A/N: Thank you guys so much. I'm having so much fun writing this. I love it. Anyways sorry for the delay but here it is. I put some flashbacks in there let me know if you ejoyed them and if you want me to keep putting pieces of their past onto the story.
Disclaimer: I do not own glee or it's characters.
Enjoy!
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"Ugh!" Quinn woke up with a grumble. She knew she'd wake up with a massive hangover but this headache was ridiculous. Looking around realizing she was in Santana's place and remembering their conversation, kind of. Everything was kind of foggy. It has been a while since she'd drink like that. But it was nesessary to numb for a little while the way she was feeling. She knew she had some explaining to do with her best friends. Stretching and sitting up in the bed she looked at the clock beside her telling her that it was a little bit passed nine. She then noticed a glass of water with two pills on the bedside table. She took the pills and swallowing almost the whole glass of already warm water she thanked god for her best friends. She made her way to the private bathroom in the room she brushed her teeth, took a shower and went to look for her kids knowing they were around here somewhere. Going down she heard the distingtive sound of cartoons coming from the living room and made her way there where she saw the three tiny heads of the kids watching some program she couldn't remember the name at the moment. Making her way to the twins she leaned wrapping her arms around both of them.
"Good morning mokeys." She greet them hugging them both from behind.
"Mamaaaa!" Was the response she got before both of them turned and jumped for her to catch them. She easily did and after kissing both of their little heads she put them down -or tried anyway- because Alex went down and went back to watching cartoons but Ronnie on the other hand wouldn't let go so she adjust her and kept carrying her as she kissed Gracie's head.
"Hey auntie Q." Said the girl before going back to watch the tv with Alex.
"Mama I missed you." Said the little girl cuddling closer to her mother. It melted Quinn's heart.
"Aw I missed you lots too baby girl." she replied holding the little blonde tighter. "I'm going to go have a coffe with Auntie San and Auntie Britt and then a little later we can all go to the park sounds good?"
"Mhmm" replied Ronnie letting go of her as Quinn put her down to go watch tv. She already felt better. Her kids always did that. Making her way to the kitchen she foun Brittany making bacon and eggs and her stomach growled.
"Oh god I'm starving." she said making her way to the coffee machine. Brittany chuckled.
"You're always hungry for bacon Quinn. How did you sleep? San said you were really wasted when you came last night." said the blonde never taking her eyes off the frying pan. Quinn sat on one of the stools on the kitchen counter taking a sip of her cup of coffee.
"I slept pretty good. Where's San by the way?" she replaid resting her face againt her palm.
"I'm right here." sounded the voice of her best friend from behind her. "What's up Q?" she said taking a seat next to her on the counter. "How's the head?"
"Better now. Hey San thanks a lot for coming to get me last night I know I may have not been easy to handle." she said.
"Yeah you should thank me for coming to get you because I gots a feeling that hot bartender was going to take advantage of you and you were going to let her." sha said with a smirk. Before Quinn could replay Brittay turned around with two plates placing them in front of them.
"What hot bartender?" she asked curiously while going back to serve her own plate.
"Joane wasn't going to take advantage of me San." replaid Quinn ignoring Brittany's question.
"Oh, Joane." Santana said sarcastically eyeing Quinn suspiciously. "Since when do you call the chick who serves you alcohol in a bar by their first name Q?" she asked.
"Shut up, she was nice. She heard me whine about my shitty life for hours." she said with a sip of her coffee.
"Anyway, what was all that shit about you and the Hobbit getting a divorce?" she asked while starting to eat her breakfast. She heard Quinn's breath hitch and instantly felt bad for bringing it up.
Shit. This is serious.
"You and Rachel are getting a divorce?" asked Brittany in a soft voice her mouth forming a pout.
"She said she didn't love me anymore." replaid Quinn. Her voice above a whisper. God it hurt so much to even think about it.
"PLEASE. That woman lives for you Q. I don't-"
"SHE SAID SHE DIDN'T LOVE ME SANTANA!" Quinn cut her off. Her voice raising. She took a deep breath. "I'm sorry. I just, I really don't want to talk about this." Quinn said getting up to put her now empty plate in the sink.
"I'm sorry Quinn. We don't have to." said Brittany trying to glare at Santana but she wasn't looking at her.
"The HELL we aren't!" she saw Quinn tense while she washed her plate and mug but she didn't turn around to face her. "Why the hell would Berry say that? Whe she called me last night she was a mess and when she came this morning it looked like she hadn't gotten much sleep." she watched as Quinn turned around.
"She came this morning?" asked Quinn curiously.
"Yeah. She wanted to talk to you and to see the little monsters. She saw them but I told her you were asleep and that maybe you needed a little space. She fought me at first but I gave her the Head Bitch glare and she agreed and left but asked me to tell you to please call her." Santana replaid getting up herself to wash her own plate.
"Thanks for sending her away San. I can't deal with her today." Quinn said while sitting on the counter again. "I'm going on my book tour on Tuesday. Can I stay here until then?" she asked. Santana looked like she was going to protest but Brittany beat her to it.
"Ofcourse Quinn you can stay here as long as you want." she told her while giving Santana a warm smile when she took her empty plate away from her with a grumble and started washing it. Quinn gave her a thankful smile.
"Thanks Britt. I'm going to go get changed, I told the kids I'd take them to the park. There's still clothes of mine here right?" she asked while getting up. Santana nodded.
"On the guest room drawers." replaid the Latina.
"Hey do you want us to take them? That way you can go to your place and take everything you need while Rachel is still out. Then you can meet us there?" said Brittany while Santana just looked questionly as her. Quinn contemplated for a few seconds and then agreed with a nod of her head.
Brittany's right. Migth as well do it while she isn't there.
"Yeah, I'll do that. Thanks Britt." said Quinn before going to change. Santana looked at Brittany like she was crazy.
"What the hells Britt? Do you want them to get a divorce? The need to talk this out not avoid each other" she asked incredously. Now it was Brittany who was looking at her crazy.
"What? Ofcourse not San. But you saw Quinn she's really sad right now and the least we can do is support her. If she doesn't want to see Rachel we can't force her. They'll talk when she's ready." Brittany said wisely. Santana nodded after a moment.
"Your right." she said with a grumble. Brittany smirked.
"It happens once in a while." she said wrapping her arms around the Latina's neck. Santana's went instantly to her hips.
"I really hope they can fix this. It seems pretty bad this time." Santana said in a concerned voice. Brittany nodded her head.
"They will. They're Rachel and Quinn. They're soulmates." she said resting her forehead against her wife's. Santana closed her eyes. Taking her in. She didn't know what she would do with herself if one day this amazing woman told her she didn't love her anymore. She might aswell die. She remembered that time in high school when Brittany choose Artie over her. Yup, she'd die if Brittany left her again.
"Hey, what are you thinking?" Brittany asked above a whisper. Santana hold her closer. Looked right in her eyes.
"I love you." she said, her voice full with emotion. Brittanny gave her a little smile before leaning in.
"I love you too." she whispered before catching her lips on a sweet and soft kiss.
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After getting dressed Quinn told her babies that she would see them there and she almost break down when Alex asked her if Rachel would be there. She was lucky Brittany decided to interject and tell them that mommy was working but they would see her later. Quinn went to her house. It was empty as she knew it would be. Rachel was on her dance rehearsal. It was almost noon so Quinn knew she'd have to hurry up because Rachel was due home at one. She went around the place she used to feel so at home and packed everything she needed for the tour and a few days in her best friend's place. This book fair was due to be t least three and a half weeks and she was already dreading being away from her family -well from her kids now she suppose- anyway she knew she was goind to miss Rachel too. But right now she wanted to deny it.
Whatever. It's not like she cares anyways.
After packing and almost breaking down again. This time at the sight of their wedding picture standing in the bedsite table whe she went to get her tablet. She remembered that feeling. The way she felt holding Rachel close as they danced and knowing she was going to spend the rest of her life by her side. It was increadible. Then she remembered how scared she was of asking Rachel out back in hight school.
#FLASHBACK#
Quinn walked down the halls of McKinley High like she owned the place. The girls stared and the guys who didn't idolized her heted her from afar. But none of them dared to aproach her. She was flanked by Head cheerleader Santana Lopez and Star Quarterback Noah Puckerman. Yeah. They were royalty around there. Star Quarterback, Head cheerleader and Captain of the Basketball team. No one dared to mess with them. Especially because they were afraid of the Latina's head bitch glare. Quinn loved it. She wasn't an arrogant person but it did felt pretty awesome. Right down the hall she noticed the little brunette that ivaded the captains dreams every night. A stupid grin spread across her face. She was the most beautiful and sweet girl she had ever met. Sure she was a little diva and she talked a lot but Quinn found this kind of adorable. Okay, a lot adorable. It was then that she noticed the two jocks walking towards Rachel with two giant slushie cups in their hands and growled. She signaled to her friends to follow her and Santana smirked she was going to have fun scaring she shit out of the two idiots who thought that it was a good idea to slushie the Captain's midget. By the time they got to Rachel Quinn could hear them insulting her and hadn't noticed her.
"Hey Loser. Fabray can't protect you all the time." said one of them smirking.
"Yeah and neither can the faggotts you call fathers." added the other one with venom in his tone. The other one laughed.
"Hey that really makes me wonder. Are you a dyke? You know 'cause they say that spreads."
Okay Quinn have heard enough.
"Hey!" she called stanting protectively in front of Rachel. Puck and Santana both at her side. "What did you just say to her?" asked the really angry blonde. Both jocks widened her eyes in surprise. Quinn gave one step foward and they took one back. Puck and Santana were both smirking. The jocks stayed quiet. "What's up Kendrick? I asked you something asshole" the Captain took him by his letterman jacket. He pushed her hands down and stepped towards her.
"Fuck you Fabray! You can't tell me what to do! She's a LOSER! That's just how it is in this school." He spit angrily. But she wasn't backing down this asshole had been harrasing Rachel long enough. Puck was going to interject here. That was ussually how it went when they where on a fight. It's not that Quinn was a coward but most of the time these jocks were two times her size and Puck always took care of them. But not these time. Quinn took his letterman jacket again and pushed him against a locker making him drop the slushie he was holding. Puck went to stand right next to the other jock and put a hand on his shoulder to prevent him from trying anything stupid against Quinn and Santana was instantly beside a very nervious Rachel. That's just how they worked.
"Listen to me carefully Kendrick. If you or any of your teamates go anywear near her again I will make sure you regret it. After I'm done with you I'm telling Beiste. I'm sure all this harrasment will get your ass kicked out of the team and AFTER that I'll unleash Santana on you. If I were you I'd be a good boy and walk away because you can ask your boy Azimio if Santana plays around or not." Quinn said in a whisper knowing that Azimio had call Brittany a retarded moron and Santana had gived him a lesson he would never forget. "Get me?" the captain finished with fire in her eyes. He was looking at her like her wanted to punch her but finally her nodded her head and Quinn released him he nodded his head to the other nervious looking jock. Puck gave him a sqeeze on the shoulder and let him go. Quinn adjusted her own letterman jacket and ran her hands through her short hair as she looked at Rachel. "You okay Rach?" she asked the little brunette that was looking more at ease now that the jocks were gone. She nodded.
"T-thank you Quinn. You didn't ha-have to do that." the girl stuttered. Santana smirked these two were so into each other it was ridiculous. Quinn gave her a half smile and the Latina saw how the diva melted under the Captain's gaze. Seriously! Obvious. She looked at Puck and they shared an amused smirk. Watching these two was funny as hell.
"I told you. I wasn't gonna let anyone hurt you anymore. You let me know if they give you anymore trouble." Quinn replaid putting a strand of brown hair behind the girls ear. Rachel blushed.
"I will. Although I don't want you getting into trouble because of me or worst hurt. Those guys are twice your size could do some serious damage." Rachel said looking concerned but turned into a smile when she saw Quinn's jaw drop in mock offence.
"That's all the confidence you have on your knight in shinny armor Rachel? Have you seen this guns?" Quinn asked playfully flexing her arms while biting her lip trying to look tough making Rachel giggle. Quinn grinned while Santana rolled her eyes and went to catch up with Brittany that was waving her from her locker. Puck left them alone too.
"You're right. My hero!" Rachel said in a very dramatic voice and Quinn laughed. Offering her arm.
"May I escort you to Glee, your majesty?" Quinn said in a deep voice making Rachel giggle once again. Oh how she loved that sound. It was adorable.
"Yes you may, oh you brave gentlewoman" she said in the same high voice taking Quinn's arm and making her chuckle again. As they make their way to the coir room Quinn keeps trying to get the balls to ask Rachel out. She doesn't know why is so hard for her to ask her. I mean she had asked other girls out and was always very confident about it. But there was something about This little diva currently walking by her side that scared her. I mean sure they were good friends because of Glee and everything but Rachel never mentioned being interested in girls. If anything she'd catch her looking constantely at Finn. So Quinn thought the girl was straight and although the blonde knew that Rachel would never judge her for being into her as more than a friend she still wouldn't go through with it. She was more afraid of Rachel telling her she wasn't into her like that. It would hurt and Quinn had been doing a pretty great job at not getting hurt by staying detached of every girl she hooked up with. So if they left her it wouldn't destroy her as it did when her father walked out on her when she was twelve because she decided that she didn't want to get surgery to remove her appendage. So Quinn stayed as detached as possible with her conquets. But Rachel, Quinn couldn't stay away from her even if she tried. Santana was always picking on her about not having the balls to ask the Midget out. -Santanas words.-
Quinn shot Rachel a sideways grinn and anyone else would've noticed how the brunette once again melted at the sight but Quinn didn't. One day she thought one day she'll asked her out.
A week later she saw Rachel talking with Finn by her locker she could see the girl fidgeting uncomfortable so she make her way there and realized that tha boy was asking her to come with him to homecoming dance and Rachel was looking for a way to let him down easily.
"She can't go with you Finn." the Captain put her arm over the girls shoulders. Finn looked confused.
"Why not? Rach?" be asked in his you just kicked my puppy voice. Rachel looked uncomfortable again.
"Actually Finn I already have a date to the dance." WHAT? The blonde wasn't expecting that. Finn looked hurt again.
"You have a date who?" Yeah with who Rache?- Quinn thought.
"I well- I'm going with..." That's when she looked pleadingly at Quinn and she got the message.
"She's going with me." the blonde said and couldn't help but feel giddy as she told him. Finn looked shocked and then nodded his head. He knew better than to argue with Quinn.
"Okay Rach. But if you change your mind." He told her with his sideways smile and left when Quinn started glaring at him. Quinn took her arm away from Rachel. The brunette let out a sigh.
"Thanks for saving me once again." He doesn't seem to get a clue." she said giving Quinn a big smile. The blonde was loving it.
"No problem Rach." giving her a wink and a grin. "So. . ." Fuck it- Quinn thought. "Are you going to homecoming?" She asked sudeenly feeling very nervious. Rachel shrugged her shoulders and put a brown lock behind her ear.
"I don't really have anybody to go with." the little diva told her. Here goes nothing Quinn thought taking a deep breath.
"So. . .what time should I pick you up?" Smoth. Good job Fabray. Rachel's eyes widened comically.
"You want to go with me to the dance? Like on a-"
"Date? Yes, I do. So would you go with me Rach?" she asked. Rachel looked at her like she was crazy.
"But why me?" the brunette asked her. She smiled.
"Because I like you. So is seven okay this Friday?" Quinn asked with a grin. Rachel gave her a nervious smile that Quinn found absolutely adorable.
"Seven would be lovely Quinn." she replaid and the blonde did a little victory dance in her head.
"Okay seven it is." she said as she bend down put Rachels hair out of the way and gave her a sof kiss on the cheek. Rachel blushed. "I'll see you in Glee." Quinn said walking away.
Finally.
She went to Santana's house left everything and went to meet with them on the park. A day playing with her babies was exactly what she needed.
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When Rachel got home after her dance rehearsal she instately knew her wife had been there. It wasn't that anything was out of place or something like that. It was more like a feeling. Her thoughts were confirmed when she got to their bedroom and saw that Quinn's tablet was gone from it's place on the bed site table. She looked through the closet and saw a lot of clothes missing and the tears started stinging her eyes. Then she went to the music room they had on the house and saw that Quinn's guitar was gone too. Quinn was leaving her and there was nothing she could do about it. She got her phone out and dialed her wifes number she wasn't letting her go without a fight. After a few rings it went to voicemail like she expected.
Hey, This is Quinn Fabray. I can't pick up the phone right now please leave amessage. -Beep
"Hey Quinn it's me. I know you probably hate me but please call me back. I really need us t-to talk. Don't ignore me anymore please. Even if it's just to tell me how much you hate me just please call me." -Beep
She wiped the tears from her eyes as she hang up the phone. She prayed that Quinn would call her and let her fix them. As she started to look through her drawers for something to wear when her phone anounced she had a text. Picking it up from where she had tossed it in the bed, she prayed that it was from Quinn. When she saw her wife's name light up th screen her breath hitch. However her face turned into a frown when she read what Quinn wrote her.
Santana and Brittany are taking the kids to you later. I'm leaving for the tour erlier.
That's it. Her wife didn't even aknowledged they needed to talk. What did that ever mean? Was she leaving tonight? That was why she wouldn't be bringing the kids herself or she simply didn't want to see her? Probably the latest, the brunette thought. She typed and answer.
Can't you bring them? I really need us to talk before you go Quinn. Please.
The text went unanswered. She shook her head at herself. She couldn't believe she had fuck things up this much. After pinning over Quinn for two years back in high school. She remember what it felt like to think she couldn't have her. It was torture. Not knowing that the blonde felt the same about her.
#FLASHBACK#
She watches from her locker as Quinn flirts with some cheerleader. Putting her arm on the locker next to the girl and whispering in her ear as the girl giggles. She woundered what it would be like to be that girl who haves the blondes attention.
Yeah right. There's no way that Quinn Fabray, Captain of the basketball team and one of the most popilar girls in school would ever want to be with you. She could have any girl in school so why would she choose her? The biggest loser in school. Keep dreaming Rachel. Keep dreaming.
Right now she feels the same way she felt back then. Only worst. Because now she knows what it's like to have Quinn. Back then she would dream of being the girl's girlfriend and it felt really bad thinking that she didn't have a chance. But now that she knows what is like to have Quinn in her arms. To kiss her and hold her and to make love to her. It was fucking heartbreaking.
I guess what they say it's true. You don't know what you have until you lose it.
Except she did knew what she had. She had the most beautiful, loving, kindest and most loyal person she had ever met and she let her slip between her fingers. She got up from the spot on the bed that she had been sitting staring into space. Enough of this pitty party. She is going to fight for Quinn because she's the love of her life and there's no freaking way that she's going to let her jsut walk away from them. She's going to take a shower and then she'll go to Santana's house and force her wife to listen to her if she has to but there's no way she's letting her leave without telling her how much of a jackass she is and how much she loves her. She went to take a shower.
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After being in the park for a few hours they decided to go have a late lunch and then take the kids for ice cream before Quinn had to take her plane to Atlanta. She had called her agent and told her she wanted to leave as early as possible and he told her they could fly out tonight and get settled before starting with the tour. She agreed quickly so she was flying at the six o' clock flight to Atlanta, Georgia. After recieving Rachel's latest text she was tempted to go a nd take the kids herself to her wife but rapidly chage her mind. She didn't want to face her. She felt like she couldn't.
So after having a wonderful day with her kids and a teary goodbye from them when she told them she would see them in a couple of weeks. She promised to call them everyday and that before they know it she would be back and would take them to the circus. They were really exited about it. Quinn knew that circus was going into town on her third week of tour but it would be staying for a week so she knew she's be back in time to take her two beautiful children to see it.
After getting her bags she went to the airport.
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Nobody was home. After taking a shower Rachel went strainght to the Lopez-Pierce recidence only to find that it was empty. She tried calling Quinn but as expected, no answer. Instead of trying to call again. She was going to call Brittany to asked where they were but two tiny voices stopped her.
"MOMMY!" she heard her to babies right before she felt them collide with her legs and hug her. She kneeled to be at their level.
"Here are my babies" she said with a big smile and a kiss to both of their little heads. She started fixing the little bow Ronnie had on her hair. "I've missed you. How are you?" she asked hugging them close again.
"Tired. We went to the park. We missed you lots too mommy." said the little blonde with an adorable yawn.
"Awe it's okay tinies. We're going home amd you can come and sleep with mommy okay?" she said feeling how their little heads give her a one nod. Looking over their little shoulders she saw Santana getting a fast asleep Gracie out of the car that it's parked right behind hers and Brittany walking towards her. She noticed Quinn wasn't with them.
She must be gone already.- Rachel thought.
"Hey Britt. How were them?" she asked giving Brittany a small smile. Brittany smiled back.
"Perfect as always." sha said as Santana make her way to them too.
" 'Sup Berry?" she asked as she passed to get the sleeping little girl on her arms inside.
"Hey Santana. Kiss Gracie good night for me." she called after her as she started guiding her kids towards the car with Brittany in tow. After getting them settled she closed the door. "She's gone already isn't she?" the brunette asked with a broken voice. Brittany gave her a simpatetic look and a nod.
"She left and hour ago." she said. Rachel gaver a slight nod of acceptance and started walking to the driver's side.
"She just needs time Rachel." Brittany called after her.
"Yeah I don't know about that. I really screwed up this time Britt." she replaid opening the door.
"Just give her time to clear her head. You guys will figure it out. You always do." the blonde said with a half smile. Rachel nodded her head once more.
"Maybe. I'll see you later Britt." Brittany told her good night and went inside. Hearing the shower running her head instantly went to her wifes naked body.
Hmm. Gracie is asleep.
She thought with a mischievious look on her face and started undressing herself. When she got to the bathroom she was already naked. Oh yeah they would be having fun tonight.
She hoped her best friends would be okay. If someone could get through this it was them.
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Hope you guys enjoyed the little Brittana I threw in there (:
Hope you liked it.
-k