I never believed until now
Every morning I wake up to the most beautiful girl, those perfect crystal blue eyes are always the first things I see. Locking eyes with the blonde makes me feel so safe, loved and yet so totally alone. She sits there silently at the end of my bed; she smiles and knows how much pain it takes me to force myself to smile back. I manage a smile but at the same time a tear slowly falls down my cheek. I close my eyes and when I re-open them the blonde is gone. I get myself up and get dressed and slowly make my way downstairs for breakfast.
The emotions flooding through me are too much to take. I can't eat; all I can do is sit and think. My eyes fall over to the back door, a figure is reflected on the glass it's her I knew she wouldn't have gone far. I wipe another tear away thinking about why love is never easy, love always seems to be complicated and loving Naomi was the most painful love I could imagine. I watched as the figure slowly walked away from the door, seeing her go made my heart clench but I knew I'd see her later, she always comes back.
First lesson of the day was the worst, knowing you still had four more lessons to go, before you could escape. I sat there staring at the teacher talking at the front of the class, not hearing a word he was saying. My eyes made their way to the door where they stayed waiting for the one girl I truly loved, wondering why she hadn't come to class. I closed my eyes remembering the last kissed we shared, wishing I was kissing her now. I turned my head to the empty chair beside me, it really was painful loving Naomi, but she was the one for me.
Naomi never turned up to class; she didn't turn up to classes all day. I kept my eyes out for her everywhere, my sister told me to give up she wasn't coming, in fact all my friends seem to want me to give up on Naomi but I can't I know she loves me. After college I walked to the lake, the first place Naomi showed me how she truly felt and it is the one place I feel closest to her. I sat down and through stones into the lake, watching the ripples over and over again. It is hard to hold the tears back when u feel so much love and compassion for someone that doesn't return it, the tears just seem to descend. As I wipe the tears away I see a reflection of someone in the ripples, as the ripples slowly calm down I can make out whom the person is. A huge smile appears on my face those shocking blue eyes only belong to one girl, my girl. I turn around wanted so badly to hold her and kiss her but I can't because she's not really there.
See what I haven't told you is that Naomi died two months ago, in a moped accident in Cyprus. Watching her slip away in my arms has haunted me every second of every day since it happened. I never believed in ghosts but two days after Naomi died she was back in my bed and hardly leaves my side. Mum thinks I'm going crazy, sister wishes I'd just let Naomi go but I can't because she's never far away. Truth be told I'm not ready to give her up completely I love her and I love being able to see her every day but every day I see her its killing me slowly because seeing her is all I can do. I can't hold her I can't kiss her I can't talk to her I can't smell her I can't do anything except stare and see the pain and sadness in her eyes. I love Naomi Campbell and I know she loves me, forever.