For many months, Angel cried alone. The pain from that night had receded, but she could still feel it. Yet, she prayed and hoped and told herself that Emil was alright… so much that at one point in time she began to truly believe it.
Access discovered her secret sooner than later, and began to worry about her health. But she kept giving him a smile in the day, telling him that she was alright and that the baby was fine. She wished with all her heart, though, that Emil would come home and see her.
At night, Access would go out to look for his brother with the black wings on his back. But Dark had long ago gone missing. Angel couldn't help but think that every day, Access was growing to look more and more like the young man Emil had been.
When he was gone, she would cry. She stopped sleeping at night, afraid that she would have nightmares.
"Please don't leave me, too, Emil…. You promised. You promised you would stay with me. We were supposed to go to Japan together…! You were supposed to create a family with me!" She sobbed quietly to her altar in the corner of the room, "I told you not to go… Why didn't you listen to me?"
"You can't be dead. You said that you didn't want your children to feel like we did. Prove me wrong, my little phantom thief! They all think… you're not here anymore…!"
"You said you would protect me from the dark…. I'm afraid. I need you. I can't live by myself… I can't raise this baby by myself…! Why are you leaving me alone like this? I miss you… Please come home, Emil…."
"Won't you come home? That will be the best gift I could ever receive. I just want to see your face again…"
Alone in the night, no one would hear her pleas.
"I love you. I need you to be here, now…."
Long before the baby was due, news had spread throughout the town that Dark had been spotted flying in the night. He hadn't stolen anything, he was simply… flying.
Angel was confused. That was impossible. Maybe it was Access? But even when he stayed home, realizing that Angel was by herself every night when she was afraid of the dark, the sightings were reported.
How? With was with them. Emil couldn't have grown his own wings.
Despite all of the mysteries and how suspicious it was, it gave her hope. Emil was alive.
Many months later, her son was born. She named him Alaric, whispering lullabies of ruling the skies. She was disappointed that Emil hadn't come home to see his birth. Deep in her heart she was still pained by the fact that he was gone, and her precious little boy, the last gift he had given her, cried as their feelings connected.
"Emil, can you see me? Are you watching, like you always do?" She whispered as she lay in bed one night, cradling Alaric. "This is your son… He misses you too. Will you come meet him?"
Loneliness consumed her.
Almost a year after Emil's disappearance, Angel finally decided to find him herself. Access had tried, but he had made no progress. Taking With along with her, and entrusting her beloved son to Access, she set off.
Access watched her leave in worry, sadness, and hurt. His nephew squirmed and cried in his arms, wishing for his mother.
She told him and she told herself a lie she thought was truth. A determined fire burned in her eyes.
"I'm sorry. I'm going to go bring your father home, Alaric. Please smile for us when we get back."