A/N: no excuses I'm a slacker but I'm glad your sticking with me through this long process of updates here is the next chapter. I will post another tonight.

Bpov

I slowly got up from the table to see the finished product. It was amazing the red shading on the heart really brought it to life. the watch was in black and gray as if stuck in time with only droplets of blood coloring it and the razor was silver almost like I could picket up with the words promise written so elegantly.

I could feel my chest tighten and I began to cry. I was losing strength to stand but, Edward caught me before I fell and let me cry on his shoulder for who knows how long. I pulled away and looked at him his arms made me realize I could do this he looked so concerned. he grabbed my cheek and wiped away my tears. before I knew what was happening he closed the distance between us and softly brushed his lips to mine and it felt like he was putting me back together our lips danced for a moment and he pull away I was instantly sad form the loss.

"I'm so sorry," he grimaced

"What for?"

"Bella I shouldn't have done that," he frowned.

"But I wanted you to."

He sighed and led me back to the table. He put on some ointment and plastic wrap. He looked like he was thinking hard about something. Then he spoke.

"What are you doing tomorrow?" he questioned.

"Nothing, why?"

"Would you like to go out to dinner with me?"

"Like a date?" I asked quirking an eyebrow.

He paused for a moment rubbing his neck "yes if that ok with you?"

"Umm ok," I smiled.

We set in silence for a moment and then Emmitt burst through the door.

"Hey Edward you done I'm ready to head out for the night?"

He nodded and cleaned up. I waited for him by his car. He had offered to drive me home and he soon came out it was late. he walked me to my door.

"Good night Isabella I all see you tomorrow," he smiled and he kissed my cheek.

When I got home my head was swimming in emotion. I couldn't believe he had kissed me. More that he had asked me out. Alice had been right he did like me. I called and told her everything and after a lot of shrieking. She calmed down and told me we were going shopping the next day. She came by and we went out even though I in agreed to shop for the date. She made me try on tons more things and I ended up with a new wardrobe. we had lunch and headed back Edward was picking me up at 7. Alice said she didn't know if we would have enough time to get me ready at 3. I got back showered and shaved. I took abet longer than usual decided to go bare down there in as something should happen, I didn't want to be embarrassed by an untamed mess. Jake and I had tried once to have sex. But, it didn't work out so well I technically wasn't a virgin but I might as well have been hadn't really got it in before he came and things got awkward so we decided to put it off for a while.

The though made the tears fall I was a horrible person how could I just move on to Edward so easy. I got out the shower and Alice saw that I was upset.

"Bella what's wrong?" she asked concerned.

"I'm a horrible person how can I just move on like this it's only been a month?"

"Bella you're not a horrible person for trying and you're not going to forget him. I guarantee it but, when he made you promise to start over do you think he really wanted you to sit around for years trying to get over him being friendless and loveless?"

"Well no but I don't think he thought it would be so easy for me." I cried.

"Easy Bella you're sitting here in tears rite now from guilt. That's not moving on easy and not only that but letting someone else in to help you doesn't mean you have to forget him. It doesn't mean you love him any less."

I sighed Alice patted my leg and let me get my undies on. I put on a new pair of lacy blue boy shorts and a bra with blue lace trim and zebra print.

Alice started on my hair and makeup an hour later my hair was hanging down in loose curls around my shoulders my makeup was so lite it was as if I was barely wearing any. I had on put on my denim skinny jeans that made my but look great and very thin white shirt that hung off my shoulder exposing my bra strap she completed the look with a pair of black ballerina flats and left it was a few minutes till 7. Alice had just left and while I was waiting for Edward I saw the bible Jake had left me and opened it.

It had a part about guys:

This was perhaps the hardest part to write. I hate the thought of someone loving you but its inevitable your perfect and I like to think that there someone out there perfect for you who can love you like I couldn't. Please don't feel guilty for tying. You deserve this and if you're here I'm proud of you for trying. Just promise that you're save a small little hidden place in your heart for me. so on this date the only advice I can dive you is be yourself Bella and remember don't put out to easy and you'll keep them wanting more

I smiled wiping the tears away he was so funny just then. Edward knocked on my door I grabbed my id phone and debit card from my purse and opened it Edward was looking like a Greek god his hair had been disheveled more than usual and he was wearing a band shirt and some jeans with vans and he was staring with his mouth wide open.

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