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Theme Two: I love you.
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I just didn't want to hurt you, Lucille.
You're a good person. You're not like the other girls around here. You're openly girly, you like historical fiction and vintage fashion, you're in the drama club. You're a fine catch, and I really mean that. There isn't anybody else like you, with all these strange ideas and accents and little things you do. You really are a fundamentally gentle and kind soul, and I know you'll make some guy very happy one day.
You've been nothing but good to me, and for that I thank you. From baking me apple pie to just giving me a hug when I needed it, you've always been at my side since I became Patrol Sheriff. You want to be my right hand girl. I want you to stay near me because I like you, as a friend. It's here where I have to apologize, because I guess I screwed myself over on this one. I don't feel for you the way you feel for me. Just try to understand, okay? It's not you. You're a perfectly respectable young lady.
This is my fault. I used you. I'm sorry, Lucille. You were just someone I could lean on, someone I could trust when I needed it most. I used you to vent all my frustrations, my fears, my affection, and I led you on. I'm a terrible person, a lot worse than people think I am. I hope with time, you can forgive me. I guess I needed someone, and you were a soft place to fall. You've got a kind heart. Hopefully next time you can give it to someone more deserving.
I'm in love with someone else. You're a very smart girl, so you've probably figured it out. This has probably only confirmed your suspicions. I won't blame you if you want to never speak to me again for this. I deserve everything you can throw at me, because I'm the one who kissed you, held you tight and lied to you every day for the past two months.
I should never have said, "I love you, Lucille."