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Chapter Twelve

Two months later, One day before Dean goes to hell,

Cassie woke up early in bed beside Dean. She opened her eyes and pushed back the tears. She didn't want to move and lose the moment. It was the worst day of her life she thought. That night Sam and Dean were going to go away from them so Dean could go die. She had argued with Dean over this plan for days.

He refused to let her go with him when it happened. He wanted to protect her from that sight except he didn't understand her feelings that if she didn't see it happen it would somehow keep her heart opened to the fact that maybe it never happened.

Cassie had no idea that Ruby was involved. Ruby was going to meet Sam and Dean and they were going to try to kill Lilith at a location they had heard she was staying. Their plan could easily fail with Dean dying no matter what so Dean wanted Cassie far away from it he figured the less she knew the better.

--

Cassie turned over and looked down at Dean. He was on his side with his back facing her. She moved closer as she tried to memorize everything about him. His hair was still longer the way she liked it even though he wasn't fond of the length he had given in for her sake. She could see the gold streaks in his hair that blended in with the dark blonde ones. If she leaned over a bit she could see his neck freckle the one that she loved to suck on. She wanted to run her hands over his skin to touch him while he was unaware just for herself. She needed to see more though but she didn't want to wake him up. She sighed as she thought about how to do it. Slowly, she moved the covers down so the top of his firm butt came into view. She bit her lip as she thought she saw him move in his sleep but she was prepared to pretend she was sleep.

Dean was awake the entire time but he thought Cassie needed to do what she was doing. He hated that he had to leave at all. He kept his eyes shut tight but as he thought about what she needed he considered his time looking at her in his sleep.

{Flashback}

He had begun to look her over as soon as she was asleep the night before. He watched as she dozed off and took his time looking over her softly rounded curves. He realized she was pregnant about then. She hadn't told him about it yet and he wondered if she was keeping her secret to keep him from feeling guiltier about going away forever. Her full lips lie slightly open with a peek of her even white teeth. Her breasts were perky and her brown skin was perfect and smooth to him. He had moved the covers down a bit to look at her stomach better and to recall the moments they had made love that night.

They made love at least three times and she was more passionate with usual and he hadn't wanted it to end. Her hands on his body had brought him back to life after the first round, she had pulled him down to her by using his hair then she laughed sultrily. Dean appreciated that he had marks on him from her love bites that she inflicted in the heat of passion.

He ached to touch her but he had held himself back because she needed to rest. He had gotten chocked up as he did his survey of the woman he loved.

{End Flash}

--Cassie gave in to touching Dean after a few minutes. She reached over and traced her hand down his side and put her hand into his. Dean turned over with a smile just before he kissed her hand.

"You done?" he asked with a smile.

"With you? Never," she said before she teared up.

"Cass, I…….."

She went off to the bathroom before he could finish his sentence.

--

In the other bedroom Cash and Sam made love. Cash had finally told Sam she loved him and they were engaged though they hadn't told anyone. Cash was also unaware of the deal with Ruby. Sam had been afraid she would be jealous since she had no idea that Ruby was a demon. She only thought Ruby was someone Sam used to date, I woman who didn't quite know how to let go. It was an assumption not based on anything Sam said more his lack of feeling for Ruby. He had wanted to tell Cash but it put him in a bad light. He did plan to tell Cash after Dean was gone but he was beginning to feel guilty about holding out.

Cash smiled down at Sam as he came inside her. She moved over to snuggled up next to him. She could only smile. Sam was the man she never thought she would meet. She was aware of Azazel, the demon blood and Sam's history as far as his family as well as Jessica Moore.

"So Sam," Cash said, "I don't envy Cassie right now. If it were you, I would be going freaking crazy trying to kill every demon with hopes that I would kill Lilith in the process.

"Yeah, well Cassie did that by researching and we have all tried in our ways…….to make this death sentence go away," Sam said as he pulled her arm across his chest.

The room went quiet as the considered what it must be like to be Cassie Winchester on that dreadful morning.

--

Dean went to the door of the bathroom to find it locked, but he could hear Cassie's crying. He also heard the toilet flush, he assumed she had thrown up. He knocked on the door.

"Cass, come on let me in. We need to talk, please……."

The noise in the bathroom stopped before Cassie opened the door. Her eyes were tear stained and she looked unhappy as she frowned at him.

"I'm okay, Dean, I have to tell you something," she said as he led her back to the bed.

"Tell me whatever you need to," he said as he put his arms out to her.

Cassie who was naked also, sat beside Dean on the bed.

"Dean I'm pregnant, I found out last week but I thought if I told you it would only make you feel bad, well worse than you do about ……leaving," she said as she looked in his green eyes.

Dean ran his hands over her face before he leaned into kiss her soft lips. Cassie gave in to him and they fell back on the bed.

"It's okay Cass, I kind of figured you were…."he said as he let her climb on top of him.

"Why? How?"

"A lot of things, to start with you gained weight, you get up and throw up every morning and have for the last couple weeks now. I heard you I just didn't say anything. I hate that I'm not going to be here for you. I'm sorry I was a coward and didn't mention it I thought you would tell me when you wanted me to know."

Cassie straddled his waist and leaned down with her head on his chest, "I wish you were going to be here, Dean. I have to confess having part of you with me will be comforting," she said as he moved his hands up her body.

"I'm sure you will do all the right things and our baby will grow up to be a fine upstanding young person. Cass, just don't forget to tell them how much I loved them and you," he said as tear threatened to fall down his cheek.

Cassie moved her hand over his face to wipe his tear, "You know I will but we need to try to get through this day with sobriety and as much closeness as we can muster," she said as she traced her fingers over his nipple with a grin.

"Another reason I figured you were pregnant, you've also been exceptionally horny lately," he said with a smirk as he flipped on her back, though he wished he was going to be there for their baby too.

Cassie laughed, she was going to miss him so very much.

--Later that night, The Goodbyes.

The day had been spent leisurely for Cassie and Dean. They stayed in bed till almost three o'clock. They talked about the baby for a while then Dean became a bit stoic as his fate weighed on him. Cassie cried every time he wasn't in her sight. It was a hard time for the two of them as well as Sam and Cash who went to lunch with them in town.

Dean had his favorite cheeseburger and ate it with a slowness born from the idea that he would never eat one again. Sam sat across from his brother and every so often could only stare at Dean. It was going to be a whole different world for Sam without Dean if their plan did not work out that night.

Cassie and Cash stood at the door that night as they held one another. Dean and Sam got in the Impala and drove away after Dean said good bye to Cassie. The whole day had been about leaving so it was brief by that point.

"Cassie I don't know how we are going to follow them if we don't get in there and grab our stuff," Cash said as Cassie stood watching the Impala tail light fade into the distance.

"Let's go," Cassie said as she seemed to snap back to life. The rental Cassie drove had been parked down the block and neither Sam nor Dean had even realized it was one that Cassie had rented since the rental company had delivered.

--Twenty minutes later,

"Okay that's them," Cash said as Cassie kept her eyes on the road.

They followed a respectable distance and were surprised when after a half hour the guys stopped at a motel. The two women looked from one to the other as they parked the rental car several cars over and watched Dean and Sam go inside the building. "What is going on?" Cassie asked as she looked at Cash.

Cash shook her head and almost missed when Ruby jumped in the back seat of the Impala.

"It's that girl, Sam's ex with them," she said as she frowned.

"What? Who is Sam's Ex? Jessica is dead."

"Not her some other girl a hunter I think that showed up one night a while ago……anyway what is she doing with them?" Cash asked.

"Yeah and I couldn't go but she goes," Cassie said with a pout.

They turned around and followed the Impala as it took the boys out of the parking lot toward Dean's destiny.

TBC