CPOV

"Where the fuck am I? What the fuck just happened?"

Oh yes, Ana and I...we just made love and fucked like crazy and I have to say that is was, for lack of a better word, fuck-mazing. Yes, making love and fucking Ana really was fuck-mazing!

I look around, take in my surroundings and I freeze. I'm terrified as I realize that my Firecracker is laying on my chest.

Her soft, sexy as fuck breasts are caressing my 'no-go' zone and I do not feel pain. Perhaps it's because I've tensed up since coming to, from our amazing love and fuck fest.

My God what the Firecracker does to me. Firecracker is right! I fucking exploded in her mouth and inside of her beautiful flower. I smile and slowly relax.

I take a deep breath and I feel my Firecracker stir.

"Mmmmm...Christian, save me." She whispers as she slowly falls back to sleep.

Well, how about that? The Firecracker talks in her sleep. This may prove to be a very informative evening!

I slowly move my arms and wrap them around my Firecracker. This feels so good. I've never held anyone before, our bodies are so warm and we fit perfectly. She's the missing piece to my puzzle and we snap together perfectly.

Shit! What the hell has happened to me?

I've turned into a love-sick puppy and I'm surprisingly happy about it. I want to wake my Firecracker and take her once more but she's sleeping so soundly and I do enjoy having her on my chest.

This must be that feeling. The feeling of intimacy that you cannot get from fucking...it's what I've needed all this time, only the thought of doing something like this made the pain in my chest burn more than ever. Just the idea of someone getting near me in that way made me put up my defense mechanism, I'm always ready to attack.

Not anymore, well, not with Anastasia. She's knocked down that wall and I cannot wait to see what the future has in store for us...

APOV

I'm slowly waking up from a very intense dream. I'm drowning, I'm going under, I can't breathe, I feel my lungs constricting. I'm about lose consciousness when I feel strong arms wrap around me.

"I've got you Anastasia, you're safe baby." Christian whispers in my dream and surprisingly, I find him whispering those same words as I come to.

"Mmm...what happened?" I ask in a groggy state.

"I think you were having a nightmare Firecracker." Christian says as he kisses the top of my head and that's when I realize that I'm laying on his chest.

"Shit!" I shout as I lift myself off of him. "I'm so sorry Christian, I didn't mean to.."

"Hey," He whispers as he puts his index finger to my mouth. He pulls me back down and I lay gingerly on his strong sculpted chest. "It's ok. I was scared too, when I woke up and found you like this, I was terrified actually."

"Oh? Why didn't you wake me?" I ask.

"Because I found that I enjoyed the feeling, this feeling of intimacy is not a feeling that I'm familiar with since I don't allow people to touch me."

He speaks as his hands run gently up and down my back, turning me on with every loving touch and caress.

We're quiet for a moment and the most embarrassing thing happens...my stomach growls.

Christian lifts up slightly and I look up at him as I feel myself blush, "You're hungry Firecracker."

I nod.

"Well, let's get dressed and get you fed."

"No!" I say quickly, "I'd rather stay here. Is pizza ok with you?" I ask.

Christian smiles and says, "Pizza is perfect."

***45 Minutes Laters Baby***

I'm wearing an over sized t-shirt and some sweats and fortunately for Christian I have many over sized shirts and I had a pair of Noah's sweats here.

Christian didn't say anything but I know, we both know...

Christian and I are sitting on the carpet as we eat pizza and drink soda, I put my plate on the coffee table and say, "Well, I'm stuffed."

Christian has a silly grin on his face.

"What?" I ask.

"You."

"Me? Me what?" I ask again.

"It's nice to see you eat, you have a pretty big appetite."

"Is that a bad thing? If so, sorry but I can't change it. If I'm hungry, I'll eat. I already told you that I'm not a salad and water kind of girl."

Christian laughs out loud.

"Uh, I'm glad you find me amusing Christian."

"It's not that, it's just that my little sister Mia tries to watch what she eats, not that she needs to but she will have salad and say that she's trying to watch her weight. Then I'll come downstairs for a glass of water or a snack and there she is...eating a sub or having ice-cream or cookies and milk."

"My kind of girl." I say as I giggle.

Christian giggles as well. I've not heard him laugh, really laugh until today. It's nice. Since he's so relaxed perhaps I can get him to open up...

"Christian?...Why can't I touch you?"

The room becomes tense, it's in the air and Christian stiffens up immediately.

Bad move Steele.

"It has to do with my childhood...I've told you about the crack whore and the pimp but not everything..."

"Will you tell me now? I'm just trying to understand you." I say softly.

"Well, I'm sure you've seen them." He says quietly.

"The scars? Yes I have...I've been wondering..."

"Cigarette burns."

Oh God, Christian was burned with cigarettes! I'm feeling nauseous and before I know it, I run to the bathroom and hurl.

Shit!

"Ana? Firecracker?" Christian shouts as he enters the bathroom.

I'm still hurling and he holds my hair out of my face.

"Oh Anastasia, I'm so sorry. The last thing I wanted to do was upset you and now I've gone and made you sick."

I spit out the last bit of vomit and say, "Christian, don't apologize. It's not your fault. I just...I didn't know it would affect me this way. I care about you and the thought that someone, more like some animal did this to you is disgusting!"

Tears are burning my eyes and I'm full of rage. Poor Christian. I feel...I feel awful, sad, angry and so many other things that I cannot explain. This is just horrible!

Christian offers me his hand and he pulls me up.

"Just let me brush my teeth Christian, I want you to tell me what happened."

Christian takes a deep breath and says, "Ok, if you really want to know."

"I do Christian, I want to know all about you."

Christian tells me as much as he can remember about the his birth mother and her pimp, then he goes on to tell me how Grace took care of him in the emergency room and the rest is history.

He was adopted by the Greys along with his older brother Eliott and younger sister Mia. They were raised in a strict but loving home and that's all that Christian will tell me.

I feel it's enough for now but I really want to know more.

Christian asks about my upbringing and I tell him about my life, I was a happy normal kid with two wonderful parents until that fateful night.

I tell about him how Noah and I came to be and I see the sadness in his eyes, "I feel awful for you and Noah."

I feel as though he wants to say more but he holds back.

"What is it Christian?"

"How do you know I wanted to say something else?" He asks with surprise.

"I...I don't know. I just feel it I guess."

"Firecracker, sometimes I think you know me better than I know myself."

"Does that bother you?" I ask.

He sits for a moment and thinks about it...really thinks about it.

"It might have bothered me before, now it doesn't bother me at all." He says with a smile.

"Christian, I really didn't expect for this to happen...well, I mean, not so soon anyway." I say as I blush and smile.

"Neither did I Firecracker but I must say, I have been thinking and hoping that this would happen for quite some time." Christian says with a devilish smile.

He's thinking about something, why the mischievous look?

"What? What is it Christian?" I giggle as I ask him, demanding to be let in on his little secret.

"Well, I said that I've been thinking about this, about us being together for a while and for the life of me, I can't understand why the fuck I'm smiling about because at the time...it broke my heart Ana. I never thought that you would be mine."

His? I'm his now? Hmmmm...I think I like that. I think I like that a lot!

CPOV

Fuck Grey! There you go again! Saying more than you should. You said the Firecracker is yours.

Shit!

How does she feel about this. Focus, read her facial expressions, you're good at that!

Well, she looks shocked for a moment. Then she lets those words play in her mind. Yes Firecracker, you are mine. Face it baby! I'm never going to let you go...ever!

Holy shit! I think she likes the idea of being mine. Fuck, she might even love it! This is the best date I've ever had!

Hey dummy, it's the only date you've ever had. Would you please grow your dick and balls back and lose the vagina Christina! She still doesn't know about the monster that rages inside you. You know, the one that rattles your cage.

"Shut up dammit!" I shout as Ana leans back in shock.

"Christian, are you ok?"

"Shit, I'm fine Ana, I'm fine."

"Why did you say 'shut up?' I don't understand. Have you got Tourette's Syndrome or something?"

She has such a serious look on her face and I break out in laughter. Tourette's Syndrome? Is she serious?

"Oh Ana! You are too much!" I say as I grab her and take her in my arms. She's lying on my lap looking up at me while I look down at her pretty face.

"Tell me Firecracker, what do you think about being mine? Hmmm?" I ask as I lean down and kiss her cute button nose.

"Wait just a minute Christian, you were going to share something with me and I want to know what it was." I demand.

"And I'll still share it with you Firecracker but first, I need to know...are you? Mine that is?"

Listen to me, I'm pathetic! I've never wanted anyone, never needed anyone and yet, here I am, a love-sick puppy, waiting for Ana to pet me so I can wag my fucking tail!

"I don't know Christian? Are you asking me to be...yours?" She smiles at me and blushes.

"Yes Ana, I am. I want you to be mine and I will be yours and yours alone. What do you say?"

"Christian, I do want to be yours. I think a part of me has always been yours since we met only I didn't know, I didn't recognize it at the time."

"Ana! I feel the same way! Right from the first time I say you." I say in amazement.

My Firecracker tenses up.

Shit!

"What is it Ana, you don't want this? You don't want us?" I feel like I've been punched in the gut.

"No Christian, it's not that. It's not that at all. It's just...I don't know, don't you think it's too soon? Noah and I only broke up two weeks ago and now here I am with you."

"Life is too short Ana, you of all people should know that."

Ana flinches at my words.

Shit!

Her parents! Nice move idiot!

"I'm sorry Ana, I didn't mean for it to sound..."

"Don't apologize Christian, I understand what you mean, but what will the others think? The team? How will they feel about..."

"Fuck them! Who cares what they think! What matters is what you want, what I want, what we want!"

My Firecracker looks puzzled, she's trying to wrap her mind around us being a couple.

"Don't over think it baby. You're mine and that's all there is to it."

"Don't I have a say in this Christian?"

"A small one but I get to overrule you if you say you're not mine." I lean down and kiss her again. I try to pick my head up but Ana grabs my hair and yanks me down hard.

"Ana...Oh baby yes." I say as I position myself on top of her.

God she's a great kisser. Her mouth is so fucking sweet, I want her again, now!

"Firecracker, stop. Let's go back to your bedroom baby."

Ana looks at me with those crystal blue eyes and she nods as we stand up.

"Hey, wait a minute. What where you thinking earlier? I want to know." Ana says as she sits herself down on the sofa.

She tugs on my hand and I am forced to sit down. Well, she needs full disclosure. If I'm going to be in a 'relationship' it has to be based on honesty and I really want this to work.

I'm not going to stall, I'm just going to say it.

"Ana?"

"Yes Christian, what is it?"

"I...uh...saw you and Noah...together." My stomach is in knots, let's hope this goes over well.

"What do you mean you saw us together? Together how?"

"I saw you and Noah making love to each other, you had on your pink triangles and you looked fucking amazing."

My Firecracker looks like she has checked out. Shit! This isn't good, this isn't good at all!

"You saw us making love?! You mean at the boat house? Pink triangles? What pink triangles? What are you talking about Christian?"

"I couldn't get you out of my mind Firecracker! You were driving me crazy! I wanted you so bad and that night, I followed you and watched you and Noah from afar."

"Oh my God."

"I'm sorry Ana, I'm so sorry and as much as it broke my heart to see you with someone else, it was hot. Well, you were hot. I was so fucking turned on that I jacked off while watching you."

My Firecracker's jaw is on the floor. Is she in shock, did I say too much? Well, I might as well tell her everything now. No need to put her in shock more than once. Get it all out!

"I was so angry Ana, angry at you. Angry at Noah, doing what he did with you, what you where doing with him, knowing that you belonged to me! I wanted to tear him apart!"

She has a blank stare, perhaps she did check out. I might as well keep going.

"I know it sounds crazy baby, but I knew you were mine and to see you with him...I was angry and hot and bothered just watching you! I needed you to be mine, I had to claim you as my own Ana! Is that crazy? I don't know, but I do know how I feel. Say something Anastasia, please."

APOV

"You watched us?"

"I did Ana, I have to be honest with you just like you have to be honest with me if we want this to work."

How am I supposed to feel about this? I don't know? I guess I should be freaked out and I suppose I am but...then he says he has to be honest, he wants this to work.

He is serious about us being in a real relationship and that makes my heart fill with joy.

"Christian," I begin. "I'll admit, I'm a little freaked out that you watched Noah and I and that you, you know, did what you did but then you say you want to be honest and you come clean with me. It shows me that you really do want this to work and that thought alone makes me happy Christian. It really does."

"I do want this to work Ana, you have no idea how much. I've never felt this way before."

His words fill me with so much emotion. I'm falling for Christian. I'm falling hard. I only hope that he feels the same way. He hasn't said those magic words and neither have I.

I did tell him "I'm loving you," however that was only in reference to me loving his body and making love to him but I know in my heart and in my soul what is true.

The truth is that I have fallen in love with Christian Grey.

A/N

And there it is...Ana has fallen in love with Christian Grey! How will this 'little' epiphany affect their relationship? So much I want to say but I can't without giving away some things that will be occurring in the future. What I can say again is that Elena does not exist in the story, therefore Christian has not been exposed to the BDSM lifestyle. That's all I will say for now, in the meantime...

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Rosie