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Chapter 5: I Gotta Feeling
A few days passed and Kendall was still thinking about what he wanted to do with the baby. He wasn't sure if he wanted to keep it or not. Carlos and Camille were not shy about giving their opinions whenever they could. They did not want Kendall to abort the baby. They kept telling him it was a life and that abortion was like murder.
Kendall sighed and looked down at his stomach. He was still trying to get used to the idea of having another life inside of him. He placed his hand over his stomach. There was a life growing inside of him. There was no denying it. He had seen the proof and he needed to set up an appointment of some sort.
"I suppose you don't have a say in this do you?" Kendall asked keeping his eyes on his stomach. "I don't know if I am ready for you though," he said softly. He thought about it. Was anybody ever really ready for their first pregnancy? He knew the answer was probably no. Only people who planned this type of thing could be ready for it.
Kendall lifted up his shirt and placed his hands on his stomach. He rubbed his stomach softly thinking about the small life growing inside of him. It depended on him and needed him to live. Kendall shook his head and made up his mind right then and there. He couldn't abort it. He wanted to get to meet his son and/or daughter.
The door opened and Carlos, Camille, and Damien all walked into the room together. They were laughing and talking. Kendall quickly dropped his shirt down and stood up.
"Hey Kendall," Carlos said once he noticed the blonde.
"Hey," Kendall said looking past Carlos to Camille and Damien.
"I have some awesome news," Carlos said.
"Is that why Camille and Damien are here?" Kendall asked as he walked over to the three.
"Yep," Carlos said smiling. He looked at Camille and she nodded her head. "It happened," he said.
"What happened?" Kendall asked, "you finally went off the deep end?" he asked.
"Ha ha, no I finally got a part in a movie," Carlos said, "it's not a major part but it's not a small one either," he said.
"Really?" Kendall asked. Carlos nodded his head.
"It's a zombie movie and I am a survivor that gets bitten and I get turned into a zombie," Carlos said excitedly.
"I didn't get a major role, but I am a zombie," Camille said smiling.
"Oh my god that's great Carlos," Kendall said moving over to his friend and hugging him. "You two Camille," he added moving to her and giving her a hug as well.
"Thanks Kendall," Camille said smiling brightly. Her face then turned serious. "So what are you gonna do about the baby?" he asked.
"I was just thinking about that actually," Kendall said, "I don't want to abort and then wonder what the kid might've been like," he said.
"Are you saying what I think you're saying?" Carlos asked.
"Yes I am keeping the baby," Kendall said.
"I am gonna be an uncle," Carlos said jumping up and down happily. Kendall laughed at his friend's excitement. He knew Carlos was gonna be happy about this. He looked over at Camille who was smiling as well.
"I am so glad your keeping the baby Kendall," Camille said smiling at him. The four then settled into the living room to talk for a bit.
Logan sighed as he paced about the living room. James and Dak were sitting on the couch watching Logan pace back a forth. Logan was thinking about the other day. He was still trying to process it all. He had mess up big time.
"This is all your guys fault," Logan said pointing a finger at James and Dak, "I told you that I didn't want to go out," he said shaking his head. He knew that blaming them for his mistake would do him no good, but he felt the need to blame someone. He just wanted to be able to blame someone. That would make it easier for him.
"You're the one who didn't wear a condom," Dak said shaking his head.
"You two jinxed me when you talked about me knocking him up the morning after," Logan said, "if you hadn't talked about it maybe it wouldn't have happened," he said.
"Dude you didn't wear a condom," James said.
"I know," Logan said falling into the arm chair that was next to the couch. He covered his face with his hands. He didn't know what to do. He wasn't ready to have a kid. He was only twenty two. There was no way he was going to be able to raise a kid and with a complete stranger at that.
"What are you going to do?" Dak asked.
"I don't know," Logan said, "he wasn't sure what he wanted to do," he said looking up at his friends.
"Dude you are screwed," James said.
"If I go down the band goes down and that involves you," Logan said pointing a finger at James. That wiped the smile off James' face quickly. "And if you go down that means a slower sex life for you," he added grinning that he had gotten to James.
"Ok fine," James said, "no more jokes," he said putting his hands up. Logan shook his head. It was easy to get James to back off. All you had to do was crack a joke about his looks or his sex life and James backed off.
"There is no way I am ready to raise a kid," Logan said, "I mean I'll probably only mess the kid up," he said looking down at the floor.
"You don't know that," Dak said standing up and moving closer to the edge o the couch closer to Logan. "Who knows that kid may be the best thing that could ever happen to you," he said.
"Yeah right," Logan said, "kids are loud and obnoxious and all they do it cry and poop," he said.
"You know you might just like being a parent," Dak countered, "most people think they're not ready but until they hold their son or daughter for the first time," he said.
"Where are you getting this?" James asked looking at Dak shocked. "Do you like have a whole nother secret life away from us?" James asked.
"Yes James, I have five kids with someone you've never met," Dak said sarcastically. He then smacked James upside the head. "My sister had her baby last year remember," Dak said sending a small glare at James. James was so thick headed sometimes.
"Oh yeah," James said.
"Anyways she told me she thought she was going to be a horrible mother until she held her daughter for the first time," Dak said smiling.
"Ok say Kendall keeps the kid would he even let me see him? We don't know each other at all," Logan said looking at Dak. He just wanted to stump Dak and shut him up. He hated that Dak seemed to have an answer for everything right now.
"It's your kid unless you give up your rights he can't keep them from you," Dak said sticking his tongue out at Logan.
"You have an answer for everything don't you smart ass," Logan asked.
"Yep," Dak said.
"When are you gonna talk to him again?" James asked cutting back into the conversation. Logan looked over at James. That was a good question. He hadn't thought of that. He didn't even have the blonde's number or address. Sure he had been there once but he didn't remember.
"I don't know," Logan said slowly, "I didn't even get his number," he said.
"Kelly has it doesn't she?" James asked.
"I hope she does," Logan said. He hadn't really thought about that. He didn't think to get his number or address. He should've but his mind was too busy trying to process what Kendall had told him. He was going to be a father. He was going to have to help care for a kid.
Kendall was sitting alone in the living room while Camille and Carlos made snacks for their all day movie marathon. They were watching zombie movies all day so Camille and Carlos could do some research. Damien was working and would be by in a few hours when he got done. Carlos and Camille were excited about the movie they were going to be in. They wanted to make sure they knew how zombies acted. They just wanted an excuse to have a movie night really.
Kendall yawned as he looked at his watch. He hadn't been getting much sleep the last few days. He was thinking about Logan. He wanted to know what he was doing and if he wanted to be a part of the baby's life. He looked up as Camille and Carlos walked into the room with bowls of popcorn and chips. Camille left again and returned with drinks.
"So, what's first?" Kendall asked looking at the movie pile.
"I sat the original Dawn of the Dead," Carlos said grabbing the movie.
"Yeah," Camille said nodding her head.
"Put it in," Kendall said grabbing a bowl of popcorn. Carlos put the movie in and sat down next to Camille. They all settled into watch the movie. They were all getting into the movie when there was a knock at the door. Kendall looked over at Camille and Carlos who were too into the movie to get up. "Don't everybody move at once," he sighed as he stood up, "just let the pregnant one get it," he added.
"Thanks preggers," Carlos called earning the finger from Kendall. Kendall shook his head and moved over to the door. He opened it and saw Damien.
"Oh look Camille it's your boyfriend," Kendall called. Camille look over to the door and waved him over. Kendall and Damien laughed and moved over to the couch together. Damien sat down next to Camille and Kendall sat down on the other end of the couch next to Carlos.
"What are you doing here so soon?" Camille asked Damien.
"I got off early," Damien said, "thought I'd come over and watch movies with you guys," he said. The four fell into silence as they watched the movie. Kendall was glad they were watching only zombie movies and not all horror movies. He didn't particularly like watching horror movies. He could tolerate zombie movies and maybe the horror movies that were so low budget that they were funny not scary but not much.
Several movies later it was starting to get late and Camille and Damien left. Kendall and Carlos were starting to get hungry. Carlos didn't want to cook so he ordered take out for dinner. Kendall didn't mind since he didn't feel like cooking either.
"How long does it take to deliver two blocks?" Carlos whined.
"They have to cook the food Carlos," Kendall laughed at his friend. He loved how Carlos always found something to whine about.
"It takes too long," Carlos whined.
"Oh chillax it will be here soon," Kendall said looking down at his watch. There was a knock at the door and Carlos jumped up with his wallet in hand. He ran to the door.
"About time," he said opening the door. He stopped when he came face to face with James Diamond and Logan Mitchell. "You're not the take out guy," he said his cheeks red.
"No we are not," Logan said smiling.
"Kendall it's for you," Carlos said turning and walking away grumbling about how long the food was taking. Kendall walked over to the door. He saw Logan and James standing there.
"You can come in," Kendall said stepping aside for them.
"Um I wanted to talk to you," Logan said looking at Kendall once he and James were in the flat. James looked over at Carlos who was pouting on the couch.
"About the baby?" Kendall asked. Logan nodded his head. James walked over to the couch and started to talk to Carlos to give Kendall and Logan a little privacy. They moved to the kitchen.
"Look I know this isn't what you need but I'm keeping it," Kendall said looking at Logan.
"I figured as much," Logan said.
"Look I don't know what to do about us though," Kendall said, "I mean what happened was just a drunken hookup," he said.
"I know," Logan said, "but my manager has this crazy idea of how to make this look good for me," he said.
"Oh goodie," Kendall said rolling his eyes.
"Kelly's not that bad once you get to know her," Logan said defending his manager.
"So what is her master plan," Kendall asked.
"She thinks it's a good idea we at least pretend to date until the baby is born," Logan said looking at the ground.
"She wants us to lie about how the baby was conceived?" Kendall asked not surprised at all. He figured that would be the deal.
"Yeah, she wants us to tell people we've been dating since Dustin and I broke up and we had a condom malfunction," Logan said looking anywhere but at Kendall.
"Fine," Kendall sighed. He knew that if Logan really cared about his damn image that much he could lie for a few months and tell people they had been dating. "Just one question," he said.
"What?" Logan asked looking up at Kendall.
"What about after the baby is born?" Kendall asked. Logan opened his mouth and closed it. "I don't want to fake date you for the rest of my life," he said.
"We have a clean mutual breakup and both raise the kid separately," Logan said shrugging.
"A mutual breakup?" Kendall asked. He stood there for a moment thinking it over. He saw no problem with this plan. He could fake date Logan and then breakup with him after the baby was born. They would get on with their lives after that. Well, they'd have a kid but Kendal would deal with that when the time comes.
"So are you in or not?" Logan asked.
"I guess I don't really have a choice now do I?" Kendall asked looking at Logan.
"Yes you do," Logan said, "I mean this would really help me out a lot, but you don't have to do it if you don't want to," he said looking at the blonde.
"Damn my mom and her giving me good morals," Kendall said shaking his head.
"So you're in?" Logan asked.
"Yep, just tell me what I need to do," Kendall sighed.
"Well we need to be seen in public together and make an announcement and things like that. Kelly is working on it so I'll talk to you when that happens," Logan said. Kendall nodded his head.
"So you were with Kendall when he came to his audition?" James asked Carlos. He looked over at Kendall and Logan who were talking.
"Yeah, I'm Carlos" Carlos said smiling at James. He was calm on the outside but inside he was freaking out. James Diamond was talking to him. James frickin' Diamond was talking to him Carlos Garcia.
"So what are you two like roommates or something?" James asked turning back to Carlos. There was just something about Carlos that drew him to him. James didn't know what it was about him, but there was just something. He was attracted to him. He wanted to ask him out on an actual date and then actually go on the date. He didn't just want to fuck the Latino. He wanted more than that and he had only just really met him.
"Yeah," Carlos said, "we've been friends since we were little and we move out here together so I could follow my dream," he said.
"What about Kendall?" James asked confused.
"He's not sure what he wants to do, but he supports my acting," Carlos said.
"Oh so you're an actor," James said smiling.
"Not really," Carlos said, "I mean I got my first role recently but it's no big deal," he said blushing. James laughed at Carlos' blush. This Latino was just too adorable.
"Well I hope you do great," James said, "I know Hollywood is a hard business to get into," he said.
"Yeah," Carlos said. The two sat in silence as Kendall and Logan talked in the kitchen. James was fighting the urge to just ask the Latino out.
"Ok I don't normally do this, but there's just something about you," James said slowly. He had just lost his internal battle and decided to ask the Latino out.
"What?" Carlos asked slowly.
"I mean we don't know each other that well, but would you like to go out sometime?" James asked suddenly nervous. Carlos' jaw dropped in shock. "I over stepped didn't I?" James asked.
"No," Carlos said, "I mean yes," he added quickly.
"I'm confused," James said.
"Yes I'd like to go out and no you didn't over step," Carlos said blushing. James smiled at that. He was so glad that Carlos had said. He didn't know why but he really wanted to go out on a date with Carlos.
"So how does this Friday sound?" James asked.
"Sounds great," Carlos said smiling. The two continued to talk until Logan got a call from Kelly. James and Logan had to go. James said goodbye to Carlos with a charming smile and wave. Carlos blushed and waved. After Logan and James left their takeout arrive. Kendall paid and turned to face Carlos.
Carlos was standing up in front of the couch a vacant expression on his face.
"He asked me out," Carlos said slowly.
"He what?" Kendall asked.
"James asked me out," Carlos said. He started to jump up and down like a school girl and squealed. He had hoped something like that would happen.
"Well I didn't seen that coming," Kendall said as he walked over to the couch. He sat down and set their food on the coffee table and grabbed his food. He started to eat. Carlos just stood there.
"Oh my god," Carlos said suddenly.
"What's wrong now?" Kendall asked from his spot on the couch. He was eating his food. He didn't know what Carlos was freaking about now. He got a date with the guy he had wanted to date since he had first heard him sing on the radio almost two and a half years ago.
"I am going on a date with THE James Diamond," Carlos said stressing James' name.
"What is the problem," Kendall asked.
"What if I bore him to death? What if he realizes I am not as fun as he thought? What if I embarrass myself?" Carlos asked.
"When did you get so…not confident?" Kendall asked.
"The second I realized that I am supposed to go on a date with a celebrity who also happens to be my biggest crush," Carlos said falling onto the couch. Kendall shook his head and continued to eat.
"How can you eat at a time like this," Carlos asked.
"I'm pregnant, I don't eat and the baby won't do good, and weren't you just complaining about being hungry?" Kendall asked.
"I was until I realized I was asked out by James fucking Diamond," Carlos hollered.
"Calm down," Kendall said standing up and setting his food down. He stood up and walked over to Carlos. He put his hands on the Latino's shoulders. "Calm down. Just think about it like a normal date. Don't think of him as James Diamond celebrity, think of him as James Diamond a regular guy who's interested in you," Kendall said.
"He's not a regular guy though," Carlos said.
"I know that, but think of him like that," Kendall said. Carlos took a few deep breaths. He looked up at Kendall with a small smile.
"Thanks," Carlos said. He then gasped. "I have to call Camille," he said pulling his cell phone out. Kendall laughed and sat down once again and started eating.
-Better-Than-I-Know-Myself-
"So what happened between you and Kendall's friend," Logan asked as he and James walked over to his car.
"I asked him out," James said, "I don't know what it is about him but I actually want to get to know him," he said looking over at Logan as he got into the passengers seat.
"As opposed to just wanting to fuck him," Logan said as he got into the drivers seat. He looked over at James who was nodding his head. "That's a first," he said.
"Shut up," James said.
"No I mean it, it's a first that you want to get to know someone," Logan said seriously, "I mean normally you just want to get into their pants," he added.
"He's different," James said.
"You've had one conversation with him," Logan said.
"I know that, but he's just different," James said glaring at Logan. Logan put his hands up in surrender.
"Maybe this is the beginning of a new James," Logan said as he started his car.
"Maybe," James said looking out the window as Logan started driving. Maybe Logan was right maybe this was the beginning of a new James. Maybe he would stop sleeping around and actually have a real relationship.
Well there you have it the next chapter. I have set up quite a few things here and I hope you all are enjoying this. Review adn let me know what you think.
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