A-List to the Heart

Center Stage Part 3

AN=Not much to say except read and review.

Disclaimer= No ties to Mai Hime

Warning= Futanari

Italics= Flashback

Listening to the latest track from the latest artist that I knew all I could think about was Shizuru. Knowing that she was in Milan for the next two weeks it was somewhat hard to think about where our relationship was going. From our confession as well as "talk," Shizuru soon left for Milan not knowing what she was leaving for I didn't ask. It was safe to say this trip was a godsend for the situation that was at hand.

Although I knew that I love Shizuru I still couldn't trust her and with the lies that she told in the past. I was aware that I love Shizuru but was I in love with Shizuru. I also knew that a lot of my past had to do with what I was going through now. With all of the teasing and ridicule in high school and in the orphanage as well as the mental abuse from Nao. It was hard to believe in just six months that everything could change and so fast. I knew that I had to keep things guarded meaning that I had to keep Shizuru away, but the bigger question was what was there left to guard.

Thinking about everything in the short time that I have known Shizuru, she knows more about me then Maria has when she was alive. For all of Shizuru's faults I know that she meant well, but the biggest concern was Shizuru's constant need to be in the spotlight. I myself wasn't one for the spot light although many could still recognize me on the street I wouldn't be concerned an A-List star although Shizuru argues otherwise.

Another thing that concerned me was our age difference although it wasn't far between us. Most would say that we are in the prime of lives and relationships and marriages shouldn't even be in our planner. Marriage, dating and monogamy for me seemed like the natural step when it came to Shizuru, but I was scared about what came natural to Shizuru.

"Natsuki are you alright?"

Looking at my latest project, I looked towards the American rapper that everyone known as Drake. With my English being partly broken, but well enough to speak I gave a thumbs up. Watching him and his entourage talk, I watch them as they went out.

"Aye see ya later Natsuki good work."

"Thank you," I spoke in English. It was nice to know that respect came in many forms when money came into the equation. Sometimes I found myself wondering about the factors of love mainly being Shizuru and her love for me.

Resting my head on the soundboard, I looked towards the empty studio, lifting my head and getting up. I felt myself walk over towards into the inner booth picking up an acoustic guitar. I let my hands lightly strum past the strings it was light taking a breath of fresh air. Tuning the instrument to where I wanted it, I started to play and soon I let the words come out.

Effortlessly trying to break me

Effortlessly I'm trying to love you.

Falling into the shadows

Wishing you find a way.

Someday I will return to you.

With you leading the way

Effortlessly trying to love you.

I'm so effortlessly

Effortlessly…

Effortlessly…

Trying to love you.

Hearing a clap I looked over towards the dim lights to see a suited figure, walking in I spotted Reito. Meeting him only a few times I knew she was Shizuru's right hand man. Working more with his husband, I forged a bond with Tate more than Reito. Most of the times that he was around I was away on business not getting the opportunity to talk to him as much as I needed to. Therefore, it was safe to say our relationship as acquaintances was a hit and miss.

"You still got it, but hey you still do release your music online."

"Hey what's up?"

"Oh I'm here to tell you that since Shizuru couldn't reach you. She called me to tell me that she's returning from Milan tomorrow."

"Oh I see…"

Going into my pocket, I looked to see three missed calls from Shizuru as well as a voice message that I was assuming be hers. I don't know if Reito could tell but hearing him speak, I could tell that he knew of the disappointment that rested on my face.

"What's wrong you don't want Shizuru to come back?" Knowing that he was being a testy queen, I knew it was within good nature of not seeing his best friend get hurt.

"I do want her back more than anything it's just…"

"You don't know what to do with your feelings."

"How did you…"

"I'm Shizuru's best friend I'm supposed to know all of these things. You know she's waiting for you always has, I mean getting her to go to Milan was a big issue."

"Why…"

"She didn't want to leave."

"Oh I see…"

"So why are you doubting yourself?" Looking up at the older man, I knew that Reito was straightforward and I could see that was the reason why Shizuru cared about him.

"It's everything it's the media it's the factor that I told her one of my darkest secrets. It is like now that I have no more secrets what do I do now. I have been so use to hiding and staying away from people there is no other way for me to live now. Even if I were with Shizuru, how would I even handle the media? Knowing Shizuru she loves to be in the spot light I do, but I'm more on a calmer level."

"Well your right about one thing Shizuru never does anything small she's a part of the A-List same with me. Did I ever tell you about Tate and me?"

"No…"

"Well back when I wasn't married Tate was just like you he lived a common life. Therefore, when we met and fell in love it was as if the media was trying to eat us up and destroy us. Back then I was no help to Tate, at that time all I wanted to do was party and try to keep him at the same time, and then I realized that I couldn't have both."

"So what happened?"

"Well I calmed down I realized that my love for Tate was more than anything. So…I stopped and settled more behind the scenes."

"Do you regret it?"

"Nope not a day in my life, even when Tate acts like an old queer. I still love him and I have to realize that I couldn't live that lifestyle anymore. You know Shizuru doesn't know this, but we are planning on having kids." My eyes went wide in shock as I looked towards the dark-haired man, smiling I wished him all the best within my heart.

"Congratulations you're going to be a great dad."

"Thank you…The point I'm trying to make is Shizuru isn't like me. She is willing to throw this away to be with you, that is why she took this job even though she didn't want to leave you. This project is mellower for her and not as flashy, she's starting to make the transformation. So the question that should be on your mind is can you make the change?"

Watching him leave I smiled as he gave me the information that he needed to give me. With my mind clearer then it was before I set up my guitar as I closed down the studio I knew I had work to do. I know that is when I got it I knew that I loved Shizuru Fujino and only her.

Read and Review, we might have more chapters coming sorry everyone I just started my new second job. Therefore, I have been extremely busy so yeah. On another note still going to update this until my beta finishes A Day In Eternity.