WARNING! ADULT SEXUAL CONTENT!

***Weld Boathouse***

NPOV

My poor sweet Ana is so nervous. I know this won't be easy for her to have to face her fear but she must do this, it's for her own good. I'm hoping this will not only help her with feeling more confident when she's out in the water but perhaps it will also help to ease or make her nightmares dissipate once and for all.

My heart breaks when I think of the many nights I ran to Ana's room to find her screaming and crying, yelling, "I'm sorry," over and over again.

I always manage to calm her down after her nightmares. When I ask why she's apologizing in her dreams, she stiffens up and starts to cry again so I drop the subject.

I walk hand in hand with Ana trying to dispel her fears of going back in the water. I squeeze her hand and she stops walking. I face her and say, "You're not getting out of this Ana. It must be done."

She gives me an adorable smile with her big blue eyes. Damn, my girl is so good at distracting me but it won't happen this time.

"Noah, isn't there something else you would prefer to be doing with me at the moment?" She asks as she runs her fingers through my hair. I lean into her touch and moan as she reaches up to kiss me.

I lean into her kiss and those soft beautiful lips make me weak for the rest of her touch. Yes, I must have her...now!

No dummy! You're supposed to get her back in the water. Quit thinking with the little head down there and use your brain!

I snap out of the spell that Ana has me under and say, "We'll have fun later Ana, right now you need to swim. Let's go!"

APOV

Well, so much for distracting Noah with sex. I really don't want to get into the water. I've not felt safe going in water since my parents passing. I have an eerie feeling that I'm going to die in a body of water and I can't shake it.

Noah is right, I do need to face this fear of mine. I'm being ridiculous and I know it but I still don't want to do this!

Noah strips down to his swim trunks, his body is perfect. It's a beautiful night lit up by the full moon. He dives in the water and says, "Come on in Ana, the water is perfect."

I shake my head.

"Well then," Noah says, "Just sit at the edge of the dock and dangle your feet until you're ready."

I do what Noah says but first, I take off my tank top and jeans shorts. I'm wearing a bikini underneath. I sit at the edge of the dock and dip my feet in the water. As soon as I do, my breathing becomes labored, it's like I feel something pulling at my feet. It wants to drag me down deep into the water, it wants me. I am being sacrificed for my sins against my parents and against Noah's parents. It should have been me, I'm the one that should be dead!

I'm starting to have trouble breathing and I can see Noah swimming towards me.

"Ana," Noah says softly. "I love you, know you that right?"

I nod.

"I won't let anything happen to you. You know that right?"

I nod again.

"It's ok." He says as he extends his hand. "Come in Ana, you can do this. I believe in you. You are a strong person."

I shake my head and the tears begin to fall.

"I'm not strong! I'm weak and I'm a coward!" I shout.

Noah shouts back, "Bullshit! I do not have a weak girlfriend! We've been through hell and back and you make me happy! Only a strong person could make me feel that way! We were dealt a shit hand but somehow, someway, we managed to put the pieces together and make a life for ourselves! I wake up everyday happy knowing that you are my girlfriend Ana. My beautiful strong girlfriend."

"You're wrong about me Noah! All wrong!" I shout back.

"No I'm not! You are the strongest person I know Ana! Now jump in this water right now dammit!" Noah shouts in a tone I've not heard from him...ever.

I sit at the edge of the dock, debating, debating, debating...

"Dammit Ana, don't make me come and get you!" Noah shouts again as he's about jump back on the dock.

Before I have a moment to think about what I'm doing, I'm in the water and I try to relax. I'm treading the water in front of Noah and I feel...strange. I'm still scared but at least I don't feel that 'pulling' sensation. The feeling that I'm wearing cement shoes that are dragging me down.

"See Ana, your fine. You can do this." Noah says as he smiles at me.

"Thank you for making me do this Noah. I love you, I love you so much." I say as I tread closer to Noah and wrap my arms around his neck and he wraps his arms around my waist.

"Oh Ana, I love you...I will always love you Stay."

I smile back and kiss him under the moonlight. "You called me Stay."

He smiles and kisses me, his lips feel so good. This feels so good, this feels so right. This feels...

I'm sinking, someone or something has a hold of my feet and my legs. I'm being pulled under!

"Ana, what's..."

I grab Noah and hold on for dear life!

I feel myself dragging Noah down, I'm drowning him in my panic.

"Ana, stop it! Relax!" He shouts.

"I'm going under! They're taking me!" I feel myself sink and I hear Noah yell "Fuck!"

I feel his strong arms pull above the surface and he effortlessly lifts me up and out of the water.

"Reach for the dock Ana, pull yourself up." He says as he pushes me up on my bottom.

Did he just squeeze my butt? I'm back on the dock catching my breath.

"I'm ok now Noah. Thank you." I say as I catch my breath and Noah jumps on the dock.

He grabs the huge beach towels and wraps them around us.

"Jesus Ana, you had a full-blown panic attack."

"I know...it's awful. How I'm I going to do this Noah? I don't know how..."

"Shhh, it's ok. You're ok Ana, just take a moment to relax."

Noah coos and says, "You're fine Ana, you're safe, you're ok now. Just breathe."

Noah is wonderful, I love him so much. We lie down on our backs and face up looking at the moon and stars.

"I love you Ana." Noah says as he rubs my thighs. He sits up and leans down to kiss me.

Would he still love me if he knew about what happened that night?

I'm called back from that horrible memory as Noah says to me, "Come on, let's go to the boathouse." He stands and takes my hand.

"And what would you like to do there my handsome boyfriend?" I ask as I kiss him once again. Oh yes, I want him, I need him inside me.

"Whatever your heart desires Ana."

And with those words we run like kids chasing that ice-cream truck again, knowing we are in for a special 'treat' that we both crave.

CPOV

I am one sick mother fucker. I feel like a stalker, hiding out like this trying to see what the Firecracker is up to with Shepherd.

Based on what happened earlier today, I'm guessing the Firecracker has some sort of fear of the water. If that in fact is the case, why in the hell did she end up rowing?

Shepherd jumps in the water and says something to the Firecracker.

The Firecracker starts to strip off of her clothes, hmmmm...very nice baby. Please be naked under that clothes. Please give me a little show Miss Firecracker.

Shit, she's wearing a bikini. A very small pink bikini that leaves very little to the imagination!

I can't believe that fucker allows her to wear that item of clothing, if you can call it that. If she were mine, she'd never get past the front door wearing those four tiny triangles that are strategically placed in those four areas that my mouth and dick would love to visit. Yes, I could make all those sweet areas my home. Home sweet fucking home! Hell yeah!

I take her all in. She's a Goddess, her skin is milky white and I'm sure her skin is soft to the touch. She has legs for days and in that fucking string bikini she looks so ready for me to take her.

My cock twitches and I feel myself getting hard.

How in the fuck can she affect me like this? Christ, this is so frustrating!

I hear them exchange words, they're shouting at one another and then the Firecracker jumps in the water.

I walk a little bit closer to get a better view. The Firecracker looks nervous but she manages a meek smile.

They exchange a few more words and they kiss. Fuck this shit!

As I turn to walk away I hear the Firecracker scream, she's having another panic attack. I run towards them to help but Shepherd is able to lift her back up on the dock and I notice the fucker squeezes her ass as he lifts her up. Lucky bastard! I'd love to get my hands all over her delectable delicious bottom!

They're heading back towards the boathouse, I think I'll see what they're up to.

NPOV

We run to the boathouse and try to catch our breath. I feel guilty, perhaps I pushed Ana too hard. She was doing good in the water, then that look came across her face and I knew I only had a second to steel myself because she was going to panic. I didn't have enough time and she pushed me under. It's a good thing that I'm not only strong but I'm also a very strong swimmer. I pulled myself up then I had to reach for Ana as she sunk in the water. It was like she was wearing weights on her ankles or something...like something was actually pulling her under. Strange.

We'll need to put that moment behind us and replace it with the memory of us making love under the moonlight once again.

I'm happy that Ana has become more comfortable with her body. She won't give me a full on strip tease in the light of day, but by moonlight, she turns, she changes...and whatever the moonlight does to her, I love!

It's as though the moonlight makes her free, it makes her lose her inhibitions with me. I wish she was like that every night but for whatever reason it only happens under the moonlight.

"Let's do it under the moonlight Noah. You know how I love to do it like that." She says as she pulls me next to her.

"Oh yes, I am very familiar with how you like it Ana. Now lie down so I can make love to you."

CPOV

Holy shit, they're going to fuck under the moonlight! I didn't think the little Firecracker had it in her to be such an exhibitionist! Oh this I've got see!

Grey, you really are one sick mother fucker aren't you?

I ignore the fucked up voice in my head and watch in fascination.

The fucker lays the Firecracker down gently on the make shift futon and he hovers over her. She looks beautiful in her tiny pink bikini and as the fucker lies on top of her I can see her creamy white breasts pressed against the fucker's chest, her breasts slightly spilling to her side.

How I would love to take one of her delicate nipples and place it in my mouth, I would lightly nip at the tip and gently suckle on it.

My cock is rock solid and making a full fucking salute and I can tell my balls are bluer than the blue because I'm in pain for lack of a release. I haven't been able to get off with another woman since I pulled Ana from the water.

It's just been me and my fucking hand, speaking of which, I just now realize that my hand is in my shorts and I'm stroking myself as I watch them.

Her touch appears to be soft and magical. Who would have thought that I would associate the word 'touch' with soft and magical. That's what the little Firecracker does to me. I fucking crave her touch and for the life of me, I cannot understand why!

The fucker pulls at Ana's strings of her bikini bottoms and then he pulls the string of her top as well. Ana is completely naked and it's taking everything ounce of will power to contain myself. I want to grab that mother fucker and pull him off of her. I don't know why but I feel as though she is mine! She belongs to me dammit!

I look down at my cock and find that I'm stroking myself harder and faster. I'm being fast, hard and rough. That's they way I like it. I don't make love, I fuck...hard!

I look back to the Fucker and the Firecracker and I watch as he positions himself above her. Oh fucking hell, I can see her pussy is glistening with excitement. She wants him and she's ready for him to take her.

Why can't that be me? I should be the one that takes her, I can show her what her beautiful body is capable of, I can make her scream aloud with passion, I can make her come so hard she would pass out from the ecstasy that I could give her with one fell swoop! Ok, with several swoops but still, I could do so many wonderful things to her beautiful body. I wonder what she could do to me? Could she make me feel as good as I know I can make her feel? Fuck yeah! I know she can!

The fucker takes off his swim trunks and I can see his dick is hard. I look down at myself and smile. Yeah, my cock has the edge over that fucker. He is big, but not as big as me.

Wait, what the fuck am I doing? Why the fuck am I looking at his dick? Oh this is beyond crazy! I need help!

Well no shit Sherlock! Look at you! Stalking the Firecracker and watching them go at it! Why don't you just rent a porno?

I ignore the fucked up voice in my head and continue to watch in amazement. The fucker eases himself inside of her and the Firecracker lifts her back. He continues to ease gently in and out while she gently lifts her hips to meet his soft thrusts.

This is strange, yet I find it oddly beautiful. Is this what it means to make love? To be this gentle?

Fuck! I can't even be gentle with myself! I'm so rough on my cock that I nearly sprained my wrist while trying to jack off the night Sarah couldn't get me to cum!

Who the fuck needs Sarah? Not me!

My hand stroking my cock feels just fine. I'm so good I fucking turn myself on! Yeah, you know how you like it you sick fuck! I squeeze my cock harder and continue the violent assault against myself.

I'm grunting and groaning and I can feel myself building up, it feels so fucking good. I'm so good at this shit that I should call out my own name when I fucking cum!

Shit! I better not yell or else I will freak out the fucker and Ana who are going at it like fucking rabbits!

I keep stroking myself, fuck yeah! Harder and harder! Shit, this feels good! The only way this could be better is if the Firecracker were here with me instead of with that fucker.

I feel myself building up and I let go as I squirt all over myself. Oh yeah...It felt good to finally come, but at what cost? I'm pathetic.

I sigh and close my eyes, I take a deep breath and quietly say, "Ana..."

I can't watch them anymore. I don't want to see the Firecracker come with him. I'd rather it be me looking into those beautiful baby blues while I watch her come with me.

I've come to the realization that I want the Firecracker. I can no longer deny it, I want her and I will do whatever it takes to make her mine.

A/N

I think Christian may soon start showing a shade or two of his crazy Fifty Shades!

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