We were pretty silent, Dean was driving I was sitting shot gun for I was in no mood to sit in the back with my brother. So Andy, Sam and Roderick where sitting in the back seat with Fido.

"You need to give this thing a bath!" my brother shrieked in the back looking like he was squished and Sam was just staring in partial fear and amazement. It was the first time someone had talked since we got in the car.

"Why can I see it?" Sam whispered to Roderick, who was almost in Sam's lap.

"Well that my dear is simple" Roderick looked up into Sam's gorgeous eyes, "you died."

I looked back at my brother, "Roderick shut it and get out of his lap" I then turned back to look out the passenger window.

"But your dog smells and I don't want my clothes to smell" he whined, "plus Sam is pretty comfy and I could use a nap" he rested his head on Sam's shoulder.

I rolled my eyes and ignored the look Dean was shooting me, "look you have your weirdoes in the family mine dance the conga"

"Are you saying I am gay?" Roderick asked I could hear the fire in his voice.

"No I am saying you are the queen of fairies and Edward is your minion" I retorted.

"That bitch could never make it in my kingdom" Roderick sneered, "because bitch I am fabulous"

I looked over at Dean, "Want to trade families?" I asked with a chuckle.

"No, I think I could not handle your family and I only met you and your brother" he lightly chuckled back.

Roderick looked from me to Dean and back, then looked over at Sam and leaned in making Sam become very uncomfortable. "There is nothing going on with your playboy brother and my darling little sister is there?" he whispered.

Sam just blankly stared at Roderick, "I don't know, I don't think so?"

"Mhm that was not very convincing Sammy boy" Roderick wrinkled his nose ever so slightly.

Sam's face became like stone, "Only Dean can call me Sammy" he scolded Roderick.

Roderick slightly recoiled from Sam; he turned from him and pouted. Andy was sleeping away the last few days must have been hell on him.

Only five minutes of silence passed when Roderick brightened up and jumped with a squeal which startled Dean who slightly swerved in the road and that back to our lane.

"Silly be more careful," he smiled, "So sissy I have question for you?" he leaned into her, "do they know?" I turned to look at my brother as he had whispered that into my ear.

I studied his facial expression to see what he was talking about, I could tell the almost two years were hell on my brother, you could see the bags under his eyes and how it seemed the color slightly faded. These were all small details if you paid attention that you would notice, I decided to go with the safest route, "no" I answered and then gave him a stern look as we were pulling into Bobby's place.

I could hear my brother sigh as he looked around, "Can I stay in a hotel this place looks, what is the word I am looking for… abandoned?" he tried to put it as nicely as possible that I could tell.

"You can always sleep outside with Fido?" I offered.

My brother held his breath and ran up to me, "you are a mean little wench you know that?" he told me with a sneer, "a mean little wench with a big secret around a bunch of hunters" he smiled at me and then walked inside of bobby's house.

"The best way to get him to shut up, use Fido as a threat, he really does hate that pup" I laughed, it will always be the most simple amusement I had since I was a child.

We followed shortly after, when I couldn't believe what I was staring at; Bobby had my brother by the throat against the wall as Ash was questioning him.

"Wow guys, what the fuck put my brother down!" I demanded putting down the bag I was caring, "I don't know what he said but one usually can get use to him."

Ash looked from my brother to me and back at my brother very confused, "but your brother speaks with a Scottish accent and you don't? plus some Scottish accented man called and warned us to get out of the Road house just minutes before it blew up to smithereens."

I walked over and grabbed Bobby's grip around Roderick and forced him to lower his grip, "That sounds like you should be thanking him if he had done it, but my brother has been dead for a while so I doubt he called you guys" I knew as soon as Ash said Scottish who the mystery caller was, plus he confessed to me.

Roderick rubbed his throat, "Maybe it would have been better if I opted to sleep with the dog, and at least I know where I stand with him."

"Boys behave, everything will be revealed in due time, let's just enjoy the fact that we are all alive," I tried to calm everyone down.

"Are we going to ignore the fact that your brother and mine were dead? Not that I am unthankful but can someone explain to me why they are alive again?" Dean wanted answers but how would I explain to them what I did.

"Just be thankful, nothing else needs to be said, I am going to the kitchen and cooking something I am starving" I stormed past everyone and went into the kitchen.

Roderick stared after his sister with a sigh, "Just let it go, it would do as all well to just ignore it," he walked over to the office and sat on the desk flipping through one of the books.

Everyone followed him into the office; Sam was the first to speak up, "So tell us why do you seem not surprised to be alive and how did she do it?"

Roderick frowned and slammed the book shut, "that is none of your business," he got up and while still holding the book.

"I am not trying to offend anyone I am just asking for answers and I think after everything has happened we deserve some answers" Dean pushed the subject.

Roderick quickly looked at Dean with anger building in his face, "IF you need to know so badly ask my sister, it is her business to tell not mine. If I were you I would just be thankful that Sammy is alive and drop it" Roderick spoke through gritted teeth.

Sam opened his mouth to correct Roderick when Dean matched Roderick's anger, "Only I call him Sammy and I will, for once I am getting answers I am tired of just following orders!" he stormed out of the room and into the kitchen where Annabelle was starting to make twice baked potatoes to go with the stakes she had seasoned.

"Annabelle, I want the truth, I want answers how are they alive!" Dean demanded from me.

I wanted to act like I didn't hear him but unfortunately he was speaking too loud. I turned from the sink and looked at Dean.

"It's not that easy to explain Dean please just drop it," I begged him for I didn't have the energy to tell him or argue with him.

"I can't, I just want the truth why is that so hard to understand" Dean's face fell with sorrow.

I didn't say anything I just stared at him, I would never forgive myself if he hated me, and I leaned against the sink trying to collect my thoughts.

Dean stared at me impatiently with that same sad expression on his face, I didn't know why but I just wanted to hold him and tell him everything would be all right.

"Say something" Dean whispered as he tried to keep a steady tone in his voice.

I just looked at him as tears surfaced, "I have nothing to say, you will never understand," I turned away from him.

Dean took a step towards me I could feel him trying to reach out to me, "Please tell me, I can carry some of this burden you don't have to carry it alone."

My sadness turned to anger, I turned around and pushed his out stretched hand away, "You will never understand, what it's like to be me compared to me you had a vacation life" I barked without meaning too.

I could see how much my words hurt Dean, "fine, I give up, you do what you want Annabelle, you want to keep all your secrets then do so, but not with us we have to be able to trust each other"

I stared at Dean, I couldn't believe what he had just said, "Fine Fuck you Dean," I threw the dish towel I had in my hand in the sink, "You can shove your stupid 80's music up your ass and go to hell!" I screamed and stormed out of the house.

Dean watched as Annabelle stormed down the dirt road till he couldn't see her, he placed his hand on the window, "I would have followed you anywhere Annabelle all you had to do was trust me."

Roderick leaned against Sam who looked down at the boy, "this is not going to end well, hold me I feel sad" Roderick spoke trying to not cry.

Sam looked down at the saddened Roderick taking a deep sigh and wrapped his arm around the boys shoulder.

I stormed into a gas station to use a payphone to call for a taxi, as I was making my phone call, a man came storming in and waving a gun.

"EVERYONE ON THE FLOOR THIS IS A ROBBERY" he shot off his gun to let everyone know he was serious.

I took a deep sigh, "this is not really the time," before I could pull out my gun he shot me through the shoulder. My ears started to ring I could hear screaming as I hit the ground, everything started going numb my vision was starting to go. I could feel my heart beat slowing down; I closed my eyes trying to conserve my energy. I was rapidly losing blood, I couldn't move my arm, and it became hard to breath. The only thing I could think of was how I never had the time to tell Dean how I felt.

"I just started to love and this is how I knew you were the one" I took a deep breath and started coughing up blood as I could feel my heart slowing even more and more, my body was going absolutely numb, well I guess this was it.

Roderick hit the ground as he started to pant heavy grabbing at his chest, everyone one started to panic.

"Roderick what is wrong?" Jo asked confused on what was going on.

Roderick started crying while holding his chest not saying anything as if he couldn't. The pain grew stronger and stronger; he could feel his heart beat heavier and heavier. Then for a brief moment it stopped as Roderick collapsed to the ground tears still running down his face.