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Before you read this chapter, first, I'm sorry for any error spelling or grammar . cuz I don't know what to do ,except you want to help me.. hehe.. :p . so sorry if it's bad…

Please Don't Love Me

Chapter Four

Botan sat on the chair in her apartement while watching TV . Her thoughts were still about Kurama. She sighed. Turn off the television, she looked at the clock. 07.12 PM . Today at 08.00 PM , she must join the gang to Kurama's house for something she doesn't know. Actually, she'd said to Keiko that she didn't think she would join them . But Keiko insisted. What she worried so much isn't the 'party' at Kurama's house. But the fact that Kurama would pick her up at 7.30 PM to buy her a new dress. She was confused now. Why must she buy a new dress? What for? And the most important : why Kurama ?!. 'ugh! I can't face him now!'.

Then a voice of a ringing bell came from her apartement door. "Wha-" she looked at the clock. '07.35!'. She panicked. "Oh my God! What should I do? I know I must apologize to him now. But.. it's to soon! First, what should I say to him…mmm…come on Botan! Agh!" she run towards the door. And opened it. Revealed the handsome red headed Kurama.

She expected to see his polite smile. But instead she received a cold look from this handsome guy. She bent her head down in sad.'he must be really mad at me.' But she knew she deserved it.

"Hurry. We have to go now." He said with the same cold eyes ,with the cold tone. And turned around. Not even want to facing her. So his back now facing her. She feels bad for this. Her eyes began to blur because of water in her eyes threatening to fall. She nodded and closed the door. Kurama began to walking, his back still facing her. She was standing behind Kurama. She gazed at Kurama from behind. Her now sad eyes , looks worried over something she didn't want to experienced. Losing him.

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After they finished shopping, and Botan was wearing the dress she had bought. And of course, none of them broke the silence between them since they left Botan's apartement. Still, they walked with Kurama's back facing Botan. He kept on walking , ignoring her. She knew , that being ignored was the worst part in her life. Now, she couldn't take it anymore. She cried. And run towards him. Hold him from behind while crying.

Kurama was a little surprised at this. But, he chose to stayed calm as always.

"Please…don't ignore me…hiks..hh..d-don't…," she stuttered because of hurt.

"I…Kurama, I'm so sorry . I-I didn't m-mean to h-hurt y-you…hhiks..hh..I-I just..Oh Kurama, don't be angry…P-please f-forgive me," she said.

Kurama's eyes still looks hurt. But softened at her cries of plea. He didn't want to see her cry. 'especially in her special day.' He thought. His hands now holding hers. He turned around to face her. When he did, he looked into her eyes. Her teary eyes. She looked back with a really sad expression. He put his hand on her cheek. Wiping her tears away.

"Never in my life, I saw you this sad, in tears. And I don't want to see that again. Please , don't cry, Botan." He said softly.

"B-but , I'm hurting you. I-I shouldn't do that to you, Kurama." She replied.

"I don't care about it anymore." He said again.

Botan's eyes widened a bit. And she said,

"Is t-that mean I was f-forgiven?"

He nodded. And replied , "But , I wanted to know what's the matter with you-"

He was cutted off by Botan's sudden tight embrace at him.

"P-please, don't ask me this one.. Forget it." She said happily.

Kurama nodded as she let go of him now. Then , Botan said,

"I always know, you are my friends! I never wanted to lose you." Kurama feels a pang in his heart at her words 'friends'. But chose to ignore it.

One thing makes him a little pride. The fact that she cried in front of him. He feels like he didn't want any other man to see her cry in front of them except him. He…he loves her. Even though , he didn't want to see her cry. He knew , he was being selfish, but he couldn't take this away from his mind.

Suddenly, her expression turned sad again.

"B-but maybe , I will never be the same Botan who was your closest friends again. I-I …maybe I will not be really close to you like before again..," she said.

His eyes widened. Then he said,

"Botan , really, tell me what is wrong with you? I can't understand of your behavior."

"J-just don't ask. We were still friends, right? Oh, come on , the other must be worried right now. We must hurry !" She replied. Then, she grabbed his hand, and dragged him, so they would arrive at his house as soon as possible.

.sorry if this short. I've been really busy right now. My homeworks maybe will be finished after Thursday. So, I'll try my best to make chapter 5 is longer than this chapter.

.also, I was planning to make Hiei appear as luv-triangle too between Kurama and Botan besides Yukina. Tell me if you agreed or not. By review!

.don't forget to review! And once again, sorry if this chapter is so bad , short, or any mistake of grammar/spelling…

.until next time….

.santi lestari.