A/N: thanks to everyone onewho read it. I wish more of you reviewed though. I would really appreciate if you did

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Chapter 3

Carlos waved to Logan. "Carlos?" "hey baby." Carlos greeted as Logan walked into his room. "I wanted to come with Katie yesterday but Dak started again." Carlos said as he walked across the room and stepping on his toes he lightly pecked Logan on his lips. Logan touched his lips as the sensation lingered.

"I didn't feel like having her come all the way out here alone but she really wanted to see you. I couldn't deprive her of that." he sat on the bed. "come here. I missed you" Carlos patted the spot next to him. Logan walked over and sat next to him. "so what's been going on?" Carlos asked putting his hand on Logan's knee

"nothing really..." Logan said staring ahead not really looking at Carlos. With worry in his voice Carlos asked "you seem tense? Is something wrong?" 'besides the fact that I'm pretty sure your not real' Logan thought to himself "Katie said you got a new phone?" he quickly changed the subject "yea clumsy Jen knocked mine into the toilet. Look! It's purple!" he exclaimed showing of the vibrant case. "your favorite" Logan whispered. Carlos nodded happily. "anything else new?" Carlos put his finger to his chin and stared thoughtfully, making Logan chuckle. Logan had always loved when Carlos made his thinking face.

"oh, I almost forgot I got you this" he pulled out piece of paper from his pocket. When Logan looked at it, it was a photo of Carlos, Dak, Katie, and Jen. "I thought you would like it for your wall" logan smiled because everything on his wall was suppose to be real that meant Carlos was real. Now he had proof. "yea I love it." he kissed Carlos' cheek as he got some tape and put it right next to his picture of Camille and the twins."great!" Carlos bounced happily on the bed.

"I really have missed you." Carlos took Logan's hand in his own."I've missed you too." Logan smiled. "Lately has been worst since..." Carlos trailed off. Logan nodded his head. "yea. I really wanted to be there." it was almost Carlos and Logan's anniversary. And this was gonna be the third one with Logan at Palmwoods. "It's ok sweetheart. We can spend it together. I'll come with a picnic and we can eat it outside. I'll even make your favorite."Carlos gleamed

This made logan feel worse. "I wish it didn't have to be like this. I wish I was normal. I wish I wasn't crazy. You know Katie actually asked me if I thought she was a lie?" logan said looking at his lap. Carlos took Logan by the chin and looked him in the eyes. "you are not crazy. You're sick and no matter what happens all that matters is that I love you and you love me. We can get through this." Logan nodded as tear escaped his eye and rolled down his cheek. Carlos wiped it away with his thumb.

Carlos checked his phone and got up. "Logan I have to go to Katie's game. Since I missed her last one for dak's championship game, I have to make it up to her." "ok tape it for me?" "of course" they both got up and headed for the door. Logan grabbed Carlos by the waist and kissed him as passionately as possible. When they pulled apart they looked into each others eyes. Neither of them wanting to let go. "bye" Logan said softly. "be back soon" Carlos said with a smile. Letting go he opened the door and headed down the hall.

'Carlos must be real' Logan thought as he walked back into his room. 'there's no way you can have so much passion with something that's not there, right? And the picture? what ever is on the wall is real, thats what everyone tells me. So then Carlos is real. Everyone is lying to me. I am getting better, Camille has to be the one that is not real. I haven't seen or heard from her in a long time, I must be getting better!'

Logan was staring at the pictures on the wall. He walked over to his wall and took down Camille's picture and put it in his night stand. He looked at his clock. "I'm late!" Logan changed quickly. Then ran through the hall to Dr. Roque's office.

"dog, you're late." Dr. Gustavo Roque had a tendency of calling guys dogs. No one took offense by it but no one questioned it either. He had a bit of a temper, like smoke could come out of his ears temper. The husky man in a suit and colored sunglasses, that he refused to remove, pointed to the seat across from him. "sit." logan did what was told sitting uncomfortably on the hard cushion of the chair.

"So you sundowned?" Logan nodded."I've been told that you were pretty freaked out. Saying we took Carlos' pictures" Logan nodded again. "so who came yesterday?" "K-Katie" Logan whispered. "your supposed daughter?" " no. She is my daughter. I love her." "Logan remember she's not real. They aren't real." "no I've figured it out everyone has it wrong." Roque raise one of his thick eyebrows " how so?" he leaned back in his chair.

"we'll no one has ever seen Camille or the twins. I haven't seen them since I got here. So I think they were my delusion and Carlos is real and now I'm better." "no one has seen Carlos either." " that's because no one around here pays attention" Logan snapped

"ok how about sign in? His name is never there." "I don't know maybe the system is flawed?" Logan looked at his hands. "ok how about phone calls he never calls?" "his phone broke recently and Carlos doesn't like phone calls. He's more of a face to face kinda guy. That's one of the reasons I love him. He has this energy that seems like it never stops. His smile alone can brighten up someone's day. It's gorgeous." Logan says dreamily.

"if you met him you would understand." " ok invite him here... Tomorrow maybe?" "oh...H-he can't Katie has a hockey game" Logan stuttered " I'm sure he can spare some time for you?" "oh no he really can't he has been working extra hours and I don't feel like bothering him..." Logan looked at everything that wasn't Dr. Roque.

"Logan... " logan snapped his head up at this, gustavo has never called him by his actual name. "are you sure you're not just making excuses because you are having doubts of Carlos' existence?" He questioned "no! I know he is real. I have this passion and love for him that a person can only have with a physical person. He has to be real! He is all I have. He has to be real, right?" at this point Logan was sobbing in to his hands.

"Logan I understand you want him to be real but he isn't." Dr. Roque said calmly. "you understand! You don't understand. Have you ever fallen in love with someone then have them turn their back on you, to leave you to suffer, not to speak or see you. Have you ever had someone who you love and loves you and then have everyone around you tell you they don't exist!" Logan got up and started to yell over the large man, who just shook his head in shock.

"no! Then don't say you understand because you don't understand anything! You don't know how I feel or think. You don't understand anything!" Logan's face became red with anger. "Logan sit down and calm down or you'll force me-" "force you to what?! Drug me? Knock me out?!"

James burst through the door. "Logan! What happen?!" "He is having a paranoid episode." "I am not! I'm not having an episode. I'm angry!" james goes to take syringe from his pocket. "wait!" Roque stops him.

"why? Why are you angry?" he asks Logan. "because -" Logan calms down and looks at his shoes. "I'm alone?" he says almost as if it were a question. "your alone? Does Carlos and the family come when your alone?" "yea. When I feel so alone. When I'm upset. They make me feel better, happier." "that's it. your mind makes your delusions come when your alone." "they arent delusions! They are real!" Logan practical whined. James snapped his head at Logan, because this morning Logan knew carlos was a delusion, he understood what was going on and now he thinks he's real. He made a mental note to keep an eye on Logan.

"Dog" Gustavo said writing something down. "I'm gonna change your medications this week just to see what happens. If anything I'll put you back on the other. Ok?" Logan only nodded. " can I go to art?" "yes you can go." Logan turned on his heel and made his way passed James to the door. "I'll go with you" James said.

When they reached Logan's room, so Logan can get his apron, James walked to Logan's wall. "logan? What's this?" "oh that's a picture of Carlos and the kids. I told you Carlos was a looker." Logan said happily. James looked at him then back at the wall. "what?"

A/N: so there you go ch 3... I really want to know what you think? Do think Logan is crazy or do you think Carlos is real? Tell me in a review. Till next time. :D