I do not own if I did then a lot of things would be different. Sorry took so long to update I have had writers block and thanks to the advice that you gave me and some time to think I have updated.

Dean knew he shouldn't have come to this bar, but he had. He needed to clear his mind and having a few cold ones and sitting here did that for him. So for now that's what he'd do sit here at the bar and have few.

It had been almost an hour and Dean had had almost five beers he was on his fourth about to get the fifth when somebody behind him asked "Can I buy you another beer?"
Dean turned around hoping that fate was on his side and somehow Sam had found him that's what he really wanted at that very minute, but it was somebody else. "I'm actually waiting on somebody else." Dean said.

"Kinda figured you were drowning yourself. I'm Amanda, but my friends call me Mandy. And you are?"

"With me." Dean heard somebody say from his other side. "It took this long to track you down." Sam said.

"So this is the guy you're waiting on, hope you have fun. And just so you know I wasn't going to take him from you, he's too hot to be straight." She said "See yah around Dean and you too." she added before leaving.

"I know that it's my fault you've been acting distant." Sam said.

"No it's not, it's me, Sam I guess I've had a lot on my mind and I just haven't felt like talking lately about everything so I just snapped finally."

"Snapped, I remember you bailing, but you never said anything Dean." Sam reminded him.

"Inside, Sam I snapped inside. Can we go talk at home about this?" he asked getting up and putting few bills on the bar.

"Yeah, we defiantly need to talk about lot things." Sam said.

Dean sat on the hood of the car and waited for Sam to do the same. "Okay, the thing is I was watching something the other night and I realized that I was just like the guy on the show, except that I really never came out the closet to the entire town. The only big difference is that I fell in love with my brother. I've had sex with girls and I've had sex with you, there is no comparison really. I love you Sam and not just as a brother like it used to be I love you more now than I did when we first started this. I still have those urges to go fuck a girl trust me they aren't going to ever go away I don't think, but the thing is I want. And the reason is I don't want to screw us up I can't because if I screw this up then I have nothing at all." Dean said



Sam had waited till he finished before he said anything. "That's why you've been distant this week, you've been feeling the urge to sleep with a girl?"

"No, I haven't felt that since well since we got here. I'm telling you this because one these days I'm going to need you to show me something and when they day comes I'm going to need to know that I can count on my brother. I need my best friend and sure my best friend happens to be my brother and lover, but I don't care. I needed this tonight too you coming to find me. The reason I bailed is because all this time we've been alone, Sam." Dean said. "And mom and dad just showed up and I got scared I actually got scared me the brother that's scared of only spiders, rats, and snakes I got scared."

"You thought that they'd changed their minds and came to make us break up didn't you?" Sam asked

"Something like that." Dean said getting up. "Come on let's get back to the dorm. I got a weeks worth of I'm sorries to make up to you." Dean told him giving him a kiss.

"Next time just tell me what's really wrong, Dean." Sam said returning the kiss.