TPOV (getting released from the hospital)

Finally, I get to leave this dreadful place with its bad food. I still can't stop thinking about that voice. I guess its voice from some I've forgotten. I must have known that person well for it to have come back to me. I wonder if he's a boy that goes to my school. I'll ask around, I know won't be getting any answers from Demetri. Ever time I ask about what happened before the accident he always avoids the question or changes the subject. Darn him. I will find out now matter what, I feel like I owe it to myself. If I don't find apart of me will feel empty. I sat in a chair in the waiting room, waiting for my Dad to finish the discharge paperwork. I couldn't wait to get home and sleep in my own bed. Ugh, summer is nearing-usually that's not the response you get when you hear about summer vacation approaching. But ever since the accident I missed a lot of school so now I have to go to summer school. I wish they would just let me take it next year. Sorry its not like I planed to be in a coma for like half the school year. But at least I get to hang out with Demetri this summer. There's a happy thought.

"You ready to go hun?" my dad asked me.

"Yeah, let's get out of here." I stood up looking around. Apart of me will miss this place, since I've been here so long.

We walked to my dad's old blue truck in the hospital parking lot. I got in and my dad turned on the heater. Even though it was almost summer in Oakland, California its always breezy. My dad turned on the radio to my favorite station a song I knew was playing: 'Shadow' By Demi Lovato

I glanced upon the ground today and noticed something, it followed me along the way. A figure of gray-impersonating every move I make. For now, we'll call it my shadow…

For some reason this song reminded me of something. Or someone. But I couldn't place it.

…and what happens on the day when the clouds appear, and fade my shade…oh well that's our Q babe; we'll runaway to place where…the sun always shines…

There goes that nagging feeling again, like something is tugging my brain for me to remember something.

"Tanya, you're my weakness babe, but you give me strength; not even time could erase what you do to me babe; I need you, I need you like the blood in my veins" the velvet voice sang to me.

"Woah, there it is again," I whispered to myself too low for my father to hear.

My dad pulled into my driveway where I saw my beautiful blue mustang. Come to think of it, I don't really remember ever buying it.

The first thing I did when I got in the house was go up to my room and sleep. You'd think since I was in a coma that'd my body had enough sleep. But I felt so exhausted I just had to crash.

Dream

It was a sunny day at the beach. No one was here. Strange. Suddenly someone (a guy) emerged from the water and started walking toward me. I couldn't really see him, its not that he was far away-he appeared fuzzy. Maybe I needed glasses. I could make out that he was tall and muscular. Bu his face was blurry. Then he spoke: "Tanya, I'll love you always and forever." He said in a familiar velvet voice.

"Who are you?" I asked, my voice came out in a whisper.

"Open your eyes and you'll see." He said.

And then I woke up. I got sat up on my bed and thought long and hard about my dream. Making sure I remembered it correctly I replayed in my head several times. I was determined. I had to find who this guy was, and what did he have to do with me. This voice in my head had an affect on me, it made my heart throb every time I heard it. Its like I was missing an important part of my life, and my heart wanted it back. I wish I knew what it was so my heart could stop aching. Whoever this person was I must be in love with him. Maybe there might be things in my room that could lead me to him. Clues…I started to look through my backpack through all my textbooks for any sign of this missing part of my life. I dropped my Spanish book on the floor and bent down to pick it up and noticed something underneath my bed. It was a notebook. I remember keeping a diary but I wonder if it has entries of before. I flipped through it, but the last couple of pages are missing-strange.

I read the first entry titled: Sophomore Year

It's the 2nd month of sophomore year and he still hasn't noticed me. What am I invisible? Maybe if I hung out with him more then I'll get his attention. I think he likes me. But boys are always unpredictable. I was thinking of being bold and independent and just ask him out. But there's always the possibility of him rejecting me. Then I'll be humiliated. No I'll play it cool. Friends first; he'll warm up to me sooner or later. Yeah, I'll make him fall for me. That's the trick!

Ooo

Hmm I remember I had a crush on someone but I can't remember who. Ugh, this is so frustrating.

"Don't worry love, Be happy." The voice said to me. Then instantly I relaxed.

"You can do anything you set your mind too" the voice said, which gave me all the confidence I needed to continue looking for my 'mystery guy'.