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Chapter 5

"logan?" james said softly walking into his room. "Logan you have therapy." Logan just laid on his bed staring at the ceiling. "Logan come on." James sat at Logan's feet. "Dr. Roque already let two days slip he won't let a third. He doesn't want to force you but will if he has to. Logan please just get up and come with me."

Ever since Kendall and James told Logan the truth about the picture Logan refused to leave his room. He wouldn't leave to go to therapy, to music, the gym, any of his meals, not even art. Everyone came to his room to cheer him up. Kendall, James, Kelly, Lucy, and heather went to him. Jo even said he seemed depressed. Nothing worked, he just kept saying the same thing over and over again.

"what's the point, James?" James shook his head jumping off the bed. "that's it I love ya Logan. I love you like brother i really do, but this has got to stop. Damien! Trevor!" James called out the door and two large men in orderly uniforms came. " Can you guys take him to Gustavo?" they nodded and picked Logan off the bed carefully. " I'm sorry but you need to get better. Logan?" James looked into Logan's eyes and saw that they were dark and cold. All he could see was emptiness. It made James shudder in fear. "what's the point?" was all logan said before the men dragged him off.

"dog, how are you today?" Gustavo asked as the orderlies placed Logan in the chair. "dog? How are you?" Logan just stared forward like the large doctor wasn't even there. As if he was staring straight passed him. Gustavo shook the boy's cold stare off. "Look. Kendall told me what happened with the picture. You need to talk about this. We can figure out what happened."

"there's nothing to talk about. You all were right. I'm crazy thats it." Logan said calmly. Gustavo was actually taken a bit back by how calm he was being. "Logan you just found out that your whole second life was based of memories you can not recall. Something happen to you. Let me help you" he said trying to get some kind of emotion from the broken boy.

"so what? It doesn't matter I can't remember. Carlos doesn't know me. I really wanted it all to be real but it wasn't. Just like everything in my life, it's a disappointment." So what's the point?" Logan said finally taking his cold stare off the large man across the desk to the window. "the point is for you to get better, leave this place. You're 26 you have so much ahead of you. You can go live your life."

Then Logan suddenly started to laugh. The sharp laughter in the silence of the room made Gustavo jump a bit. "Live my life. You're right I am 26 and the last 8 years of my life has been a lie, a fabric of my messed up mind, I've missed out on most my life. what do I have to go back to?" Logan never looked away from the window.

"what about camille and your real family?" "Camille hates me. She caught me kissing some guy and was trying to divorce me. She was fighting for the kids. I came here and was deemed unfit to be around them." Logan's voice was calm but his words came out rushed. His eyes widened at what he was saying "Logan... Why didn't you mention this before?" "I- I didn't remember?" he snapped his head at Gustavo.

"why can I remember now?" Logan was practically pleading. "when Kendall told me about your memory problem, I came up with a theory. I believe that something traumatic happened to you and that your mind didnt want to handle it. Then it took fragments of your memories and used them in your delusion. Anything that didn't fit in your fantasy or caused any kind of remembrance was blocked from you." Gustavo paused to see if Logan was following him.

"The trauma must have fed your already present schizophrenia. That may be the reason you're not getting better, we have only been treating you for schizophrenia not trauma. Now that you have put a crack in your delusion you are beginning to recall your past." Dr. Roque explained slowly.

Logan looked at him in shock. He was not confused or misunderstanding at all, Logan was a doctor as well he understood what he was saying. Logan just didn't want to believe it. "so basically I'm more crazy then before. I'm like a true nut job." Logan breathed out . "No." Gustavo shook his head "this is a good thing. All we need to do is talk and find the route of your trauma." "no!" Logan got up. "no, we already established I'm crazy, loco, bonkers, insane! Why dig deeper? What ever it was it must have been bad or this wouldn't have happen." logan began to nervously pace. "Logan I know you must be scared but you need this. You know that, right?"

"I'm done." Logan walked to the door."dog what do you mean you're done?" "I can't do this. I'm going to my room, getting my things and leaving" "now you know you can't do that without my ok." "whatever! Just... Just leave me alone. No more sessions, no more talking. I just want to be alone. What ever is wrong with me I'm obviously not ready to deal with it."

With that Logan left the office and practically ran back to his room. James barely looked at him but saw the tears running down his face. James was about to run after him when he felt a pair of arms wrap around his chest, from behind him.

"don't. He needs his space. What ever happened was bad." Kendall said softly knowing James would want to go help. He knew logan didn't need that right now he needed to think. "but what if something happens?" James turned facing Kendall never leaving his hold.

"like what? He's already in a mental hospital?" James chuckled. " just let him be for awhile. He has a lot to deal with." James nodded squirming out of Kendall's arms, a blush crawled on his face "I'm... going to go check david" with that he left to check one of the male cutters.'I just wish I could understand better' was all he thought.

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It's been three days since Logan's session. Yet again, he locked himself away. He really refused to talk now. He wouldn't speak, whistle, hum he wouldnt do anything but stare at his ceiling. If he wasn't mandated to eat he wouldn't. James had been taking Kendall's advice and was giving Logan space, but three days was too much."that's it I'm getting him to talk." James said to himself.

"hey Logan. Ready for lunch." Logan slowly sat up but never looked at James. James sat the lunch on the bed and grabbed the stool on the other side of the room and sat down. Logan began to eat and James sat and watched. "Logan just say something?" Logan just continued to eat unfazed. "please?" Logan never even looked at him.

"Logan I didn't want to tell you this but I heard that if you kept like this they are gonna send you to" James to a deep breath" t-to intensive care." Logan stopped for a moment after that, his eyes widen. Intensive care was were the 'unfixables' were kept. Patients who either refused care, like Logan, or the ones that were so broken they became a danger. "I don't want that Logan please say something, anything" Logan didn't move for a minute more and then started his lunch again."I wish I could help you." Giving up after that James just sat there in till Logan was done and took his tray.

Logan laid back down, putting his back to the door. He was thinking about everything. He didn't want to talk because then he would remember. He didn't know what it was that broke him but Logan knew that it must have been terrible if his own mind was hiding it from him. He must have been thinking like this for sometime because he heard someone come in. He assumed it was James checking on him, so he pretended to be asleep. Then he felt the person sit on his bed and started to poke his leg, not something James would do. Logan sat up and almost stopped breathing, his eyes widen at the person in front of him.

A/N:there's is chapter 5. Who do you think came to see Logan? What do you think happened to him to make him forget? Tell me in a review.

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