those of you that saw the movie, what did you think? BTW, did they ever actually say that Angela was Angela because I don't remember if they did or not. Anyway... here it is, PLEASE don't hurt me

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It was slightly cold when I woke up in the morning. I wasn't used to the cold, having grown up in Phoenix, Arizona. It seemed odd that it was already getting cold, although I knew it had actually been warmer longer this year. I shivered and pulled the sleeping bag closer to me, and leaned against Edward. Realizing that he was really warm I scooted closer to him.

He muttered something in his sleep that I didn't catch and rolled over, facing me now. His arms wrapped around me and tightened, and he let out a sigh, and then his breathing evened out again. I watched him sleeping; the peaceful look on his face soothed my own stress about Alice. I still didn't know how long it would take for Alice to be okay, or what would happen, but I knew that I needed to stay strong for her, and with Edward with me, I would be.

A strong gust of wind blew through the room and I shivered again, curling closer to Edward's side instinctively. Alice walked into the front door and then frowned more than the unhappy look that was already on her face when she saw Edward and I.

"What were you doing outside? It's cold," I asked her.

"I went for a walk."

"Without a jacket? You're always colder than me, you must be freezing."

"It's feels colder in here than outside, and I can't really feel anything," she answered.

I looked at her, concerned. For a second I wished I wasn't in Edward's arms so I could give Alice a hug; she looked like she could use one.

"Hey, Alice," I said quietly as she came closer since I couldn't move. "I don't know how long it will take to be okay, but I know someday it will be, and we'll always be here for you. Don't give up, you can't do that. This world needs an Alice, and right now you're not acting like yourself. He is a fool. He made a mistake and one day he will realize it, but you have to live your life until he does, and when he does, you have to decide what your going to do. Don't let him affect you like this; he's not worth it, not after he hurt you like that."

"Bella, you don't know how hard it is, what it feels like. I don't know how to stop letting it affect me. I've tried, but it's just too soon. Thank you for being here though. You didn't have to stay."

"I know, but I wanted to, and I promise it wasn't Edward that kept me here."

"Good thing, 'cuz I would've had to beat you if he was," she attempted to laugh, trying a little too hard to be herself again. If it wasn't for the circles under her eyes or the slump of her shoulders, it would have been a perfect representation of what she was like when she was happy. But I could tell the difference, and I felt so helpless knowing that nothing I was doing was going to make her feel any better-- only Jasper could do that, and he wasn't coming back. He was an idiot, and I again wanted to hurt him for hurting my best friend.

Angela yawned and kicked out of her sleeping bag.

" 'Morning, Alice, Bella," she said. "So, can we beat up stupid-head now?" she asked Alice.

"No. You cannot beat up Jasper. I still love him, even if he doesn't love me." She sighed. "Now if you were referring to Edward... go ahead."

"Hey!" I said, glaring at her.

"What? He is a stupid-head!"

"He's smart and you know it."

"Yet he can't wrap a present and asks where stuff goes everytime he puts away dishes despite the fact that he's lived here all his life."

"Well, he's a guy, what do you expect?"

"Are you calling your boyfriend an idiot?" she mock gasped.

"He's less idiot than most, but yes, I am. All guys are idiots, you just have to accept it."

She sighed, her mood darkening again. "Guys are idiots," she muttered. Angela nodded and moved closer to where we were sitting.

"Maybe one day they will realize this, and bow down to the female race for protecting them all these years from their own stupidity," Angela joked. We all laughed, knowing that it would never happen.

I continued smiling, seeing Alice laugh. Edward mumbled something again, and we all giggled.

"I didn't know he talked in his sleep," I said to Alice.

"He doesn't usually, he just mumbles. I can never make out anything he says," she pouted.

"I can't believe he's still asleep," Angela said.

I looked at the glint in her eyes. "You may not wake him up!"

"Protective, are we?" I smiled, nodding.

"Well aren't you protective of Ben?" I asked her.

"Sort of," she blushed. "But I feel like I haven't been with him long enough to be allowed to be protective." She shrugged. "Oh! I forgot to tell you guys," she then cringed mumbling "please don't hurt me," jokingly and then continued. "Ben asked me to go over to his house and study together!"

We squealed. This woke Edward up, and he rolled over, blinking his eyes.

"Girls are so strange," he said, smiling at me.

"Of course we are," we all said.

"And I think they're small brains are connected!"

We glared at him. He looked up at me innocently. "I'm sorry, please forgive me, Bella?"

I shook my head. "You know you're smart." I shook my head again. "Yes you are, and you aren't allowed to say otherwise."

"Says who?" I countered.

"Me!" came three voices. I sighed, giving up for now. I was never going to win this one.

"Fine, I forgive you, but Angela and your sister probably don't."

"Eh, who cares about them." I slapped his shoulder. "Fine, fine, I do! Sorry Alice, sorry Angela. I will again repeat that I am a moron."

"You are not," I said to him. "If you are, than I definetly am." He shook his head this time. I rolled my eyes.

Alice leaned back against the sofa, staring out the window. I hated not being able to help her, not knowing what to do. I could only hope that what I was doing would be good enough.

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We ignored Jasper in school the whole next week. Then, he was gone-- disappeared, not in class, which hurt Alice even more, and almost sent her into depression. We found out later that he had moved. Could that be the reason he left Alice? We still didn't know and he had made no contact with any of us to try and tell us anything.

Alice was doing her best to cover up what she was feeling, but those closest to her could tell that she was struggling everyday, trying to live in the present, not thinking of the future, and definetly not of the past.

We were now sitting in the hallway, in a little nook thing, talking before class started. I leaned closer to Edward, tired. It was Monday, and I had slept little, worrying about life, and trying to get over the weekend hyperness that only existed in my mind since I had done nothing but write a little, and read a lot. Looking around at the circle of people I called my best friends, I could see dark circles under all of their eyes. Alice looked the worse out of all of us. She almost looked like a hungry vampire; her eyes were dark with purplish bruises under them, and she had a pale sunken look to her.

Edward slumped further down and sighed, looking sad.

"You okay?" I asked him. He shook his head.

"Just tired," he said. Then he lowered his voice, glancing at his sister. When he saw that she was talking to Angela about something, he leaned even closer to me, whispering in my ear. "She cries all night, and when she does sleep, she wakes up screaming. I don't think she got more than two hours of sleep last night, and this night is just like others. It's not healthy. I'm really worried about her, Bella."

"I am too," I whispered back, again wishing I knew how to help my friend. I was glad I had Edward, but I knew that the same thing that Alice was going through now would happen to me if I had to live without him. It was a bit pathetic how much I already depended on him to be even slightly happy. I used to have occasional bad days that looked especially dreary, where everything seemed to go wrong, at least every two weeks, usually more often, but I had only had a quarter of one since Edward and I started going out. I still remember the exact words he used when he had asked me out. It had been the Monday after we had kissed at his house.

Angela started towards class and Alice turned towards her first class.

"You, come back here," Edward said, tapping me on the shoulder. I slowed down again and stopped, turning towards him. "Um, will you be my girlfriend?" he asked.

I almost squealed. "Yes!" He nodded and gave me a hug.

"Sorry if I'm not good at this, I've never done this before," he said.

"Me neither," I replied.

"Sorry it took me so long," he apologized again. He sounded sort of like me... "And I'm sorry I kissed you like that. It was rude, and while I don't regret it and I'm glad I did, I know I shouldn't have."

I smiled. "You have nothing to be sorry for," I said. I blushed. "I liked it."

He laughed and we started heading to class again. He gave me another hug before we parted. A huge smile was spread across my face and I felt as if I were walking on air. I was shaking with happiness, embarrasing tears of joy in my eyes.

I smiled, thinking of the memory. It was so simple, just weeks ago. Angela got up so she could walk with Ben to class, leaving just Edward, Alice, and me.

"Dang it," Edward said to himself, staring at his stack of books, looking exhausted. "Forgot my book," he mumbled. He then walked to his locker down the hall. I turned to Alice, hugging her.

"Alice, you don't look very good. Have you been sleeping?" I asked, knowing the answer already but wanting to see if she would deny it.

"A little." And she used to yell at me about not getting enough sleep!

"Ali, you need your sleep. You can't do this to yourself. I know it's hard, but you have to let go and live for yourself only. Living for someone that isn't here isn't going to do you any good."

Her tired eyes flashed slightly, and she broke, the sleepless nights catching up with her.

"You don't know anything, Bella! You don't know how I feel, and you can't tell me how to live my life. You're already going out with my brother, you've got the 'perfect happy little life' going on in your own world. But in the real world, Jasper's gone. He was my only comfort through all of this, and it's like you dont even care anymore, Bella!" she snapped at me.

"How can you say that? You're one of my best friends!"

"And whose your other 'best friend'? Edward? Jeez, Bella, you care nothing about me, drop the act. You didn't even tell me that you liked my brother, and then I walk in on you kissing him. What kind of friend does that? And now all you do is hang out with Edward, and you're always with each other, acting all lovey-dovey. It's sick. And it hurts. I used to have that. And now I get it thrown back in my face! Everytime I see you and Edward I'm reminded of Jasper, and it hurts Bella! You don't even notice! You say that you care and you want to help but you ignore the things that are making me most upset. So don't even try to say that you would never hurt me, because guess what? You are!"

She stood up and left, without glancing at me again, one single tear falling down her face as she walked towards her first class.

I stared after her, replaying the words she had said over and over. As the water filling my eyes spilled over, someone brushed the tears away and helped me stand up, grabbing my books. I recognized it as Edward. He looked at the clock, then lead us down the hallway so we wouldn't be late to class.

"I heard what she said," he told me. "She had no right to say any of that to you. She shouldn't be taking out her pain on you, it's inexcusable."

"But it's true," I said and I turned into my class, without giving him the hug I usually did, and without saying goodbye or telling him to have a good day.

My thoughts, Alice's words, and Edward's face plagued my mind all day, diverting my attention.

Alice apologized in Spanish, and told me that I was lucky to have such a protective boyfriend (apparently he got really mad at her for this morning) and said that she knew she was lucky to have him as a brother despite the fact that he was the most annoying thing on the planet and then told me that I needed to appreciate him, in case it didn't last, because nothing was forever.

Everything was back to normal (well, the new normal, with the less hyper Alice) and Angela and Alice and me played cards instead of doing homework all lunch class, and Edward hugged me whenever he saw me in the hallways and it was like nothing had ever happened.

Except it did. And it couldn't be normal when everything was wrong.