I really hope you like it. I've never written anything before. This is my first fanfiction ever. Also English is not my main laguage so my apologies in advance for any grammar mistakes.

Disclaimer: I don't own Glee or it's characters. If I did Faberry would be cannon xD

Quinn sighed at the screen of her phone where the text from her wife was.

Can't make it to dinner on time. Rehearsal ran late.

That's it. No apology. No rain checkShe knows she shouldn't be really surprised Rachel cancelled on her. She seemed to do that a lot lately. Still, she couldn't help but feel that pang of dissapoinment and hurt on her chest. She understood her wife really. Her job was really important and Quinn was incredibly proud of all she had acomplished but she thought maybe Rachel should care a little bit more about date night since they haven't have one in weeks and when they did they always ended up fighting over nothing. If it wasn't about Rachel's new co-star -wich was a complete asshole of you ask Quinn- it was about the kids dance and guitar lessons respectively and how they conflicted with one of Quinn's meeting and cause Rachel to have to leave her rehearsal early to go pick them up. It didn't really matter why they were fighting. It just that they seemed not to do anything else anymore and that was scaring Quinn.

She didn't want to think about it because Rachel was the love of her life but they were having problems and it was getting to the point where she thinks the kids were catching on. Quinn hopes she's wrong. The thing about Quinn and Rachel is that they married really young. They simply didn't seem to see the point of waiting two or three more years when they were completely in love with each other since the age of 17 when Quinn finally got her head out of her ass and asked Rachel to homecoming dance on their senior year. So when at the age of 21 Quinn got one knee and proposed on their fourth anniversary Rachel all but shouted that she wanted to spend the rest of her life with Quinn. Rachel had been on rehearsals for her first role on Broadway at the time so they decided they'll wait a little and then have a little ceremony. They got maried a year later and with their friends and family present they professed their love for one another. Eight months later Rachel found herself pregnant. Oh that's right. Quinn has an extra appendage. It's no big deal really. It has never defined who she was. Her mother always told her to be proud of who she was even if she was different she shouldn't feel bad about it because it was what made her special. Her father well, that's another story.

When they found out the pregnancy they have been really surprised. Having been carefull -or so they thought anyway- but still they were over the moon about it. It wasn't the best time and it was going to be difficult but the couldn't help but be increadibly happy at the thought of having a little one running around. Another physical reminder of their love. So imagine their sorprise when they found ot that they were having twins! They imedeately started looking for a bigger place to start raising their little family. It was going to be tight with Quinn in Columbia getting a master on English while working as an editor assistant for a magazine and Rachel on NYADA while working on Broadway at the same time but they were going to have their babies and they were happy. That was all that mattered to them. They found another apartment with two bedrooms a living room and a kitchen at a pretty good price so they moved there and started getting ready for their little ones. Nine months, a lot of sleepless night for Quinn and lots of wierd cravings for Rachel, they welcomed to the world Alexander Ryan and Veronica Lucy Berry Fabray or Alex and Ronnie for short.

They couldn't be more proud of their little family. Alex and Lucy were the most spoiled and adored babies ever. Along the years things had gotten harder with works and the kids and everything in life seemed to get in the way pulling further and further apart and while now five years later Quinn loved her wife as much as she did senior year of high school -if not even more- and was trying to work it out it seemed like Rachel wasn't even trying anymore. Quinn guessed she got to tired of swiming against the current. The thought alone made Quinn want to crawl in a hole and cry.

Dialing the number of the restaurant and cancelling their reservations for the night Quinn decided to go get a coffee before go picking up the kids at school. Getting into her car and putting on her ear device and calling her best friend Quinn make her way to the nearest Starbucks.

" 'Sup Q? You're not going to bring the little monters this early are you? Because Britt isn't even here yet and I can't deal with three tornados at once." asked Santana reffering to the twins and Grace her's and Brittany's 3 years old daughter. Not even bothering in greeting Quinn properly. She rolled her eyes.

"Not yet San. That was actually what I wanted to talk to you about. Rachel cancelled on me again but I was wondering if you could still watch them so I can wait for her and try to talks thing out." she said with a sigh.

"I'm sorry Q. I hope you and the Hobbit can finally get your shit together." she replied knowing her best friend was really suffering with all that's been going on. "Britts and I are taking the little ones to the movies so you guys have all night to talk and argue and have angry sex and then talk and then make up and fuck each others brains out. But in the morning you come bright and early to pick up your evil spawns because I don't think I can handle the three of them together for more than 12 hour at the time." she said making Quinn chuckle. She knew better. Santana loved those kids. Quinn liked to tease her about going soft over the years and that always ended up with Santana sending Quinn to go fuck herself.

"Fine I'll take them to you at 6 and pick them up in the morning. I'll see you later." she said as she parked in front of the seemingly busy coffee shop. "See ya later Q-ball." Santana replied making Quinn role her eyes once again.

_/

Upon entering the coffe shop she imedeately started making the line and after a few minutes she ordered a Caramel latte and exited the place to go get the twins at school. It was friday so they didn't have any lessons today. She'd take them to dinner and after going home and gathering everything they would need for a sleepover at auntie Britt and auntie Tana Quinn would take them to kiss and hug mommy and then to her best friend's house. Once she arrived at the school she saw that she was just in time as the students were just getting out of the building. Quinn steped out of the car and make her way to the front of the little school for her kids to spot her. Two minutes later Quinn was looking to her emails of the days when she felt something collide with her legs and then another something grab her.

"MAMA!" Getting down to be on her kids eye level she pulled them both against her and kissed both of their little heads.

"How are my little ones? I've missed you." she said looking at them and enjoying the feeling of having them in her arms. There was nothing better than getting a hug from her babbies.

"Mommy says I'm a big boy now mama." said a frowning Alex getting his little backpack bag from his mama who was attempting to carry their bags while Ronnie just gave it to her willingly. Quinn chuckled looking into her boy's eyes that were an exact replica of her own hazel ones.

"Alright big guy. lets go gimme your hand." she said taking both of their little hands on hers. "How was school today tinies?" said Quinn while oppening the back door of the car and helping them getting settled. When she got into the drivers seat she heard Ronnie start telling her about her day.

"Miss Davis let us do a drawing today of our favorite thing in the world. I made a ballerina cause I'm gonna be one when I'm bigger and then I saved it for you mama look." she said showing her the drawing to Quinn through the review mirror her eyes green eyes glowing with eximent while Alex seemed uninterested looking out the window.

"That's an awesome ballerina baby I'm gonna put her on my office at home so I can look at it all day. How about you Al? What did you draw in class?" she said getting the little boys attention.

"A basket ball. But I gave it to my friend Chloe cause she was sad because Mr. Kitty her cat is missing so I gave it to her so she didn't be sad." the little brunette boy said frowning lightly thinking anout the missing cat.

"Aw that's too bad baby I'm sure the cat will come home soon. Maybe he was just taking a vacation." she said trying to cheer up the boy. He seemed content with that so he smiled and got back to staring out the window. "Sooo. You're staying at antie Britts house tonight and she's taking you guys and Gracie to the movies. Are you guys exited?" she asked the little duo while making her way to the little italian place the go to eat sometimes.

"Yeaaah Auntie Tana is Awesome!" says a very exited Alex with a big smile on his face while Ronnie just nods furiously and start rambling about playing with Gracie and Auntie Britt. After that Quinn got a call from her editor asking her about the book fair she was having starting next week. Her new book comes out then and that means it was going to be a long book fair and she was already dreading being away from her family but other than that she was really exited about this book. It was different from any other book she have ever writen and it was exiting to see the response of her readers. When they got to a restaurant she helped the kids out of the car and with their little hands in hers she entered the restaurant and ordered. Mac & Cheese for the twins and alfredo pasta for herself. During The early dinner they talked about dance and guitar lessons. The kids favorite movies wich were Toy Story and some Barbie movie about dance -she couldn't really remember the name at the moment- and boths favorite Monster Inc. They talked about going to see mommy sing net week with Uncle Blaine and Uncle Kurt and lots of other things. Quinn loves this moments when she can just watch her kids rant about the most insignificant things. She loved it. When they were finished the went to the house pack their overnight bags -Ronnie a little reluctanly, she loves spending time at her auntie's but when it came to watch her mama go and leave her she didn't like it as much- then they left to see Rachel.

_/

Quinn send a quick text to her wife telling her she was on her way with the kids and got a reply telling her that she'd be waiting. When they got to the theather and went inside and herd the amazing sound of Rachel Berry singing. The kids got exited when the saw Rachel on stage and let go of Quinn's hand to get to her so she had to run after them to stoped them from yelling at their mom. Rachel spotted them really fast and kept performing. Quinn and the twins sit down on one of the back rows and watch her. Mesmeraized.

'She is so beautiful'

Quinn was pulled out of her thoughts by a little voice beside her.

"So pretty." said Alex while looking at Rachel like she was the greatest thing in the world. Yeah Quinn knew the feeling. Ronnie just swayed to the music sofly until it was finally over and they could talk to her.

"Come on tinies. Lets say hi to mommy." she said while leading them to the side of the stage where Rachel apeared and kneeled down so the kids could run to her. When the did Rachel hug them tight and started asking questions about school and their days. As Quinn aproached Rachel got up from her kneeling position and gave her a half smile and a peck on the lips. It was out of habbit more than anything really.

"Hey." said Rachel while fixing one of the pigtails on the little blonde head of their daughter. When it came to physics the twins were quite different. Alex had Rachel's brown hair and Quinn's hazel eyes and features while Ronnie had Quinn's blond hair but her eyes were green not hazel like her brothers and her features resembled Rachel's.

"Hey. San and Britt are taking them to a movie tonigth so I'll wait for you at home and we can just order in whenever you get there." Quinn said sounding hopefull.

"Yeah that's fine." she replied giving Quinn a small smile. Quinn smiled back and hoped that tonight would be the night the talk their issues out and finally make up and fuck each other's braines out like Santana said. It had been a while since theyd been together like that and Quinn missed her wife. After her half an hour break Rachel got called back to rehearsals and was their time to go.

"Ok tinies kiss and give a hug to mommy. She has to get back to work now." Quinn said getting up from her seat. "I'll see you later." she said kissing Rachel's cheek after the kids and leaving to leave the kids at Santana's.

_/

After a teary goodbye from Ronnie and hug and a kiss from Alex Quinn went back to her place and decided to watch a tv show while waiting for her wife. It was now nine o clock so she knew Rachel should be there anytime soon. A few minutes later just as she thought the front door was heard and Rachel walked into the living room a few moments later looking down at her phone. Looking up at Quinn she put down the phone on the nearest table.

"Oh you're up I thought you'd be asleep since you woke up pretty early this morning." she said waile looking at Quinn like she was surprised she waited up for her. Quinn got up from the couch and walked to her with a frown on her face.

"I told you I was going to wait for you remember?" she replied bending down to peck Rachels lips. It seemed that was the only way she was at least a little bit close to her wife these days. "So do you want chineese or pizza?" asked taking her phone from the cofee table to order dinner.

"Actually I think I'm going to pass I'm really tired so I'm just going to go to bed." she said moving past Quinn to go up the stairs. Quinn frown deppened and she followed her.

"I thought maybe we could talk. You know before I have to leave for the book fair." Quinn said as the entered the bedroom.

"I'm just really tired Quinn. Not tonight." she replied. That fired Quinn's anger throw the roof.

"No Rachel. You cant keep doing that. You can't keep shutting me down or reschechuling like I'm some errand you don't want to run. We need to talk and it's not going to wait anymore!" she said a little too loud. Rachel looked at her surprised that she went off so quickly.

"Okay why are you picking a fight with me? I literally just got here." she replied looking at Quinn like she was crazy.

"Oh I don't know maybe because I haven't had a conversation with my wife about something other than the kids and work in MONTHS or maybe because it's been even longer since we've done anything other than quick pecks on the cheeks and not even a hug or MAYBE, maybe it's because I miss you." she sighed looking at the ground. Not daring to look at her wife. "I miss hugging you and kissing you properly and I miss holding you at night when there wasn't a whole body of distance between us. I miss going on date nights with you and making love to you. I miss when I didn't have to have an appointent to really talk to you. I just miss you." she said just above a whisper. Her eyes were filled with tears but she refused to let them fall as she looked up at her wife and saw her looking at the ground. Looking guilty like she knew she was doing those things to Quinn.

"Look Quinn I just have been really busy with work and-" she was cut off by Quinn's once again angry voice. "No. You don't get to use work as an excuse anymore Rachel! Just tell me what's really going on for fuck's sake! You keep blowing me off on dates you don't talk to me unless I start conversation you barely even look at me anymore! I'm just so frustrated just tell me what the hell happened to us because I swear to God it's like you don't even love me ANYMORE!-"

"MAYBE I DON'T!"

Silence.

Complete and absolute silence consumed the room. The only thing audible was the sound of their breathing and to Quinn the sound of her heart ripping itself from inside out. Nothing has ever hurt as much in Quinn's life. None physical or any other kind of pain could ever be bigger than what she was feeling right now. Her heart felt like it was burning inside her chest. Like someone had stabed her on it with the sharpest knife they could find and now they were twisting and turning the knife in the open wound. No pain was greater than this. This must be what dying feelt like.

Quinn Fabray's heart was officially numb.

It felt like it had been hours since the last word was said but really there were just minutes. When she finally desided to look up that's when she felt the tears streaming down her cheeks. She didn't even bothered to wipe them off before looking at Rachel who was still with wide eyes and her hand over her mouth not believing what she had just said. Quinn's face remained impasive even though they were tears in her eyes they were empty now. She gave Rachel one last look. Studing her. Finally she turned around and left the room without a word. She went downstairs picked her keys and bag and when she was about to reach for her jacket she felt Rachel's hand on her shoulder.

"Quinn I didn't- I don't even know why I said that. I didn't mean it. Please don't go. Lets talk about this please." she begged. Her voice shaking, Quinn knew she was crying even without looking at her. She took a deep breath before taking her jacket and putting it on. Turning around she looked into those tearfull eyes one last time.

"We'll start the divorce paperwork when I get back." she said to her now soon to be exwife. No sadness. No hurt. Nothing. Her voice was steady. Calm. She's done.

She gave up.

The End?

AN.

Tell me what you guys think? This is literally the first fic I've ever written. So you guys let me know if you want me to continue it or just leave it there.