" What are we gonna do about the governor, he's Bound to come back" Glenn reassured. It occupied all of there minds if that guy was to return. Rick looked to the cell Carl laid rested in. Rick didn't want Carl to feel unsafe if he ever came back, But its not like he can keep this a secret.
"He could be on his way right now, Ya, bes' keep a look out, him jus' given, your boy back like that ain't him, he'll be back" Merle spoke out
"Okay, then I'll go looking, can't take any chances" Daryl said as Glenn and Michonne stood up as well to show they would go with Daryl. Rick Debated it for a minute before giving an approving nod. Then they all went back to there regular day, as Daryl, Michonne and Glenn, went to pack up. Rick went up to Daryl before they left.
" If you don't see him a in a few hours come back"
" We'll be back, you stay with Carl, lil' Ass-kicker" and they drove off.
Rick went inside Carl's cell to see Hershel, examining his vitals' with supplies from the nursery.
"How is he?"
" Seems stable"
Carl stood quiet, He didn't look up at Rick when he came in either. He looked spaced out, By now he was lost in thought and Hershel had left but Rick stayed. Rick sat down next to his son trying to look him in eye, But Carl kept his head bowed low when he spoke.
"What are we doing?"
"What do you mean" Rick responded
"We don't have to be here, In this world" Rick listened to Carl, thought about it and realized what he was saying.
"You don't mean that"
" I'm alone" Rick nearly gasped at the words spoken.
"Hey, wait a minute, I'm still here, Judith, others here care about you, you are, Stronger than this, better than this" Rick stated, he couldn't take Carl's death, seeing him alive then the next second Carl had gone suicidal would crush him.
"The governor would be back I don't want to be here when that happens, I don't want to go through it again, I want to go, Its my choice" Carl's voice cracked and tears reached the surface. " And if he's gone or doesn't come back what do we do then keep this nightmare, It doesn't get better only worse" there was a moment of silence. uncomfortable silence. "Every who's dead isn't afraid anymore, I don't want to be either"
" Carl, I known that everything you've been through is hard, and I'm listening to you, But you don't want this, I don't,"
"We don't have control of our lives" Rick sighed What Carl was saying was true, But he wouldn't alloy Carl to go down the line of death.
"Jenner was right" Rick froze at the name spoken, Carl kept his head bowed down low, not looking at his father. Rick suddenly remembered the night at the farm with Lori and remembered her saying things about Jenner, that maybe he was right.
And Rick didn't now what to say next.