I don't own Artemis Fowl. Not the mudboy/man, obviously since he is Artemis Fowl the second, his father or the series. Nope. Hope you enjoy!
Duting the Time Paradox, it all happened. Holly kissed Artemis, the thing all true A/H fans had been waiting for forever. Sadly, Artemis lied to her, deceived her and his elf-kissing days were over before they truly began. Later in the time paradox, on page 357 to be precise, Artemis thought something while he watched Holly walking towards the main doors of his manor. If only. If only. But what did he mean with this. Did he mean if only I hadn't lied to her? Or did he mean something else?
Artemis watched as Holly strode to the main doors of Fowl manor. He looked at her small, but strong figure. He looked at her auburn hair, her hips, her legs. At her. And he regretted it.
He regretted his lie so much. He didn't think he had ever felt so much regret. But I had to do it right? I had to lie to her in order to save my mother. That might be the truth, but it didn't make Artemis feel any less horrible. He felt guilty, mad and even obtuse. He had ruined everything with this lie.
He had lied so many times, to so many people. He had lied to his mother countless times. About his whereabouts, about what he did after school, about fairies. He had even mesmerized his parents, made them believe so many lies. And now he had lied to Holly. Again.
He had lied to her before, but none of those lies had proven to be as disastrous as this one. He would never forget the look in Holly's mismatched eyes, eyes of which one had been his own, when he had told her.
He had done the right thing of course. He couldn't keep on lying. That would make matters only worse. But it made him feel horrible. I never felt this bad about lying in the past. I truly have changed, haven't I? All thanks to Holly. Who know where I would be, who I would, be without here.
And yet, you have lied to her. Hurt her, the person you care so much about. The first person to deserve your trust and honesty a little voice in the back of his mind said.
Artemis sighed. Great. Now he was hearing voices in his head. If this continued, he would end up talking to one of those poor excuses of therapists. Those imcompetent idiots who would ask him questions that were in some book. Some book he had read and he would know the answers. Never again. They won't help me anyway. Although if it could fix things between Holly and me, I would do it. If I would get rid of all this guild and regret.
Artemis was shocked to realize he, the great Artemis Fowl, was having thoughts like this. Sentimental nonsense it was and normally, he would never bother to think like this. But since his rendez-vous with Holly, nothing had been the same. She had managed to change him like he would have thought impossible. And now, he had ruined it.
Artemis sighed again. He brought his hand to his lips, which were tingling when he thought back of a certain moment in the past. That moment in the gorilla cage.
She has saved my life again. She went to the past for me, putting herself in danger once again, faced so many problems and I repay her with lying. I will probably never get that hurt look out of my mind. And he wouldn't. Artemis Fowl had never been more sure of anything. He would never forget the moment the look in her eyes changed.
One moment, she had been hopeful and expecting and the next moment hurt. It had only lasted a second, after that her face could have been made out of stone, but that second had been enough. Artemis had seen just how much he had hurt her. And he understood. He really did. But he couldn't change his actions.
No more elf-kissing for me. Not in this time. Maybe in another time? Artemis pondered about this. Maybe there were other possibilities. He had missed the greatest chance of his life, but there might be another one. Who knew.
He smiled faintly when a thought struck him. It was like she kissed me awake, like sleeping beauty. He almost chuckled at this thought. Almost. It was amusing. Holly as the princess and he as the sleeping prince.
Artemis looked at Holly once again, picturing an and they lived happily ever after, but he couldn't. Not anymore. Not now he had ruined it all and betrayed her. She would never let him. He sighed. If only. If only.
Well? What do you think? Is it horrible? Just something I came up with. While I have testweek tomorrow haha. Anyway, this was somehow one-sided. I will try to make the next one real AxH fluff. If I am able to write something like that. I have to admit, I never really tried.