More of the fic I hope you all like it. The next chapter might be the last, enjoy. R & R.
Chapter Thirteen
They followed one car behind for almost two hours. Cassie's eyes were getting tired from having to focus to make certain they didn't lose them. She had second thoughts about going from the moment they left but her stubbornness refused to let her turn tail and run. All she wanted was to be with her Dean she didn't understand how he could be under a death sentence for trying to save someone. She did know that God had laws and even though Dean was under Satan's law because making the deal it all seemed wrong. She supposed the universe had some type of balance to maintain she just wished it didn't involve her life.
While she drove Cash kept an eye out on the Impala's side mirror as a way to make sure they were following the right car. "Cassie I have a bad feeling," Cash said just before the car in front of them stopped suddenly. Cassie slammed on the breaks before the other driver screamed out of the window at Dean "Are you crazy?" he said before he swerved to keep from hitting him as Dean got out of the car.
"Sh*t," Cassie said as Dean headed her way. He looked angrier than she had ever seen him. She could see the vein throbbing in his forehead. For a moment she only stared as he came toward her, "Cassie we should get out of the road if there is going to be a chat," Cash said when Cassie only sat looking out the window like a love struck teen. Cassie heard her friend before she drove over to the shoulder to keep them both from being hit even though the service road was relatively deserted.
Cassie got out of the car to meet Dean.
"Are you crazy?" he asked hesitantly though he understood her damned stubbornness he needed her to go back.
"Dean, Ruby is with you, if she can help maybe we can too," she said before she took his hand before he pushed it away. He didn't want to be mad he wanted her to be protected.
"Cassie you are being selfish," he said as he looked at her. He wanted to be angry and send her away but it was for her own good. "You have to leave," he said with a determination.
"I'm going with you, here we go again you want me to do what you want instead of what I want. Damn it Dean I am a grown up if I want to go then I will go," she said before she saw the anger resurrect in his eyes. For a few moments he seemed to calm down but now he was mad again.
"FINE, whatever," he practically growled as he went toward the Impala again, "SAM," Dean bellowed.
Cassie looked helpless as she stood on the side of the road between Dean's car and her own.
Sam walked over, "CASH," he said in a loud voice before Cash got out of the car.
"Yeah?" she said with a bit of an attitude since she had seen the woman who was Ruby who happened to get out of the car at the same time.
"You need to get Cassie and go back," Sam insisted with a look at Cash that said clearly this shouldn't happen.
Ruby stood in front of Sam between him and Cash, "Maybe they should come to make peace if need be and to help if that is needed. They are hunters they can handle it."
Ruby didn't' care one way or another but it was time for her to face off with Lilith and her prize Sam that was her only goal.
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Sam glared at Ruby he thought she was up to something but with the time flying by if they were going with them they needed to get a move on still.
"Cassie?"
Cassie nodded before she returned to the car. She was having second thoughts again but they had come this far why not see it through she thought. She waited for Cash to get in the car while she considered her baby. Would it be healthy for her to see her husband die? Would it stress her to the point that she might miscarry the one connection to Dean that she would have? She watched as Cash spoke with Sam then opened the passenger door.
"Cash maybe they are right, I have to protect mine and Dean's baby this might be too much."
Cash nodded they would talk about the fact that she didn't know Cassie was pregnant later, "You sure because this is our last chance to go Cassie," Cash watched as Cassie nodded. "Okay go say a last bye to Dean, quickly."
Cassie did as she was asked. She walked to the Impala and knocked on the window where Dean looked angrily at her again.
"I'm not going," she said before she turned to walked back to the car." Dean jumped out of the Impala and grabbed her to his chest. "I just want you and the baby safe, Cass, that's all that matters now," he said with flashes of fear in his eyes.
He held her for long minutes, looked in her eyes after a brief kiss then she pulled away from him before she ran to the car again.
Dean understood there really was nothing left to say. They loved each other but their joint destinies seemed to have ended. He had a death sentence and she had to bring forth their child into the world. He watched her for a moment before he got in the Impala and drove away.
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Cash and Cassie waited to leave the shoulder of the road until they couldn't see the lights of the Impala any longer. Cash had been able to get a quick kiss from Sam but he promised to come back in a couple days after everything was done. Cassie was quiet for the first hour or so on the way back. Cash understood and left her in peace.
Finally Cassie spoke up when the stopped to get snacks at a rest stop only a half hour from home. "I'm sorry I didn't tell you I was pregnant, it's funny, Dean already knew," she said before the tears came. Cash pulled her into hug as they sat in the car outside the restrooms. It was five thirty in the morning, only an hour before Dean took his last breath.
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Sam returned on the day he had promised to inform Cassie he had buried Dean so if she needed to go to visit the grave he would take her to it whenever she desired. Cassie thought that was a good idea, It was morbid but she stayed by the window to see the Impala for almost two hours after Sam returned. Something about the car would always symbolize Dean to her.
{Six years before}
From the moment Cassie saw the big black car she knew the man inside was special. She had no idea how special he would become to her but they way he kept his car shiny and he drove it with pride said something about him.
{End flashback}
Sam refused to talk about the night in detail only to say it was the worse he had ever endured. Cash didn't press him on it or even ask why Sam had not burned his brother's body in the hunter's tradition. She only wanted to move forward with him and try to help Cassie have a healthy pregnancy.
In Hell – Day 60
Dean was in pain all of the time his soul was cut up and bled out each day. He tried at first to hold on to happy thoughts, to remember the good times but by the time two months had gone by he was angrier than he had ever been on earth. He had cursed and screamed for Sam till he thought he would go mad from hopelessness. Dean couldn't imagine enduring the same routine for eternity. It was the worst possible fate he determined early on. Every single day, Alastair made his offer to him to take him off the rack so he could torture others and Dean would spit in his face and tell him to Screw off.
On Earth
Cassie had yet to shed tears for Dean and both her friends were worried for her health. She walked around planning for her baby, behaving as though all was well. Cash walked by the room that Cassie was to use as a nursery to see her friend measuring the windows.
"Hey you need any help?"
Cassie looked up at her with a smile that didn't quite reach her eyes. She looked like a person who wasn't quite in the moment lately. Cash had talked to the doctor who insisted they needed to get her to mourn for the health of her baby. Cassie's way of dealing was not good because when the dam finally broke on her tears it could do irreparable harm to her fetus. It was better to go through her grief stages slowly instead of erratically.
Cash sat on the floor with Cassie she needed to tell her what the doctor had said without upsetting her.
"Sam is going to the grave and he wanted me to ask if you could take a break to ride with him. You could be back by tonight," Cash offered.
Cassie seemed to think for long minutes before she looked up at her.
"I actually went two days ago, sorry I didn't say anything but I went to tell him how the planning was going for the nursery," she said calmly.
Cash didn't believe her but it wasn't as though she could call her a liar. She nodded at her, "Well I'm glad, do you need to talk or anything because I am here for you Cassie. It has been hard for Sam and I think if you don't' feel comfortable talking to me then maybe him."
Cassie sighed before she looked as though she might break down but she calmed herself visually and only shook her head.
Cash tried again, "Sweetie, the doctor says you have to mourn openly otherwise it's bad for the baby," she said straight out.
Cassie got up without a word and went to the window. "I don't' know what I did for this to happen to me. I loved Dean from the time we met, I know there were times I sent him away," she said as the tears came, "But I loved him from the start and he has helped so many people why couldn't it be stopped," she said before she turned around.
Cash got up to hug her friend.
They were still by the window when Sam arrived. "Hey everything okay? Cassie you going with me?" he asked.
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Cassie didn't go with Sam that day to the grave but she considered her options and began to grieve that day. She spoke with Cash of how she was feeling and talked into the night with her. She didn't know how else to share what was going on inside of her.
"I tried to do the right thing but like every other time, Cash, it came out wrong," Cassie said before the tears came proper while Cash held her to let her cry for her husband and the life they never had.
In Hell Day 90
Dean was to the point of no return. He was angry and feeling hostile and tired all rolled into one. His pain was beyond measure, the environment was hot and stale and not for human consumption. He had tried all kinds of mind tricks to get rid of the pain because with knowledge they would start over he thought he could deal. Unfortunately that never helped it actually turned out to make it worse. He wanted to be strong that day that Alastair asked him the magic question but his soul had had enough. He said yes and got off the rack to do what he thought he would never do even to those that deserved it. He tortured souls for the demons. The demons he despised because he couldn't' take the pain himself any longer. He would never be the same.
On earth – Cassie pregnant five months
That night Cassie had a dream that was vivid. She saw a man with dark hair and piercing blue eyes. He stood in front of her as he tilted his head to the side as though he had never seen anyone like her or maybe even a human before. Cassie was frightened at first because he appeared human yet on closer inspection she saw a shadow of wings behind him. He moved his lips but no sound escaped. She felt warm all over as he tried to communicate to her without actual speech.
"Who are you? What are you?" she asked with apprehension.
Again his mouth moved, somehow she felt warm again as though it was him providing the warmth. He took two steps toward her and she took one back. He put up his hand then tilted his head again like before.
"Answer me," she said in frustration as she grabbed her stomach.
He put his hands up toward heaven and bowed in front of her as close as she would allow him. Cassie fell to the floor in a heap but was unharmed in the dream.
She woke up with a smile on her face and a song in her heart the next morning. Though she had little recollection of the dream she knew it meant something. She tried to tell Cash about it but her friend was happy that Cassie was in a better mood. Cash wasn't a dreamer or one who had much hope for the future generally but she listened intently.
--Day 120 in hell
There was a rumble like thunder, unholy creatures ran to and fro, screams were heard and demons fell to the floor in a frenzy. Dean didn't recall any of this when he woke up in a pine box on his resurrection day.
TBC
I thought this would be it but I think it's a lot to take in at once. So I will go one more chapter. J