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A/N: The following is rated M for mature readers.
Okay I got a review or threat saying that if the story ended up a "Tanya-Edward thing" then my story would be dropped. Well to tell you the truth its not a "Tanya and Edward thing". I haven't decided which character is going to end up with which. But its not like I'm gonna tell you how the plot comes out, that's like reading the back of a really good book. So just sit back and enjoy. The story is in multiple POVs 'cuz there is a lot of emotions going on. Hope you like it please review.
EPOV
"Hey stranger," I was sitting on my bed listening to music when I heard someone enter the room. I turned around to see the most beautiful sight. I saw Bella dressed in a midnight blue that complemented her skin. She was so beautiful. No Edward you have to focus.
"I have to talk you," I told her.
BPOV
I sat down beside him on his bed. Hopefully he was going to tell me truth. He took my hands in his. This time I didn't flinch away.
"Good, I think we really need to talk about some things." I said.
"Let me start, I need to get this out," he said a little rushed.
I looked into those beautiful dazzling eyes of his and urged him to continue.
"Look Bella, I think it's best that we don't see each other anymore. I mean, things aren't really working out. I just feel that I need to focus on better things, I'm tired of wasting my time on something that's not working out." He said.
What? Huh? Wait, is he breaking up with me?
I took my hands out of his and asked, "Edward, what are you saying?"
He stood up and turned around to look at me, "Duh Bella! I don't want to be with you? Are you dumb?" he almost yelled.
I didn't understand. I looked down at my hands; what did I do wrong?
"Why?" I asked.
He started laughing at me. "It's not you, it's me," he said and continued laughing.
I got up and left the room, I needed to get out of there. I couldn't stay there and let him mock me anymore. I was confused but at the same time he was right. I was dumb enough to think that I could stay in a relationship with someone as godly as him.
I rushed home all the lights were off everyone was a sleep. Good they won't be able to hear me cry myself to sleep. I'm glad he didn't see me cry it would be a weakness.
I sat down on my bed staring at my hands wanting to wake up from this nightmare. All of a sudden this rush of emotion hit me like a big yellow school bus. I was so sad and hurt. Why didn't he want me? Why didn't anyone want me? He's just like Lauren and Angela. I don't understand.
I don't talk to him for a day and he breaks up with me, talk about throwing a tantrum.
I was full on crying now, sobbing like crazy. I didn't know how to stop. I hope Edward would be the guy who'd make me whole. God that sounds so cliché.
I heard some footsteps and Rosalie came into my room. I looked up at her.
"You were right Rose I am going to end up alone like my dad." I told her
She had a sad look on her face she went over to me on the bed and hugged me. I hugged her back not wanting to let go.
"Boys are stupid," I whispered into her shoulder.
EPOV
My crazed laughing turned into crying. I broke up with her. I had to be harsh in order to get her to see who I really was. A monster, a mean, violent, person. She hates me now. I don't blame her, but a least she's safe from me.
The cold voice was laughing in my head. I was angry, why was she laughing?
"Why are you laughing?" I asked.
'Because you are so stupid,' she said
"What are you talking about?" I said to her.
'Because, you're so funny. I can't believe you took the easy way out.' She said.
"Again what are you talking about?" I asked.
'Haha, silly Little Edward; you're so naïve.' She said
The voice silenced when someone walked in.
APOV
I was sitting in the guest room when I heard the laughing. There was silence then I saw Bella walk past my door. I got up to go after her then I stopped to hear someone crying. I went to Edward's room to see who was crying when I stopped to hear him talking to himself instead. When he repeated "What are you talking about" I walked in. Edward was facing away from me, sitting on a couch in front of a coffee table.
"Edward she's in you're head again isn't she?" I asked.
Edward told me in the facility that there was a female voice in his head that always made him feel guilty. When he started taking his medication it stopped.
"Alice just go back to bed, you don't know what your talking about," he told me.
"Edward, this is serious you gotta start taking your pills again," I told him
"Leave," he simply said in a stressed voice.
"Why did Bella storm out of here, what did you say to her?" I said; I was getting pissed now.
"I ended things. It was for the best," he said in a quieter voice.
"Did you tell her the truth?" I asked.
His silence gave me my answer.
"So you just broke up with her," I yelled this time.
This time instead of answering Edward stood up pushing the coffee table over. He lunged at me backing me against a wall. He placed his both of his hands on either side of my head, and he leaned in real close and said, "Alice it's none of your business."
I looked up at him afraid of what he had become; his eyes were clouded with confusion and anger.
"Just leave," he screamed when he punched a hole in the wall near my right ear.
"Edward you're scaring me," I whispered. He stepped back and looked at me horrified.
"Hey," some one yelled from Edward's door. I looked to see that it was Emmett.
"What's going on in here?" he asked still in a loud voice.
"Nothing," I said in a weak voice. I walked around Emmett.
Edward was looking at his now bleeding hand. Emmett looked from the wall then at Edward's hand. He turned around and asked "Alice did he hurt you?"
I looked up at him about to say no, but the fear in my eyes told him otherwise.
He went over to Edward, took his shoulder and punched him in the face, twice.
Edward was on the ground by the time Emmett turned around he took my hand and started walking out of the room. He yelled over his shoulder and said, "Stay away from Bella and my cousin."
That night I cried myself to sleep. I didn't know how to help Edward anymore. If he didn't want to take his pills there's no way he'll listen to me.
In the morning I called Jasper, I just wanted to feel safe again. He picked up after the third ring.
"Hello?" he said.
"Hey babe, how's the new apartment?" I asked him
"Lonely since you're not here." He said sadly. I repressed a sob.
"What wrong Alice?" he asked
"Oh nothing, I just wanted to hear your voice."
BPOV
I think it was the next day, because all of a sudden there was light coming in from the window. I was sitting on my bed staring at the wall. I didn't sleep at all. Nope, not one wink. Rose had left hours ago. She thought I wasn't paying attention but I heard her slip out to make a phone call to Emmett.
'I'm tired of wasting my time on something that's not working out' he had said.
I stood up and walked down stairs to the back door. I went into the garage and got a can of red paint. I went upstairs and started to paint the plain white walls of my room.
I stopped my steady strokes when I head a shriek. I turned around to find Rosalie with her mouth agape.
"What did you do to your room?" she shrieked again.
"I'm making some changes," I told her.
The Next Day
"Bella are you sure you want to do this?" Leah asked me.
"For the last time yes." I said with a smile.
"Aw man, Rose is going to kill me for letting you do this." I heard her say under her breath.
"You may proceed," I told the hairdresser
After the "changes" we walked out and got into the Clearwater's family car. There was an awkward silence in the car and I noticed Leah giving me weary glances. So I decided to start a conversation.
"So how are things with Jacob?" I asked her.
She looked at me shocked. "good, but I thought since…the incident that you wouldn't want to talk about things like that,"
"Leah, you don't have to refer to Edward braking up with me as the 'incident' and I'm glad that things between you and Jacob are good again," I said honestly.
She looked at me like I was crazy. Then she turned back to driving. When we got to her house we watched the average chick flicks. I looked at all the teary eyed girls whose boy friends had dumped them; they all said they felt 'empty'. But that's not how I felt at all. Edward and I had only been going out for a month and a half. It hurt less because I hardly knew him. He never gave me a chance to actually know him.
"Hey pause it, I need to go to the bathroom," I told Leah
When I came from the bathroom I heard Leah talking on the phone. I didn't mean to eavesdrop but snippets of her conversation caught my attention.
"She seems to be taking this Edward break-up thing very well…yeah it worries me too…It's like she's pretending it doesn't hurt…yea hiding her feelings isn't going to help her situation…yeah I'm thinking intervention…"
I went into the living room and started to pick up my bag and sweater. I was walking towards the door when Leah came back into the living room.
"Bella where are you going?" she asked.
I turned around and went up the stair case. I knocked on Seth's room and he answered shirtless. I was startled and couldn't speak for a moment.
"I'm sorry what?" I said.
"um," Seth laughed, "you knocked on my door Bella," he said.
"oh right," I said shaking my head. "Uh, could you give me a ride home?" I asked.
"Bella what's wrong!" Leah shouted up the stairs.
"Please," I pleaded to Seth.
He turned in his room to reach for a shirt and put it on and said, "yeah sure"
We walked down stairs together; Leah was still in the living room.
I breezed past her and out the door, I shot her a look and she didn't say anything.
Seth dropped me off at home where Rosalie was waiting on the porch. Leah must have warned her I was coming home.
I said thanks to Seth and headed inside with Rose on my heals.
"Um, Charlie called. He said that he has to work the late shift so he said to order pizza," she said. I was in the kitchen getting something to drink when I heard Rose make an impatient noise waiting for me to speak I turned around and gave her a look.
"I like your hair," she lied. My hair, I got it cut; it's now above my shoulders. I was thinking of dying it but thought it would be too drastic.
"No you don't." I said.
She looked down knowing I had caught her in a lie.
"Look I know you guys care about me, and don't necessarily understand why I'm making changes in my life. But I wish that you would respect my decisions in changing my life so that I'll feel better about myself. But it's helping me move on from Edward. We weren't together real long but it hurt me enough to want to get over it. So this is how I'm dealing with the hurt. In a positive way," I told her honestly with a smile.
She was about to say something when I interrupted her.
"And I would appreciate it if you guys wouldn't talk about me behind my back like I'm some kind of head case who can't take care of herself; I'm not a delicate little girl. I'm can take care of my self. Even though I'll mess up along the way, doesn't mean I can't figure it out by myself. And yes I'll need your help too but don't think for a second that I'm helpless." I told her with an edge and loudness in my voice.
She looked at me with a look that held pride.
"Wow Bella," she said.
"Yeah, I know."
LATER
I was in my now painted red room listening to some sad music, you know the kind, the self help songs that relate to your feelings after a break-up. It was from my old boom box (I left my iPOD in Edward's room).
I heard footsteps and I sat up in my bed to see who it was. It was Leah.
"Now before you bite my head off I brought a white flag," she pulled her hand from behind her back to reveal some chocolate swirl ice cream.
I smiled and got up to hug her, "Bella, I didn't mean to upset you I was just worried and Rose too," she said.
"It's okay, I'm sorry stormed out of there its just I got so pissed off. I was tired of everyone treating me like a twig; I'm not going to brake.'"I told her.
We went downstairs where Rose had popcorn and all sorts of junk food out in front of the TV in the living room. We all sat down eating pizza watching comedy movies.
Were watching the move "Just My Luck" and it was near the end to the part where Lindsay Lohan gives up her luck to give it to that guy who's Captain Kerk on Star Trek (A/N: LOL I forgot his name but he was hot!). I thought that was very selfless of her and it was very romantic.
The credits were rolling and I started crying. Edward and I didn't get a chance to be romantic.
Rosalie and Leah noticed I was crying and gave me a hug.
"Remember when I said that I didn't know Edward that much, well I wanted to get to know him," I whispered and sobbed into their shoulders.
3 days later…
The sleepover lasted for 3 days. It was filled with crying, laughing, hugging, curing boys, re watching favorite scenes of our favorite movies. And we only ate junk food. It was fun, and exactly what I needed. I'm glad I had such great friends, speaking of I needed to have a talk with Alice.
I drove to the Cullen house and rang the doorbell.
Thankfully Alice opened the door to an empty house.
"Hey," she said with a smile but with a frightful look in her eye. "C'mon in," she said.
I smiled and walked in; we went to her room, the former guest room and sat down on her bed.
"So, I didn't think I'd be seeing you since you and Edward broke up. BTW I like the new haircut" She said. I smiled, I liked how forward she was, she wasn't the type to tip toe around my feelings. Very ballsy.
"Well, just because me and Edward aren't dating anymore doesn't mean we can't be friends. BTW thanks," I told her. She started bouncing up and down on the bed.
"Oh goody Bella, I'm so glad you said that now we can go shopping together," she said. My eyes widen then I said, "What the hell, I'm willing to try new things," I said with a smile.
We talk for about an hour about what we liked and disliked; we tried to get to know each other as much as possible. The phone rang and it was Jasper. Alice started to talk to him; she said she'd only be a minute. I slipped out to go to the bathroom.
On my way back to Alice's room, I saw that Edward's room at the end of the hall was closed. It's now or never. I gotta get my iPOD back.
I knocked on the door. No one answered. I barged in and started looking for it. I checked under the bed and there it was beside a pair of converse. I reached my hand under the bed to get it and felt some thing small. I pulled the object and my iPOD from underneath the bed. The object was a small bottle of pills. It was prescribed to Edward. It said to take two pills twice a day to prevent mood swings and other symptoms of Bi-polarism.
Bi-polarism?
I put the bottle back under the bed and left the room with my iPOD. I closed the door behind him and looked up to see Alice staring t me.
"He went out." She simply said.
"I wasn't looking for him, I just wanted to get my iPOD back." I told her.
We talked some more and then I left to go home.
When I got home Charlie wasn't home and Rose was on a date with Emmett. So I had the whole house to myself. I went my room and plugged my iPOD into some speakers and played my music loud. I went to the laptop and Googled Bi polar.
Results:
People who suffer from being bi polar have a chemical in balance in their brain.
Without the proper medication they have violent mood swings.
Mood swings? Edward never had mood swings when we were dating. Not that I remembered. No wonder he didn't want to talk about his past. He had a condition that he didn't want me to know about. Maybe his breaking up with me was a mood swing. I don't know what to make of any of this. Well his condition is his business, I have to respect that, and respect why he didn't tell me. I guess he didn't want anyone to know.