I am so sorry that this took so long. I could not figure this chapter out for some reason. It is short but, I promise the next one will be better! I need them to have this conversation. As for the title of the chapter, well, my ipod was on shuffle and this song came up when i was writing this chapter. You will see...

Love Sex Magic is a great dance/pop song by Ciara check it out if you haven't!

~obsessedwithmd

"Okay but, we only have a little over an hour" he said scooting closer to me. He also reached out and took my hand in his. I nodded and took a deep breath.

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"First, I just want you to know something," I paused to see his reaction; stone cold, "it is very hard for me to handle seeing you with Esme." He tried to say something but, I just continued. "I know you are just playing your part, as you have told me a million times before but, that doesn't change how hard it is for me. I want you to be all mine. That is selfish of me but, it's the truth. I love you Carlisle. I don't want to share you."

"Isabella, Bella, you know how much I wish this could be easier. I also don't miss the look in your eye when I am with Esme. It pains me to see you look like that. I have made my choice. The only problem with that is it isn't my wife. Bella, it's not right and I can't help that but, I am in love with you," he stated very sure of himself.

I inhaled a sharp breath; human reaction. He had told me he loved me a couple times before but, this time I felt it. He told me he chose me. I stood up; still keeping our hands intertwined. He took the cue and stood as well. "Maybe we should go sit on the couch; better place to talk than the piano," I said leading him to the couch in the living room.

We both sat next to each other on the couch. I had my back leaned up against the armrest and he was sitting with my feet on his lap. I wanted to be touching him in some way for this talk. I needed to know he isn't going to run out the front door. I also needed him to help keep me talking because I might bolt too.

"Bella?" he asked after we had been sitting together for five minutes and I hadn't said anything. I was close to shaking because of my nerves. I didn't want him to get angry our upset by this. I love him.

"I'm sorry. I am just, well, I don't know really. I'm scared that this isn't going to work out well," I disclosed. He looked at me and I hid my face in my hands. He just reached over and removed them, smiling.

"My Bella, you have got to have a little more faith in our relationship than that. Yes, I am scared that this won't work out and we will either lose our family or each other. I don't want either outcome but, that could happen. I know I will try my best to keep that from happening. I also know you are all in and will do anything to keep us together. Please be strong," he said with confidence.

"Carlisle, it's just sometimes I feel like I am betraying so many people. I want to be truthful about this relationship to our family. I just am scared that we will lose them all. They are all I have. I have no friends outside of our family and the Denali coven. They would abandon us if they found out. I'm scared," I said with a shaky voice.

"Please, first, just try to relax. You need to calm down. I love you, okay? Please understand that," he pleaded. He locked our eyes and I was momentarily lost because of all of the love he expressed in his butterscotch eyes. I know I stopped breathing. I tried to regain control of my mind so I could respond to what he had just said.

"Okay," I muttered.

"In response to what you said earlier, I do believe we should tell the family. I need to tell my wife. I can't continue to do this to her. I did love her. I still do but, I have chosen you. Yes, we do need to tell them together but, let me tell Esme. It won't be pretty but, it is all I can do," he declared.

"I'm scared," I mumbled.

"Bella," he said trying to comfort me. I pulled my legs up to my chest and rested my forehead on my knees; effectively hiding my face from view. I started to dry sob. I felt his weight shift on the couch closer to me. His arms wrapped around me and hugged me close to him. He whispered "I love you" over and over again. We kept this position for a little while. I was not sure of the time. It could have been minutes or days. This is where I wanted to stay; in Carlisle's arms.

I tried to calm down but, I just couldn't. I was in too much emotional pain. The thought of telling our family then losing them was more painful than the memory of losing Edward. I knew I had to do it. I had to tell them that we love each other and aren't going to stop this relationship. It was better to do it sooner rather than later because of two reasons: I highly doubt we could keep our hands off of each other much longer and Jasper.

I sobbed tearlessly for another couple of minutes. Then I was eventually able to calm myself enough to continue our conversation.

I lifted my head up and looked at my lover. He smiled at me and I had to grin at him. He was too perfect for this world; even the vampire world.

"Are you okay to talk now?" he asked gently while he put his hand on top of mine on me knee for comfort.

"I think so," I said. My voice seemed like it would hold now.

"Are you okay?" he asked rubbing his thumb in circles over my hand.

"Yeah, I'm sorry about that. It's just a lot to handle," I confessed.

"Well, it's not going to get any easier so we can stop this conversation and resume it later. If that is what you would like to do," he suggested.

"No, it's okay. We need to do this now," I said. As much as I didn't want to do this I had to.

"Okay, since I think we both agree I need to tell Esme first I will take care of that aspect of this situation. I will ask her to not tell the family. That should be our job. I want to break the news as easy as possible. Alice already knows and she might have told Jasper. If she hasn't then we need to be extremely careful with our actions and especially our emotions. That means keeping our hands to ourselves," he ended with a chuckle. I giggled at the thought and nodded my head in agreement. That was definitely a good idea.

"I agree. Um, so when are we going to do this? I mean you know tell them?" I asked. He seemed like he had a plan and I was hoping that it would make this easier. His background in medicine was good for this; problem solving.

"Well, I'm scheduled to work until eight tomorrow morning so I'm thinking that we should do it then. The family should be back from hunting before three tomorrow morning. We might as well get this over with. I am sorry that it has to hurt this much, my love," he said. His voice dropped to a whisper at the end.

"It's not your fault. If anything it's mine. I could have pushed you away or even ignored everything but, I didn't. I pursued this relationship. It has been short and very physical but," I paused as we both chuckled at the thought, "I feel something that I haven't ever felt. Not even with Edward. I want to be with you."

"I know because I want you too. So it's settled then. Tomorrow morning?" he asked. He looked sad. Maybe it was apprehension for tomorrow or maybe it was something else entirely.

I shook my head the affirmative. I smiled to try to ease some of tension and apparently it worked because I gleaming smile broke out across his face. I started to giggle and he chuckled at my sudden good mood. It was as if Jasper was around. In fact, I looked around quickly to make sure he wasn't anywhere close. He noticed this.

"What are you looking for?" he asked.

"Oh nothing, just Jasper," I giggled again.

"And why would that be?" he asked laughing at me.

"Because our moods changed so fast it had to be Jasper's doing," I retorted. He throw his head laughter and I joined him.

We laughed together for a good ten minutes until he announced he had to go up to his room to get ready for work. We had managed to blow over an hour talking. The strange thing was it was so natural.

He stood up to go and I stood too. He cupped my face in his hands and gently kissed me. I returned it but, he pulled away far too soon.

"Later Bella," he joked and ran off up the stairs.

I ran up to my bedroom and turned on my music. I was in the mood for something upbeat so I just turned on the local radio station that played current music. Love Sex Magic by Ciara was playing. How appropriate! I stepped away from the stereo and danced to the music letting myself get lost in the synthetic beats. From a floor down I could hear good natured laughter. I smiled at knowing he could hear me.

I love that song! Lol! I have some bad news if you like this story. The updates will most likely be coming slower but, there aren't many more. My father comes home from Afghanistan tomorrow for a month so i won't have much time. Sorry.

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