A/N-Here's Sirius' point of view for you.

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I watched in awe at her quickly retreating back. How did she do that? My back ached from that blow of flying toward the wall. When she screamed and looked back at me, it was like she pushed me away with a brick wall or something. It was definitely magic. Now she could use magic without a wand?

I ran towards my next class and Prongs looked up at me questioningly.

I whispered to him everything that happened while Professor Nema was translating the different runes on the board. My quill was dutifully writing down everything on the board. I was hoping that he could give me a better explanation than what I came up with. Prongs of course, not Professor Nema.

"Are you making this up?" he whispered back seriously. "Because I do not find that funny."

"Why would I make this up?"

The bell rung, and we shoved our stuff into our bags and started walking up towards the Gryffindor Common Room.

"Where's Moony?" Prongs looked around.

"Probably went to the Hospital Wing. He would never skip class." I muttered. I thought darkly at how my mouth seemed to just have had a mind of its own during that time when I proclaimed how much I needed her, and wanted her.

"Where do you reckon she's got it?" Prongs asked, every single detail of mischief out of his face.

"You're asking me?"

"Well, you have known her since she was born. Obviously, I would ask you."

"I think Lily wants you," I muttered, seeing the readhead waiting inside the Common Room.

"You don't mind do you?" Prongs asked, earnest in his eyes. He was afraid of leaving me alone. Clearly, he knew what I was capable of doing when I was unstable.

"Go ahead. I'll have to get used to sharing you when you're married to her," I forced a grin on my face, but it didn't even reach one second when it fell back into a straight line again.

I was alone again. I had never been alone for so much in my life. If I wasn't with Prongs, I was with Moony. If I wasn't with Moony, I was with Prongs. If I wasn't with either of them, I was with Wormtail. If I wasn't with all three of them, I was with some girl that I fancied recently.

I decided that I should walk to that place where Kates always stayed to think. Maybe that place would give me my own peace of mind.

When I got there, I saw that the place was already occupied. Of course, it was her. Who else could it have been? Afraid to get caught spying on her, I switched into a dog, hiding behind the bushes.

It was always nice watching her like this. You could see the real Kates, who she was even when she was a little girl. She had a pensive expression on her face and she really was thinking of something. At the same time, her inquisitive eyes looked strangely dead. They weren't alive this time. It was the first time I saw that expression on her.

I moved in to take a closer look. Ever the best observer, she looked around to see where the ruffle of the bushes came from.

She stared at me with a mildly surprised look on her face. I hung my tongue out of my mouth uncertainly.

"I'll call you Snuffles," she broke into a smile, and extended her arms toward me, wanting to hold me. Of course, I complied, wagging my tail happily. She pet my head affectionately.

"You remind me so much of someone...or two."

I felt my insides churn, even if I was a dog.

"I wish I could be a dog, then I wouldn't have to feel anything or think about anything."

She sighed. "Want to play fetch?"

She conjured up a frisbee and waved it in front of my face. I jumped eagerly and ran after it after she threw it with all her might. She was strong, this girl. A powerful arm, no wonder she got Chaser. I was panting with effort when I got it back to her, and I hoped my eyes looked bright.

"Another one?" she smiled in loveliness.

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ALEXANDRA HERNANDEZ

I hid from the world after that day. Thursday, Friday...Those two days passed by like time really wasn't relevant. Cissy kept telling our teachers that I wasn't feeling good (which was true) and that I didn't want to go to the Hospital Wing.

She brought me down meals still on the gold plates and left me alone, knowing well that all I wanted was to be alone. She was very good at reading people, this girl. I munched on these meals heartily, wanting some source of comfort. When I wanted some more, I scavenged through my trunks and closet, looking for the chocolate bars that I stashed in those places.

Cissy sent me messages from Miggy, begging me to go to training. She was my messenger too, bringing me letters from my teammates and friends from other Houses. All of them didn't understand why I was hiding, but they cared enough to tell me that everything was going to be all right.

No, it wasn't all right. I was silently asked to make a big decision. Unsaid, I had to choose from a vast selection of men.

Number one: Sirius Black. Really, did I want to risk getting hurt again? But...why did I feel something for him, even when he hurt me so many times. Why do I feel a jolt of electricity coursing through me every single time he touches me? Why did I have an epiphany about my love for him? Did I still feel that way?

Number two: Regulus Black. Did I want to make the two brothers hate each other even more? Question for myself is...why was it that I felt a whole-body-tingling kind of kiss when I kissed him all those weeks ago? I couldn't believe that I wanted him too.

Number three: Aaron Johnson. Did I want another person to add to my list? He's so considerate, and I have no idea if he likes me, but I want to be near him. I feel a warm and safe when I'm around him, and he always gives the impression that he never wants me hurt.

Number four: Fuck. There's a number four? Miggy Flint. I liked him at that time when I got dolled up. He was so sweet, and dark, and arrogant. It drew me to him unbelievably.

Number five: KIDDING. But I think that Philip Cadence guy wants in on this list.

But really, four is enough, isn't it? That's way to many already. I'm not the type of girl to just...pick one and stay with him forever and ever. I was scared. Couldn't I just slice my wrists and be done with life?

Saturday, Sunday...a week...

I swear, I think that I will permanently be stuck on this bed if I don't get up. The letters were forming a small mountain in my bedside. Countless times, I heard footsteps stomping on the steps before them falling flat on their arses and getting up and trying again.

No one could get me down. Cissy kept supporting me soundlessly, and gave me the notes of lessons and homeworks. I passed my homeworks through her, and I wasn't missing anything that I couldn't learn on my own.

"Hernandez!" Miggys' booming voice erupted from far away. "You get out now or I will be removing you from the team!"

"You are bluffing!" I called back. "You guys won't be able to stand reteaching the tricks and routines and signals!"

"What if I'm not?" Miggy yelled back furiously. "I need someone who is dedicated to the team!"

"Alex, please come down!" Regulus' strained voice came next.

This was Saturday afternoon, a Hogsmeade weekend. It was kind of sweet that they skipped the first one to yell at me.

I sighed. I guess my hibernation had to be over, and what did I learn? Nothing. Who did I choose? No one. I was as lost as the first day.

Cissy watched me carefully and helped me tidy up. She brushed my hair for me as I sat at the dressing table, putting on eyeliner and lipgloss. She put it up in a bun, because of all those days of not brushing after baths, they were quite rebelling in the being not cared for.

We carefully chose an outfit that wouldn't tell that I've let myself go. Cissy took out a creamy white turtleneck with short sleeves and skinny jeans. She took out a pair of ballet flats to go with it. I hugged her and whispered my thanks.

You probably noticed by now, I don't take time in dressing up. I was over in ten minutes.

Going out seemed like a rebirth. I saw the world through eyes that were different than my own. It wasn't the same place where I tried to conquer everyone with my wit and talent. This world was now cruel, without opportunities, impossible choices and death at every end.

I saw Miggy and Regulus, watching me with worry in their eyes. I went out and they followed me. The next thing I saw in the Entrance Hall was Black. Was life torturing me, by showing all those people in my list? The only person left was...

"Alex?"

Fuck. Shit. Damn.

It was Aaron, running down from the Marble Staircase. "I heard from Tommie that you disappeared from school. I came with him to see what the matter was."

Ever notice that my parents were never the ones settling my troubles? It was always Tommie.

"I was in my dorm," I replied dully. Life was playing a cruel trick on me.

"What happened to you?"

"Felt bummed."

He stared at me blankly, then looked over my shoulder to stare at Miggy and Regulus. I felt them shrug. "Wow. That's a new excuse. That's lacking creativity though."

"Where's Tommie?"

"Up at Dumbledores' office."

"I wish you didn't come."

"Aren't you glad to see me?"

"I am, but I shouldn't be."

"Alex..."

"Alex what?"

"The last time I saw you," Aaron said defiantly. "I kissed you. Don't start pushing me away now. Is that why you're like this?"

"Like what?"

"Like you don't want to talk to me."

I looked over his shoulder and saw Tommie going down the stairs, and then I ran to him, leaping into his arms and hugging tightly around his neck. I cried hysterically, right in the middle of the Entrance Hall. How pathetic was I? I completely lost the Slytherin touch now.

"Shh," Tommie said comfortingly, stroking my back soothingly. "Shh...stop crying. We can walk and you can tell me everything."

"I can't," I sniffled, looking up at him bleakly. "You might get mad at me."

"Whatever you want."

My brother had somehow kept all men away from me that day, and I spent it with him, walking around the grounds talking to him and laughing at his stories. It was just me and him, and I never would have wanted it any other way.

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