I do not own if I did then a lot of things would be different. Sorry took so long to update I got this week off and am taking advantage of it. Thanks for the reviews. I'm posting an authors note next I need the readers advice again on what to do next.
Dean drove till he reached his parents' house and went to the garage where he knew his dad was. "Tonight, that's it after tonight I'm done forever." He said. "I am not going to let you get this family killed and I'm not leaving Sam alone either, you got tonight then I'm gone." Dean said.
"Dean, it is going take a lot more than one night to take them down." John said. "I need your help son and I can't do this by myself and with Bobby's help I'm still not on the upper hand." He told him.
"Dad I cannot lose him and he's leaving tonight when he does its over." Dean said. "I can convince mom to talk to him stay one more day, but after tonight I'm gone one way or another."
"You think that's it that you can walk away and these things want be here?" John asked "Because this is going to be here Dean and the next time you come back and decide to make a stand for yourself instead of being lead around like a dog on a leash by your brother it'll be too late."
"I'm not being lead around like a dog on a leash dad, I am my own person and you should know that. I got into Stanford five years ago before Sam ever applied you just hid the letters from me. Mom finally told me the truth, you took them and fucking burned them so I wouldn't leave. It want work this time, dad. I'm my own person."
"You leave then don't you dare come back." John said. "You walk out that door don't you dare come back this time. I don't need you anymore." He said. "I don't need a soldier that don't know when to shut-up and do what he's told so just leave."
"I'm not a fucking soldier dad I'm not your damn soldier never have been really I just took your orders so you'd stay off my back. Well I want anymore I'm done once I take care Ricki I'm gone for good and don't you dare ever ask me for another fucking thing because I want be there." Dean said.
John grabbed him slamming him against the door. "Then leave if you want to so bad." He said. "But you're not welcome back here after you do. So don't you dare call or come here anymore, you haven't been my son in over a year so why should I count on you now?" he asked before letting Dean go. "Get the hell out." He yelled pushing Dean out the door.
"FUCK YOU." Dean yelled. "Fuck you, I'm not going to let you tell me what to do anymore, you might be the man sired me, but you stopped being my dad the night mom almost died. I don't have a dad anymore, all I got is a drill
sergeant and I don't need one." Dean said. "Once Ricki's dead, I'm gone." He said walking out the garage.
"Why wait go back to your brother and leave we don't want you here." John said. Bobby choice that moment to come out the house he'd heard the yelling and decided to find out what was going on.
"You're a selfish son of a bitch you know that, first mom tells me to leave, then Sam, now you, I got nobody left might as well have let Ricki finish me off." Dean said. "When did you stop caring about me dad?" he asked
"The day you went to college." John said. "You left this family and all it's problems so don't think you can come back here and fix them in one night." He said.
"That's enough." Bobby said to John. "You don't mean that." He said.
"Yes I do, he left, and he shouldn't have come back here. So don't let the door hit you on the way out town." John said before walking away. "You're not my son anymore." He added.
Bobby grabbed Dean before he could take off after his dad. "Let him go, he doesn't mean it Dean; he's just angry right now, he needs somebody to take it out on and you're the one here." He told him. "Since you two left all he's done is say how much he was proud off you that you finally got what you wanted."
"Apparently he's not proud enough." Dean said. "I'm not leaving till Ricki's dead, even if that means I lose Sam for good." He said
"Dean look at me, you might think they don't care, but they do and so do I. Go and talk to him again."
"I can't." Dean said pulling away. "When morning comes Ricki will be dead, Sam will be gone and we'll be over, and this hunter will done, who knows might even be dead." He said going in the house he got his stuff and then took off in the car again. He had exactly twelve hours till sunset.
Bobby wasn't letting the last thing Dean said happen no way would he let another person he loved die. He went towards the garage he had to talk some since into John Winchester even if that meant knocking some since into him, he did it once he'd do it again if that meant that everybody stayed alive, except the vampires, that was.
Dean looked at his watch it was five-thirty and the sun would be down in exactly hour and half maybe sooner. He had gotten the weapons packed in his car made sure they were clean and ready to go. All he thought he had left was in that car and he wasn't going down without a fight if he had to die so be it, but he wasn't letting Ricki win, not this time. Dean stopped backing his duffle when somebody knocked on the door. He opened it finding Sam there.
"Don't do this." Sam said. "Don't you dare go after her; she's stronger than you. You haven't trained in along time she'll kill you and I can't do this without you Dean." Sam said.
"That your last ditch effort to stop me because I've already made my choice Sam. Soon as she's dead I'm gone so you don't have worry about me getting back into hunting. This is my last hunt." He added.
"You go throw with this and…" Sam started.
"I don't want to hear this shit again Sam I'm tired and I can't do this anymore. I can't be normal when I know that Ricki's here trying to kill our family. So excuse me if I give a shit, after she's in the ground I'm going back to college. Don't worry I'm not throwing that away." He said.
"You're not coming back there though." Sam told him. "You do this then don't you dare come back and try to make this right again because guess what it want be okay anymore." Sam said. "You can't fight with me, go hunt and come back to me saying sorry not anymore, I'm tired of being their to pick you up again. I can't be that person anymore. All I can be is either your brother who you don't talk to anymore or your lover, but I want be both anymore. After tonight if you don't leave with me then we're done for good. I can move on Dean, but can you?" he asked
"Don't you dare do this to me?" Dean said. "Don't make me choice Sammy, please don't make me choice. I can't choice I love you and I can't let you go."
"Make the choice Dean, hunting or our love." He said before he turned away. Dean grabbed him and kissed him hoping that he wouldn't go. When he pulled away Sam left not saying a word.
Dean sat down he had to decide and he didn't know what to do now; he was stuck at a crossroads and he couldn't choice, but who could he ask. He picked his cell phone and dialed the first number he thought of hoping they were home. "Hello, Harvelle's Roadhouse." The person answered.
"Jo, that you?" Dean asked
"Well Dean Winchester thought I'd never hear from you again. What you doing?" she asked
"I need some advice and since you're the female version of me pretty much I thought I'd ask you." He said.
"Shot." She said
"Sam said its hunting or him." Dean said. "But Ricki, this vamp is coming after our family tonight, Jo I don't know what to do. I love him, but I can't turn my back on them either." he said.
"You know what to do Dean."
"Fight her then find Sam."
"No." Jo told him. "It's hiding option three. Go to her now, take her out then go get Sam back don't tell him that you killed her." Jo said.
Dean said thanks and took off out the door. He had exactly an hour till sunset now.
Sam watched as Dean left and he thought that Dean had choice hunting over them. He waited till the car disappeared before he went back to the house. He got there finding his dad leaving, but he didn't see Bobby with him though. Moreover, the sun the sun was setting. Neither of them knew that Dean was already at the nest. Ricki watched as Dean walked in she knew that he hadn't came here for her either. "Looks like you're alone, Ricki." He said. "You know you talk big, but you're just a fucking girl." He told her.
"The others are here they're just hiding waiting on your dad." She said walking backwards towards the second exit. "You're not leaving here alive Dean." she told him.
"No you're not." Dean said with his cocky smile widening as he saw Bobby at the other entrance right behind Ricki.
"I think you're the one that's dead." Bobby told her sending the stake through her heart.
Dean smiled as she turned to dust, but that's when it went to hell. The fight started when the other vamps came out their hiding places hearing Ricki scream. John showed up five minutes after that the fight in full swing. Dean was fighting three vamps, Bobby had four at his back, and now three more were coming at him.
"We need back up." John said before taking out one of the vamps.
"Thought you'd never ask." Sam said coming up behind him. "Got in the house when I realized I couldn't let you do this alone. Dean gets himself killed before he knows better." Sam added taking the machete from his dad.
When it was over John looked around trying to find Dean, but he was no where to be found. "Where'd he go?" he asked looking to Sam then Bobby.
"He's gone." Sam said before he too left.
John knew he had to find Dean he hadn't meant anything he'd said to him. After Bobby reminding him of why he was really mad he'd tried to call Dean, but the line was busy.
Dean had went outside and sat down at the creek as he pulled the knife out his ribs. The last vamp he'd staked at got the upper hand first shoving it into him, but he still killed it. He took his shirt off and moved down till he was completely sitting in the water. It was up to his wounded side and it burned as the water beside him turned red from his blood. He laid back and held his breath putting his head under the water. He finally let the tears come really thinking about what he was loosing he wasn't sure when he had given up on everything, but he was freezing not just because the snow was starting to fall around him, but on the inside too. He
couldn't feel anything at the moment and he felt like he was dying. If he was stronger he'd get up, but hew wasn't he didn't want to move, but he had too so he slowly turned over taking air with relief. He'd made the worst mistake ever and now he had to go back to Stanford and live with that mistake. He refused to give his life up just because he wasn't with Sam because he knew that some how he'd be back with Sam soon. He'd do everything he could to get him back, but maybe for few weeks they needed some time apart.
Dean still laid there in the creek as the snow fell on him. He'd eventually get up and move on, but now he just needed to feel nothing and this was the way he did that laying in the freezing water as the freezing, now sleet fell, making him colder. The tears fell, but he told him self that it was just the water from the creek, he wouldn't break.
Sam decided to take his mom up on her offer of taking him back to Stanford in the morning since she was going to take Amber somewhere too. He was hoping that Dean would show up, but as the sun rose he knew that it was truly over. He just prayed that Dean would come back, maybe some time would do them some good then he'd try his hardest to get Dean back. He couldn't live without him, and he wouldn't either even if that meant they were just brothers for a while again.