A/N so ive been working on this all week. It all I could really do when my power went out. I hope anyone affected by hurricane sandy is ok. I want to thank all the reviews, alerts, and favs. Hope you enjoy this chapter.

Disclaimer: I don't own any character from BTR.

Chapter 7

Logan just sat on his bed looking at his hands, wondering how a dream can be so immensely heart breaking and disturbing. 'I tried to kill myself? Because Carlos left me?' "it was a dream?" he said in a whisper.

"what was a dream?" Kendall asked. He has been very worried for Logan, a person his age shouldn't be dealing with everything he has to. Another break and logan would go to intensive care and he didn't belong there.

'I can't tell him. They are gonna lock me up for good' "um... Nothing" Logan looked to the floor.

"it's ok. If you don't want to tell me, you don't have to. How about some breakfast?" Kendall didnt want to push Logan. It was the first time he spoke in a week.

"Breakfast?! What happen to dinner?"

" Dude you slept through it. You're lucky your meds are in the morning" Kendall chuckled at Logan wide eyed expression

"what? Why didn't anyone wake me up?"

"why? You were peaceful, plus Roque said you may need a lot of rest."

Logan just nodded. " Breakfast sound perfect then."

"I'll be back with your tray " Kendall walked out the door.

'Thats it I'm gonna fix my mind. I'm gonna work this out, gonna get out of here, gonna figure out what happened to me. Starting today I'm not gonna be crazy. I'm gonna-'

Logan was snapped out of his thoughts by Kendall walking in. "Hope you're ready for waffles" he said with a grin. He put the tray on the bed and grabbed the stool and sat down.

" Kendall you think I can go downstairs later for lunch?" Logan had wanted to go all week but the thought of other people made him nervous. He didn't know why.

"sure Loges. I'll see if I can get you an eating buddy. Maybe David?" he watched as Logan began his bowl of strawberries and sugar.

"David? He has bipolar disorder not an eating disorder, why would he need an eating buddy?"

"um he doesn't need one. You do, they've classified you as it since you were refusing to eat." Kendall said just nodded and looked down at his food. "give me heather then. I know her better." Kendall was hoping Logan wouldn't shut them out again.

After ten minutes of awkward silence "Is everything ok?" Logan asked looking at Kendall confused. He was practically bouncing in his seat. Anyone could tell Kendall had something on his mind.

"umm.. I've wanted to ask you something all week but you weren't talking and now you are but I don't want you to go back to not talking. I really don't want to push you. In fact forget it because I know it'll upset you and I dont want you to go to intensive care and-"

"Kendall stop! Breath. Ask me the question. I promise I'll answer and won't be upset. Just take a breathe please" logan chuckled at Kendall's red face due to nervousness and lack of air.

Kendall nodded and took a long deep breath. "ok." he looked up at logan with an intense face. "Logan I just want to know... Why carlos? Why did you pick Carlos for your delusion, if you only met once?"

"honestly... I don't know. I feel as if I've known him all my life. I love him with my whole heart, even though you all tell me we barely spoke. In my mind I know everything about him and I don't know why." Logan said sadly.

"Well do you know how you two met? Maybe it can help figure out why you attached to him."

"I remember how I think we met. Can you tell me? Maybe I'm wrong."

" I asked my mom she told me everything. She says you wouldn't stop talking about him took her sometime to find out it was my cousin, not intill the day she showed you a picture of him on instagram. She said that you were a med student working ER and Carlos came in." Logan's eyes were trained on Kendall his food long forgotten. "Carlos had came in with a broken arm. He had broken it saving a cat from a tree. He was a firefighter in training at the time. She says you thought that you guys really hit it off. Maybe you just couldn't let go?"

"maybe..." logan said in a whisper. "the funny thing is ... that is exactly how I remember meeting my Carlos. I remember him having this big smile on his face even though he had just broke his ulna. He had said it was worth it to save the cat. God! He had such a big heart. He had told me that he always wore a helmet as a kid and even into his teenage years, everyone had told him he would go into something where his helmet was the most important thing and that's why his becoming a fireman. I laughed and said 'well to bad it didn't protect your arm.' He laughed with me." Logan was lost in the memory. Kendall snapped him out of it quickly.

"well little by little we will figure out what happened and put an end your delusions." he said giving him a comforting pat on the arm.

Logan nodded then snapped his head up. "I have an idea! Can you bring Carlos to me? Maybe if I spoke to him I can remember or at least he can put some things in prospective for me."

"that's a good idea. I'll try to get in touch with him. He moved to Florida and I haven't spoke to him in 2 years so I'll try my best."

"thank you Kendall!" Logan bounced a bit in excitment not only will he meet the man he spent half he life with, this might also be his first step to normalcy. He needed some kind of normalcy in his life.

"Logan I've been thinking about some thing else and I want your opinion."

" ok. You can ask me anything ken."

"um... Ive been thinking about something and I don't know how to approach it. I-I've been thinking of asking... J-James out."

"that's great. What do you mean you don't know how to approach it?"

"well he is always so worried about you and I think he doesn't see me in that way. All I really want is for him to be happy and get away for this place for a bit. He is always here. He takes extra hours, he barely goes home. The only reason I'm here is because I forced him to go home. I just want him to be happy." Kendal was practically in tears.

"then make him happy. Go up to him tell him how you feel. I want you to take him away from he every single chance you get because I don't want him to became a resident." Kendall laughed a little stopping his crying. " he deserves someone as amazing as you."

"thank you Logan" Kendall got up and hugged Logan. "um.. I have to make rounds so I'll go see if I can have someone come and watch you, ok?"

"ok go and work." Kendall got up and began to make his way out. "and Kendall if you ever need to talk I'm here."

"thanks loges." with that he left.

Logan turned back to his breakfast. He ate happily in silence. About ten minutes had pasted and Logan had finished his food, no one came. "I guess Kendall forgot to get someone. Oh well?" he shrugged. He reached over to his nightstand and grabbed is book. He moved the tray and laid back.

There was a knocking at his door about five minutes later. "come in." Logan said sitting up and grabbing the tray never looking up. "I already finished so you don't have to stay with me but-" logan stopped in his track too in shock to move.

"hi Logan" Camille said with a nervous smile "umm I came to visit andI talked to the blonde orderly with the eyebrows and he said that needs to make sure you eat so he let me come."Logan nodded sitting back down on his bed, still not saying anything. Camille sat in the stool Kendall was in before. "you look ... Well." she said awkwardly. Silence quickly took over the room.

"um.. So why do you need to be watched?"

"I don't really want to talk to you about that." he said harshly. He looked at her seeing she caught the tone. The hurt very present on her face. "I'm happy to see you. I really am-" His tone softer then before. "- but why are you here, Camille? It's been three years."

"I understand that you may be confused. It been 3 years. Oh my god it's been three years! You have all right to be harsh with me and all right to question me. After all-"

Logan could tell she wad getting nervous and beginning to ramble "Camille just take a breath and tell me why your here.

Camille took a long breath."ok...well Lora and Matt are getting big and I want them to get to know you. So I came to see how you were doing and clear everything between us before bringing them."

"ok, so you want to make sure I won't go crazy and hurt them-" Logan said calmly.

"oh geez logan! I didn't mean it like that. I just meant-"

"no. It's ok." Logan held up his hands to calm her down. "you are right to do that last time you saw me, I was doing pretty bad. I'm not doing as bad but I'm not better either" Camille nodded to show she understood. " so what do you want to talk about?"

A/N I wanted a l little more Kendall/Logan interaction. Kendall is very connected to Logan now. I also wanted to explain Logan and Carlos' relationship. There will be more. So what do you think Camille has to say? Do you want to see some more kames too?

Till next time :D