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Chapter 4

"James?" Kendall called to his friend who seemed to be lost looking at Logan's wall."James?" he called again waving his hand in front of the boy. "huh.. Oh hey" James said absentminded. He turned and looked back at the wall.

"ok James. What's wrong with Logan now?" "he had another episode" Kendall nodded in confusion. He knew James hated when Logan had an episode but he never reacted like this. "ok? And why are you staring at his wall?" "that" James pointed to the photo he had been staring at since Logan left to art. "no way"

Logan was having an a lot of fun in art. He was painting a picture he had been working on for a really long time. He loved art and music the only places he can create anything and no one can say he was wrong. As he dipped his paint brush in the paint and dragging it across the canvas he felt a sense of relief. "wow Logan" he turned to see Heather.

Heather was completely stunning. She was a little taller than Logan with pale white skin and jet black hair. Heather actually was a world famous model before and with her looks it was no surprise. She was found in her hotel one day unconscious, turns out stardom was too much for her and she had began cutting. That night she ended up cutting a little to deep and cut a major vein, she almost bled to death. She's been here 2 and a half years.

Logan always found Heather as ,what he called, an interesting cutter. Where the others hid their scars, Heather showed hers off. She wore short sleeves and tank tops. She said she's not ashamed of them. That it showed what she's been through. She always got caught because of this, because when she did cut she would wear long sleeves and sweaters.

"do you like it?" he asked her. "it's beautiful" Logan's smile doubled in size. "thanks" he dragged the brush one last time before turning completely around. Heather was sitting on the table behind him working on some pottery."so how have you been, Heather?" "pretty good. Tomorrow is my 6th month scratch free, 6 more and I'm out of here." she said gesturing to her arms. The rule was if you can last one year without cutting you can leave, but you still need to stay in therapy. Heather never could last a year. "that's great keep it up." Logan said happily.

"how about you?" she asked in concerned tone. "I'm guessing you heard about my sun downing?" she just nodded. "I'm doing better. Well in my point of view." he laughed. She just chuckled, looking down at her, in progress, vase. "how did you learn to paint like that?"heather asked. "my mom. She loved it. She had always said 'Art frees the mind. It doesn't matter where you body or soul is, your mind can always be free' I never understood what she meant intill I came here." "she sounds amazing" Logan looked at the painting again. "she was"

"So you're going to karaoke later?" Logan asked in an effort to change the conversation. "yea it's gonna be great. I'm hoping it will cheer up Jo a bit." logan nodded. The rest of the time was spent like this, small chatter while working on their art projects.

When Logan was finished putting his supplies away it was 1:45. He went to his room to go lie down before lunch. When he got there he saw James and Kendall outside his room. "hey guys. What's going on?" they looked at him in a way that they never did before. They looked at him like he was crazy.

"Logan we need to talk to you." James said softly not wanting him to get nervous and have another episode. "ok?" Logan said trying to remain as calm as possible. They all walked in his room. Logan sat on his bed and looked at them patiently as they whispered. "so what going on?" he asked them.

James took a deep breathe and walked over to the picture."Logan who gave you this picture?" Logan chuckled "I already told you. Carlos did." James looked at Kendall. "logan? Who is this woman?" he pointed to Jen. "Jen?" Logan was beginning to get confused. "ok. How do you know her?" now Logan was really confused because James and Kendall already knew this story. "she is Dak and Katie's mom."

"what's her full name?" Kendall asked suddenly "um... Jennifer..." Logan was becoming very nervous. "Jennifer knight. Why?" Kendall and James' eyes widened. After a few minutes Kendall finally spoke "Logan. My name is Kendall knight. That's my mom." Logan stopped in shock.

"your jen's son. She never even mentioned it." Kendall shook his head and walked over to the bed. "Logan that's not my mom. The woman in the picture is but not the one you're talking about. My mom never put kids up for adoption." Logan began to shake his head quickly. "no. She lives with Carlos and the kids." "logan she lives downtown all by herself." "then I imagined your mom. How?"

"Logan remember where you worked before this?" James finally said. "yea. I worked at roque national hospital. Why?" Logan asked very confused know. "Logan my mom worked there. She knew you. You dont remember?" Logan shook his head. He stared at the floor trying to piece it all together. "but..." tears began to fall down his face and his breathing became rapid. "Logan!" james ran up to him. "Logan calm down. Breathe Logan. Breathe!" James began to yell and shaking Logan gently.

Logan took a few deep breathes and calmed himself down. "how?" was all he said. "well I called my mom and she said she had lunch with you everyday. That she was your only real friend there. She worked on a different floor then you but you guys talked everyday. She knew Camille and the twins. She said that you guys were having marital issues. Is that true?"

"I don't know. Why can't I remember any of this?" Logan looked up at both of them with wide. "I don't know Logan. We'll talk to Gustavo about it though" Logan nodded "how did I get it then?" "we think you found it. Kendall had lost it a couple days ago. You must have seen Carlos and thought he gave it to you" "what about Katie and Dak?" "they aren't real Logan" "but they are in the picture." "no they aren't" Kendall said as caring as he could. He knew logan must be confused, upset, but most of all destroyed.

"no! Now you're lying they are right there. There's my proof." Kendall gripped Logan's shoulder."Logan really look at the picture. Do you see them?" Logan looked at it as a tear fell down his face. "no" "wait. What about Carlos? I know so much about him. I love him." Kendall put an arm around Logan. "Carlos is real Logan..." "yes! I knew it I knew I wasn't crazy." Logan beamed.

"Logan wait" James grabbed Logan's shoulder. "let kendall finish." Logan looked at Kendall with nothing but hope in his eyes. "Carlos is my cousin. The thing is... You've only met him once. You don't live together. You aren't married. You don't have kids. Logan he barely even knows you."

Large tears filled Logan's eyes. "no..."

A/N: there is chapter 4. Hope you enjoyed it? Leave me a review telling me if you liked it. How do you think Logan is gonna react? Till next time :D