks into me where ever I touched her. This was how I wanted every night to end with her, I envisioned my life with her and only her. I could not wait any longer, my body was in pain.
"I need you Roza." I kissed her again this time letting my lust take over. I let the animal within take control, I had kept him locked up for far too long. I let my tongue dart in, I tasted every part of her, and she followed suit.
"I need you, too." That was all I needed. If she wanted this, and I did too, then it was right, perfect. Then I really thought about it. This was her first time, would she really want to give me her virginity. Especially after everything that had happened, was I worthy of this. This was something big, and I wanted to make sure this was the right thing, something only she would be able to choose.
"Are you sure?" I again studied her face, taking in everything she did, even the small twitch as a smile appeared. She was never able to hide anything from me. The only thing I found was a more than sure woman. Her confidence shone through, something that made me even hotter for her.
"I love you, you love me. I've never been more sure Dimitri." That was all I needed, her face hid nothing, and she was truly mine. I kissed her again, but this time much softer, I said I love you and I am sorry in the kiss, I let myself get lost in it.
"I love you Roza. I'm sorry." My hand had a mind of its own as it found its way between her thighs. It shook some and I took a moment to calm down. I was going to do this for her, this was something that should be special, and should bring her an earth shattering orgasm.
It was like I was doing this all for the first time. I let my fingers wonder and I touched her folds, the sound that left her was just heavenly. She squirmed a bit under me, causing my fingers to graze inside her folds. Fuck she was so wet, and it was all for me. I was so happy I still had this effect on her, because she most definitely had that effect on me. I closed my eyes, trying to control myself, it was a lot harder to do than I ever thought it could be.
"You have one more lesson for me Comrade." My eyes flew open and I looked straight at her. And what a lesson it was going to be. I throughly enjoyed teaching her before, and I knew this one would be the very best. I was hers, and now she would fully be mine.
"You're right I do." I slipped in two fingers moaning with her. Her walls wrapped around my fingers as I started to slowly pump in and out of her. I looked up and locked her eyes with mine, making the moment that much more intimate. I made sure to never stop my fingers movements as I spoke to her.
"Fourth base, full sexual intercourse. But it is so much more than that Roza. With this I can show you everything I feel." I could already imagine her, the way she would feel with me inside her, the way we could both have pleasure at the same time. How I this would show her how we were one from now on.
I moved my fingers faster, knowing just how to work her into a frenzy. No woman had ever felt this good. I had never wanted to make someone feel so good, I wanted her happy, pleased, sated. I knew it was not going to take much to bring her over the edge, so I rubbed her soft nub, getting just the response I wanted. Her walls clamped down, and I pushed her even further.
"Oh god!" She was almost there, but something was holding her back, and I would not have any of that.
"Let go Rrrrozzza." And she did. Her hips started to move along with me. The act so fucking sexy. Her pleasure was now at its strongest, and she was going to explode at any moment. I helped her ride it out but only for a moment, I moved up again and kissed her. This was it, I was going to make her mine. I lined myself up with her, but stopped before doing anything. This was after all for her, her choice, I was only here along for the ride.
"Are you sure Roza?" I would stop the moment she said no. This was just as much for her as it was for me.
"I'm more than sure Dimitri. I want you, no I need you." The little vixen grabbed my ass, shoving me slowly to her, causing friction between us. I groaned, it felt like nothing I had ever felt before. It was crazy to think, seeing I had sex many times before.
I knew this was going to hurt her, so I took my time. I inched in slowly, making sure she was lubed enough, anything to make this easier on her. I pulled out slightly and a soft whimper left her I took the moment and let myself glide in completely. I knew it hurt, I could only imagine. She was so small and tight, I thought I would break her. I let myself sit still, and watched her closely. I gauged her reaction, and froze, stilling for her.
"I love you Roza." Her eyes finally opened again and locked with mine. So much passing between us.
"I love you Dimitri." I smiled at her and captured her lips with mine again, this time wanting to distract her from the pain. I moved slowly working my way in again, when she moaned, I continued.
"God Dimitri." Her hip rose up to meet mine and I knew she was ready. It was horrible to think but I had been wanting to ravish her for so long, my control nearly breaking every time I saw her. My control had to be better than hers though, because my Roza was such a tease.
I picked up my pace, making sure she was doing well with every thrust. It was so hard not to just fuck her senseless. Her tight little pussy wrapping around my dick begging me to just go deeper and harder. I tried to keep calm I tried to be gentle but her moans were encouraging me to be rougher, to truly make her mine. To give her the best first time known to man.
"Nugh Dimitri!" Her legs encircled my waist, causing me to go in even deeper. All my control snapped. My hips moved faster, my thrusts frantic now.
"Fuck Rrrrroozzaa." It was like she was made just for me, like I was suppose to fill her to the brim. "You feel so good." And she did, tight, wet, and all mine.
Both of us were now moaning, the smell of sex filling the air. I was all too aware of her chest rubbing against mine. My body was tingling, this moment forever embedding itself into my mind. Nothing could ever take this away from me. I looked between us and nearly came then and there. The sight of me going in and out of her was the fucking hottest thing. I know I was a man, but fuck. And to think that was me, me going into her, me causing her to moan. Testosterone rushed into me and I picked up the pace and I noticed she was looking at us too. I guess she liked the show just as much as I did.
I looked back at her face and was highly pleased by what I saw. My Roza was nearing an orgasm. And who was I to deny her. My hips worked on overtime, I slammed into her. I feared for a moment that I would break her, but my little vixen screamed in bliss. I knew she liked it so I gave her everything I had.
"Fuck Rrrrrooozzza." I wanted her, no needed her to hit the wall, so I reached down and rubbed her roughly. I got the response I was looking for. Her eyes rolled backwards, her mouth opened in a silent O, and then a glorious sound left her.
"OH FUCK!" I lifted one of her legs up, placing it near my shoulder, and thrust in even deeper yet.
"That's it Rrrrozza, give into it." I wanted her to give into this feeling I was giving her. I wanted this feeling to be forever with her. I wanted nothing more than to ruin any other guy for her. It was wrong to think, but I wanted to be her one and only. Her eyes opened suddenly and she screamed up to the heavens.
"Dimitri, Dimitri, DIMITRI!" Hearing her scream my name brought me to the end as well, and I jumped into the pool more than willingly.
"Rrrrroozzza!" I tried to bring her leg down, but was so lost in bliss that I nearly fell on her. I eased myself up on my elbows and watched her as her chest heaved some more.
Our lips met half way and we both moved our hips, helping the other ride the amazing climax. I clung to her like she would disappear. I was never going to let her leave my sight. After this she was the one thing I would do anything for. I would die for her, kill for her. She was my future, and nothing was ever going to take that away from me.
"I love you."
"As I love you."
I pulled out of her, careful not to hurt her and laid down next to her. I brought her to my chest and inhaled her scent deeply. She always smelt intoxicating, but now in the afterglow of sex, she smelt even better. Sweat covered both of us, but it only made me think about what we had just done. And then I remembered that she must be in pain.
"Lets take a shower." I was now going to treat her like the princess she was.
We helped each other get clean. I handled her like she would break, but it was more my fear that she would just vanish. It took some time to convince her but I made her go in the hot tub. Our love making was going to hit her full force tomorrow, and I wanted to make sure I did everything to ease her discomfort. I walked inside, looking back every few seconds to make sure she was still there. I opened and poured some wine, spilling it in my haste to get back to her. I walked out and saw she was staring out into the night.
"What you thinking about?" I feared what she was thinking about. Did she regret what we had just done? I sneaked in behind her and she let me. Maybe we were going to be fine.
"Us." I froze suddenly, guilt running through my veins. I wanted nothing more than for her to forgive me.
"I know we need to talk Roza. I really am so sorr..." She stopped me quickly.
"That's not what I was thinking about. Dimitri I know we should talk more about it, but I don't want to. I love you. You love me. What we just did was the talking." She turned towards me and her eyes told me everything I needed to know. "As long as I know we can be together and you will talk to me when something comes up, that is all I need."
"I promise." And I meant it. I would tell her everything all the time. She was now part of my life, and my decision were hers as well. I love my Roza, and nothing would ever make that love go away. She was now truly mine, forever mine, as I was hers.
So what did you think? Like it from Dimitri's POV? I'll tell you know this story will only be from Rose's POV... This was a small treat for you all for being so wonderful... But seriously what did you think? Don't you just love him? I mean seriously how pathetic was he without her? So what do you think is coming next? Will they get their happy ending? Oh, and don't forget to read my other stories I have going if you haven't/ I started a new one named Secret Lives, and let me just say beware! And let me know if you want more of that one?! Once again thank you all! You are so fucking amazing!