Gyah here is chapter three. I'm so sorry for how long it's been, I'll be updating more now333

~~XOX~~

"Nnnrggghhh" a low whine in my ear, I grumble and turn away from the noise, tossing my arm over my eyes to block out the light leaking into my room. Another whine echoes and a wet nose nudges at the arm, shoving a furry head underneath it. The owner of the fuzzy face takes to licking and nibbling at my chin, nudging my face with his.

"Ok, ok" I snap, reaching up to scritch Crabdad behind his ears and his kissing him lightly on the top of his head. He whines and whimpers some more, rubbing up against me, wanting more attention. I glance over blindly at the alarm clock on my bedside table, I've never used it before and probably never will; even if I did Kankri would still insist on waking me up ten minutes prior to it ringing.

It read five fucking fifty-two in the morning, and I had this little shit attached to me, begging for food and attention. I can't complain even though I'm dying to, this has been the most I've slept in a long time, and despite my prayers that this morning wouldn't reach me, I have to get up.

I pat Crabdad once more and slowly stretch upward, my bruised muscles screaming at me from under my pajamas. They had all more than likely fully formed into disgusting red and purple blotches along my body, the one in my right forearm was hurting exceptionally more than the others, I felt myself scream out when Crabdad pounce and had rubbed against it.

"Alright, fucking food, I'm moving you impatient fuck" I tell him, tossing my crimson colored plush blanket off of my sweaty body and kicking my legs off the side of the bed. My room was a catastrophe; clothes lying everywhere, my bed a bundle of pillows, stuffed animal and my blankets, my desktop surrounded by games and god knows what else. To be honest the cleanest thing I have in this hellhole is my collection of romcoms next to my tv, though most of the people I know and have met claim them to be shitty movies, I find them to be very humorous and realistic as well as saddening and suspenseful; I'd use them to get by in my romantic life, if I had one.

The closest I've ever gotten to e relationship was dancing with my friend's cousin at the school dance. The girl constantly stepped on my feet and wouldn't stop talking about anime and how hot the main characters were. Needless to say the night ended with me, a bowl of popcorn, and Adam Sandler trying to woo Drew Barrymore.

I sigh and stretch my arms over my head before making my way over the shit piled up on the floor, Crabdad eagerly trotted past me out of the room and to the kitchen where Kankri was already perched atop of his stool sipping coffee. I don't say a word as I walk past him, yanking the freezer open, Crabdad impatiently pawing at my pants legs.

"Hold on you little shit" I groan, snatching my box of strawberry strudels from the side shelf and slamming the door shut, shuffling around the whining Corgi at my feet and plopping to of the heavenly treats into the toaster. Kankri watched me over the top of his newspaper as I went for Crabdad's food, grabbing the first can I saw.

"Make sure it's the breakfast brand" I nodded my head pointedly, not wanting to snap out at him as to why he hadn't already done it himself, and checked to make sure it was the spoiled little shits 'breakfast fucking brand' food before pulling the top off by the tab.

The shit smelled repulsive to me but Crabdad did a little dance and yipped loudly at the smell of the food. I dumped the contents of the can on his small platter and placed it into the microwave to heat it up for him.

"Good morning" Kankri spoke up again sarcastically, I leaned against the counter, and stared up at him crossly, my mouth pulled into a scowl.

"Morning" I said, grabbing at my own coffee cup and filling it up to the brim with the disgusting black liquid. He hummed silently and folded his newspaper, sipping at his creamed coffee absentmindedly. I slurped my bitter cup down while shuffling Crabdad's food out of the microwave, plopping it down next to the eager Corgi and giving him a much appreciated pat on the head.

The sweet aroma of my pastry treats filled my senses and my stomach grumbled in agreeance and want. If it hadn't have been for them being hotter than the fucking sun I would have already had one down my throat and another in tow.

"So what time do you want me to come pick you up?" Kankri tried to ask in a nonchalant way, I blew on my strudels, my eyes meeting his in a glare while his met mine in question.

"I can walk like yesterday morning, it's not that far from here" I nearly hiss out, a knowing suspicion underlining my tone. Kankri merely smiled brightly at my brashness and took another sip of his coffee.

"Nonsense, it's far too cold for you to be out and wandering around, you'll catch a cold!" I rolled my eyes at his sad attempt as an excuse, taking a much needed bite of my strudel.

"You just want to be face first into that fucking doctors pants" I reply back around the strudel in my mouth, chomping noisily while my elder brother sputtered on his coffee, his face blushing red.

"I do not, why I never!" he huffed crossing his arms and sticking his nose up in the air like he always does when he's flying into a frustrated rant "You very well know that I have no interest in any relationships, I just happen to find him admirable and cunning, he obviously knows where he is coming from and I respect him seeing as I aim to be a physician of sorts myself. Why don't you quick looking at the lewd side of things and perhaps yourself take a glance at the more broader and intellectual jobs and how fascinating they can be, not to mention higher paying, than the mediocre task you have. Oh and that language! Goodness Karkat how many times have I scolded and told you to-"

By now I've covered my ears with my head and shoved both strudels into my mouth, making for my retreat to my bedroom. Time to abscond the fuck out of there.

"Hey wait! I am talking to you mister!" I slam my door and groan loudly, he's such a sensitive prick sometimes.

I lazily grab at my wrinkly uniform, or at least the newer one I was given before leaving yesterday, my old one had been rendered unsuitable due to the blood stains covering the sleeves and the tears from Gamzee's nails.

I swallow my last bite of strudel, memories of the previous day flooding my thoughts, memories I wish I could forget at the snap of my fingers. I run my fingers over the rough material of my work uniform before stripping down out of my pajamas, my body bare and littered with bruises of all shapes and sizes.

I shiver as the cold air hits my skin, jerking my top drawer open and grabbing at the first pair of boxers that the tips of my fingers brushed, pulling the black, heart patterned underwear up my thighs and around my hips, covering my privates.

The thought of the clothing brought Gamzee back into mind, and how I had 'promised' to bring him something. I sure as hell do not want his bare ass cheeks rubbing up against any of my boxers or any of my clothing for that matter, and even if I did I highly doubt his giant ass body would fit into my midget clothing.

I sigh as yet another dilemma decides to darken my morning, and scratch my head in frustration. I doubt Kankri's clothes would fit him much more than mine would, and the only thing Kankri seemed to own was turtlenecks and jeans. Wasn't much more of a plus than what I owned. There was always my father's room, he was never home and I highly doubt that anything in there had been worn more than once, if worn at all.

The only problem would be to get into the room without Kankri questioning it; I'd have to wait for him to get distracted.

I push the thoughts to the back of my head and pull on the rest of my clothes, buttoning up the front of my white dress shirt and pulling the navy blue coat on over it. The sleeves on the coat were a bit long but I rolled them up a bit at the cuffs and they were manageable. I actually look rather nice in the thing, aside from my hair being a train wreck I note staring at myself in the mirror, avoiding the stare of my own rust colored eyes.

I hear the familiar sound of the shower being turned on and breathe out in relief, Kankri must be showering, now was as good of a time as any to get something for Gamzee. I spare myself one more pitiful glance before leaving my bedroom.

oXo

I haven't been in my father's room for so long; then again he hasn't been home for years. My father had died nearly three years ago of cancer, I never knew my mother and Kankri was of age so he took to taking care of me and supported me and himself. I refused to acknowledge the death of my father, yes he is gone, but I believe that he is still here in some ways. When I get upset or I fuck up I would stare at his picture and imagine his smile, and sometimes I swear I can still feel his calming voice and his hands pat my head, telling me everything is going to be alright.

But nothing is alright now, neither Kankri nor him can help what I've done, I have to fix everything; not them now.

My hand feels hot on the cold metal doorknob. I want to take it off, to turn around and find something else, but it's too late. I turn the rarely used door knob and the door creaked open in front of me.

Light from the hallway leaked into the empty of life room, illuminating the belongings of my father. Everything was the same as it always was and is, excluding the now vacant spot on top of his entertainment center where his tv once was, everything was him.

I padded silently into the room, a picture of Kankri and mines mother hung on a dusty picture frame above the old bed.

I gnawed on my lower lip, taking I a small breath and moving towards his dresser. There was bound to be something in the thing that was unused and worn in the thing. I rummaged through the drawers in frustration, not bothering to fold anything back the way it was, more than likely wouldn't be touched after I was done anyways.

My fingers brushed across a smooth yet plushy material, I grabbed at it and yanked it from its confines within the dresser. A tag was still dangling from the waistband of the pajama pants, signifying that it had yet to be worn. They were an almost black grey color, patterned with much lighter grey polka dots. They were perfect for the giant asshole, or at least they were the first thing I had found that he could actually wear.

I shoved the drawers closed, stuffing the clothing back inside before darting out of the bedroom, slamming the door shut behind me without a second glance back. Almost immediately after I left the room, I run smack into an all too familiar red sweater.

"What were you doing I father's room?" the question was low and full of suspicion; I had the pants balled up and behind my back, glaring up at my elder brother.

"None of your damn business" I spit back, it's not that I was offended by his statement, more as the way he said it and the look he was giving me; it all said too clearly that he thought I was doing something wrong or that there was something wrong with me.

I shoved past him and retreated into my bedroom once more, hastily shoving the stolen pajama pants into my bag before throwing it on my back and heading out. I stopped to pet Crabdad some more; Kankri didn't bother me after my little moment, muttering me a goodbye and not even bothering to argue with me when I told him I was going to walk to work.

I shut the front door behind me, not looking back, it was for the best; I'm doing this for him.

~~XOX~~

The air was brisk and cold, but at least I had arrived at work when someone had already opened it up. The lights brightly from a distance giving me at least some form of relief, I wouldn't have to wait outside like last time.

I didn't want to think about what would happen when I returned today, I'm sure they were expecting, maybe even betting the sick fucks, on what I would do. Kill myself, come back, try to run, etc. The possibilities were endless.

Now that I'm nearly up the steps of the big ass zoo I want to turn back, I want to run and hide even though I knew it was pointless. I don't want to go back into that room, I don't want the looks, I don't want to be their next test subject. I want to be Karkat Vantas, I want to go back and go to college, to make the right decisions. But I can't.

I sigh and my fingers come into contact with the smooth cold glass of the front of the place, peering inside. The automatic door system didn't start working until the official opening time, I ahd to use my keys to open it manually in order to get inside.

I grope at my pockets, finding where I had placed the ring of keys before searching for the right one and opening the door. Closing and relocking it behind me I start to make my way back into the maze of hallways, seeing a considerable amount of people crowded around the lobby desk.

Most were whispering and giggling but some were arguing or in deep conversations; at least until the door shut behind me with a loud audible clanking noise. Then all attention was turned in my direction, some of them pointed and others looked shell shocked.

I scowled and went to make my way past the paparazzi.

"Well, I can't that I expected to thee you again" Sollux grinned wildly, my scowl deepened but I continued to walk away towards my designated area.

"Hey don't be like that, c'mon over here and introduce yourthelf to the retht of the team, we're not that bad I thwear" I wanted to snarl and bite back at him until a hand landed on my shoulder, at first I thought it was the asshole and I spun around ready to yell at him, but bright teal eyes gleamed at me. My eyes widened and I blushed partially, my throat tightening.

"Hey… I think we got off on the wrong foot, and I can understand why you're so angry but please… we're really not that bad, just come over and say hello, don't be so crabby?" She sounded sincere, much in contrast with her personality yesterday. I grumbled and nodded shyly.

"Fucking fine" I curse silently, she smiled wider if even possible.

"Awesome!" she grabbed at my hand, hers feeling cool in my sweaty, hot one and tugged me back to the group of workers at the front. I stared about at the back of her head; she was a tad bit taller than me, but then again who wasn't? I felt my stomach flip and looked away from her.

"Guys this is Karkat, Karkat this is the gang" Terezi introduced me, I glared at the faces, whether or not they were there yesterday or not I didn't care they all seemed to know.

"Where's John and Jade?" I ask in a gruff voice, noticing their absence. A boy with shining blonde hair and aviator shades on, inside the fucking building like some hip dumbfuck, hopped off the counter with a smirk.

"They don't know what runs underground if you know what I mean, only the higher ups do really, well until you" he smiles rather dominantly. I scowl up at him.

"Am I supposed to feel swooned or complimented?" I snap back in just a sarcastic tone as he did before looking him over "because I can fucking tell you the only thing I'm feeling is my breakfast about to come back up."

"Oooh kittens got a bite" I growled lowly, getting ready to tell the fuckass off.

"Quit being a dick, Coolkid" Terezi juts in before I can suck in the air needed for my screaming, she pats me lightly on the shoulder "He's a part of the crew now, don't treat him like that" . Dave seems somewhat taken aback by her statement but quickly shrugs it off with a wry smile. I feel my stomach turn at her words and I immediately jerk back.

"Crew?" I hear someone snort "The kids a walking meat bag"

More giggles and laughs shake the group of strangers, I jerk back in somewhat offense and grip my bag tightly, clenching my fist and grinding my teeth together.

"Look I understand that I may just be some little fucking shit who apparently is only fucking useful for being a fucking teddy bear to some big ass fucking man dog, cat whatever the fuck it is- But I've actually got shit to fucking do and I don't have fucking time to touch dicks with you fuckasses, now if you'll excuse me, the fucking teddybear has shit to more than likely wipe up" I snap out at them, turning quick on my heels and making my way to the shitty janitor closet, silence shadowing behind me.

xOx

I didn't know when or how I was supposed to go meet Gamzee, I had been cleaning most of the day, Terezi hadn't really approached me after my blow up this morning. I was partially grateful but another part of me ached to see her face or hear her voice. I shoved that part down.

Currently I'm scrubbing the front of the candy store, though the windows look spotless to me, John had a whole beef fit saying that they needed to be cleaned. My arms were already sore from scrubbing the restroom floors. I honestly did not need this shit.

My bag sat beside me on my cleaning shit cart, I would look over at it from time to time, thinking over what I was going to do or how the day would play out.

Hours drug on hours, people feigned stupidity and ignored me for most of the day, either pissed off or trying to forget what had happened earlier that day.

After what had seemed like forever I heard a familiar voice call overhead.

'Karkat Vantas, you're needed in the back, thank you"

I winced at how calm and smooth the voice sounded, pleased with themselves. I sling my bag over my shoulder admiring how well I had cleaned the glass; I could literally see myself reflecting off of it. I looked pale, frail, and pathetic. I quickly shoved the cart and moved to go to the back.

Cronus was waiting for me, Jade beside him when I opened the locked door. Jade's smile was as oblivious and bright as ever yet her eyes twinkled with an emotion foreign to me.

"Harley if you would please" Cronus instructed her, waving a hand at my cart. She nods and darts forward, sending me a fleeting smile before taking it from me "Now Karkat…" his eyes roamed over me, waiting for the door to shut and lock behind Jade before continuing "I'm going to have to check your bag before I let you into the lab"

I roll my eyes and toss the stupid thing at him, he catches it with ease and takes no hesitation to go through my things, giving a small smile at a photograph of my brother before pulling out the pajamas I had brought.

"Polka dots?" he questioned with an eyebrow quirk, his hair was deshelved and his eyes held heavy bags under them "Didn't peg you as someone who would own a pair of these, seem a bit big for someone of your stature"

"Fuck off, they aren't mine I just got em" I spit at him, he smiles at my response and hands me my things back, motioning for me to follow him into the lab room, I follow him but slowly. I really hate the tremor that goes over me as I step into the room, a flash of the man's face from yesterday.

Terezi is waiting by Gamzee's door, a sullen look on her face; I look down at the floor, shoving the pants back into the bag. Cronus nods at her and moves me to stand beside her.

"How long do I have to stay in there" I ask him, keeping my gaze locked to the floor as I speak, I can feel her beside me but I don't want to look up or acknowledge it.

"Depends, we would like at least twenty minutes just for today, more later if it goes well" Cronus says in a bored tone, twirling an unlit cigarette between his lips "Pyrope, if you will please"

I feel her nod stiffly, a resounding beep being heard over head and the door clicking out of place, it slides open with ease, Terezi clicking her gun into place, another memory of how the dart from said guns resurfaced and I winced away from the sound. Clutching at my bag and stepping into the room, Terezi follows somewhat behind me, as if she wants to guard or protect me.

The place looks a lot neater than what it had been, still an endless mass of thick jungle surrounding most of the room, but the clearing upon entering looked as if Gamzee's tantrum had never even occurred, yesterday.

"Where is he?" I ask, turning to look at Terezi, she shrugs her tense shoulders looking back at the still unlocked but closed door. She sends me a fleeting look and reaches to grab my shoulder.

"Maybe he's asleep, we should probably go back" she sounds somewhat desperate, like she doesn't like the idea of me being in here, for some reason it brings a warm fuzzy feeling in my stomach and I blush as her hand touches my shivering shoulder.

"Yeah I guess" I nod absentmindedly, turning to her, preferring to leave.

I hear some shuffling of trees and quickly spin around to see Gamzee, and unfortunately all of him, staring wildly and hatefully at Terezi, or more her hand lingering on my shoulder. She quickly jerks back and aims her gun at him, ready for an assault of some sort as he lets out a low guttural growl.

The door reopen behind her and Cronus is telling her to leave the room, she sends me a fleeting look like she wants to take me out too, afraid of what Gamzee would do to me. But the only thing that Gamzee is focused on is her, and he wants her out, I see him get into a very defensive stance, his lips pulling back to reveal his teeth as he growls louder.

"Pyrope, out now!" Cronus barks loudly in a tone I'm glad was never directed at me. I see Gamzee prepare to charge at her but I run in front of her and push her towards the door, protecting her from Gamzee's wrath.

"Get out you idiot!" I scream at her, Gamzee looks confused and rears back a bit, staring me up and down in confusion. Terezi is jerked out of the room and the door locks behind her, I don't hear anything on the other side and a part of me doesn't want to. Gamzee whines lowly and I turn to him, in slight anger.

"What the fuck was that about!" I yell at him, he looks saddened by my anger but still approaches me, I shiver and silently step back as he comes closer, his body towering over mine as he stares me down in a mixture of emotions.

I tense up as he pulls me against him, his face close to my neck breathing in and growling out. I reach up to pet him but he jerks away and turns. I feel a wave of anxiety run through me as he does this. Had I done something wrong?

I reach once more to pet him and this time he doesn't jerk like before, he lets out a silent half growl but doesn't move as I start to rub his arms almost lovingly, I stand on my tip toes and reach to scritch behind his ears when he finally face me again, pulling me into a tight hug.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to yell" I apologize even though I don't mean it, he deserved it. He hums half amused and starts to rub against me, nuzzling at my neck and face. I pet him some more now that he was closer, my skin crawling but tingling whenever I felt his nose brush against it.

His hands move lower and I feel heat and fear build up, but he pulls his hands back up with my bag in it, examining it curiously, I feel stupid for assuming that he would have had those kinds of intentions and shove it down , focusing on the task at hands.

I take the bag from him, much to his disappointment, and carefully unzip it, removing the pants I had brought for him. He eyes them curiously as they unfold from the balled up form I had them in. They're long and wrinkled but he seems delighted from them, a big goofy smile plastered on his face.

"These are pants, I wear them and since I have to be here with you, you will too, fuckass" I tell him, pointing to my pants, he tilts his head but nods somewhat "They cover your ass"

I hand them to him and he stares at them quizzically, as if he doesn't know how to put them on, I doubt he does. He gives me a strange look and somewhat dangles them from his hands playfully. I roll my eyes and groan loudly.

"You've got to be fucking kidding me" I sigh, and run a hand through my hair, snatching the clothing from him and bending down somewhat. Averting my eyes away from any of his nether regions, though I did steal some glances not in a perverse but curious way, he was human in some way at least, but his thing looked way too big for average, I blushed at my perverted notes, but I mean who could not notice something like that when it's literally dangling right in fucking front of you. And either it was my imagination or his hips were swaying way too fucking close for comfort. I glared up at his big innocent smile.

"Stop fucking moving and give me your leg!" I snapped, he cocked his head and I let out a frustrated growl, grabbing at one of his hairy, yet muscular legs and lifting it slowly so that he wouldn't be startled and lose balance. He watched me as I slid his large goofy feet into one of the pants legs, until it popped out the end. I could feel him shiver under my touch as I did the same to the other leg.

"Pull them up" I said, even going as far as to motion as to what he was needed to do, but he still stared at me in confusion "Oh for the ever loving fuck-"

I grab at the waistband and jerk them up quickly, making sure not to 'catch on to anything' and jump back on my feet after I finished the job. A light blush still lingering on my cheeks. He seems amused at my outburst but turns his attention to his pants.

"I'm never doing that for you again you fuckass" I growl out, but admire my good choice, the pants seem to fit him nicely, still rather baggy but long enough. He grins and purrs in content, once again enveloping me in a hug.

I frown but hug him back somewhat as he coddles over me. He resumes his previous nuzzles and I resume my pettings. He turns his attention to my shoulder, the same shoulder the Terezi had touched and focuses on it. I frown but don't question him as he starts to nuzzle there, that is until he starts to rub his nose against it like a dog, I shuffle a bit but he tightens his grip on me and continues to do so, I try to ignore it as best as I can.

It continues on for a while, the awkward silence of me being pampered like a princess and him making weird animal noises when I scratch the right places. When it's time for me to go, he whimpers loudly and audibly but I try to assure him I'll be back tomorrow, but it still doesn't seem to ease him.

"Longer" he whispers hoarsely, his voice is rough and husky against my neck and it makes me tremble.

"I can't, my brother is waiting for me" I tell him, it's not a full lie to be honest I don't know if he is or isn't, he seems to think over this before nodding. I go to pull away from him but his arms encircle me once more and I go to complain but I feel his cold, wet lips press against my forehead and then he's gone, retreating back to his little den of a forest, out of sight. My face is ablaze and I don't even recognize the sound of the door opening.

~~XoX~~

"Tomorrow we need to do some testing on him, he isn't very fond of those and we tend to have to sedate him but I feel if we have you there he will act accordingly" Cronus nods, examining some notes on a clipboard from his rolly chair, barely acknowledging me. I hadn't seen Terezi since I had gotten out of the room, it troubled me somewhat.

"For your sake I hope he doesn't act out of line" Cronus adds in but I ignore it, waving it off, I really want to go home.

"Is that it?" I say, I feel exhausted and want nothing more than to curl back up in my bed and think over what had occurred today.

"Mhm" he nods somewhat, I turn to leave but I hear him call after me, I turn back to see his cold eyes, glinted with amusement "Karkat, I feel like I should tell you this, Gamzee knows how to dress himself"

I turn on my heels and shove past the door, but I can feel his amused smile and eyes boring into my back, my face burning a bright red.

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Sorry it took so long333 Also, I'm sorry is there are any typos, it's literally midnight on a school night, and I couldn't procrastinate the publishing of this chapter any longer. & R