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Carol's Point of View-

I went to my sister's grave site sitting down in front of it just thinking of how stupid I was to think that Matt actually cared about me, I mean I must be SO blind and SO stupid to think so. I sat here thinking, I know she could read my thoughts, at least I hope she can, I always felt stupid talking to them, maybe I'm just the stupid one thinking she could hear my thoughts. How could Matt say that? We are the best of friends, were at least, I mean, we had SO many fun times together, he's like two face. One way he's my best friend, happy go lucky type guy and the second way he's a bitch and is with that nasty Lindsey, ugh men! Why do I care so much of what he thinks anyway? I have so many people that support me, what him and Lindsey think don't matter, I must have some support if I won the Diva search. But ugh! He fooled me this whole time; he made me think that he liked me and then this! I hate him; I don't want to see him ever again. I did notice the multiple calls from Matt that I purposely didn't answer, but I didn't notice a car pull in or John coming up behind me until he sat down next to me.

"You want to talk about it?" John asked.

"No, you don't need to hear me complain about Matt." I said as I wiped tears from my eyes.

"Come on, I don't care, I must want to hear it if I'm offering to listen."

"Jeez, I just hate him, you were right, he just thinks I'm nothing but a fat cow, God, why didn't I just believe you in the first place, it would have been so much better because I wouldn't be hurting this much from the words he spoke." I said looking up at the sky above us.

"You love him don't you?"

"No, and that has nothing to do with this John, it's what he said."

"I think it hurts you so much because it came from someone you love, does it hurt your feelings if Lindsey says it?"

"No."

"See, then why does it hurt you so much when Matt says it?" John asked, he's got a point, could I love him? No, I can't love him, never. Yeah, I said I loved John, but I don't know if I love him love him, I might love him just as a friend, but Matt, no way, I never really thought it like that.

"I don't know, but I can't love him." I said.

"Why can't you love him? To me, everything points to love. I saw you at City Limits tonight, you just had this glow to you, the look in your eyes said it all, you didn't need to say anything, it's there if you acknowledge it or not." John said.

"But I should love you; you're my boyfriend, not him."

"I love you and always will, but maybe our love isn't the same love that you share with Matt."

"Are you okay with me loving another man?"

"Obviously, we can't stay together if your going to love another man, but I'm still going to be your number one fan and going to love you, as the bestest friend I could EVER have." John said bumping into me.

"Even if I do love Matt, which I'm not sure on, but obviously he doesn't love me by the things he said." I said wiping the fresh tears away from my eyes.

"What are you going to do then?"

"I guess I just have to move out of his house, drop off the face of the earth to him, quit WWE until this thing blows over or convince them to move me to Raw."

"Aren't you on contract?"

"Not yet, they want me to be on Smack Down to further my work with Jeff, and start working with Matt, and with this whole thing, that is the last person I want to work with."

"If that is what creative wants you to do, that is what they are going to have you do."

"Do you think they will let me not sign my contract until I'm ready to come back?"

"All you can do is talk to them, but come on, it's late and I know I'm tired and you must be just as tired." John said standing up and dusted his butt off before he helped me up; I dusted my own butt off walking to our vehicles.

"May I stay at your hotel tonight?" I asked nervously and wiped my face thinking I still had tears on my face.

"Sure, anything for you sweetie." John said smiling, I hugged him.

"Thanks, I'm sorry for this." I said into his chest, he ran his hand through my hair. I walked to my car climbing in; I followed him back to his hotel and went up to his room.

"I'll sleep in the chair." John said.

"Don't be silly, you can get the bed, I'm the guest here." I said.

"I'm a gentleman, females get the bed." John said, I just gave him this dirty look, "I'm not changing my mind honey, so get over it." John said.

"Fine, at least take a blanket and a pillow." I said as I stripped a blanket and a pillow off the bed handing it to him.

"Thanks." He said.

"Do I need to call anyone?"

"Call Beth or Jeff, I would say Matt because apparently he is the one mostly freaking out, but you said you don't want anything dealing with him." John said as he sat in the chair getting situated, I called Beth and she answered on the first ring.

"Carol?" Beth asked.

"Hey Beth, I'm sorry for the scare, I'm staying with John tonight."

"He's got you?"

"Yeah, I'm staring at him right now."

"You owe me, you almost gave us all a heart attack, and we'll talk tomorrow?"

"Yeah." I said.

"Night."

"Night." I said hanging up, I laid down on the bed pulling up the sheets and I looked over at John who is already past out in the chair, I got up walking over to him. "Thanks John, I love you in a unique type way." I said kissing him on the forehead and tightened the cover on him. I went back climbing into bed continue thinking about the situation at hand about signing with WWE, I want to sign because I won and I have worked my ass off trying to get here and I don't want a stupid boy get in my way, nor do I want to deal with haters like him, nor want to deal with him, he really hurt my feelings and still very angry with him. I got a brilliant plan, I hope it works, it should work, I have all the resources, I kept thinking of every scenario until I slowly fell asleep.