A-List to the Heart

Another Clear View Part 3

OBEY YOUR Führer!

Disclaimer= No ties to Mai Hime

Warning= Futanari

Italics= Flashback

Others in life say that life is a marathon not a race; it is how long you last not how fast you are done. For me it was something that my father always told me as I rode on the passenger's side in his squad car. My mother would always tell me that everyone is a diamond and sometimes god makes a special diamond. That is what she would tell me before dad passed away.

As soon as he passed away, I started hearing my mother talk less and less until it stopped those words of wisdom that I needed. Then I started seeing her less and less until I stopped seeing her all together. Child services said it was an accident until I got older and read the police report. No longer did I feel special I just felt cold. Moving into the Fuuka orphanage at ten, Ms. Maria tried her best to take me under her wing and look out for me. I could say I felt a sense of warmth but it all has disappeared since Ms. Maria's death three years ago. All I got was a crappy post card saying that she died and the funeral was over a year ago I knew I wasn't invited it figures the others in the orphanage thought I was strange.

After that time, I started to get into music putting my feelings into something that I knew that I only wanted. It wasn't until I met with Nao that I started to post my music more publically online. Many times, I had wanted to come out and publically do music, but something always held me back.

I knew what held me back I knew it was thing between my legs that held me back and made sink steadfast into my fear. Many times, I have looked at it between my legs with scissors in hand, as my tears came down. It was until Nao came changing my outlook and using my music to my advantage, but the rotting fear was there.

Nao was the one that made me channel everything that I knew for that I was grateful and with that, I fell in love. Soon I thought to Shizuru and why I gave her my name, it was as if my mind came on autopilot. Thinking of some rational explanation of why I told Shizuru my name maybe I thought she wouldn't remember like everyone else. With Nao, walking up towards me I quickly buried the attractive Shizuru in my mind. Hugging and kissing my girlfriend, she grabbed my hand and led me into the restaurant.

As we sat down it was as if I automatically began to compare Shizuru to Nao. Not knowing what was wrong with me I pushed down the criticism.

"Natsuki…Natsuki did you hear me?"

"What...Huh…I'm sorry say that again."

Watching Nao sigh in frustration as she looked at me with angry eyes it brought me back to reality. Looking at her bitter mood, things lately have been like this between us I opened my mouth to speak.

"Nao I'm sorry what were you saying?"

"No its alright it's not that important considering that I might have the money for your operation," spoke Nao in an easy going tone.

"Really…"

"No I don't you see that's what I'm talking, about your always thinking about you! How come you can't ever think that I stopped here to help you out with the site?"

Knowing that she was right I still wanted to give the waters a test and go despite my reclusive nature. Talking with Shizuru earlier made me realize that I am not as much as freak as I thought I was. Despite that I spoke.

"Well maybe this is a sign…you know maybe I should come from underground music."

"No…maybe it's not I didn't write all that crap on the blog so your fans could see you sell out. Besides if they figured out what you had in between your legs you would be the laughing stock of showbiz. I mean do you want to end up like all those shallow idiots in the music industry."

"Maybe it could be different for me I mean it could be a thing that I can go somewhere in the middle sell some records things like that."

"My question for you how could anything be different for you? I mean I think you are a success as a web sensation isn't that enough for you? What has got you thinking this way? You never really talk about things like this Natsuki."

Setting my head down I knew that Nao was right from incidents in the locker room, to being teased and bullied. Nao was my only salvation and I had to give her credit for that.

"Y-Your right…"

"Yeah I am now I gotta head over to Yamada he's the only one that can fix this fucking mess see ya." Watching her walk out I walked behind her before speaking.

"Are you going to come over tonight?"

"Sorry I can't but let me know when your next track is due for your album I really want to hear it," spoke Nao with a smile. I knew that everything in our relationship wasn't perfect now, but I loved that Nao loved my music. Even though I miss the days that we would try to make love, I knew that was impossible seeing, as it was hard for me to get it up. For that, I felt like a failure with an addition to having this body I felt sick that even I couldn't enjoy in the simple pleasures. Any way you cut it, I was a virgin although I still did other things with Nao she still refused to touch me down there. From what she told, me she said that it would be hard for her to get into it if she saw it so I guess it worked for the better.

I couldn't blame her because I felt the same, noticing my struggle Nao looked into a surgeon that would correct the problem. All it was is a matter of money and that was something I was low on as well didn't have enough of. Watching Nao work was the hardest thing that I had to do. With my own savings in the low and barely saving enough for food after rent Nao volunteered to drop out of school and work to help me save up for my surgery. My career in music seemed further and further with the fear of becoming someone I am not I was stuck. For one thing, that was certain from meeting Shizuru, I knew there was something better. Life was always like this for me always stuck in the middle not a boy yet not a girl, not rich yet not poor.

I wanted the marathon to begin for me and I wanted a place that only I Natsuki Kuga could have. Walking back in I looked towards Mai who saw the whole thing shaking her head she spoke. I knew Mai for over five years as well although she never knew my secret she hosted her good cooking when Nao and me would argue.

"I don't see why you're with her I mean she's never home."

"She's working I mean she's planning on making something happen. Besides Nao's the only one that likes my music and understands it we have a history."

"Natsuki don't you think that your fans don't understand your music as well."

"No they don't besides if those people really knew me they would run south."

"Well maybe something different may come of it you never know if you don't try."

"Mai…"

Looking at my watch, I noticed that it was time to go. Walking into the cold dark streets, I bid Mai goodbye. I enjoyed the walks down the street as I headed into the small laundry mat contained only three people. As I sat behind the counter, I watched as others did there laundry never in a rush just relaxed it was comforting. After my shift, I closed down heading upstairs I wrapped up the night, working in the same building that you rent from had its advantages.

Walking in the room it contained a small bed and along the wall two guitars as well as a computer with a cassette recorder. To the left a small bathroom as for the kitchen I didn't have one only a hot plate in the far right corner next to the bed. It was small but it was all I needed and I thought it was no problem for Nao as well.

Flipping open, my phone I looked over towards the number of Shizuru I looked fondly as my heart sped up. Soon an urge hit my bottom half it was unfamiliar and unexplored. I wondered how it felt to be her to know that when she took off her clothes everything would be secure and the same. I Natsuki Kuga wondered what it was like to be a real woman.

There you have it folks you know who is the futa, hahaha I threw you all for a loop. Everyone thought that Shizuru would be the futa, but no she was not I had reasons for that but I knew I wanted Natsuki as the futa. Now read and review you children of the corn!