A-List to the Heart

Road Of A Thousand Strings Part 3

OBEY YOUR Führer!

Disclaimer= No ties to Mai Hime

Warning= Futanari

Italics= Flashback

Pacing I looked towards the clock as I knew that I was expecting Natsuki after her class was over. Not knowing what ramen was I had to play as if I knew what the substance of food was. After six cups of tea, I was nervous my stomach in knots. Calling Reito I knew I couldn't get any help due to the little queen being with his husband Tate.

I was like a child on x-mass as the last three days became filled with uncertainty, as well as doubtful thoughts. As I waited, I replayed the whole situation within my head many of times. I knew that my defensive answer scared off Natsuki and I was to blame. My skin still felt on fire from touching her hand and holding her body close to me it was an addiction. I found myself ignoring calls from all of the women I have been with in the past it was until I got a certain call from Katie. Ever since our last meeting we haven't talked as we talked, I began to see things in a much clearer manner.

"Hey Shizuru, how's things going?"

"Katie you made it back to Manhattan alright?"

"Yes I told Serah everything…"

There was a short pause and I couldn't help, but wonder what happened between the pair. Even though I was still to blame somehow for Serah and Katie's' relationship failing. I could not help but try to make sense of Katie's' confession of our affair.

"So what happened was it worth it?"

"Yes it was at first she threw me out and I knew I had to wait and I'm still waiting. I deserve to wait I knew what I was doing when I did this, although now I'm uncertain if she wants to file a divorce. If she did I wouldn't blame her, even though I heard talk from one of her friends that she's considering going to a marriage counselor and I'm willing to do so."

"I see what about your kids?"

"Well they hate me and I'm not surprised… hehehe I still laugh about something's from the past. Like I would always tell myself that I would never become my father and do what he did but, I know I failed."

"You haven't tried to call her and push for the marriage counseling."

"I'll try, so how's work going?"

Telling her about everything from Erina to Nao cheating and my secret friendship, all the way to the point of how I was feeling now. It felt like my head was in the clear for the first time.

"Wow I see…she shouldn't be with Nao then when she finds all of this out she's going to break."

"I know and from my actions in the past with me and spot light. I know that she is bound to figure out who I am if she finds out."

"If she did it wouldn't be so bad right I mean you came to apologize right?"

"Well…"

Taking my silence, I heard Katie laugh. I knew that she knew something and it was something that I wanted to find out.

"It's finally happened to you."

"Ara what are you talking about?"

"Don't worry right now you give me a call when it happens ok, well right now I have to get back to the office."

"But, wait what should I do?"

"Do something you have never done before respect her. Find out about her more and why she reacted the way she did and prepare yourself."

"Prepare myself for what?"

"Prepare yourself to answer the difficult questions that you don't want to ask. Knowing about a person truly getting to know a person like you want to be known takes a series of giving and taking. You can't take all from Natsuki without giving all of yourself if you do something like that you might as well not have a friendship. Think about that Shizuru I have to go I'll call you later to see how you're doing."

"Bye Katie…"

After that conversation, I was still puzzled, but I knew that I was lying to myself. I knew if something like the situation I had three days ago with Natsuki came up; I knew I had to handle myself better. So right now I'm here waiting for her as well as waiting for a chance. Soon a knock came on the door looking at the clock I noticed that it was early not expecting Natsuki until much later I rushed to put on a pair of pants.

For more then, most I knew that I was very comfortable with my body and I could answer the door naked without a care. All that were close to me knew that I was a very sexual person and that I have shown so in the past. With Natsuki something was different it was like I wanted her to see something different with me. Whole situation made me nervous as well as uncomfortable. After walking and buttoning my pants, I swung the door open to reveal the emerald-eyed beauty.

"H-Hey Natsuki…"

"Umm…I can come back another time I'm sorry your busy." Not noticing why she acted like, this I saw as she held her eyes downcast towards the floor outside my apartment.

"No nonsense I told you that you could come as soon as you got out of school."

"I know, but I feel like I'm interrupting something." Watching her eyes go upwards towards my chest and then back down again her face red with embracement. Looking down at the way I was dressed I glanced, as a red push up bra was the only thing that rested and covered my top half.

"Shit…"

With my face now red, I took a nearby coat next to me and wrapped it around my top half. "Kannin na about that Natsuki come in please."

"O-Ok…"

Watching her step in she walked towards the couch her face still red, running upstairs I grabbed the nearest clean shirt I could find. Pulling the white tight V-neck over my chest, I walked in the living room to see Natsuki towards the left of me in the kitchen.

Looking at her the fresh smell of ramen came to my nose along with the sound of the microwave. I have never tasted the benefits or disadvantages of ramen but looking at Natsuki made me want to try it. Speaking up I felt as if I wanted to break the silence between us hoping I would find out the reason why my Natsuki didn't want to be touched. Thinking towards myself, I thought to the words of "my Natsuki." I knew she wasn't mine but I wanted her to be, but I knew I couldn't have her due to Nao's annoying presence.

"So did the coat keep you warm?"

"Yeah it did thank you for that," said Natsuki as she took out two bowls. Accepting the bowl, I looked over towards her and smiled making that my silent thank you.

"Well you can keep it."

"Huh what I couldn't do that."

"Nonsense it's going to start raining soon you're going to need it. Besides you said you're in between two pay checks."

"I know but…"

"But, nothing besides it's a good way to keep you around. Besides I have a feeling that you like me around too." Watching her put in the horrid substance known as mayo in her ramen, I watched as she gave me a ridiculous look.

"Yeah I guess you can say something like that, I wouldn't say I didn't need you right now." My heart skipped a beat, as I wanted to know the way that the emerald-eyed woman needed me.

"Really h-how so?"

"Well Nao called and last night I was busy and she kept bugging me about making this new tra-" Just as she was about to speak more she closed her mouth. Leaning towards Natsuki in curiosity, I decided to pick my time to strike and that so I did.

"New what Natsuki?" Watching her fidget with her chopsticks, I knew she was nervous about telling me about her music career.

"Well er…you see besides my job I sort of make…m-music it's nothing big, it's more of an underground thing. It started around the time I graduated high school I was having a rough time with something's. Therefore, Nao said if you can't express it sing it so from then it started. I mean we are nothing big just something on the internet that everyone could relate to." Sitting next to her, I wanted to hug her and kiss away every doubt but I knew that this was her battle.

"Ara that sounds wonderful in would love to hear Natsuki's works one day. You seem to surprise me every day also don't worry I won't tell anyone I know how that underground thing goes."

"T-Thank you Shizuru." Watching her smile was the biggest achievement of the day as I watched her dig into her ramen.

"You know it's so funny we are talking about music because one of my stupid classmates said you look like some woman named Shizuru Fujino."

"Oh I see how anyone can get me confused with her I'll take it as a compliment."

"Oh great I have created a monster."

"Ara indeed you have, so what else happened between you and Nao?"

"Nothing accept she basically downed my job saying that it wasn't as important as hers. I swear it's as if we have been arguing over nothing I mean we never get any time together only when she wants to hear my music. I just don't know what to do."

"Hmm…do you think she's with someone else?"

"Huh…no... Nao's too loyal for that…even though. The last time three months ago, I saw this woman's name on her phone and she called in the middle of the night. When I asked Nao about it she said that it was her boss."

"I see well speaking from a boss's perspective, there's no way I would call my employees in the middle of the night."

Watching her face grow stiff it was as if she wasn't trying to think about what I had said, but I knew I planted the seed of doubt. I knew this was something dirty to do, but I didn't care I wanted Natsuki at all costs even if I ran Nao into the dirt like the dog she was.

"Ara I'm sorry if I said something I shouldn't have. I just was adding to the conversation."

"No it's alright…"

Soon we turned on the TV blocking all of the entertainment channels so my face wouldn't show up we settled on national geographic. I knew I couldn't keep this up for long the thought of her classmate nearly blowing my cover it knew it was a matter of time. I had to get the truth out before Natsuki saw me on a cover of tabloid magazine being sold on some cheap newsstand but I couldn't because I didn't want this to be over.

Thinking about what Katie said earlier about sharing myself I knew I had to make a decision in order to keep Natsuki the way I wanted. Even if she found out today or tomorrow I still wanted, there to be bond besides Reito knowing this I never shared this with anyone. For some reason every time I thought of Natsuki it took me back to the moment that changed me into the person I was today.

"It's my mother…"

Not looking over at her and keeping my eyes on the television as to not show Natsuki my weakness. I watched from the corner of my eye, as she looked confused at my statement.

"That question about who Inherited my color eyes from it was my mother."

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