A/n: thanks for the support on my last chapter. apologize if there are any errors I'm doing my best i hope to see some more reviews soon :) enjoy

BPOV

The tattoo was so beautiful and it was far from done it gave me a slight feeling of closure and hope for the future. I got home and dozed off. I was awoken by the sun peeking through my windows. I knew I couldn't sleep longer ever since Jake died I was running of three hours asleep most days.

I wished so much that he was here with me I needed to know what I was supposed to do without him he was the outgoing one. I always called him brain because he would come up with the plans. That's when I remembered the bible I opened it.

Bella I spent a lot of time on this book, it has all you need to know in it .all I could ever advise you to do. But, this isn't an instruction manual I know you're probably looking in this to see what to do but you won't find it

I laughed a little he knew me so well

I know your missing me and it's only been a little while. But, remember even though u can't see me I'm always there in your heart. I know how much it hurts when I decided this the thought of losing to was like ripping my heart out (no pun intended)

I laughed a little at his morbid humor.

If your laughing turn it into a smile now and only use this when you need me most other wise all I can say is don't hold back do everything you can because life it short . Remember and this too shall pass

I closed the book he was right. I could do this I smiled I was going to do it today I was going to start my new life. I would fallow my heart.

I walked back to the diner I had ate at the other day. I needed coffee the waitress form the other day was there she looked as if she was just getting off her shift she smiled at me

"Well hello again Bella what can I get for you?

"Just a coffee "

"No problem," she gracefully grabbed and poured. I paid her and gave her a tip.

"Do you know of a good place to shop for furniture around here?"

Her eyes lit up

"Do I know where to shop for furniture? Shopping is my life Bella if you wait for me to finish I can take you to a few places," she smiled. I agreed it would be nice to get to know someone. I had to put myself out there I had promised.

When she was done she took me in her yellow Porsche. She drove down to a strip mall it had a retro furniture place after 4 hours we had my home fully furnished they would deliver everything in an hour. Alice and I talked about things she said she was married to her best friend she knew her whole life. she had a brother in law and a sister she didn't really have a family other than that. she moved here form her abusive ex-boyfriend and reconnected with jasper . I told her about my past and how I was here to start fresh and follow my dreams. I found out that Alice lived in the building right next to mine. After they set up my apartment I smiled it felt like home well almost but it was missing his warmth.

"Bella are you ok?"

"I'm fine I just miss him. it won't feel like home without him you know?"

"Yah I do know Bella but you always have me we are going to be best friends, "she smiled.

"Hey, I have an idea you should come out with my family tonight you will love them."

"I don't know Alice I don't think I'm ready."

"Please please please Bella?"

I thought about it for a minute and my hand started to play with my necklace I promise I thought.

"Fine" I agreed

She left soon after that she was so tired. She said she would be here around nine and text me when she was outside. I took a nap as well. I woke up and had a hot shower the water felt good on my body releasing my muscles.

This would be my first Friday since he died I started to curl up in to a ball I sat on the floor of my shower crying for a bit rocking myself back and forth Jake wouldn't want me to do this he would want me to be happy. I got out the shower I set on my bed for a minute and picked up the bible Jake wrote me. I read his words again. He was right it will pass I just got to live.

I got up and curled my hair in to loose curls. I pinned it up in a pin up girl style. I loved pinups they were so much more beautiful than I could ever be. I knew Jake always liked me to dress pin up. I had one dress that I was saving to wear for years but I never had the opportunity so I put it on.

I put on a little make up too. When I looked in the mirror I looked pretty good if. I did say so myself.

I had a dark blue vamp dress with black peekaboo toe pumps it hugged my body very tightly in all the right places and my new bra was doing wonders for my chest. The dress showed of my sleeve. I looked like some kick ass suicide girl .Alice had said we were going to a small club downtown. she picked me up in jaspers car.

Jasper was beautiful he had blonde hair blue eyes much toned body but not too bulky he was full of ink the most noticeable piece was Alice's face peeking out from his white tank. She was wearing a red get em' dress as jakes brother used to call it. It was super tight and so short it left nothing o the imagination.

When we pulled up to the club it was pretty loud we waited outside for a minutes and I saw Alice waving to someone it was who I assume to be her sister rose. She could have been a model. She was one of those girls you look at and say I would do her.

I felt subconscious around her. She was tall blonde bombshell with a perfect hourglass figure. Alice introduced us. She was nurse. She worked in the pediatric unit of the hospital.

I thought we were here then Alice shouted "Hey Edward over here!" that name sounded so familiar.

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